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Chapter 4 - Listen to your heart.
A couple days later when I show up for work, I'm absolutely knackered. For the past nights since I started work, I havent been able to sleep. Rye keeps dissearing more frequently than before and none of us now where he is going. About an hour after I fell asleep last night I woke up from a nightmare and I couldnt sleep after that so I just left the house and walked around. My nightmare was horrible. It was about Rye and where he dissapears off to. In my dream, he always dissapears to work in the mines and then one day the mines exploded again and nobody knew that he was down there we just knew that he had gone missing and then someone showed up at the Bakery door telling us that he was in he mines when they exploded and that he is still unaccounted for.
My walk early this morning took me past the mines and all I could think about was my dream and what would happen if he was actually working in the mines when he left to go somewhere. I would probably never forgive him if I found out that he worked there. He knows what happened to my dad and how much it destroyed my family when he died. And if Rye died, I would never forgive myself for not stopping it sooner.
Eventually on my walk, I got a little bored and decided to go home to get my stuff and then straight to the Bakery. By this time it was 4 o clock and I though I would get there a little early but now I'm standing outside the back door to the Bakery an hour earlier than I should be. The door is slightly ajar and I can hear arguing coming from inside so I decide to stay where I am before I go in. I recognise the two voices as Peeta and Rye. The topic of conversation: me...
"She looked heartbroken yesterday when you dissapeared!" Peeta hisses at his brother.
"I wasnt gone for long!" Rye replies.
"I dont care! And I dont care where you went either! You just need to make it up to her or so help me I'll..." Peeta says but is cut off by Rye.
"You'll what? You going to kill me like you did with them kids? Why do you care anyway?" Rye's voice is rising now. That was a cheap shot, saying something about them kids. He knows how much it destroyed Peeta but apparently no-one actually cares but me.
"You know full well I had no choice to kill them and I care because she is my best friend! And your my brother even if you are acting like an ass!" Peeta shouts at his brother.
"Yeh well she's my girlfriend and I will sort it out when I can!" Rye says.
"You should sort it out as soon as you can because I dont like seeing her like this and I dont want to hate you for hurting her." Peeta says.
"I dont want to hate you either but you need to stay out of my love life." Rye says back.
"I will stay out of your love life when you stop messing it up!" Peeta replies.
"Fine!" Rye says. "I dont mean to-" I take this as an opportunity to walk through the door. They both stop and look at me. Their faces are inches apart for eachother and they are almost completelyred with anger.
"Katniss, you look terrible..." Rye says and I just stare at him.
"Yeh, I couldnt sleep, too many things running through my head." I reply and Peeta glares at Rye who shrugs it off pretty quickly.
"What are you doing here so early?" Peeta asks.
"I've been walking around the district all night since about 11 and then I ended up getting bored and came straight here. I didnt want to go home." I reply, finding it hard to focus on them. God I really am tired.
"Well maybe you should go upstairs and get some sleep before you go to work." Peeta suggests and I nod slightly. Today is a pretty big day. Today is Peetas 17th and the Bakery are throwing him a surprise party and it's my job to get him there. It used to be Delly's but she was needed at the Bakery for something. We do have to work today but normally Peeta stays and we can't have that if they are going to set up for the party. I have to get him out of the Bakery and then being him back a couple hours later for his party. I'm thinking I might just take him for a walk or something and we can talk about random stuff. I don't have any other ideas that will fill that amount of time. My ideas would go over the time limit and mostly include the meadow or the woods. I thought about taking him to the school yard and sitting under the trees but eventually that started to sound like a stupid idea so I just went with walk.
"Happy Birthday by the way." I say handing him the bag in my hand.
He smiles slightly and takes the bag off me. "Thank you but you didnt have to get me anything." He says.
"We go through this every year Peeta and I still get you something." I say to him and he laughs.
He opens the bag to reveal a real art set. I know that he already has some paints but I didnt know what else to get him and he only has the rubbish ones that you can get from town. These are real ones from the Capitol. It took me ages to find them and even longer to save up for them, using the game that I get from the woods. One of the venders in the Hob had said that it has been passed down in his family for generations and noone ever used it because nobody in 12 actually uses art stuff, its just Peeta so I asked him to put them to one side and I eventually got enough game for them. It contains normal paints, Oil Paints, Water paints. Proper colouring pencils and Water pencils (whatever they are.) plus real graphite pencils and a collection of paint brushes. It also has a drawing pad in it that came as a bonus, with thick paper in it that would be perfect for painting on.
"Where did you find this?" He asks, shocked.
"I know someone." I say with a smile.
