Chapter 4 of longer then forever……..
Break away…
If any one can figure out what song or who its from will get an A on being smart, well you'll get a WAY TO GO! Or something…
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I hurt my self today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real. The needle tares a hole, the oh familiar sting, try to kill it, all the way, but I remember every thing.
( Chorus: What have I become? My sweetest friend, every one I know goes away, in the end, and you Could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.)
I wear this crown of thorns, upon my liars chair, full of broken thoughts, I can not repair, beneath the stains of time, the feelings disappear, you're some one else, I'm still right here.
( chorus: What have I become? My sweetest friend, every one I know goes away, in the end, and you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.)
If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself, I would find away.
Sestina cried her self to sleep under the beat of the horses feet. Marion watched her sad friend sleep un peacefully in front of the blond elf. She couldn't help wonder what was going to happen to her friends broken heart. She waited for them to say that they had found a place that they could sleep. Aragorn hopped down then took the girl from in front of Legolas down. She gave a shudder then a jump at the touch of the unfamiliar man. She willingly went down and cried in the mans gentle to the touch but regularly rough arms. Legolas and Gimli looked at each other, reading the others mind.
" Ahh! Yes, the poor girl is probably dreaming of that young man." Gimli said solemnly. Legolas nodded agreeing. They were now out side a tavern. A old lady came out and took the two girls inside. Sestina laid down but was still crying. The men sat down in the bar and discussed what they were going to do.
" We cant take her with us, we have to go back into Mordor, and I heard that there is loose Orc out. If the young woman gets hurt what do we do? There not are responsibility," Aragorn said feeling bad in a way. " Know but the brown haired one is my responsibility. I made a promise to that man. I promised to keep her close and protected. You know my rule, I try to do the honorable thing. She watched her love fall before her eyes because of his love for her," Legolas said strongly.
" Legolas my friend, this isn't about honor, this is about what's best for us, and for those girls. They will drag us down, and we will be dragging them into danger," Aragorn said protesting. " Aragorn it isn't about honor, its about what's right, and I made a promise I will keep it," he said feeling guilty about not helping that man. " Legolas, she is a girl, we cant take her. You cant change what happened," He said warningly. " No I cant, but I can help the girl go through what happened, I can change what will happen next," He said putting his cup on the table and leaving the bar to go out side.
It was windy out there, he felt the chilliness nip at his open arms. He sat on the bench to think for a moment. " We still have to pick up the hobbits," he felt his short dwarven friend walk up behind him. " ay sir, but that don't change anything," he said in his dwarven accent. " No, but we can at least take the girls that far. Besides they need protection, these days are still just as un safe as yesterday, and the days before that," Legolas said. " Well Legolas I don't have a problem with dragging the girls to the shire but I do have one dragging them through the pits of Mordor," Gimli said sitting beside his friend. " Yes, your right there, but I want to at least teach the girls to fight a little, will you help me?" Legolas said. " I knew it," Gimli said. " What?" Legolas laughed. " You probably have a thing for the blond one," Gimli laughed. " Marion? No, she is cute, but, well, I don't know," He said thinking about it.
Gimli just nodded for a second. The two friends sat there for a while. They watched the people and animals walk on by, leaving new faces for them to see. " Do you miss were you come from?" Legolas asked his friend. " I'll go talk to Aragorn about taking the girls to the Shire, and yes Legolas I do miss my home," Gimli said getting up and wobbling to the door a little. Legolas smiled then watched the birds in the sky, and the town on the ground.
Sestina woke up and thought of Darien a little. His warm blue eyes, and his soft brown hair. She missed him, and it was her fault. If she didn't want to run away then he would have lived. But would he have? Did there meeting only make his last few hours worth it? She didn't know, and she didn't care. She wanted him back, that's all she knew. Marion opened her big brown eyes and looked at sestina. They were in beds they didn't remember entering.
" Hey sleepy," Marion said looking at her friend. " Hello Maer, I'm sorry about how I acted. I was just so sad, and I feel so alone," She said trying to hold in her tears. She use to be happy, and content with her life. She had a place to sleep. Food to eat, she knew were she was going to be the next day, and she had things to do. But now she had none of these, she felt non of the same feelings any more. She didn't know were she was going to sleep tomorrow, or when the next time she would eat would be. She didn't feel happy, or know were she was going to end up. She felt alone, utterly and completely alone. She lost the one she loved, after she lost her only home.
" Sesy, I have been told my father is still alive. I'm sorry but I have to find him. If you want you can come with me," Marion said sadly. " Great now I'm losing my best friend, what am I going to do?" she thought to herself. " They said my parents dropped me off, maybe I will be able to find them," Sestina thought to herself again. She kept on thinking of all her possibilities. " Sesy, Sesy, hello, middle earth to Sesy," she said trying to get Sestina's attention.
