Traffic was slower than Olivia expected, they had barely gotten a couple of blocks away from their apartment building, before traffic came to a complete halt. Olivia looked over at Savina, and found her aimlessly staring out the window.

"What did you guys do today?" she asked. She hated the quiet, it made her mind wander; to Lewis, to the nightmares Savina had, to the week they spent at the hospital, to the night she was taken from her. And she was sure it was far worse for Savina, she remembered what the quiet did to her back then.

Savina slowly turned her head towards her, and smiled, chuckling weakly as she responded. "Watched The Aristocats about half a dozen times."

Olivia smiled, and shook her head. "Forgot to warn you about that. He's a bit obsessed with it," she said, her smiled spreading against her will as she recalled Noah dancing to the songs.

"Obsessed is an understatement! I nearly cracked a rib at his dancing!" she stated, and Olivia laughed. "But I guess I actually prefer old Disney to new Disney, so I guess I should be grateful he's not into any of the new ones," she added.

"Fin and Rafael made sure of that. Neither are fans of the new ones either, so they made sure Noah won't watch any of them during the obsessive stage. Even before I dated Rafael, I wanted to take Noah to one of the new ones, and he threw a hissy fit, bought the DVD for one of the old ones, and invited us over to his place so we can watch it on his larger screen," she recounted, her eyes sparkling slightly as she remembered Noah getting engrossed in Bambi.

"And you didn't realize that he had feelings for you!" Savina's incredulous comment made her laugh even further. "Sweetheart, I think we already established that we were both blind when it came to our feelings for each other," she stated.

"I think he became well aware of his long before you caught on, he just buried them," Savina retorted, and Olivia looked at her questioningly. "What makes you say that?" she wondered, and Savina shrugged.

"Stories that I heard from you guys. The things he used to do for you, the trust he put in you, the vulnerable side only you saw. I think he realized his feelings for you long before you did, but didn't act on them out of fear of losing you if you didn't feel the same," she explained, and Olivia was stunned. It had never occurred to her that all the little things he used to do for her were his way of showing her what she meant for him. But now that she thought about it, it made sense. For the love of God, he pulled every string he got, and called in most of his favors when Johnny D sued her for custody of Noah! That was well beyond the call of friendship! She wanted to bang her head against a wall, but since they were currently inside a car; all she could do was groan loudly.

"I can't believe I was so blind!" she groaned loudly, her heart fluttering a little when she heard Savina laugh next to her. "According to Lucia, that was the one thing they all thought about for three years!"

Dr. Lindstrom was leading a man out of his office after the end of his session, when he spotted Olivia and Savina entering. He smiled in greeting at Olivia, and gave Savina a warm smile as he reached to shake Olivia's hand.

"Lieutenant, nice to see you," he greeted warmly.

"Thank you, and thank you for seeing us on such a short notice," she apologized, but he put up a hand to stop her. "Don't, I'm happy to do my part." He said, before he looked at Savina. "You're the spitting image of your mother," he commented, as he shook Savina's hand, who looked lost for a second, before she gave him a tight smile. It didn't go unnoticed by him how she immediately looked over at Olivia.

"Dr. Lindstrom, Mr. Delgado just called in to cancel his session, so Ms. Matthews is the last one for the day," his assistant, Laura, stated from her place behind her desk.

"Excellent, we'll have more time to talk then," he told Savina, as he pointed towards the therapy room. "Shall we?" he invited.

She looked at Olivia, who simply pushed a few strands of hair out of her face, before saying, "I'll wait right here. Take all the time you need."

Once they were both inside, Savina looked around uncertainly, as Lindstrom closed the door behind them.

"Take whatever seat you want, this is your session and we will go about it however it makes you feel comfortable," he assured her, as he came to a stop beside her, and she smiled thankfully at him. "And I would also like to apologize about my earlier comment, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable," he said sincerely, but also attempting to get her to start talking, since she seemed apprehensive. She gave him a baffled look, so he elaborated, "when I said you looked like your mother."

"What makes you think it made me uncomfortable?" she asked, as she finally settled on a couch that she thought would make her comfortable enough.

"Your reaction, your face blanked for a split second, your smile was a bit forced, and you looked over at Olivia," he listed, and she smiled. "You're good," she commented, and he chuckled.

She broke the eye contact, and looked down at her now fidgeting hands. "It didn't make me uncomfortable. I'm just not used to it," she corrected. "I guess it'll take some time," she added.

