The Book of Revelations
Verse 5: Deserving it
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Michael Kelso, 1977
Growing up with a ton of siblings, and three distinctive best friends, I learned that, well, life is a lot about what you have to offer, so you can deserve what you want.
Eric is the nice one. Hyde is the cool one. Donna is the smart one. And I realized in about the 4th grade all I have to offer is my looks, so I'm the hot one. And I've usually been pretty pleased with, or even downright smug about that.
When we got a little older, and the nice oneand the smart onebegan to get together, and the coolone was followed around by guys wanting to be like him and girls wanting to be bad too, I used to advertise my hotness thinking that was enough to get anything I wanted.
And I got a lot of what I wanted.
With a lot of different girls.
But then there was Jackie.
And she seemed to believe I deserved more. She saw me as not only the pretty one, though that was undeniable because Jackie Burkhart has great taste, but she also saw me as nice, and cool, and maybe not smart, but hey, she's realistic.Aside from the unicorns.
She thought I had a lot to offer, so she thought I deserved her. Her love, her friendship, her trust.
But she was wrong. A few days ago my life came falling down around me. Jackie found out about Laurie and she left me. She took away all of it. The security that someone cared about my day, and what I had to say. And while everyone may have seen Jackie yell at me a lot, the Jackie that was with me behind closed doors was soft and gentle and sweet. She'd have done anything for me, and I cheated on her. Repeatedly. And broke her heart.
And mine too. Because, you know, I really did love Jackie. I miss her already.
I'm really hurting right now.
But I find myself deserving it.