Ice: Hey all well here's chapter 5.
Pixie: Hope you all enjoy
Ice & Pixie: R&R. We don't own Yu Yu Hakusho. Or Rascal flats lyrics.
I sighed as I looked at my blood drenched hands.
/Why do I always hurt myself when I think of him/
I sighed and fell onto my bed staring at my hands as the blood dripped off them onto my face.
/Why do I bleed so much/
I put my hands on my stomach and drifted off into a state of unconscious.
I sighed as we walked away from the temple. The silence killing me and what Hiei had said in the temple lingering in my mind.
"Hiei this is going to bug me forever. What did you mean back there ya know the whole reality thing?"
"Hn!"
"Hiei! Hn isn't the answer to my question or any question for that matter!"
"Hn!"
"Hiei!"
"Hn!"
I sighed in defeat and plopped down under a tree and crossed my arms over my chest, mumbling about evil short demons. Hiei just smirked and kept walking.
I sighed again and put my arms to my sides and closed my eyes as I began humming.
/I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me./
Standing with my eyes closed I began to sway to the sing that I played in my head.
/What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do./
I danced singing the music lowly, when something or someone hit me up side the head. I shot my eyes open rubbing my head to see no other than Hiei standing there smirking.
"What was that for?" I yelled at him tears in my eyes. He shrugged and turned and started to walk away again. I growled lowly in my throat and started to close my eyes taking me seat by the tree again getting comfortable, when I was roughly pulled from my comfortable sitting position under the tree.
"Hiei let me go…!" I screeched out.
Hiei ignored my complainants and kept his gaze foreword. I sighed knowing there was no way I was going to get out of his grip.
I allowed my self to be dragged until finally Hiei let me go and I fell forward. I sat up rubbing my now sore bum. I growled at Hiei and was about to throw something random towards him, but before I could Hiei stopped in his tracks and just stared out into the dark forest.
Rolling my eyes I dropped the random item tired of this game of cat and mouse. I got up, turned and started walking away.
"Hn…onna don't you want your question answered?" I stopped in my tracks and smirked I turned around to face Hiei.
"Ah the short demon speaks."
"Onna you're shorter than me."
"Don't rub it in!" I growled.
A smirk played across Hiei's normally stoned face as he turned. When he looked at me he lost his smirk and jumped up into the trees.
"Hiei how is that answering my question."
No answer. I sighed again and headed toward the temple. /If Hiei won't tell me I'll have Kat tell me./
"Onna she needs to see the truth herself not a belief." I stopped in my tracks to listen to what Hiei said hoping there was more to it than what he said. Silence. I sighed.
"Hiei can you please explain what that means," I asked sweat dropping "Since I haven't a clue?" I heard a sigh erupt from the trees.
"Onna… you really are worthless."
I growled. "Such charmers aren't we?" Sighing my response was silence yet again. I started to walk off again.
"She believes that no one can love her." I nodded in realization hitting me like a steam roller. I sweat dropped again filling like a complete and total idiot.
/God I'm such an idiot. Or just plain stupid. / I sighed as voice rang through the trees again.
"Hn…onna you're both."
I growled yet again tired of Hiei and his games. Starting to walk away this time no intention of turning around.
I got no further than a foot away when Hiei dropped in front of me blocking my path. I sighed in aggravation.
/What now/
Kat snapped her eyes open remembering the past, anger rising in her yet again.
/That bastard still haunts me after all these years./ she thought.
Sam was finally able to make it inside, of course no thanks to Hiei. Sam began knocking on Kat's door. "Hey! Kat may I come in?" Sam asked patiently waiting by the door. Kat ignored the girl at the door lost in thought.
/Why did he have to do this to me/
Getting angrier and angrier making her energy flare. Sam noticing the energy signature of her friend changing she began to start panicking and started banging on the door.
"Kat…Kat….Hey are you ok? Answer me! Kat…!"
Kat got out of bed sighing at her friend. She opened the door slowly to yell at the ookami, but no such luck.
For when she opened the door the young demoness pounced on her crying tackling her to the floor, mumbling incoherently into her shoulder. Kat's anger seemed to disappear as she lay under Sam, rubbing the back of her head.
"Ow! That hurt ya know. What's wrong with you?" Sam looked up sniffling
"Ifeltyourenergyrisingandigotworriedbecasueithoughthehadcomebackforyou!" Sam rambled out at the speed of light.
Kat sighed, "Um…Sam I have no clue what you just said could you repeat that slower for me?"
Sam took in a big breathe and nodded. "I felt your energy rising and I got worried cause I thought he had come back for you."
Kat sighed and hugged the ookami.
"It's ok Sam. I was just thinking about something no one was here." Sam let a sigh of relief out.
"Are you sure?"
She asked Kat with a tear running down her cheek. Kat nodded, "That's why I broke the mirror. I know that's a stupid reason, but my reflection just pissed me off." Sam nodded understandingly getting off Kat.
I smiled at my young friend. She acted more like a child at times then her real age. As I got off the floor and started to dust myself off, I saw a thorn in my ass walking this way.
/Yusuke! Can't you leave me alone/
I glared at the boy. He approached and I heard Sam say something under her breath that sounded a lot like 'not right now'. But it was so low I couldn't be sure. I watched Yusuke walk up to us and stop right in front of me, pure disgust on his face.
"What do you want now?" I asked irritation showing through my voice. He glared at me as if I was infested with some kind of horrid disease.
Sam sighed and was about to say something when Yusuke decided he would open his big mouth.
"I don't know why Kurama wants to be with you. I mean after everything you've done, or growled about, but you're an idiot if you just let him go." Yusuke growled at me.
