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God Knows I don't Want To Be An Angel V.2, Chapter 2
Meeting The Family
This story belonged to Psychotik Angel, but he has given me permission to continue it since he is no longer interested in continuing it.
Cruel Angel Thesis
Young boy, like a cruel angel's thesis,若い男の子、残酷な天使の誣?ように、
Live up to be a legend...まである伝誣?... 住んでいる
Even though clear blue winds明確で青い風のに
Beat on the door of my heart,私の中心のドアの音
You just smile, looking straight at me兦?な微瑣? 私をまっすぐに見ること
Too involved in yearning forを慕うことで余りに含まれて
Something to hold on握ることを何か
The innocent eyes still no nothing of fate yet.まだまだ無実の目運命の何も無し。
But someday you will noticeしかしいつの日か気づく
On those shoulders of yourあなたののそれらの肩
There are strong wings強い翼がある
To guide you to the far future.遠い将来に導くため。
A cruel angel's thesis残酷な天使の誦
Will someday fly high from the window意志は窓からいつの日か高く飛ぶ
If memories are betrayed by記憶が裏切られれば
The overflowing, burning emotions.流出、非常に熱い感じ。
Young boy, shine like a legend,若い男の子、伝誣?ような輝やき、
Holding the sky in your arms.あなたの腕の空の把握。
The cradle of love that sleeps within me私の内で眠る愛の揺りかご
There will be a morning thatそれ朝がある
A servant of dreams will come for you.夢の使用人はあなたのために来る。
The moonlight shines on your thin neckline.月光はあなたの薄いneckline で照る。
I'd stop time in this world私はこの世界の停止時間
And lock it away for myself, but...そして自分自身のためにそれを締めなさい、しかし...
If there is any meaning意味があれば
In the fate that pulled us together,私達を一緒に引っ張った運命では、
Then I am, yes, the Bibleそれから私はある、はい、聖書
That teaches you of freedom.それは自由の教える。
A cruel angel's thesis残酷な天使の誦
And then sorrow comes forthそして悲哀は来る
When the shapes of the dreams you hold in your armsあなたがあなたの腕で保持する夢の形時
Come to life within you.あなたの内の生命に来られる。
Young boy, who shines brighter than anyone else,若い男の子、だれでもより明るい他に照らすかだれが、
Rise to become a legend.伝誣?なる上昇。
People weave together love to create history歴史を作成するために人々は愛を一緒に編む
And so I live on,そしてそう私は住んでいる、
Unable to become a goddess...女神になることない...
A cruel angel's thesis残酷な天使の誦
Will someday fly high from the window意志は窓からいつの日か高く飛ぶ
If memories are betrayed by記憶が裏切られれば
The overflowing, burning feelings.流出、非常に熱い感じ。
Young boy, shine like a legend,若い男の子、伝誣?ような輝やき、
Holding the sky in your arms.あなたの腕の空の把握。
Shinji looked at Asuka in disbelief.
"Ikari? But how? We're not-?" he asked pointing at himself and Asuka.
"No, we're not," Asuka reassured him.
"But we are." A familiar voice sounded from behind the medical curtain.
Gendo Ikari stepped out from behind the curtain and Shinji gasped. It was his father, yet not his father, he looked different, he was, happy?
"Yes, we're married." Gendo told Shinji.
"We have children," Asuka added, "They're twins, your age too."
Two teenagers entered the room. One was a slim girl with red hair and blue eyes; she was the spitting image of Asuka as a teenager. The other was a boy, with blue hair, who looked, exactly like, Rei?
"This is Tsukimi," Asuka said gesturing towards the girl.
"Hello Shinji," Tsukimi smiled.
Shinji looked at her, not knowing what to say.
"And this is Mikito." Asuka said pointing to the boy.
Shinji felt odd looking at Mikito. He wondered if the boy knew that he was the exact image of the girl who had tried to kill him. He wondered if he knew he looked like this particular girl at all.
"Hello, brother." Mikito greeted holding out his hand.
Shinji looked at Mikito's hand and then at Mikito.
"I am not your brother." He said sourly.
Mikito and Tsukimi both looked extremely hurt.
"SHINJI! I understand you might be a bit upset but that is no reason to take it out on your brother and sister!" Asuka yelled at him.
"DON'T talk to me like you're my mother!" He argued.
"You must understand that I had to move on and part of moving on meant my marrying your father." She tried to reason.
"Yes, Shinji, you must accept it." Gendo also reasoned.