"This must have cost loads." He says, now looking at me.
"What it matter how much it costs?" I say. It did cost loads but I'm not going to tell him that. If I had sold that to the right people in town, my family wouldnt have gone hungry for a couple of months.
"Thank you so much Katniss." He says, coming over and throwing his arms around me. I respond to the hug and hear a sniffing sound. Did he just smell my hair? My dad always used to do that to my mum. Oh god. "Anyway you should get some sleep and I have some cheese buns to make." He says and dissapears off into the kitchen.
"Come on." Rye says and walks me to his bedroom where I crawl into his bed and fall asleep.
Just before Holly was born, Masan had to spend all of his money on a house extension and they went pour for about 2 months because he had to save up for this room. I mean they where nearly always pour but they lived off scraps like the pourest people from the seam for about 2 months. But now, Rye has his own room because the boys where moved to the attic which had been renovated when Holly was born because their old room was used for her. She had to sleep in the room next to her parent since she was 2. Around about the time Peeta got back from the Capitol, That means that the room was Leavens and Rye's but Leaven will be moving into the housing part of town when he marries Brooke so it will just be Rye's room. It pretty much is Rye's room now anyway because Leaven spends almost every night next door at the Butchers.
Rye is very thankful about having his own room though. Because now whenever I sleep, I am actually allowed to sleep in his room. I've only ever slept in his room once though and we where both extremely tired. Not saying that we would have done anything because we arent like that but I would have fallen asleep anywhere, thats how tired I was. It was only about 2 weeks ago, during the Victory Tour when they where in district 4 and the re-caps went on for a while so we didnt get to go to sleep until midnight. I had also been hunting a lot to save up for Peeta's present and I had school the next day and Rye had to be up early for work so we just kind of fell asleep instantly.
"Katniss?" I hear through my sleep. It feels like I've only been asleep for 2 minutes when someone wakes me up. I look towards the door to see Holly. "Rye told me to get you up." She says in her cute little voice, holding her teddy close to her chest. I believe she called it Sammy.
"Thank you Holly." I say and sit up, rubbing the sleep from my eyes. I feel movement from the end of the bed and open my eyes to see Holly sitting there watching me.
"Are you and Rye going to fall out?" She asks. That was the last thing I expected her to ever say to me. "I dont want to lose you as a sister." She sticks her bottom lip out and I open my arms for her, she crawls up to me and wraps her arms around my middle. Sammy sandwiched between us.
"I am never going to leave you Holly and everything is fine between me and your brother." I say to her. I cant tell her the truth. She wouldnt understand.
"Good. Daddy said you should come downstairs for some lunch." Lunch! I slept all morning! Holly pulls herself off me and I climb out of bed, pulling my shoes on and straightening down my hair as best I can. I cant believe I slept throug half of the day. "Peet was working in the front. Can you give me a piggy back down the stairs?" She asks. I let out a sigh of a relief, plus a laugh at how she can just change the conversation really quickly.
"Yeh come on." I say and lean down so she can jump onto my back. She giggles as I set off down both sets of stairs.
When I get to the bottom, we are both laughing. "Ahh, here they are. the best girls in the world." Rye says and gets up from his chair. He walks over to us and kisses me on the head, then gives Holly a kiss on the head. He really is trying to make an effort after this morning.
Leaven and Brooke are sitting at the table aswell which is weird because he normally has lunch next door and dinner here. "Hi." I say to them.
"Hey Katniss. How are you?" Brooke asks me.
"I'm good how about you?" I reply.
"I'm great." She says back and I take a seat at the table next to Rye and across from Masan. Everyne is having there own private conversations until Masan speaks up.
"Before we all eat, I would like to say a very Happy Birthday to Peeta, my youngest son and the next adult in this family..." Here in district 12 you are classed as an adult at the age of 17 because thats the age you are finally old enough to get married and move out but you can only move out if you are married. You cant move out by yourself until you are 20. Ive heard that the adult age everywhere in the country is 18. "We wish you all the best of luck in the future and I hope to see Grandchildren soon Mr." He says looking at Peeta and we all burst out laughing. It very normal to have children at Peeta's age and I remember he gave Rye the same speech and Leaven but Leaven is actually giving him a grandchild now. I doubt he will give the same speech to Holly because she is his only girl. He is very protective over her. I remember my dad telling me that he doesnt want me having kids until I was 30 because I was his little girl.
"You're gonna have a while dad, if you want kids from me." He replies. I know that the thought of kids thrills Peeta but after he went through the Hunger Games, he knows that something will happen when they get older.
