The smile in my face faded slowly. I looked at Natsume. I stood up.
"What are you doing here? Go mind your own business." I told him, as I waved my hand to shoo him off.
"I can't if I see you doing pointless things."
"For your information, Natsume Hyuuga, this is not pointless." I said with my head held up high. "This is a drawing I made."
"Whatever." Natsume said as he left.
"Weirdo." I whispered.
Natsume seemed to be everywhere I go these days. Is he following me? I laughed inside. Whatever. What was he doing here anyway? Just to irritate me? He left after I said what I was really doing. Maybe it's childish after all. I don't care.
I looked at my childish drawing one more time and folded it in half and stuffed it in my pocket. I started to walk outside the forest.
Natsume, how can I describe him? He's so full of himself, he can control his alice, girls seem to dig him... a lot, and I've liked him for the past few first weeks of the new school year as a senior student. I hate it that I seemed to have went along with the bandwagon, I hate it that I like him and I hate it that I'm not naive anymore.
Yes, I'm turning 17. Surely, I'm not that dense anymore, like what Nonoko told me when we were 12. I was dense. Was I really? Nonoko and Anna told me that because I couldn't see through Ruka's actions, until he told me what was behind those things. I like Ruka, a lot but only as a friend, nothing more.
- Flashback -
"Mikan, I.. I.. I.."
"Ruka, get on with it." I said together with a laugh.
"I love you."
I stopped dead in my tracks. My back was the only thing Ruka can see through the dark night. It started to rain.
"I have to go, Ruka. It's raining." I said and ran towards the dormitories.
- End of Flashback -
Probably, I was dense. But Ruka and I came to a fix and I told him eveything. Now, he's making a move towards my blackmailing bestfriend. Poor Ruka.
I haven't told anybody yet, even Hotaru about how I feel towards Natsume. It brings me a bit of guilt when I think about it. Natsume is just, Natsume. He's all the bad things.. Well, maybe some of the bad things. He listens to my rants, my depressed talks and my blissful shouts since we I don't want to tell him either. I think he'll just turn my back on me and leave me there, hanging when I tell him. Ah well.
"Mikan!" I saw Yuu running towards me.
"Hey Yuu. What's up?" I asked him while he panted.
"You gotta talk to Ruka. He's depressed again."
"Not again." I said while I rolled my eyes. This is, again, Hotaru's fault.
I walked alone into the empty hallways towards Ruka's three-stars room. I knocked twice.
"It's me, Ruka. I'm coming in." I opened the door, and saw Ruka, staring at his window but he's not crying.
"Ruka..." I started. "What happened?"
He refused to talk at first.
"You can tell me." I said as I held his hand. He shook his head.
"You don't know, don't you? He loved you all along but I guess you're still too dense." He said.
I was clueless on what he said.
"What?"
"Mikan, Natsume's leaving. See?" He pointed onto the gates. I saw Natsume walking. My eyes grew big.
"HE'S LEAVING! FOR WHAT!" I shouted.
"The academy thought he's really good. So, they thought transferring him would be a great idea. He wanted it after all." Ruka said with a fake smile.
I ran out of Ruka's room.
He loved me? He loved me? I love him too!
I ran as fast as I could to catch up on Natsume.
"NATSUME!" I shouted.
But he didn't hear me. The gates closed.
"NATSUME!"
He finally looked.
"Natsume.." I called out softly.
He looked at me, as if he just lost hope.
"I love you too."
He smiled, a smile I never seen before.
"I'm sorry, I didn't tell you." He said then he went inside the car.
He loved you all along but I guess you're still too dense.
I was, and will be...