"You didn't hear it when you were with your adoptive parents?" he questioned.

"They were both blondes, fair skinned, with blue eyes," she said. "They died when I was four, I don't remember much about them, bits and pieces here and there. But my maternal grandmother, Constance, died when I was 10, but she looked like my mom too," she continued. "I'm not used to belonging anywhere, to being a part of something, to have people around me who genuinely care about me. But now, everybody comments about the resemblance between us. You'd have to be blind not to see it," she stated in frustration.

"And that bothers you?" he inquired.

"No, it's not that. I saw the resemblance the first time she came to the hospital, but didn't think much of it. And her entire face lights up when people mention it," she started. "And I know people mean well when they say it, especially when they comment on a little trait that she and I share, but it…..I…." she stammered, and he leaned forward. "How does it make you feel Savina?" he asked gently. Her eyes welled up with tears, and clenched her fists slightly. "Scared."

It was a bit of an unexpected answer, it's true that people usually react to things differently, but as seasoned as he was as a therapist, and even with all his PTSD expertise, he wasn't ashamed to admit that he didn't expect her to say 'scared'.

"Why does it scare you?"

"Because…She…..I…."she stammered, before she rubbed her face in frustration, and huffed in an attempt to get her emotions under her control. "They've been great with me; her and Rafael. They took me in, they're working around the clock to find Freed, the squad is turning over every stone. And at home," she paused, and Lindstrom suppressed a smile at her use of the word 'home', before she continued. "They do everything in their power to make me comfortable, Rafael hasn't slept since I got out of the hospital because of the nightmare, and she hasn't slept since they found out about me. They're bending over backwards for me, and…." she trailed off, and he stepped in. "And you're scared because you're waiting for something to happen to take it all away. You're scared you'll end up alone once more," he stated and she nodded.

"Nothing good ever lasts for me, and they….." she hiccupped, and he interjected. "They're your parents, they're not going anywhere. They're not some foster family who may or may not adopt you, they're not some temporary living condition that the state has placed you in….they're your parents, they won't abandon you." He told her firmly, but kept his voice calm.

"This is an unusual situation, they can't keep running on next to no sleep because of me. You and I both know that I'm a massive trigger to Olivia's PTSD, and they have Noah to think about. That's why I came, to try to get my nightmares under control. I'm not delusional, I know that this won't be over anytime soon!" she retorted, but he shook his head.

"Savina, I was one of the few people who knew about the baby she lost. Olivia never got over losing you, she mourned you every year. A blind man can see the love she has for you because she never stopped loving you from the moment you were inside her. Yes, this situation is unusual, but they're not usual either. She's been at SVU for seventeen years, and Barba is a lawyer. The entire squad went through harrier situations than this, so they know how to stick together. I won't lie to you, I did worry that the current situation will bring about nightmares for her, and I asked her about it, and she said no. I know you think she'll try to hide it, and you're right, but she won't lie to me. She knows that trying to fight them on her own will have devastating effects on you more than her. Right now, her only concern is you. Believe that, allow yourself to feel the good that comes from finally being with a family. Enjoy the feeling when someone points out similarities between you two, don't try to fight it. Don't try to fight any feeling you have, don't think that you should feel one way, or the other. I won't push you to talk about what happened during those four days until you're ready. Like I said, we'll talk about whatever you want to talk about. But can I make one suggestion?" he inquired, and she nodded.

"I think we need to work on your feelings regarding your new situation, as well as those four days, because the two will go hand in hand, and one will greatly affect how you move past the other," he stated, and she nodded. "So, do you want to talk about that today?" he asked, and she nodded once more.

After about an hour and a half, and about a hundred magazines later, the door to his office finally opened, and they both emerged. Savina's eyes were puffy and red from crying, but Lindstrom was smiling warmly.

"Are you okay?" Olivia asked worriedly, but Savina smiled reassuringly at her. "Yeah, this really helped. Thanks."

"Are we scheduling another session for this week?" Laura asked, and both Lindstrom and Olivia looked over at Savina. "Um, yeah. I guess your schedule will be the deciding factor here," she answered, but Olivia shook her head. "No, baby, I'll work my schedule around you."

So sorry for the horrendously long wait, but had some problems in my personal life, but gladly they are now resolved. Hopefully updates will be more regular now.