"I guess I'll have to rely on Katniss then." He says looking at me. My face goes red as Rye puts his arm around me.
"Oh, you wont have to wait too long Dad at the rate we are going." Rye says, sarcastically. I almost fall of my chair from embarrassment. I place my head in my hands and rest my elbows on the table. "At it all time, me and Katniss."
"Rye!" I shout, trying to get him to shut up. He is about to speak again but I clamp my hand over his mouth. I really dont want to hear what he has to say. "Me and Rye have never done anything of the sort." I say to the room.
"Thanks for clearing that up." Masan says because he is the only one avble to speak. Everyone is laughing too much.
Rye pulls me hand away from his face and I turn to him. Then his lips are on mine without even realise whats going on. I link my arms around his shoulders as he kisses me. "I really do love you though." He says when he pulls away.
"I love you too." I reply and we all go on eating.
By the end of lunch, we have all laughing way too much and talking about anything and everything. Brooke told us about the baby plans. Stuff like the name and what they are going to do once its born. Apparently they want Barley if its a boy, keeping the male Mellark bread name tradition, whatever its called. And Poppy if its a girl. They plan to already have moved out by the time to baby is born because Brooke is twenty in a couple months so even if they havent got married then they can still move out.
"Shouldnt we all be getting back to work?" I ask everyone. We have been sitting here for over an hour now. Normally we have lunch as quick as we can so that we can get back to work.
"The Bakery is closed. We always close early on a birthday. The phone orders will still come through though so we have to have someone near it at all times." Masan says. I'm pretty sure they arent meant to closethe Bakery for birthdays but never mind.
"Oh right." I reply and everyone falls back into conversation. Thats when I hear the phone ring. "I'll go and get it." I say and leave the table. "Hello, Mellark Bakery." I say into the phone.
"Katniss?" I hear Uncle Haymitch say. "Is Masan there?"
"Yeh, one minute." I say and walk pull the phone away from the phone. "Masan! Phone!" I shout into the kitchen, where th pull out table and all the people are.
He walks in a minute later and I hand the phone to him. " Its Haymitch." I say and he smiles as I walk away to join everyone else. "What was that?" Rye asks when I sit back down.
"Uncle Haymitch wanted to talk to your father." I reply and he smiles before talking to Peeta again. I sit there and watch Holly playing with Sammy until Masan comes walking back in.
"Right. The Bakery isnt open but there is still work to be done. This place needs cleaning up. Leaven and Brooke would you mind helping?" They shake there heads. "Okay great, Rye, me and you have to go and get something from Haymitchs and Peeta, Evelyn told me yesterday that she wants you to go over to hers to help her with something. Maybe you can take Katniss with you." I nod knowing what he means. I have to keep him away. "It should take a few hours."
We all stand up from the table and we leave the house. Brooke and Leaven staying behind totake care of Holly and tidy up. Mrs Mellark is at her sister's tonight so she should be gone when the party starts. Hopefully she says Happy Birthday to her son first.
As I am leaving the house, Masan grabs my arm and whisperes only one thing to me. "6pm." Then walks away with Rye. We have to be back for 6 pm what am I going to do with him until then. Maybe I can just stall him at my mothers for as long as possible then we will go to the train yard. I also have to make it look like there is nothing going on.
"Come on, lets get going." I say to him, finally catching up to where he stands.
"So we going yours then?" He asks and I nod.
When we get to mine, we have already wasted about an hour. Good, maybe we can waste more time. Prim is sitting on the sofa and mum is standing at the kitchen counter, making some kind of sandwich. "Hi Prim... Mum." I nod at them both and Prim gets up to give me a hug.
"Hey Katniss, Hey Peeta." My mother shouts over and I walk into the kitchen with Peeta walking a few steps behind me. "I made you both sandwiches." Peeta smiles in thanks and we all sit down to eat even though me and Peeta ate not long ago.
After the food, Peeta turns to My Mother. "So what did you need help with?" He asks and she looks at him as if she's thinking it over.
"I was wondering if you would be up for painting Katniss' room?" My Mother asks.
"What!" I say surprised. I didnt know thats what she wanted him for.
"Remember Katniss, you said about 3 weeks ago that you wanted your room painting but you didnt think you would be able to do it by yourself. Prims too young and I'm useless at it, so I thought, 'whos good at painting?' and I got Peeta." She smiles and I nod slightly.
"But my room's a mess, can I atleast have a couple minutes to tidy it-" My Mother stops me with her hand.
