Chapter Seven
Unloved
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I feel it washing over me, the slow and poisonous tide. Pins and needles dance on me. Sickness undefined. Now I'm afraid to face the sky. Please someone hear my haunted cries....'
Dreams of Waking AFI
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He woke up later. He found himself straddled across the floor. His body was wet and cold, very cold. The door next to him was open and a gust of ice cold wind rushed in causing his teeth to chatter. His head pounded and he felt as if it were about to crack open. It felt like a migraine but only ten times worse. But it was dark out so that helped, a little.
He rubbed his fingers on the tile flooring and could feel something wet and kind of sticky on his fingers. He lifted his hand to his face and saw the outline of a dark red fluid on his fingertips. Blood. His blood. He wasn't all too surprised, though he was astonished at the amount of blood he'd lost. He had only been cut on his back right? But he felt something on his chest also. He wiped his hand against his chest and felt the drying blood smear across his skin. He decided that even after he was knocked out the man had continued his beating.
This told Inu Yasha two things, one, that he wasnt just doing this to see Inu Yasha in pain because an unconciese person does not feel. Second that there is definitely no limit to which he will hurt him. The possibility of murder has not yet been ruled out. He started to wonder if maybe something had gone wrong with his parents relationship before she died. Is that why he was always so cruel to Inu Yasha? Because of his close resemblence to his mother? But they loved eachother ...... right? He didnt understand and thinking about it only made his head hurt more.
He noticed it was very dark out and wondered what time it was. Cranking his neck slowly over he saw the only source of light in the room, the clock on the stove and it read 2:37 AM. Seeing how much pain he was in he knew he wouldnt be able to get back to sleep. But he couldnt move either. He was stuck. Stuck on the floor in a pool of his own blood. He groaned in dissatisfaction. Is this it? Am I going to die?' He wasn't quite sure but he was pretty certain he was dying right then and there.
And then this thought came to him. He didnt even really understand how he thought of it but somehow Kagome had made herself present in his thoughts and no matter how hard he tried he could not help but feel as if he wanted, no, NEEDED to see her then. F...fuck...' he thought Can't die....not like this..... Have to live' He rolled over on his stomach and stretched his arms in front of him.
With much struggle he had managed to get himself to a kneeling position on the floor and he quivered as each movement brought him more and more pain. He felt as if his life was dripping away from him. He turned facing the one still shut door and grabbed on to the handle, using it to pull himself up to his feet. Finally he was standing again. His legs shook with the pressure of his wieght and his back shivered with the cold breeze that danced across his wounds. He looked down one time at the floor and his eyes were greeted with a sight that made him want to vomit. All his blood on the floor. So much of it.
He looked painfully down at the hall that led to his room. He had walked this distance so many times before but somehow it seemed longer now. He sighed and started trudging to his room. He keeled over and clutched at his chest to try and cover the immense pain this was causing him. When he was walking he felt the blood splash under his feet and find its way between his toes.
When he finally made it to the hallway that led to his room he turned and went into the bathroom. Unbuttoning his pants he pulled them down and they slid to the ground. He closed the door behind him and turned towards the full length mirror that was on his door and looked at his body. He was skinny, too skinny to be normal and was covered in bruises. He had a couple nice sized bruises on his sides and one on his stomach. He already knew about the slash in his back but what worried him was the large cluster of dried blood on his chest. He sighed and turned towards the bath tub.
Positioning himself carefully he placed himself in the bath tub and turned on the water so that it was only lukewarm. The water level rose and he could feel it gently numbing the pain ever so slightly. He sighed in relief and rocked back and forth so that the water would hopefully rub off his blood. He reached his arms to his back as far as he could get it and gently rubbed the skin so the dried blood would come off. After he finished with his back he submerged his chest in the water so that the water rose up to his chin. He gingerly rubbed his chest and watched the blood disintegrate into the water.
Very soon the water was no longer clear. It started taking a more reddish hue from all the blood. He closed his eyes and relaxed. In water the pain was slightly more bearable.
After his bath he got out and looked in the mirror again. Something caught his attention. His chest. There was something on it. He walked closer to the mirror and examined it closely. Tracing his fingers over the carved letters on the left side of his chest he read aloud he paused Surely a work of his fathers, without a doubt. But why that word? Unloved. What did it mean? Why, of all the words he had to pick from, ugly, dumb, weak, freak, halfbreed, all the millions of insults there were he wrote only one word. Unloved. But why?
