It's Always Been You

Chapter 1: Missing You

Abby Lockhart was a nurse that used to date Luka Kovac. But she got pregnant with John's child. And now she's a resident.

John Carter is the chief resident. He fell in love with Abby the moment he met her and got her pregnant.

Fate got them together and they got married. Soon they found out they would have twins but a fatality killed one of them. He went after her in Paris and proposed to her there.

They decided to move to England but she said she couldn't go and he left her and went alone. Will they get back together again?

Susan walked in the lounge and saw Phoebe.

"How's auntie's little niece?"

She saw Abby crying.

"Hey, what happened?"

Abby wiped away the tears and sighed.

"John… he's gone"

"He died?"

"No, he moved to England"

"And you didn't go with him?"

"No, I… said I couldn't"

"Why?"

"I couldn't leave all this"

"Are you ok?"

"No, but I'll be"

"You should go home"

"I am. Thanks"

"Call me if you need"

"I will"

Abby didn't want to go home. But she forced herself to. Maybe John had left a message in her answering machine. She opened the front door of the house. Her house. Where they had so many moments. And she wanted to cry. But she didn't allow herself to. She headed to her bedroom. The bedroom. Where they had many nights filled with passion. And fights too. She placed her hand in the bed and ran it, in the side he used to sleep. She thought she'd see him always by her side when she would wake up. Reality is other thing when you're alone. She was alone and lonely. But he had gone and there was nothing she could do.

Then she walked towards the room and sit next to the window. It was raining. She loved rainy nights. They would stay close under the sheets watching a movie and eating popcorn. And was in a rainy night when they first kissed.

And 50.000 miles away, in London, John Carter had just arrived home. He expected her to be next to him. But he was convinced that she didn't love him. If she did, she'd have accepted to come with him. He was missing her so bad

The weather in London was really bad, raining all the time. Rains made him remind of her, how they stayed together. The first kiss. He touched his lips. Lips that found their way to hers so many times. In love demonstrations. Or after fights. Even she being thousand miles away, he smelled her perfume and felt her presence.

Abby turned the radio on and it was playing 'Hanging by a moment'. This music said so much about them, it really fits with them. She placed her head against the window and thought of him. Of how he must have been upset with her. Of how she was stupid. If she could see him….

John missed her. He never thought this would happen. He wanted her. There with him. He wanted to hug her, kiss her, caress her hair, rub her back, clutch her waist and bring her closer to him. But he wanted to hear her say she loved him and didn't want to stay away. He wanted to hear her voice. He decided to call her.

He grabbed the phone but wasn't sure of what he was doing. His emotions had taken over him. He just wanted to make sure she was ok. He kept staring to the phone for a long time.

Abby felt she needed to talk to him, even it was by phone, but didn't move. Her eyes were red from crying. She went back to watch the rain.

John grabbed the phone and dialed the numbers. He hoped she was at home. He wanted so much to talk to her.

She heard the phone ring. But she wasn't in the mood to answer to it.

"Abby, it's me. Listen, I want to say that… that… Forget it? Goodbye"

She looked to the phone with a sad face. Forget it? She didn't want to forget it. She wanted to be with him. She hoped he'd call again.

John got disappointed. He had so many things to say but he didn't that moment. He needed to call her and tell her everything she means to him. But not now. Not today. He didn't want to have to deal with this right now. He would think about it tomorrow. He was too tired to think.