"Its okay, I tidied it this morning whilst you where at work." She replies. "By the way, you need to take them books back to your uncle, they cant stay here forever." I nod and we all stand up to leave the room with me leading the way to my bedroom. Prim follows too. She says that she just wants to watch us. Mum wont be helping so she will be running up and down with drinks if we need them or extra paint but mostly she will just be staying out of the way.
Apparently Uncle Haymitch has bought 3 different colours. Forest green, Sky blue and a creamy colour. They are sitting on my double bed. "Right so I'll leave you to it." My Mother says and leaves.
"What colour are we doing then?" Peeta asks, examining each tub of colour.
"I dont know, what do you think?" I ask. "You're the pain expert." I laugh slightly.
"I think we should use the green and the cream colour." he says and I nod. "Okay first we need to move the furniture away from the walls so that we can get to each of the walls. These two that have the bed on and the window -" He points to the correct walls. "- We will paint green and then the one with the wardrobe against it and the one next to the stairs we will pain that creamy colour. If I do the green, you do the cream and we should be done pretty quickly then later we can come and move the furniture back... Primrose do you mind leaving the room for a minute so that we can move all the furniture?" Prim nods and walks down the stairs and me and Peeta get to work on the room.
The next couple of hours go by quite fast and Me and Peeta seem to have a lot of fun. About halfway through finishing the room, Rye walks up the stairs and stops in his tracks. Me and Peet are both covered in paint because of earlier when we decided it would be a good idea to have a paint fight. He only came to see how we are doing and within 15 minutes he's gone again.
When we finish the room, its only 4pm and we are both still covered in paint. The walls need to dry so we all leave the room as it is. "I think we should have showers, you go first and I'll find you some clothes." I say to him, he is about to object but I hold up my hand to stop him and then guide him to the bathroom. "Just go." I say to him and he laughs before shutting the door and I hear the shower run a second later.
I walk into my mothers room. The only clothes that we have in this house that would fit Peeta is dads clothes so I walk straight over to the wardrobe and open the doors. Its mostly just full of mums clothes and some of Prim's clothes. Dad's clothes are stacked at the bottom in a box. I pull out a black button down shirt and some blue jeans which look like they will fit Peeta. I grab him some underwear too and some new socks, before walking back towards the bathroom and knocking on the door. A second later, Peeta answers it, still in his clothes. "Yeh sorry about the water taking so long to warm up." I say with a smile.
"Its completely fine." He replies.
"I brought you some clothes." I hand him the pile of clothes in my hands and he takes them. "There is some underwear aswell. If you give my mother your clothes when you've finished, I'll make sure they're washed for you. Also will you leave the water running once you are done so that I dont have to wait for it to warm up again when I need one. I'll be downstairs when you are done, just shout me and I'll come up." He nods and I walk away towards my stairs, walking up to my room to get myself some clothes. I pull open the wardrobe in my room and take out a nice top and some jeans that go with the top and then walk downstairs and dump them on my mothers bed so that I can take them into the bathroom when I am having a shower.
After we are both clean and finished, we set off walking back to the Bakery. We dont actually have to be back for another hour so I start walking slow and eventually Peeta slows down as we talk about anything and everything.
When we make it to the Bakery, The lights are off which is a good sign. They planned on turning the lights on and surprsing him when he walked in which means they must have seen us coming. I carry on talking to him as if nothing is happening and when we get to the door, I allow him to step in first. "Where is everyone?" He asks as he steps into the darkness and I close the door behind us.
"SURPRISE!" I hear everyone shout as the lights come on and Peeta almost faints in surprise. At the moment he's too surprised to speak and I laugh at him.
"You!" He points at me and my mouth hangs open as I smile. "You where in on this weren't you?" He asks with a smile playing on his lips. I nod and he laughs. "Thank you all so much!" He shouts to the whole room and music starts playing from somewhere.
"Your welcome son." Masan says, walking over to us as the party begins and everyone starts having their own little conversations. Masan hands me and Peeta a drink each and I take a sip from it. Whiskey. I recognise it even though I've only ever tasted it once. I bet its killing Uncle Haymitch being around all this alcohol and not being able to drink it all. When I seek him out, he's laughing at something my mother is saying, so obviously he's fine with it.
"You go and say hi to everyone." Masan says and Peeta dissapears to talk to his friends. I find my way over to Rye where he stands with Bailie.
"Hey." I say to him and he turns around to me, surprise surprise, he's already drunk. The party has been going on for about 3 minutes which means he must have been drinking before I even came here.