" Ha? What?" Sestina asked. " Hi, I'm glad your back. Well, back to me, my dad lives in the next village over. I'm going to live with him, will you come to?" Marion was looking into a mirror. " Oh, back to you. The one who didn't lose her love, and has some one to come home too, un like me. So am I not important because of the fact that I am a loser, and lost the only one who cares for me," Sestina said sarcastically, not realizing what she said was hurtful, but true in a way.
" I'm sorry if I cared, jeez! I was offering you a place to stay!" Marion yelled. The three men then came running in. " What's going on?" Aragorn asked quickly. Marion looks at Sestina. " Nothing," Sestina said getting up and walking out. When she reached the out side of the room, she had not a clue on were to go. She saw a stair case and walked down it. Once she reached out there she ran to the out side of the tavern. She was so forlorn that she would have let any one help her at the moment. She wept and fell to the rock road.
" I'll leave with out them. They don't care any ways," she said trying to get up. " here I'll help you miss," a man said grabbing her arm to help her up. He seemed nice until she saw his face. He had lots of scars symbolizing many fights and it wasn't all to difficult to tell he was a drunk by the beer on his breath and the stains on his teeth. She gasped a little. " what miss, are you ok?" he said with a grin still holding her arm. He looked awfully familiar to her. She thought back for a second but nothing came to mind, up until he laughed.
" Jonahed?" she asked. " Yes… how do you know me?" he tilted his head in a eerie way. " Uhh, uhh, we met once a long time ago, and then I hadn't seen you after," she said scared. " Hmm… you sound scared… hmm.. I don't remember you, But…" he spat as he talked. He was still holding her wrist. His grip got tighter as he remembered her.
" Sestina… Ahh… I promised my self id kill you, if I ever saw you again. Its your fault I got fired, and now look at me," he said shaking her around. " well I wasn't going to let you touch my friend in appropriately like that. She was young, and your a pervert!" she yelled hoping some one would hear and help her. " I don't care what you though, taurea you should be afraid now," he said laughing as he yanked her. When she tried to hit him he threw her to the ground. She wanted to cry, the force of it, and the rocks made her arms all scratched up and bloody. " Why did you call me a forester?" Sestina asked grabbing her arm.
" Because youngling, wait? I thought that meant wench?" he said. " No you idiot there is no word for wench in elvish yet, I don't remember," she said. " what ever, your mother put down you were a forester when she handed you over to that evil woman Trichina," he said wanting to kick her. There were people around and they were use to this kind of stuff, but they wouldn't allow him to kick her.
" what do you mean handed me over?" she asked. " Trichina and your father had met on a bridge. She wanted him so badly, but he loved your mother. She was beautiful, brown hair blue eyes, she looked like you a little. When your father said no to sleeping with her, she cursed him to being able to having only one child, and that child would die in a week if Trichina didn't take the curse off. When your mother had you, trichina already knew, and by doing so, made your mother sign you over to her, but once those files are burned, and by the hand of the signer, you will be able to live with them again, and you wont die of any curse. Why am I telling you this?" he asked him self.
" thank you," she said, kicking him in the knee so he would fall. as soon as he fell she jumped up and tried to run. He grabbed her ankle and she came falling down. " I didn't tell you that to help you, I told you that so yeah had something to think about when you died, and to get back at Trichina for firing me," he said standing up and grabbing her.
He lifted her to her feet and tried to drag her by her hair. " You were just a janitor, why do you care so much about your stinking job," she said using her wait and falling to the fall no matter how much it hurt. Her hair was long, and when he pulled it, it attracted attention, it was brown but glistened and shined and so the sun reflected off of it. They all watched as she struggled. He got angry and picked her up in his ugly wrinkly arms. " Put me down you toad, bold headed pecker hermit!" she struggled in his greasy arms.
" Now I have to take a shower," she tried to insult him again.
" I don't know if they allow showers in the under world or where ever it is your going when I'm done with you," he said making her freeze up. " No!!!" she screamed struggling harder. Little children gripped onto there moms for protection, and young woman closed there eyes and bit there nails. And older woman just stared him down as the girl cried for him to put her down. There were no men there besides drunks to protect the woman, and they couldn't help her, they were just woman as well. They didn't know how much better then those guys they were.
Marion herd the distressed cry and looked out the woman. She knew right away it was Sestina when she saw the brown curls of her hair fly frantically as she tried to get out of his arms. She gave out a shriek when she knew who had her best friend. " what is it?" Legolas asked running in. The others were trying to look for Sestina in the bar. " He, he, that man, he will kill her," she cried jumping into the blond elf's arms. He told her that her friend would be fine. He pulled out his arrow and shot in front of the man who was now running.
