Keep Her In Mind
Description: 'Something about how she moves me, soothes me…' Five years after the end of the Paradise Kiss Manga, and George can't forget. GeorgexYukari.
Important Notes: For some of the story there will be some OOCness based around the theory that George has grown up, as has Yukari. Everybody does, so I just followed that theorem. Secondly, I am aware that I have added inaccuracies in accordance to the manga in some parts but I needed to, to fit in with the plotline I was going with. Thirdly, this is supposed to take place before the part where Ai Yazawa tells us what happens in the ParaKiss gang's future. Any reviews which can be answered by any of these points will be ignored. Remember…it's just a fanfiction story, so don't get caught up on petty points. Just try to enjoy it for what it is! (:
Disclaimer: I don't own ParaKiss, unfortunately. Otherwise George would be with Yukari. I mean putting her with Hiro? What's that about? Also, I don't own the song Keep Her In Mind!
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Chapter One
"Something about how she moves me, soothes me…
Whispers my name and I'm rendered helpless,
All my defences are broken now,
I'm lost in this love and there is no easy way out.
I'm gonna keep her in my mind,
Just to keep her out my heart,
Cause I don't really need to fall in love,
Before we even start.
I know inside that she's the angel of my soul,
She's the answer to my prayer,
I know I'd better keep her out of sight because,
They say that love is blind…
So I'll just keep her in mind…"
-Keep Her In Mind
George walked down the empty street, around midnight. The pale moonlight glinted on his blue hair and gave him a faint glow. His eyes were averted to the floor. The superior way in which he usually walked had disappeared completely. That arrogance in his demeanour had gone.
It was times like this when he thought about her, about what could have been. The only person he'd ever loved in his life…
"Yukari."
Where was she now? He had returned home to Japan for a few weeks because his mother had become ill and gone into hospital. At times when he felt vulnerable he always thought about Yukari. He cursed his addiction and shook his head.
Swallowing, his blue orbs flitted towards the heavens and he wondered if she was somewhere else looking at the same dark sky as him. He'd treated her so badly, and as he had matured he realised the error of his ways. He'd destroyed something which could have been so perfect.
Other times, when he was happier George would think about how lucky he had been to escape the relationship and become so successful in the fashion industry. He still yearned for those days in the studio with the gang, working on the school projects. Life was so carefree back then. He smiled at the memory.
Arashi and Miwako…he hadn't spoken to them in an age. Although he saw Isabella regularly, things just weren't the same. Seeing as he was back in town it might be a good idea to get in touch with them, he decided, kicking a leaf out of his way.
Trudging back to his mother's apartment, where he was temporarily staying, he could almost imagine Yukari standing at the steps waiting for him. He'd wanted to fall in love with her so much that he'd convinced himself out of it. He cursed his stupidity as he slid the key into the lock.
Sitting on the couch at Yukino's dark apartment, he thought about his other girlfriends. Not one of them had compared to her. She was beautiful, elegant and smart. She was who he imagined every time he designed a piece of clothing. It was she who he had dreamt of at night when he was young. She was the person who had inspired him to become who he was. She was his muse; she was almost part of him. And yet he'd never told her any of this.
Why?
Because nobody ever truly knows what they've got until it's gone. He thought that Yukari was just another girl until they first made love, until they first argued, until he spent that first night on his own after they broke up. He'd done so many stupid things during their love affair, and now he felt both guilty and foolish. He could never get her back.
He'd heard that she was dating that Hiroyuki Tokumuri. He closed his eyes and remembered that day which he'd seen the two of them together…before he and Yukari had even been together. She was smiling and laughing, and blushing lightly. Hiro was walking next to her, smiling contently and laughing too. Her eyes when she'd seen George had suddenly lost all their happiness. It was almost a dread of seeing him. He could never forget that look. Even on the day it had cut him deeply. He felt as if he'd been let down…but she and George weren't even together then. She'd called out his name after he'd passed by, but George couldn't turn around for fear of shedding a few tears. He'd felt as if his whole world was crumbling.
Damn her, why did she have this effect on him! And after all of these years, now they both had their own lives and…
His thoughts trailed off and he fingered his cell phone softly, turning it around in his hands. He didn't want to call her…but if he could just see her one more time…
He dialled a number and placed the receiver to his ear, biting his thumb nervously. There was a voice at the other end. George smiled slightly and ran his hand through his sapphire hair smoothly.
"Hi, it's George."
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Well that's chapter one complete. There are three chapters to this story. I hope you enjoy it!
-Chibi-