A/N Another chapter yaaaaa. i really appreciated your reviews and everyone should know i am a horrible speller. I am smart dont get me wrong i take all advanced classes but i cant spell if my life depended on it and i hate profreading but i still ocasionally do it. well anyways i hope you like this chapter it not really life changing events buit i promise if your patient youll get somthing amazing happening and soon. please read and review

Disclamier- i dont own Harry Potter

'We almost kissed' was the the only thought on hermione's mind when she left to go start training. Her day had went by fast she was so absorbed in learning about the new caeer she was starting that she had put off that thought. But now that she was back home she had the same thought that she had when she left.

She had to admit she was so happy to get home. Home. She loved that word. It was only four letters but held so much meaning. Her mom once told her when she came home from work one day just before she got her letter to Hogwarts, that a house only became you home when people you loved lived there with you. Without people there you love you and take care of you then your house will always stay just that…..a house never a home. Harry and the Weasleys were her only family now.

She walked into the flat thinking about her home and her family. She still missed her parents but she was glad that she wasn't alone when she found out or now. When she first found out harry, Ron, and Ginny were all there not talking or saying it was going to be okay but just sitting there. After the news sank in she refused to cry, she convinced herself that this was all a loke and one day they would come back to her. Her dad calling her muffin, his own special nickname for her, and her mother dotting over her telling her that she loved her. She refused to do anything she didn't talk or participate in class, she did all her homework ofcourse, she was physically there but she mind was off somewhere trying to figure out why they were taking so long telling her that this was a joke.

After a fews weeks of sleepless nights and staring off into space Ron came up to her and grabbed her by the arm and wouldn't let her go until she talked and cried about the whole situation. She didn't get mad at Ron like she usually would she just stared at him. He told her that her parents were dead but she still had him and Harry.

FLASHBACK

"Their not dead Ron, their just playing a joke on me" Hermione said in a raspy voice, afterall it had been her first words in weeks

"Hermione listen I know you don't want to believe it but its true, please just belive me"

Hermione looked him in the eye as a single tear fell down her check the first one she shed for her lost parents "But I don't want to believe Ron. I can't believe it."

Ron just looked at her and knew he had gotton through to her

"I was never there Ron. I didn't show them how much I cared. I have known them longer but I spent more time with you and Harry." She took a shaky breath and looked down at the floor then back up at Ron " I'll never her my dad call me muffin again, and I'll never bake cookies with my mom again. This is real."

There was silernce for a moment then she continued

"I was the worst daughter in the world. I'm a horrible person. I disgust myself. I hope Voldemort would kill me. I don't deserve to live. They did." She said in a venomous tone

Ron could see Hermione but he couldn't believe this was her. She sounded so serious she just let tears slip down her cheeks.

"Hermione you were a great daughter. You are a great person. You should be so proud of who you are. You take care of me and Harry, your slways top in our class, you get out of sticky situations with quick wit your always considerte, your –"

"STOP RON JUST STOP" Hermione was now standing screaming at Ron with a steady stream of tears flowing down her cheecks "I'M ABSOLUTLY HORRIBLE. I NAG YOU AND HARRY, THE WHOLE SCHOOL KNNOWS ME AS A KNOW-IT-ALL, I CONSTANTLY REPREMAND HARRY AND YOU FOR ACTING YOUR AGE WHILE I ACT 50. I'm horrible Ron just leave me alone." Hermione said the last part in a soft pleading tone but Ron refused to back down.

"Hermione I care about you and I will never leave you alone, you're my best friend and I rather die then let you die because I would die without you. Promise me that you would consider dieing again and that you will do everything in your power to keep yourself alive. I'm not asking for you I'm asking for me. I need you and so does Harry." Ron let a tear slip down his check and didn't wipe it away.

Hermione looked into his pleading eyes and all she found was love – just love. "I promise Ron." Ron hugged her and she couldn't help but fell safe. She cried for what seemed like hours and fell asleep, for the first time in week she didn't wake up after five minutes in a cold sweat and refuse to go back to bed. She felt loved and that was all she needed. Being with Ron made her feel protected. After that night she couldn't sleep without Ron. She sometimes slept with Harry and she felt loved and protected but being with Ron was different. It was …. Perfect.

END FLASHBACK

She apperated inside the flat. Ron and Harry were sitting on the couch. Harry said hello and asked her how her day was. She answered with "good" and "it was okay". But she was really looking at Ron and he was looking at her and his eyes as always showed love but it frustrated her that if he really did love her the way she loved him then why didn't he show it. She felt like her heart was breaking but she never looked away. She wanted him to admit he loved her or told her that he only thought of her as a friend at least that way she would get confused as to what he wanted from her and maybe she could spare her heart to much heartache.

She wanted to settle the matter right now. She wanted to call Ron into her room and ask him where they stood. But she was scared it he didn't like her that way and she asked than it would make their friendship awkward. If Ron did like and they started going out where would that leave them. What if they broke up what was to happen then their friendship would be ruined.

But somehow she doubted that she knew that Ron would never hurt her, not intentionally at least. Still there was always that what if that hung in her mind.

She finally looked away she couldn't handle the heartbreak of it all, she needed time to think and she didn't think that talking to Ron when she was so frustrated would be such a good idea.

"Hey guys I'm going to bed. I'll see you guys tomorrow."

Hermione started walking towards her room when Ron called after her

"Hermione do want me to conjure another bed in my room so that you wont have to sleep in you room tonight. I get that you want to get over what happened but you don't have to get over it in one night it's a process after all." Ron said in a gentle voice

Hermione smiled. She hadn't realized how grown up they have all gotten. They had known each other for almost 7 years. This was her family. They looked after her, loved her, teased her, made her feel better, and always protected her.

"Thanks Ron, I'd really appreciate that" and went into her room to change.