Hello! I'm so sorry this is late. I was working on it, but my sister deleted it to play with dolls online. (Thanks, sis.)
But this chapter title is inspired by a song, done by a band called jungle smile. I thought this would work. Sorry if it sucks.
I look around. You aren't here.
to be honest, this whole attack is a joke. It's just one gerbil chimera, who's nibbling on a tree. If you were here, it would be carefully planned chaos. I know you hate me, but I love you, darling.
sometimes, when someone is talking to you, you get this look. I'm the only one who notices. I know this look. It's fear. You're afraid. And I wonder, why? Are you afraid of being alone?
I am too.
Even though you hate me, you know me better than anyone else. You know me better than even my friends ever could. Maybe because we're alike. sometimes, I only recognize you because I see the look in your eyes. The same one I have seen so many times in my own.
Are you afraid?
I'd like to embrace you, and chase away all of your fears. I want to talk to you, about everything. And I know you could relate. Are you afraid of being alone? Maybe we could be alone together. Maybe we could be close. But I know if I told you all this, you would pretend you didn't hear me. Why? I want to help you, even if it means being rejected. I'll keep you close forever.
I know sometimes people make fun of you. They make fun of me, too. They say I am a freak, and a nerd. Have you ever been called these things, dear? Do you ever wish you were alone? Do you ever need someone to see that you aren't okay?
I feel like that too.
You don't have to be alone. I want to help. But I have to admit, I need help myself. Can't we stop being enemies and start helping each other? Why can't we just put down our weapons?
Why can't we be weak in front of each other?
You say I'm weak, but what about you? are you weak inside? Or is it only me? I wish I didn't have so many questions, love. But I know one thing that sometimes I believe we have in common. I, too, am afraid of being alone. I don't want to be left behind any more than you do. I know what it feels like to need to be near someone, just to keep you sane. I wish I could be near you, love.
Do you ever get scared suddenly that you are alone? Do you get that panicky feeling too? Or am I alone?
I hate the way you always mock me and turn away. You don't want to be weak. But it isn't being weak you need to fear; it's being alone.
But if you ever need me, I'm right here.
wow. This turned out better than I anticipated. OOC, but oh well.