He made it down there quickly and rammed into the older creepy man. Sestina gave a cry as she hit the floor very hard. She was now scraped and bruised more as she moaned and tried to get up. She tilted her head slightly to see what was going on. She saw the blond elf and the old man fighting. She then lied back down. She was afraid that Legolas would lose and the other man would take her. So she closed her eyes as she herd them fighting. She thought of all the times her mother could have song her to sleep, or all the times her father could have gotten over protective of his baby girl.
She screamed and struggled as she felt some ones arms lift her. This time they didn't feel greasy, they felt warm. She quickly calmed down and looked into Legolas's eyes. " your fine now," he said walking her into the tavern again. All the young woman, the older woman, and the children cheered happily as the girl was returned into safe arms.
" I was so scared," Marion said talking about herself once more. " so was I," Sestina was trying to get over the feeling she was going to die. " Why did he try and take you?" she asked curiously. " he wanted to get me back for helping you when he tried to touch you in appropriately. But he also wanted to get me for getting him fired," she said sadly. " Well what guy there didn't want me," she said flipping her bleach blond hair. Legolas sighed and rolled his eyes. She was beautiful looking in his eyes, but she was to conceited.
He didn't know enough about the girls yet to judge who they were in life. He knew that Marion was conceded and beautiful, and Sestina was depressed and plain, but not conceded, more self conscious. He didn't know there past, or how they acted or what they were like before.
She thought to herself about Darien. She needed to let him go.
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
She had to learn that he was not coming back, even if she cried. He was gone forever.
Trying not to reach outBut when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway
He was gone, she needed to move on, to follow her original plan. She would run away, and find peace. Nothing made since any more.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
He might have been her every thing, but it was only for a little while. He was sweet, but he hurt people for so long. What if his love was just to keep him from going to the under world? What if he was just loving her to save his butt?
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway
What if she was scared? And that was the only reason she loved him?
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
What if she wasn't suppose to love him. What if he was taken away so she could find who she was suppose to really love? She didn't know all she knew was she loved him, and she needed to let him go.
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway.
She was going to let him go, even if it took her until the day they laid her under the ground or in the sea. This was all she could think about. Questions of would she be able to let him go, and how. If he really loved her, or if she really loved him. She knew that she loved him, but she had to find out if he loved her. She was crying by her self now. She was going to find her parents. She was going to leave them all here and go back to the orphanage, the place were her heart was scattered to pieces.
She was tired of waiting, she needed to wake up now. It was time, it was time for her to face the wench who stole her life away before it started and after it started. She was sick of waiting for her to make a move. It was time to make a move, or she never would.
" are you going to be ok?" Legolas asked coming in. she jumped at the sudden unannounced entering of the room she was in. " I'm sorry," he smiled as he sat next to the jumpy sad girl. She smiled back politely, she was in no mood to talk about what happened that night, or this after noon. She didn't feel like talking at all.
" I'm sorry, I should have knocked. I just wanted to talk," he said. " talk about what?" she asked tired of people always wanting to talk while she wanted to finish grieving.
" about any thing. About how your feeling?" he said sadly. " I walk alone, I cry alone, and I don't want to die alone, so how do I sound. I want him to come back, and soon. I don't want to talk about his death, I don't know what I want, except to get over him," she said trying not to cry. " want to go for a walk, and take a breath of the mountain air?" he said standing up and offering his hand.
" why? What's the point?" she said looking at his hand. " I want to be friends, he told me to do something, and so that's what I'm doing," he said grabbing her hand and pulling her to her feet. " what are we going to do? Raise a little hell?" she said sarcastically hoping he would get annoyed. " well that was next on my list, but hey if you want to," he tried to cheer her up. She let out a sigh/laugh. " I was hoping for a smile but a laugh sigh will do," he said walking out the door. " yes, he is going," she thought to herself.
" aren't you coming?" he asked her. " oh my gosh, he wants me to come? That's great," she let out a large sigh of frustration.
I got more important things like pushing my kid on my back porch swing, I wont break my back for a million bucks, I cant take to my grave, so why put off for tomorrow, what I could get done today… like go for a walk, say a little pray, take a deep breath of the mountain air, put on my glove and play some catch, its time that I make time for that, wade to shore, cast a line, give my girl ( in my case my boy) a kiss, start living that's the next thing on my list… Raise a little hell, laugh till it hurts, put an extra 5 at church, call up my folks just to chat, its time I make time for that… oh yeah HI!!! Sorry I was just jamming to some tunes. That was my list of things to do today by Toby Keith. I listen to all kinds of music, country, rock, a little pop, not rap… like I listen to the song by Nelly and Tim McGraw… I listen to mostly rock, then country! Yay!!! So just in case you didn't know or get it!!! The last chapters test has an answer, but if some one sends it in before this chapter they get the a!! Its called well I forgot, I know it though, its at the tip of my tongue, oops I mean finger.. Oh well, its by Johnny Cash… just kidding I know what its called, its called " Hurt my self" lol…. Hee hee…