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God Knows I don't Want To Be An Angel V.2, Chapter 1
How it Began
This story belonged to Psychotik Angel, but he has given me permission to continue it since he is no longer interested in continuing it.
Cruel Angel Thesis
Young boy, like a cruel angel's thesis,
Live up to be a legend...
Even though clear blue winds明確で青い風のに
Beat on the door of my heart,私の中心のドアの音
You just smile, looking straight at me兦?な微瑣? 私をまっすぐに見ること
Too involved in yearning forを慕うことで余りに含まれて
Something to hold on握ることを何か
The innocent eyes still no nothing of fate yet.まだまだ無実の目運命の何も無し。
But someday you will noticeしかしいつの日か気づく
On those shoulders of yourあなたののそれらの肩
There are strong wings強い翼がある
To guide you to the far future.遠い将来に導くため。
A cruel angel's thesis残酷な天使の誦lt;BR Will someday fly high from the window意志は窓からいつの日か高く飛ぶ
If memories are betrayed by記憶が裏切られれば
The overflowing, burning emotions.流出、非常に熱い感じ。
Young boy, shine like a legend,若い男の子、伝誣?ような輝やき、
Holding the sky in your arms.あなたの腕の空の把握。
The cradle of love that sleeps within me私の内で眠る愛の揺りかご
There will be a morning thatそれ朝がある
A servant of dreams will come for you.夢の使用人はあなたのために来る。
The moonlight shines on your thin neckline.月光はあなたの薄いneckline で照る。
I'd stop time in this world私はこの世界の停止時間
And lock it away for myself, but...そして自分自身のためにそれを締めなさい、しかし...
If there is any meaning意味があれば
In the fate that pulled us together,私達を一緒に引っ張った運命では、
Then I am, yes, the Bibleそれから私はある、はい、聖書
That teaches you of freedom.それは自由の教える。
A cruel angel's thesis残酷な天使の誦lt;BR And then sorrow comes forthそして悲哀は来る
When the shapes of the dreams you hold in your armsあなたがあなたの腕で保持する夢の形時
Come to life within you.あなたの内の生命に来られる。
Young boy, who shines brighter than anyone else,若い男の子、だれでもより明るい他に照らすかだれが、
Rise to become a legend.伝誣?なる上昇。
People weave together love to create history歴史を作成するために人々は愛を一緒に編む
And so I live on,そしてそう私は住んでいる、
Unable to become a goddess...女神になることない...
A cruel angel's thesis残酷な天使の誦lt;BR Will someday fly high from the window意志は窓からいつの日か高く飛ぶ
If memories are betrayed by記憶が裏切られれば
The overflowing, burning feelings.流出、非常に熱い感じ。
Young boy, shine like a legend,若い男の子、伝誣?ような輝やき、
Holding the sky in your arms.あなたの腕の空の把握。
Reason for Existing
The reason why one is allowed to be here
In the case of Shinji Ikari
Shinji Ikari looked into the grey mist that surrounded him. It felt familiar to him. Warm, comforting, safe. Then, suddenly, he
found himself in his Eva, dressed appropriately for fighting. He looked up and he saw the fifth child and the final angel,
Kaworu Nagisa floating in front of him.
"Kaworu." He whispered to himself.
"Yes, it is I." Koworu said as if Shinji was speaking to him.
The boy wished for death of his own accord
"I'm sorry," Shinji said to him, "I didn't want to kill you, there must've been another way I could've turned out"
The boy granted his wish
男の子は彼の願いを許可した
"You know there wasn't, now you must eliminate me from your dreams, for I cannot exist, not even in the subconscious."
"NO! You don't have to die!" Shinji yelled.
"Yes, I must. Now erase me!" Kaworu ordered.
"NO! I WON'T DO IT!" He argued.
"Kill me Shinji, only one being can survive and go on for one must perish, I, am the latter being." Kaworu said calmly.
"NO! NO! NO! I WON'T KILL YOU AGAIN KAWORU!" He screamed.
"Kill me Shinji." He repeated.
"NOOOO!"
"Kill me Shinji."
"Kill me."
Kill me Shinji."
"Kill me."
Shinji bent over in his Eva and wept.
"No, Kaworu, no, not again!" He whispered.
"But you must Shinji, Shinji you must," Kaworu said.
"You must kill me Shinji,"
"Shinji you must."
"Shinji."
"Shinji!"
"SHINJI!"
The final Angel is gone
最終的な天使は行く
"NOOOOOO!"
but Shinji Ikari is tormented
しかしShinji Ikari は苦しむ
Shinji was rudely shaken awake by Asuka. He opened his eyes and saw her red hair hanging down and her blue
eyes staring at him angrily.
"SHINJI YOU IDIOT! GET UP! I WON'T BE LATE FOR SCHOOL AGAIN BECAUSE OF YOU!" She yelled at him.