"KATNISS!" He shouts, throwing his arms around me, almost knocking me to the floor. A couple people around us are looking at us. I catch Leaven looking at us with a look of dissapointment on his face. I smile at him slightly and then pull away from Rye, still holding onto him so he doesnt fall. He's not completely wasted but he is swaying a little. "I love you so much!" He says loudly and I nod.
"Maybe you should sit down." I say and pull him away towards the sofa without asking his permission. I drop him onto one of the sofa's across from where Peeta sits, talking to River, his friend. "Rye, you stay here." I say to him and he giggles slightly before grabbing my hand pulling me onto him for a kiss. I move at the last second so that he kisses my cheek instead.
"But I want you to stay here with me." He wraps his arms around my waist and doesnt seem to let go until I shout at him. Peeta is watching him with an angry look on his face. He knows that Rye is being a bit of an asshole right now.
"Katniss can I talk to you?" I hear and I expect it to be Peeta but its Leaven. I nod and he leads me into the front of the shop where we cant be overheard. "I want to know whats up with you. I know you wouldnt expect me to be asking you this. You probably expected Rye but something tells me that it has something to do with him." He strokes my arm reassuringly. I'm not sure how the Mellark boys all know me so well.
"I-I dont know what it is but ... He's different... dissapearing all the time and almost everytime I see him now he's drunk and he knows full well what it did to my Uncle and he still wants to be drunk around me." I feel the tears threaten to fall from my eyes but I keep them in.
"I know what you mean. He is different Katniss and I'm not sure why but the best thing to do will be to wait for it. If he gets worse, I'll talk to him but I just hope you know that it might make no difference at all." He pulls me in for a hug when the tears betray me and spill down my face. "Was that all that was wrong?"
"No..." Come on Katniss you have to tell someone. "My... My... Erm... I feel different about him..." I stop myself before I mention Peet and pull away from him, he looks at me.
"Everything will be okay in the end Katniss, just you wait and see." He says to me. "Rye will realise what he's doing sooner or later. Now me and you are going to go back in there and act like nothing just happened and we are going to have a good time for Peeta. I dont normally say this to people but we should get a drink and get you feeling better." I nod and he takes me through to the back, handing me back my drink and I gulp down a mouthful. I glance over to the sofas and Peeta is now sitting with Rye, talking to him. "I asked Peet to talk to him for you." Leaven says in my ear.
"You didnt need to, I would have done it mysef eventually." I say with a smile but he waves it off.
"Its our job to talk sense into eachother." He says with a smile and offers me his hand. "Want to dance?" I nod and he takes my hand, leading me to the middle of the room where room as been made for a makeshift dancefloor.
By 11pm, most of the drinks and food have gone and I can barely stand up straight. Rye passed out on the couch about 3 hours ago and we just left him there. Leaven took Brooke and Bailie home an hour ago. Masan and Holly went to bed. River, Delly and Gale left. Gale has to be up early in the morning for work and Delly is sleeping at his so they both left and River was getting tired so he went home. Gina and Eric left too but that was because they where bored. Haymitch started walking mum and Prim home 5 minutes ago and after that he is going home by himself. Peeta is staying here so that he can be up for work in the morning. So right now its just me and Peeta sitting across from a passed out Rye, the house a mess and reeking of alcohol. Neither of us are talking, just staring around, well Peeta is, I'm staring right at Rye, thinking about what I'm going to do about him. Peeta had made us both brews to try and sober us up a bit so that our hangovers arent too bad in the morning, it has working a tiny bit but I'm still horribly drunk and so is he.
"I dont think I can carry on dating him Peeta." I say to Peeta, still staring at Rye. There is silence for a second before he finally answers me.
"Why not?" He asks, slurring his words slightly.
I need to tell him... everything... "Firstly, he is always drunk and I cant stand it. Secondly, he keeps dissapearing all the time and thirdly..." TELL HIM! "...I think I'm in love with someone else..." I finally look up at him and his eyes show confusion but when I look at his lips I dont care, I want them on mine right now.
"Who?" He asks and I can feel myself leaning in, still watching his lips as he talks.
"Who do you think?" I reply and his lips curl up into a smile just as I kiss him. His lips feel so much different than Rye's. Better actually. After what feels like a lifetime, he pulls away from me. I expect him to say we need to stop but instead he links his arms under my legs and my torso and begins carrying me to the stairs.
Getting up the stairs seems to be fairly difficult for Peeta as he tries to carry me. He falls a couple of times but it only causes a bout of laughter from the two of us as we carry on, eventually giving up and making our way up the two sets up stairs to the attic room, which, incidentally, is Rye's room, but he's passed out downstairs and the attic room is apparently the only empty room at the time.