"This is wrong," Shinji said in disgust.
"Shin-" Tsukimi started.
"GET OUT!" Shinji screamed.
"Shinji, don't do this," Asuka cried.
"GET OUT! GET THE FUCK OUT!" He repeated.
Mikito gave Shinji a look of pure hatred as they all left the room leaving Shinji to try and work out what had just happened.
"This is just a dream, a horrible nightmare from the accident," Shinji said to himself.
"It isn't real!" He told himself repeatedly pinching himself.
"OUCH! WAKE UP!" He screamed, "WAKE UP YOU FUCKER!"
After about ten minutes and an extremely sore arm later Shinji accepted that this was real.
"This is just fucking great, it's not bad enough that I had to get hit by a truck, nooo, the love of my life had to marry my FATHER! FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! Just throw it all at me why don't you fate!" He shrieked.
"Well there's no way I'm going to hang around here and be a part of that freak-show family!" He said getting out of the hospital bed and grabbing the clothes that had been put in a cupboard next to his bed.
Slowly opening the door to the corridor he looked around to make sure the coast was clear. Seeing that nobody was around he quickly darted out and made a break for the front door. As he ran he was looking behind him and he ran into someone.
"Sor- oh shit!" Shinji swore as he saw that he had run into Mikito. He quickly got up and ran. Mikito ran after him.
"Shinji, fucking come back here!" He yelled at Shinji. Being in better shape than Shinji, Mikito quickly caught up to him and tackled him to the ground. He pinned Shinji to the ground and held him there.
"You're not going anywhere, you spoilt little drama queen!" He threatened Shinji, but Shinji had other ideas.
"Oh, but I think that it is you who is not going to go anywhere." Shinji said smartly, kneeing Mikito in the balls and breaking his nose with one punch.
Mikito instantly rolled off Shinji and was rolling on the cold, hospital floor in pain. Shinji got up off the floor and ran as fast as he could, out of the hospital and into the city.
Shinji ran to the last spot he remembers being before the accident. The city looked different than last time he was here. Eighteen years had seemed to grey over the whole city. The corner of Old Tokyo 2 street and NERV drive was cracked and broken but on the corner where he had last stood was a sign and a fresh bunch of flowers. Shinji read the sign and began to cry. It read:
These flowers are placed here in hope that one-day, our dear beloved Pilot Shinji Ikari will awake from his coma and join us once more. For my true love, come back to us Shinji.
The sign was made by an Asuka Langley. The flowers seemed to have been changed every day by the look of them.
Shinji sat on the curb and smiled weakly. She does love me, he thought. As he wiped away a tear he saw someone come and sit next to him. He looked to his right and it was Tsukimi.
"Oh, it's you." He said bitterly.
"I had a feeling you'd be here." She said, her voice was so much like Asuka's.
"Yeah, well, why would you care?"
"Because my mother does." Tsukimi told him.
Shinji looked at Tsukimi, her eyes scared him because they were so much like Asuka's that for a moment he forgot that it wasn't her.
"You know," she continued, "my mother has come to this spot everyday with a bunch of flowers for longer than I remember."
Shinji looked at the flowers. He could see Asuka standing there, crying and it made Shinji cry too. Tsukimi laid a hand on Shinji's back but he brushed her off. Even he touch, her touch felt like Asuka's touch.
"Look!" She said, standing up in annoyance, "what do you want me to say, hu? Do you want me to apologise for being born? Because I can't do that!"
Shinji looked up at her, his eyes red. Tsukimi sat back down and spoke calmly.
"Shinji, why did you run? Why do you not want to be part of our family? Why do you hate us?" She asked.
"Because I'm not your brother! I hate that fucking Mikito because he is an asshole AND he looks exactly like the girl who pushed me in front of that fucking truck and I would hate you if you didn't look so fucking much like Asuka!" He cried.
Tsukimi looked at Shinji, just getting it all.
"You loved her," she said, "you loved her, didn't you Shinji?"
Shinji closed his eyes and remained silent. Tsukimi held Shinji's face with her hands and made him look at her.
"Look at me Shinji." She whispered.
Shinji opened his brown eyes to look Tsukimi in her blue ones. Tsukimi looked Shinji in his brown eyes and for some strange reason she couldn't look away from them.
"Shinji, this is wrong," she said quietly.
Shinji didn't take notice to what she just said and neither did she as they both came together in a deep kiss.
Gott weiß ich will kein Engel sein
God knows I don't want to be an angel