"I won't kill you again," Shinji said drowsily.
"Shinji, What are you talking about!" Asuka asked in annoyance.
Shinji rubbed his eyes, sat up and looked around. Same old boring room.
"Uh, nothing Asuka, nothing, I was just dreaming." He sighed.
"Well Stop dreaming and get ready, we're going to be late, you know, for school." She laughed, half heartily
throwing Shinji his school uniform.
"Thanks," he said putting on his clothes, "have you heard from Rei Ayanami?"
"No, she still won't come out of her room," Asuka told him, "she's still thinking about Koworu, Misato told me that apparently she was seriously in love with him."
Shinji's jaw dropped. Rei? In love? Never. He had never seen her show any real emotion, let alone love.
"She must hate me." He said quietly.
"Yeah, she probably does." Asuka said airily, leaning against the wall and twirling her hair with her fingers.
"That's not exactly the answer I was looking for Asuka." Shinji said dryly.
Asuka shrugged her shoulders and looked at her watch.
"SHIT! HURRY UP! WE'RE GONNA BE LATE!" She said frantically grabbing Shinji's bag and throwing it at him.
Shinji ran down the street after Asuka. He was trying to put his bag on and he wasn't looking where he was going and he ran
into Asuka at a crossroad.
"What the hell Asuka? There's no traffic." Shinji said angrily rubbing his head.
Asuka pointed where she was looking. Shinji looked and his jaw dropped for the second time that morning. There, on the
corner of Old Tokyo 2 street and NERV drive stood Rei Ayanami, yep it was definitely her, you could spot that blue hair a
mile away, and she was making out with some boy.
"Who is that Rei is with?" Shinji whispered to Asuka.
"You, of all people should know who that is, that's Koworu Nagasi." She answered.
Yet again, Shinji's mouth dropped.
Koworu? How? Alive? I killed him. All these thoughts passed through Shinji's head at once.
"Rei!" He yelled out.
Rei turned her head and looked at Shinji blankly with her red eyes.
"Shinji?" She said emptily.
"Yes it's me, what? Who? How? Koworu?" He stuttered.
Rei smiled a smile that Shinji didn't like.
"I was able to rebuild Koworu, now he is even more like me than ever before."
"Rei, I'm sorry, I didn't want to kill him." Shinji apologized.
"Yes," she said, "I know your sorry, and so am I."
"What d-" he began, but before he could say anymore he felt Rei's leg make contact with his chest and he was thrown into the
front of an oncoming truck.
All Shinji could hear Asuka scream and he saw a smiling Rei waving at him. He tried to reach out to her but everything went
black and he gave in to unconsciousness.
Look ye into that darkness, and ye shall find me there- a me that you have never known.
The next thing Shinji saw was a great light and a sweet music being played. He tried to get to the music but he found that it
was all around him and he began to cry as the music and the light died along with his happiness.
"Where is everyone? Anyone? Asuka? Rei? Koworu?" Shinji cried, " if I ever get out of this I'll tell Asuka that I'v always loved her."
He imagined Asuka in his mind and he almost smiled.
"Asuka." He breathed.
Then as suddenly as the music had come and gone he heard the most beautiful voice he had ever heard calling out his name.
"Shinji," it called out.
"I'm coming." He answered it.
"SHINJI!" The voice said happily.
"Yes," he said opening his eyes.
"Oh my god Shinji, I thought we'd lost you." It was a woman.
He smiled and looked into the woman's eyes. They were a beautiful blue. She was honestly the most beautiful thing he had
ever seen. He realized he was staring and he blushed.
"I'm sorry," he apologized, "but have we met?"
The beautiful woman laughed.
"Shinji, it's me Asuka, you idiot." She laughed.
"Asuka?" Shinji puzzled.
"Yes, it's Asuka, you've been in a coma for eighteen years, I'm 33 now." She told him.
"Eighteen years? Wait, where have I been for eighteen years?" He asked confused.
"You've been in a coma, don't you remember? Rei pushed you in front of a truck." Asuka told him.
Shinji couldn't believe this was happening. He looked at his hands. They didn't look any different.
"Of course, for some reason, you didn't age at all," She sighed.
"Eighteen years? It only seemed like a minute." Shinji breathed.
"Well, it's been eighteen years." Asuka said.
"Asuka, I swore to myself that if I ever got out of it I would tell you how I really feel. Asuka Langly, I love you, I've always loved you." Shinji brought himself to say.
Asuka's smile faded and she looked down.
"I've always loved to too Shinji but I'm not Asuka Langly anymore." She told him.
"Your not?" Shinji could feel tears building up in his eyes.
"No, I'm Asuka Ikari." She muttered still looking down.
"Ikari?" Shinji gawped.
Gott weiß ich will kein Engel sein
God knows I don't want to be an angel