Trying to get through the bedroom door is loud enough without the laughter from the two of us as it creaks open and we shush one another, but as Peeta clicks the door into place, I look around the room quickly, before turning back to him, letting my instincts take over as I push him against the now closed door, pressing my lips to his. Peeta responds quickly enough as I feel his hands rest against my sides, before they move around to the back of my thighs, pulling me up. I smile against him, complying with the silent request and wrapping my legs around his waist.
Peeta is the one to pull away from the kiss, his eyes searching mine.
"What?" I duck my head, pressing my lips to his jaw, hearing the slight sigh he releases.
"Katniss, are you sure about this?" Ahh Peeta, ever sensible. "Rye is just downstairs, you know." I pull away from him for a moment to hold his gaze.
I have always said that I would never have sex with someone until I was married but there is no turning back now, I want him, I need him. "Yes, Peeta. I'm completely sure about this. Rye will be asleep for at least hours yet." Smiling, I reach down to the hem of my shirt, pulling it up and over my head, not as gracefully as I hoped it would be, but dropping it to the floor none-the-less, and reaching over to pull open the buttons of Peeta's shirt as his hands slowly move up to press against my sides again, his body obviously relaxing as he moves towards me, pressing his lips to mine. He grasps the back of my neck as he kisses me, scratching his fingers up into my hair, effectively turning me on and he messes with my hair.
Smiling, I return the kiss fervently as Peeta pushes off the door, walking us backwards towards the centre of the room, where Rye's bed, well... mattress, sat. I feel us being lowered to the ground as I push Peeta's shirt from his torso, flinging it to the side, uncaring of where it lands. Feeling the bed under my back, I thread my hands through his blonde hair, tightening my grip as we kiss, kicking my shoes off to the side. He pulls away from my lips only to duck his head and start to suck and bite a part on my neck. After a while, he stops and moves down slightly to carry on. He keeps going like this until he reaches my breasts, take them in his hands and sucking and biting until I eventually tell him to stop.
Not caring about much, I slip my hand between us, pulling at the button of Peeta's jeans, pushing at the zip for a moment before giving up and pushing at the waistband of his jeans instead, feeling his hands tentatively reach for my own jeans.
His hands fumble at the clasp on my jeans, so I give him the benefit of the doubt and take over, smiling softly at him as we break our kiss. Pushing down my jeans, my underwear joining them in moments as I kick my bottoms onto the floor by the mattress.
Moving my hands slightly, I tug at the top of his boxers. He smiles down at me, a smile that I return easily, letting him take my hands away and remove his own bottoms as he leans back onto his knees, having to stand to remove his jeans and boxers from his legs. Looking up, I chuckle slightly, moving further back onto the bed as he joins me, leaning over me as he presses his lips back onto mine, softly and briefly, almost possessively even, and I can see his attention is purely focused on me and the here and now. I clutch the back of his neck, digging my nails in as he begins to bite my neck again, this time on the other side. I find myself scratching him, chuckling at the slight moan that he realeses onto my neck.
"Please, Peeta." I look him in the eye as I speak, shifting my hips slightly as I push my body up into his, reaching around me to undo the clasp at the back of my bra, shrugging it from my body and dropping it onto the bed beside us as I see Peeta breathe deeply once before lunging down, pressing a hard kiss to my lips as he guides himself into me, moving slowly, the pain rippling through me as he presses his arms into the mattress under my arms, my own are draped over his shoulders, my nails pressing into the muscles at the back of his shoulders.
Adjusting to the feel of him moving inside of me, I sigh, fairly loudly as Peeta moves down to bury his head in my neck, pressing his lips to the crook just below my ear. Eventually the pain starts to leech out and the pleasure sets in.
Hearing the slight moan that escapes from Peeta, I smile, digging my nails into his shoulders, raking them against the skin on his back, my body involuntarily bucking against his and the urge to flip us over taking over my instincts, as I push against Peeta's shoulders, earning me a shocked look from him, to which I respond with a smile, moving my body slightly faster against his, grinding my hips forward with every thrust of my body.
I hear the small laugh that escapes Peeta as he sits up, nipping lightly at the side of my neck as I moan lightly in an uncontrolled move. He has the nerve to chuckle against my neck as he bites down lightly, causing an involuntary spasm to run through my body at the contact.
Continuing to move my hips, I feel my climax threaten dangerously as Peeta's hands press into my back, holding our bodies together as the euphoria rips through me, my body clamping down around Peeta. I was forced to dig my nails back into his shoulders as I hold down the scream that threatens to escape me, dropping my head down onto Peeta's left shoulder.
