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Whisper
Chapter Six
"I love you, Draco," she said, whispering the words into my chest. She looked up, tears in her eyes, meeting mine. "But I don't think we can be together."
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A sharp pain went through my stomach as she said the words. I looked at her, my eyes wide. "Why Hermione? Why? What I told you, just now, doesn't that matter?"
She pulled herself from my tight grasp, and held my hand. "It matters, Draco, of course it matters. All of it does," she dropped my hand and looked me straight in the eyes. "But, since you've been gone. I moved on. At least, I tried to. After you left, it was horrible," she chuckled. "I'm pretty sure I've told you this before. I didn't think I would be able to go on. I do love you, Draco, very much. But, Brian came into my life, and for the first time since you left, I finally felt comfortable once again in my own life. He's open and honest with me, and since I've known him, he's never lied to me once. If we got together again, Draco, we wouldn't have a healthy relationship. There's so much I know you're not telling me, and trust is something I need from a guy. Something I don't think you possess. After everything with your family... look, I know it's hard for you to trust people now, but if you can't do that with me, then, I can't be with you, Draco."
I exhaled deeply, closing my eyes for a moment. "God, Hermione! Why do you always have to make things so fucking difficult! You say one thing, then you contridict yourself, and say another! I've told you everything Hermione - !"
"No you have not, Draco Malfoy, and you know it!" she said, pressing her finger into my chest.
I shoved her finger away, anger seeping through my pores. I ran my fingers through my hair, and let out a mild growl. "I'm telling you all I can right now, Hermione! Damn! There's just some things I don't think I can - "
"Trust me with? Understand? What the fuck, Draco? You're not making any sense! Why can't you just tell me!"
"Because I love you too much, Hermione!"
She stared at me, her eyes full of angry tears. "If you did, you would tell me what you can't, Draco, I know you would. Just saying you came back for me isn't anything, Draco. It's nothing. I need to know why you left, the real reason. Where you went, and not just some summing up. I need to know everything, and obviously, you don't trust in me enough to tell me."
I narrowed my eyes at her, as a sharp pain went through my head. Anger flared up in me. "Fine. If that's the way it has to be." I stood up, knocking my chair over as I did.Eyes followed me as I stormed out of the place. I didn't care, though. I just wanted to get the hell out of there.
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I watched angrily as he stormed out of the wedding, and off to God knows where. I didn't give a fuck right then though. I was to pissed to see past my anger - and hurt. It hurt me that he didn't trust in me enough to tell me everything. What we had I thought was enough, but it wasn't. Not for him at least. God, it hurt.
He was so damn stubborn. I knew him to well. I knew what he was like. After everything in my past, I just needed him to trust in me. That's all I asked for. I put my head in my hands, ignoring stares from people. I sat there for a bit before a I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"What happened?" a voice asked.
I looked up and saw Ron. "Malfoy happened. Please don't say 'I told you so,' Ron."
He sat down beside me. "I wasn't gonna. I just came to talk."
I sat there with Ron, talking, something we hadn't done in a long time. He comforted me, telling me everything would be alright. By the time the wedding reception was over, I was in much better spirits, but I still couldn't help but think of where Draco was.
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"Draco Ladon Malfoy! What the hell do you think you're doing!" mother screamed, storming into the kitchen.
"Drinkling," I said, slurring my words a bit, waving my bottle of Fire Whiskey at her.
She walked over to me, prying the bottle from my fingers. I looked up at her, narrowing my eyes. "Mum! I wasn't finished!"
"Yes you were! I will not have you turning into a drunken wizard! It's bad enough it was what your father did! I sure as hell do not need another Lucious in the house!"
I froze, staring at her. I stood up slowly, and pointed my finger at her. "Don't you ever call me Lucious again."
She slapped me across the face. "No son of mine will speak to me in that manner. Get out of my sight."
She glared at me, as I stared back at her, not blinking. Finally, I stumbled out of the kitchen, pressing my hand against my forehead. I made my way up the many stairs reaching my old room. I fumbled with the doorknob, finally getting it open. I walked over to the balcony doors, and threw them open. Stumbling onto the balcony, I wrapped my fingers around the cold metal infront of me.
I stared at the ground below me, my thoughts roaming in my mind uncontrollably.
"I should've just told her the fucking truth," I said outloud to the cool night air. "I should've just told her."
I stumbled back into my room, walking over to my dresser, and opened the hidden door that hadn't been touched in so long. I took out a long, slender object, tossing it onto my bed. I walked over to my bureau and turned on the radio that I had snuck in the mansion long after father had died. The words echoed around the room, as I turned up the volume.
Now I've told you this once before
You can't control me
If you try to take me down you're gonna pay
Now I feel your every nothing that you're doing for me
I glanced at the object on my bed, before walking back out onto the balcony. I jumped over the metal bars, and walked along the edge, climbing onto the roof. I could still hear the lyrics from the radio floating out the window.
I'm picking you outa me
you run away
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
You're always hiding behind your so called goddess
I pulled a knee to my chest, resting my arm on it. I looked over across the lake, the moon shimmering off the lake water. I watched the lake shine, as it slowly faded away. I looked up at the sky, as clouds slowly covered the moon. I heard a clap of thunder before the rain started to fall.
The drops fell on me, dripping down my face onto my lap. I looked up at the sky, spreading my arms out, letting the rain fall on me.
So what you don't think that we can see your face
Resurrected back before the final fallen
I'll never rest until I can make my own way
I'm not afraid of fading
I stand alone
Feeling your sting down inside of me
I'm not dying for it
I stand alone
Everything that I believe is fading
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
I stood up, the thoughts of everything I had done still going through my head. Walking back into my room, I lay down on my bed, my finger tips touching the sharp edges of the knife. I drew my fingers away from it, sitting up, putting my head in my hands.
And now its my time (now its my time)
It's my time to dream (my time to dream)
Dream of the sky (dream of the sky)
Make me believe that this place isn't plagued
By the poison in me
Help me decide if my fire will burn out
Before you can breathe
Breathe into me
I stand alone
Inside
"I sure as hell do not need another Lucious in the house..." Mum's words echoed through my head. I hated my father. I hated him so much. I was turning into him. I didn't want to, but everytime I did something, it reminded me of him.
It was too much for me to handle. I had come back for Hermione, only to have her slip from my fingers again. Letting out a yell of frustration, I brought the knife to my wrist, pressing the cold blade against my skin. I watched the blood oose from the new wound, dripping down my arm.
I lay down on my bed, after putting it back up, staring up at the ceiling. I let my arm drape off the side of my bed as I slowly fell asleep. I still felt the warm blood fall down my arm.
I stand alone
Feeling your sting down inside of me
I'm not dying for it
I stand alone
Everything that I believe is fading
I stand alone
Inside
I stand alone
Okay guys, I know this was REALLY short, but I've been super, super busy, so I had to get this chapter out of the way for my next few chappies, so i apologize for the really short one, and I promise i will make up for it. School's almost out, so i'll have plenty of time to write more chapters. Please review guys, it makes me so happy. Tata Lovies!