He slowly trudged back to his room and puled a pair of boxers from the pile of trash he had for clothing. He put them on and sat next to a sleeping lump under the covers, Shippou. He had instructed him to sleep under the covers, lest his dad enter his room for some reason. Inu Yasha pulled the covers back and picked up a sleeping Shippou, cradling him in his arms. He smiled slightly as Shippou oppened his tiny mouth to yawn. He started to rock the kitten back and forth, enjoying the feeling of his soft fur against Inu Yasha's bare chest. He then lay down, his back propped up from the pillows, and closed his eyes humming a soft lullaby he remembered his mother sang to him before.
He sang himself to sleep that night with Shippou sleeping on his chest. The music of his hum soon died down to a whisper and faded and they slept, their faces illuminated with starlight, the bright moon watching through the window.
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Author Notes
Anyone who didnt answer my questions from chapter 6 please answer them!
ALSO THANK YOU ALL TO THE PEOPLE WHO REVIEWED!! YOU MADE ME SOOO HAPPY!! Which is good because I've had a pretty crappy week so far. In fact I will list in chronological order all of the bad things that happened to me
1) My dad decided to get married to his girlfriend. (Made Inu Kun sad :'( ) (Sunday)
2) I got sick. (Monday)
3) I fainted and that was pretty scary (Still monday)
4) I got in car accident (Wednesday)
5) I had to go to the hospital and have many tiny needles shoved into my skin (PAINFUL! ME HATE NEEDLES!!) (thursday)
6) Turns out I have some kind of random Kidney disease and it is very painful. (More pain!! AUGH!) (Thurs. again)
7) Because of my stupid kidney disease I have to drink a gallon of this nasty tasting cranberry shit drink every friggin day! (Still thursday...)
8) I havent been able to eat anything because it makes my kidneys feel like someones stabbing em with many needles, (EEKS! NO MORE NEEDLES!!)
Ahem.....Okay the seventh chapter is now yours. So how do you like it? I know youre probably thinking: My god, poor yasha! How can she do this to him! However judging by your reactions to my survey your probably like: YEAH ABUSE! WOOO!! Surprisingly enough, a lot of you said you actually loved the abuse parts. Funky huh? Sigh, we're so sadistic....
As for my survey last chap:
The most popular character is Inu Yasha with 7 votes. (Yay!)
2) Kagome-5 votes
3) Shippou-1vote (Because he's cute they said.)
Yea! Inu won! He's my baby you know? Surprisingly, a lot of you said that you liked Kagome because of 2 reasons
1) That she was nice and upbeat.
2) That she was the one who would save Inu Yasha.
Interesting..... Because in most stories its the other way around, the guy saves the girl. But not here loves! The funny thing is, in truth, Kagome cant save' Inu Yasha, the story has a little twist near the end but Kagome really provides lotsa moral support for our favorite little hanyou. Without her he wouldnt be what he is now. That leads me to my question for this chappy.
Do you like it better when the guy saves the girl or when the girl saves the guy?
This should be interesting.... Heheh. To tell you the truth I lean more towards girl saving guy stories because, I mean, guys arent always so strong and tough as people want them to be! They are always shown as like these nice dudes with the smile that hugs the poor tragedy strucken girl and kisses away all her worries, but seriously, its not always like that. I mean they have their problems too.
ANSWERS TO REVIEWS!
Shy eyes plushie- Yea, Kagome does have some little secrets of her own and a little dark light shining through the peepholes of her past but you wont find out what they are till later! Also, yea, I havent really talked much about Kagome yet, but she is supposed to seem very mysterious and I like the way the story is going. Also this is gonna be long so no need to worry about not having enough romance! -.
Chicken that Sleepwalks- Hey chicken (Thats actually my nickname now) Again you never cease to amaze me with your understanding of my story! Your reviews, I must say, are truly superior. Sometimes.... I wonder if maybe you inderstand the story better than me. Then again, sometimes I wonder if in an alternate universe theres a race of dog eared people. But anyways I love reading your reviews! Like seriously, they make my day! : ) Thank you so much!!