I glared at the ignorant boy. "Leave me alone! Who are you to judge me?" Sam just stood back with a small smile on her face. Yusuke stood there looking stupid like always. I sighed
"Yusuke…If you don't leave now you'll just further piss me off, and I will not be responsible for your death. Now! GO AWAY…!"
Yusuke just Smirked at me. "So what I've died before! I'm not doing this for you. So don't get charity and my love for a friend mixed up. Besides I don't care if you're further pissed off."
I clinched my teeth it took all the strength I had in me not to send him flying. "Sam you might want to get rid of him before I lose it?"
Yusuke smirked and opened his mouth again. "Yeah because vamp girl here might get hurt."
I couldn't take it anymore and I sent a punch flying at him, but before it made impact Sam caught my arm mere centimeters from his nose. Yusuke gulped and backed up just a little and Sam just got in front of me.
Sam sighed and released my arm and walked slowly over to Yusuke. She grabbed his left arm and smacked him in the back of the head and literally threw him out the door, slamming the door in his face.
All we could hear where his mumbled profanities through the door. Sam sighed turning to me smirking. She looked back at the door and yelled over Yusuke's mumbling profanities.
"Go bother Kuwabara. I mean he is your lover and all!"
My eyes went wide as I tried my hardest not to laugh but I couldn't help it. I laughed so hard I fell on my bed. "Oh…That was a good one." Sam smirked at me as we heard Yusuke growl and storm off.
Sam's smirk turned into a smile.
"You know what's even funnier. He didn't deny it."
I nodded my agreement unable to speak at the moment. After a little bit my laughter subsided. I stared at Sam who was sitting on the love seat that was by the window. I smirked
"You do realize you're getting to be too much like me?" She smiled and stared out the window.
"None of the worlds will last."
I smiled "Yea, hopefully you're not going to be exactly like me…No one would want that." Sam smiled and just stared out the window.
Wanting to know what she was smiling about I decided to read her mind with out her knowing.
/That used to be what I thought, but not as much anymore. I'm just glad she kept me around all theses years./
I left her mind before she realized I was there. As I watched her I noticed her smile continued to grow in size. Being the curious fox I am I decided to ask this time, "What's with the big grin?"
"Oh, It's nothing just thinking."
Sam got up from the chair and headed for the door. "Where are you going?" Sam smiled.
"Bed, like you should be doing." I yawned and nodded.
"I think your right, Good night Sam." I mumbled out. She smiled and left closing the door softly behind her. I sighed and snuggled under my blankets and began to doze off.
I was sneering at everything and anything by know.
/How dare she insult me like./
My hand involuntarily went to my cheek rubbing the red spot left over from Sam.
/What did onna think she was doing/
Not paying attention to where I was going something bumped into me. I lost my train of thought and noticed that Sam was sitting on the floor rubbing her butt. Sam looked up at me and smiled.
"I guess I deserved that for slapping you."
I glared at her as she helped herself off the ground. When she was finally standing she smiled at me and looked me in the eye.
/God she looks so innocent and her smile is….What the hell am I thinking. There nothing on this worthless onna, worth thinking about. But her smile….No there is nothing. That's it end of argument./
As I came from my mental argument with myself I noticed Sam smiling at me and giving me this look as if I sprouted another head.
"What?" I hissed out.
She just shrugged. I glared at this ridicules onna. Then she did something rather unexpected. She kissed the cheek she had slapped earlier. I stood there dumbfounded. She smiled and pulled back looking at me with a slight blush on her cheeks.
"That was for slapping you earlier. Well I'm heading off to bed. Good night Hiei."
Her blush reddened when all I did was stare at her. She smiled one last time and ran off to her room closing the door softly behind her.
/What just happened/
I sighed releasing the breath I had pinned up inside of me. I walked off towards the living room replaying what just happened. I sat at the window sill.
/What is wrong with that onna…/
I was snapped out of my thoughts by Kurama waving his hand in front of my face. I swatted it away and glared at him.
"What?"
Kurama smirked at me and pointed at my cheek. I growled annoyed at the fox. "What about it?" I barked. He smirked again.
"Hiei one cheek has a slap imprint and the other has a slight tint of pink to it for no reason." Kurama smirked at me.
/That damn Fox! Too smart for his own good./
"What happened…?" I growled and turned away from the annoying fox. I heard the fox sigh and sit back down. My curiosity getting to me I had to ask?
"Fox what's your problem?"
He sighed and said one word "Yusuke…"
I rolled my eyes at the Fox.
"HN…what else is new….Why, what did he do this time?"
Kurama sighed "He insults Kat too much."
I nodded my silent agreement. Kurama let a low growl escape him.
"He keeps insulting the way she looks. Like breaking the mirror cause she was ugly and what not."
I sighed "You realize that's where you kill him. Right?"
"Yea I know but then Sam would never forgive me."
Kurama collapsed on to the couch. I sighed
"So instead of releasing all of your energy on that baka. You're going to pin it up and go crazy?"
Don't remind me!"
I smirked at how fickle the Fox gets over women.
/That will never happen to me thank god./
"I have to admit I rather have Sam pissed off instead of you Fox."
Kurama nodded. "But I think she's mad at Yusuke right know anyway. Seeing as Yusuke just came from that way more pissed than he was when he left."
"Hn. It's not my department to baby sit the detective and his family." I glanced at Kurama and noticed he was smiling.
"Foxes what's so funny…?"
"Nothing, Hiei nothing at all." I growled at the Fox and turned my attention outside. While my thoughts drifted threw the day's event.
Ice: well i hope you all enjoyed.
Pixie: See you all next chapter. R&R please.