Chapter 10: Fear And Indecision
He walked to her.
"What we're having?"
"A boy and a girl"
He hugged her.
"Honey, this is great"
"Is it?"
She said sarcastically, but he noticed a pain tone on her voice.
"You ok?"
"Yeah"
He looked deep in her eyes and she knew she couldn't fool him anymore.
"Are we having?"
"I don't know. I'm still afraid"
"My sunshine, you don't need to worry. I'm here with you"
"I'm afraid, you know?"
"Yes, but the only way to get over it is getting through it again. And besides, we won't take our children when we visit your mother"
She sobbed and he felt her tears water his sweater. He wanted to comfort her. But he feared as much as her. Then he looked deep in her eyes.
"Abby, I am as afraid as you are. But we have to be stronger than it or we'll never be able to move on with life"
"It's easy for you to say it, John. You didn't have to carry them for nine months and have a big and fat belly and then see your belly being cut"
"I know, but…"
"But when you see that tiny little person staring at you, you know it was all worth. And then a person comes and takes his life away without he doing nothing"
John knew it was very difficult to Abby.
"I know it was hard. But we need to get over it. We have to"
"I know we do. It isn't right to take a life just because of a fear that scares me. We're having"
He smiled at her when she passed by him and went to the living room. He followed her and saw her with their daughter on her lap.
"Honey you may not understand anything I'm saying yet, but soon you're having two little brothers. Mommy's a little scared… but she's having them anyway"
John saw her wiping the tears that fell from her eyes before sitting next to her and putting an arm around her waist.
"But mommy's not gonna need to worry because daddy will be with her and protect her always" – He looked at her – "Because you always want to protect who you love. And I love your mother more than anything in this world"
She looks at him and smiles weakly.
"I love you Abigail Lockhart. And know that it's not been easy for me too. But we can't be stuck to the past"
He gently caressed her face.
"I love you too Jonathan Carter. I need you"
They get closer and kiss.
15 days later, Abby and Neela are talking in the admitting.
"How are you?"
"Good. I little afraid but I'm going"
"I'm sorry"
"It's ok. So… when will you bring Alex here to show us?"
"Soon. Luka thinks it's still early for that"
"Can't blame him"
They laughed. Susan and Sam joined the conversation.
"What are you talking about?"
"Oh, I'm pregnant with twins again"
"That's great! I mean, ah what the hell. It's great. I'm pregnant again too"
"You're so jealous Susan!" – Abby laughed – "Anyway, Neela, I'd like you to be godmother of one of them with Gallant and Sam to be the other one with Ray"
"Hey! You practically forgot about me!"
"Sorry. But you and Luka are the godparents of Phoebe"
"It's true. Anyway, I want you and Carter as godparents of my kid"
"Great! All of you have baby children or are pregnant and I'm not!"
Sam said and then left.
"She's jealous" – The three of them said at the same time.