Okay. I finally got the sequel to 'Ash petals.' I know, I know, took me long enough. I've been really weird lately, though. I dunno, just generally out of it. This will be written in the same style as 'Ash Petals', because I like that style.

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You are supervising all the work, as always. But today your heart is not in it. I know how you feel. My heart is never here anymore. Not since Masaya broke up with me.

That's right; Masaya and I broke up.

It was pretty nasty. Masaya was late for his weekly call from england, so I decided to call him. but as soon as the phone picked up, I heard, "Moe, you sneaky thing. hanging up early to do homework. More like torturing me cause I'm not around you," It was Masaya.

The truth set in pretty quickly. I just said, "It's Ichigo," and hung up. viola. We were no longer a couple. I haven't told anyone yet. Saying it only makes it more true. But I see those concerned glances you send me. I know you've noticed how out of it I've been. It's nice of you to not ask. I guess even you have a sensitive side. I just never noticed before.

But you seem sad too. I asked about that the other day. The girls gave me a dumbfounded look. "It's because the one he loves doesn't love him back," Minto had said, glaring at me. Believe me, I didn't mean to sound insensitive. I know what it's like to loose the person you love most. Do you cry yourself to sleep at night, like me? Do you wish you could pretend for a second they loved you? Do you ever wonder about them? Do you dream about them?

You're heading back to the computer room, to make sure there aren't any attacks. Your face is a poker face, and I can't see what you're thinking. Are you thinking about that person right now? Can you see them, talking and laughing? Are you with them, in spirit?

I wish I could get inside your head. Who do you love? Who is it you are dreaming of? Lettuce, or maybe Mint? Maybe someone I've never met. You must love them more than anything, to pine after them so.

I wish I could find the girl you love. I want to tell her how lucky she is, how fortunate that someone loves her as much as you do. I want to strangle her for turning away someone with loyalty they will never find anywhere else. I want to scream at her stupidity. I wish she was here right now, so I could tell her how great it is that you'd do anything for her.

It's amazing. Your loyalty to her is, I mean. You sit there and dissapate into a fit of misery, but you still love her enough to suffer through her rejection. Not a lot of people would do that.

I hope I don't loose Alto to her, shirogane.