Vaguely hearing the loud groan coming from Peeta as he lets it all go, neither of us caring all that much, I fall, my body relaxing against his as we fall down onto the mattress below us, both of us breathing heavily.
"That was..." I give up speaking, and simply flip over, lying back, my hand resting against my belly, smiling widely.
"Yeah. It was." We stayed still for what seems like an eternity, but is most likely mere minutes, before I sighed, closing my eyes to let sleep take me, a smile playing on my lips.
The stars. Thats the only thing I can see. The shining of the moon and the darkness of the sky. Its obviously late at night. I can feel an arm around my shoulders as I lie there looking up at the stars. They are so beautiful I could just sit here and look at them forever. But apparently I cant as someone shouts my name. The voice is close but I cant tell how close.
"Katniss..." I hear again and I find myself looking around for a person, any person to prove that I'm not going insane. The arm that I supposedly felt around me is not there. It turns out that I'm alone. "Katniss follow me!" I hear someone shout. This time I recognise the voice. Its Peeta. But its not the same as his voice now. I havent heard that voice in about 9 years.
I sit up and look around. I'm in the meadow but I'm not alone. A little blonde boy is standing not far from me, with a huge smile on his face. "Peeta?" I ask but end up surprised when the voice that come out of my mouth isnt me but a younger version of me.
"Come on Katniss! Dad said we needed to hurry if we didnt want to miss it!" He shouts and I jump up to follow him. Its no longer night time but instead the light of the sun floods the streets of the seam as we run towards Town.
Wait, I remember this day. It was the day of the victors Party. One of the Victory Tour's from a district 4 citizen. But not just any district 4 citizen. Finnick Odair. The most desirable person in Panem.
When we make it to the town square we are almost too late but we catch sight of him quickly before he leaves and he smiles down at us. I smile back up in return and Peeta does the same. "Someday I want to look that good." Peeta says to me.
Suddenly my younger mind takes over and I no longer have any control over what comes out of my mouth. "You will Peeta. I know you will." I reply to him.
"But how do you know? I want to be pretty enough to get married and have children. If I'm not pretty what am I going to do?" Oh poor naive little Peeta. He seemed to think that people fall in love with you because of your beauty.
"Well if you do end up ugly then I will marry you and we can be ugly together." younger me says and I smile slightly at the memory. Now I seem to be watching the whole event. I'm no longer in my younger body but stood next to her.
"Oh no that wont work because I cant be ugly and marry the most beautiful girl in Panem." He says to younger me and my face lights up. Both my faces.
"Well if I am the most beautiful girl in Panem then you cant be ugly because I have to marry someone Peeta." Litlle me says.
"Katniss... Would you marry me?" Peeta asks me and little me doesnt even look scared or nervous at all. She smiles and reaches out to take Peeta's hand.
"Definitely." She says and then drops his hand. "As long as you promise to marry me when I'm 17 and no later?"
"I promise." Peeta replies.
"Then I promise too."
Thats when everything starts going blurry and I'm brought back into reality. I open my eyes into slits to recognise Rye's room. I close them again after I see the light filtering through the window. There is an arm under my head, which could only by Rye's. Who else's would it be? Another arm is draped around my waist and I can feel his breath on the back of my neck as he sleeps.
When I turn around to face him, his breath falters slightly and he reaches up to rub the sleep from his eyes. Thats when I look up at him. When we lock eyes, we both jump away from eachother because the person in the bed next to me was not Rye but was in fact Peeta.
"Katniss! What are you doing here?" Peeta asks me, falling off the side of the matress.
I pull away from the bed, taking the covers with me for no particular reason. "Peeta! what are you doing in Rye's bed?" I ask almost too loudly.
He glances down at me body and then down at his own... "W-why are we naked?" He asks, looking around as if trying his hardest not to look at me.
I glance down at my oen body to see that he is right. I'm completely naked, there is not a shred of clothing on me. "Oh! oh no... Dont look at me!" I quickly turn away from him and pull the cover around myself. As I stand up I realise just how painful it is to stay on my feet. There is a horrible feeling between my legs and that can only mean one thing.
Peeta jumps off the matress and starts to pull on his boxers and his jeans from the night before. "There isnt any real evidennce that we did anything last night. We could have just stripped and fallen asleep." He suggests but he knows as well as I do that thats not what we did.
"Oh... we definitely did something..." I say to him and he turns to me whilst I stand there still wrapped in the covers.
"How do you know?" He asks, looking in my eyes.
