Chapter 9: Can You Feel Me?

He wraps his arms around me and lays me in the bed, and then he leans over me. But I quickly push him away

"No Carter! You don't love me! And I think you never did!"

"Abby, please. Let me explain. I was a completely idiot, I know. I shouldn't have left. All I could think about these two years was you. I couldn't forget you. I wanted to be next to you"

"John…" – I seemed to forget everything – "…Don't do this. It's too hard. Go. Please go"

"Abby, I want you" – He pulls me next to him.

"I can't think about this right now. You made a decision. We made a decision. It's complicated"

He gently laid me in the bed and then leaned over me and kissed me passionately again. I put his hand on my chest, encouraging him to open my shirt. I pull him away a little and drop him in the bed, leaning over him right after that. I slowly open his shirt. We separate to be able to breath a little.

"How much I missed this"

"I missed you, John"

"I missed you too, Abby. But we won't miss each other anymore. We'll be together forever"

And with that, each one finds the way to the other's lips.

"I wanna marry you"

That scared me.

"I've seen this before"

There was an angry tone in my voice.

"Yeah, but this time is for real"

"I don't know"

"Abby, believe me. You're everything for me. I won't take no as an answer. I won't give you up"

"John… how am I gonna be able to trust you? You said exactly the same things two years ago and look what happened. You broke up with me by a letter, showed up at County with a pregnant woman and then made me go back to drinking"

"That won't happen anymore. I promise you"

He wrapped his arms around me and brought me next to him.

"You really promise?"

"Have I broken any promise?"

We smile and he lifts his head and lightly touches my lips with his own, forcing me to bend my head down.

"You know, I try and try but I can't stay away from you. There's something about you that catches me"

I smiled to him and then laid by his side. He looked at me and I blushed a little. He laughed and then leaned over and kissed me.

"I wanna a kid"

"John, I… I'm not ready yet"

"And I wanna raise him or her from the beginning"

The smile on my face fade away

"I said I'm not ready yet, ok?"

"Ok. Ok. We'll only have one when you're ready"

He bent his head down and kissed me. And kissed me some more again. And again and again. Then he kissed my neck and then my belly. Then he went back to my mouth and kissed me on the lips one more time. When things got hotter, there were knocks on the door. But we didn't care about knowing who it was. Then the knocks got so loud that we couldn't ignore.

"Who is it?"

"John, open the door. John, I need to see you"

He looked to me, who was mad and hurt. Then he rubbed his face.

"Does it have to be now?"

"Yes"

"What you want?"

"I'll tell you when I come in"

I got up and started to get dressed. He looked at me.

"What are you doing?"

"Getting dressed"

"Why?" – He held my arm

"John, are you busy?"

"It's ok, I'll come back later. They must probably be needing me"

"Hon…"

"Don't worry. It's ok"

I opened the door and saw Kem. I walked out without saying a word. Kem walked in and closed the door. Although I tried to fool herself, I knew Kem was wanting an other chance with him