Chapter 19: Regret
"So…?"
He kept staring at the floor and I began to lose my temper.
"John!"
He lifted his head.
"She wants to marry me and… I couldn't say no"
"So you proposed to her?"
He looked at me, but didn't say a word.
"Ok. I got it" – I took the ring out and threw it in the floor – "I was completely stupid to have said yes to you and thought you loved me!"
I turned to leave but he grabbed my arm.
"I love you. You think I would have gone to Congo and Minnesota to find you if I didn't?"
"I don't know" – I closed her eyes for a moment and then opened them – "I love you, John. But I can't keep going with this. I don't want to fight with her for you. You'll have to decide"
"Abby"
"Great! Choose her. You don't even know if she's actually pregnant"
"I was gonna say I want you"
"You don't want me. You're only doing this because of your kid I'm carrying again!"
I left the room furiously and Susan and Luka went to see the reason of so much noise. John was kneeled on the floor catching the ring.
"What happened?"
"Abby broke up with me"
"What?"
"Why?"
"Because I got Kem pregnant"
Susan couldn't believe. It was still hard to believe when she heard that.
"How? When?"
"I don't know"
"But you didn't even have sex with her"
"I know. I was honest to her, Susan. I swear"
"I know Carter"
"She has to trust me"
"Then convince her to"
"Kem did the test? Are you actually the father?"
"No. She didn't want to do"
"Why not?"
"She said… she said I would have to believe her because she wouldn't do the test"
Susan made a face. She knew the chances of Kem being pregnant again were small, even because they didn't have sex. John stood up and put his hand on his forehead.
"Well, I guess I better go. I need to take Kem to the airport"
And he left, leaving Susan and Luka alone. They looked at each other for a moment.
"I have the impression Kem isn't pregnant"
"You think so?"
"Yes. Otherwise she would have done the test"
They stayed in silence for a while.
"Well, I guess I'll look for Abby"
Susan left the room and started looking for me. I was going out to wait for a patient, but the ambulance hit me. I fell on the floor.