I groan slightly, why do I always have to explain everything to him. "Peeta...I have never had sex before... with anyone." I say and his face doesnt even change.
"How does that make any difference." He asks.
"Peeta...when a girl has sex for the first time... it hurts and I am finding it really hard to stay stood up right now." I say, motioning to my legs.
"Oh god... maybe you should sit down..." He walks around the matress to help me sit down and then stands back up with his hands on his head and begins to mumble. "What have we done... He's going to kill me... My own brother is going to hate me..."
I try to talk to him but he doesnt seem to hear me. "Peeta... he doesnt need to find out... Its not going to change anything..."
"What if he came in this morning and saw us in his bed... Wow I have a terrible headache...How much did I drink last night...I dont remember anything... Were is Rye? ...Mum is going to murder me...Dad is going to hate me..." He carries on mumbling.
I try again. "Peeta stop mumbling..." This time it works, sort of, and he turns to face me.
"Katniss... we need to get downstairs and act like this never happened...can you walk downstairs?" He asks with pure fear in his eyes for what is going to happen if his brother catches us.
"Yeh... but let me get dressed first..." I reply with the same fear coursing through me. Peeta turns around whilst I get changed and I can hear Peeta straightening out Rye's bed sheets behind me.
I have to hurry getting dressed and in the rush of it, I forget to put back on my shirt and in a couple of minutes, I'm standing at Rye's door, with just my bra on. "Katniss, you forgot your... Oh shit..." His eyes focus on my breasts and I have to sudden urge to cover myself up. "Did I do that?" I look down to see what he is looking at to find marks all down my chest, I can feel the tingling sensation from last night and a slight pain travelling up behind my right ear. I think I remember somebody mention that they are love bites. They look like bruises. Some are purple, some are blue and some are even green or yelloe. A couple of them are even bleeding. He must have done them when he was biting me. How the hell am I going to hide these from my mother? I quickly look at Peeta hoping he knows what to do but he is still staring at my chest. I slap him and he looks in my eyes. All I can see is fear. This is going to ruin everything if someone finds out.
"What am I going to do. They go up my neck, I wont be able to hide this." I ask him. He looks around quickly before focusing on his own torso.
"Here, wear this and keep your hair down." He says and starts to pull off his jumper. I dont object because I know it wont make any difference. Peeta never takes no for an answer. When his jumper starts travelling up his back as he turns away from me slightly, I notice something as his shirt starts going with it.
I fumble with the bottom of his shirt trying to push it up as he finally gets the jumper off. He hunches over slightly so I can get a better look. "Whats up?" He asks and I start to shake my head in fear. There are scratch marks travelling all the way up his back. Most of them are bleeding and I'm surprised that they arent hurting him.
"Peeta, you have scratch marks all the way up your back." I say to him and he bringa his hand around his back to touch one. "Dont let anyone see them." I say and he nods as I pull his shirt back. I pull my shirt on and Peeta's jumper, finishing it off with my jacket. I look at him and he tells me that if I keep my hair down then you cant see the marks. I just have to make sure that nobody moves my hair out my face. Rye seems to have a tendency to do that.
We walk down the two fights of stairs to the ground floor of the Bakery to see Rye still passed out on one of the sofas. "Will you get him some water when he wakes up?" I ask Peeta and he nods, following me to the door.
"Right... you go home and I'll tell them all that we fell asleep down here and then I walked you home... do you want help?" Peeta says when we make it to the back door of the Bakery.
"No... its okay..." I say, looking at the floor and he opens the door for me. I step out into the cold morning air. I havent checked the time yet this morning but I'm guessing its somewhere around 4am because the sun is just making an appearance and the sky is still quite dark.
"Okay well...bye..." Peeta says and starts to close the door.
"Yeh...Bye..." I reply and he shuts the door fully, leaving me by myself, regretting everything that has happened in the past couple of days. How iss Rye going to take all of this if he ever found out. This would kill him. No it wont because he is never going to find out. Me and Peeta can get over this, I know we can. And then everything will be fine. Other than the fact that I just lost my Virginity with the wrong brother.
I make it back to my house as quickly as I can and sneak through the front door. I walk up the stairs and check my mothers bedroom. They are both still asleep and so I walk to the bathroom to use the toilet. When I pull down my jeans, I find blood. Not lots of blood but enough. I remember hearing something about this in our sex education class a couple years ago. The first time a woman has sex, she bleeds. This I could easily pass off as a period though considering I should be due on soon and with all the starvation that I have gone through in my life, my periods have never been regular anyway so it shouldnt be that hard, I just need to wash the blood out of these clothes quick enough.