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You don't feel very refreshed when you wake up the next morning. You slide groggily out of bed and slip on your school uniform. back to the usual I guess.

You wash your face in the bathroom attached to your bed room. You just look up into the mirror after rinsing your face when you hear a crash in the hallway. You turn off the water and peak out of the door way. You see a shadow moving in the kitchen. Knowing that if it's a burglar you can obviously take him you tiptoe slowly down the hall.

Just as you reach the doorway to the kitchen the intruder steps out in front of you. Before you can say or do anything he slams his hands violently on the wall on either side of your head. "What is this!" he yells. "What is this!"

You open your eyes and look up into the face of a very angry Shessomaru. He pulls something out of the breast plate of his armour and holds it in front of your face. "Why did you write this? Why did you leave?" He asks furiously a little shocked you stutter, "Uh… I…" Words do not come to you.

He stands, holding it in front of you, waiting for an answer. At first your thoughts are scattered, then you start to get angry yourself. He's angry at me! Why should I answer to this? What's wrong with him? Angrily you yell back at him, "What's it to you? It's my life; I'll do what I please. Why should I stay with people who hurt me?"

You duck under his arm and go into the kitchen. You start to make noodles that you can reheat at lunch. (Since it'd seem really weird to humans if you never ate) You pull out a pot. "What do you mean, 'What's it to me?' Why wouldn't it matter to me? You said you would stay till the end of today! Why did you leave if you said that?" He says, struggling to keep his voice imperturbable and calm.

You set down the pot and turned, absolutely livid, to him, and yelled furiously at him, "Why do you think I left? Why would any one leave when someone they thought they could trust yelled at and accused them?" You start to cry as you continue, "What do you think Shessomaru, Why did I leave?" You stir the noodles and try not to hide your face.

"What?" Shessomaru asks quietly, now completely calm, "I… didn't know that I had hurt you. I've never… been able to trust some one." You continue to stir the noodles and try not to look at him. "I trusted you, and I cared about you. But as soon as Jaken suggested that I could have done something you turned on me! How was I supposed to feel?" You add the flavouring packet and wait for his response.

He puts his hand on your arm, "Tabitha." He starts. You flinch and pull your arm away, prepared for the worst, for what you're used to, the usual. He doesn't try again, but he does continue to speak "You yourself should know what it's like; to never be trusted, and to have your trust betrayed. I'm a demon, remember?"

Tears roll down your cheeks while he tries to justify himself, with an explanation you understood all to well. Still, you resist the erg to look at him. "I'm… sorry that I accused you, that I would have thought that you had betray me. I do care about you; it's just difficult when I've never been able to before." He explained hesitantly.

You glance at him, you can see in his eyes that he wants too comfort you. It's kind of obvious that you're crying now, he can see that and as much as he wants to hold you, he's afraid he'll offend you.

Finally you turn to him, you can't think of what to say. No one had ever come back for you before, or apologized. No, not even your parents came back for you. They left you with your grand mother and never returned, even though they said they would. He looks into your eyes; a deep sorrow had filled his, like an understanding of what you must be reflecting on.

You understand that he's saying 'its ok', even though he doesn't speak. He didn't make a move, but looks at you for a long time. He didn't want to push you; he wanted to take as much time as you wanted.

Your lips quiver as you try to speak, "She… Shessomaru… I..." you start shakily, but he doesn't let you finish. He stretches out his arms and pulls you gently into his sweet embrace. He hold you tight and lays his head on yours, "I'm so sorry, Tabitha." You quietly sob on his coat, and somehow the smell of another dog demon is immensely comforting.

He lifts his head and says, "Come back with me, please, at least until the end of today like we had planned. You can leave after that, ok?" You lift your red, tearstained face from his chest and look at him. He wipes the tears from you cheek with the back of his hand.

You think as you read his eyes, which were not icy, or hidden, as usual. At this moment he is hiding nothing from you. This is trust, the trust you had never had endowed on you before. Slowly you formulate your response, "Only if you come back here with me afterwards, even if it's only for a short while."

You answer quietly, even though you will go back if he disagrees. He doesn't say anything but closes his eyes and leans down as he pulls you towards him. You follow his lead, and he kisses you ever so softly, with his hand on your cheek.

The noodles start to boil over, and no matter how much you wanted to, you couldn't ignore them. You let go of him and dashed over to the stove. "Oh man what a waist, I made these and I'm not even going to have to eat them." He nods and suggests, "Perhaps Rin would like them." You smile, "That's ingenious." You compliment his idea and pack it in the container you had ready to take it in anyways.

You look around your house as you walk to your bed room. "Sorry my house is such a mess." You call as you change quickly out of your school clothes. He peers at the living room from the kitchen, which actually isn't that messy (only because you haven't been home to make it messy though.)

You come out of your room in the old kimono you used to wear when you lived with your some-odd-great-grandmother. She would only let you wear that and your school uniform. You only had a few left that fit you, and another that was for ceremonies, it was quite fancy, and very old, handed down through your family for ages.

Shessomaru is waiting patiently for you by the door and you walk up to him and cheerfully say, "Ok. Let's go!" You open the door and start to exit. "Wait!" He orders. You close the door and step back inside. "Why?" you ask naively. He wraps his arms around your waist and kisses you again. He holds your body against his and kisses you passionately.

You weave your fingers through his silky smooth hair, and place your hands on the back of his head. He strokes your back and caresses every curve lightly with his fingers. You want it to last forever, but he pulls away and answers, "Because, when we go back, I won't be able to do that." He kisses you lightly on the forehead, "we'd better go." He says and opens the door.

You close it behind you and let him lead you by the hand down a trail through he woods between your house and Kagomes. You see Kagome through her window, grabbing her yellow bag. "We'd better go now, if she she's going through the well we'll have to wait forever before we can safely go back." At that you dash out of the woods and into the shrine. He can't help but follow you, as you are still grasping his hand tightly. You look at him and he nods at you, and you both leap into the well.

This time Shessomaru takes the initiative and bolts into the woods, your hand clasped tightly in his. After a short while you see the house and slow down, Shessomaru stops, just ahead of you.

He steps out of the shelter and shadow of the forest and onto the lawn, still holding your hand. You walk beside him and lean close to whisper, "shouldn't you have continued on with out me, Jaken will suspect." He shook his head and his long silver hair followed it, brushing against you. "No he wont, he's not that smart." You smile. You let go of his hand and hasten to Rins room. Jaken was sitting net to her bed, stiff as a tree, and when he saw you, as livid as a volcano.

As soon as you sat down next to him he exploded at you, "Ah, I see you've been brought back! Now you will be the slave of Rin, and not I." He sounded triumphant, but he was also angry that he had had that responsibility for a short while.

You glare coldly at him and retort, "Be quiet Jaken, you'll wake her up. You should be disgraced that you consider her a burden, I really enjoy taking care of her, you know." You weren't lecturing him. You spoke as those he had never hated you're very being, as though it was a light casual conversation with an associate. That made him even more angry.

You picked up the plate by her bed and placed the container of noodles there for later. You stood up and he laughed, "Fool! You are a fool to willingly do some one else's work. Don't do anything stupid this time, ona, you will surely regret it!" You shake your head and walk to the door. Shessomaru enters the room and you step out of his way. He strides across the room and sits on the opposite side of the bed form Jaken. You exit the room and Shessomaru starts to talk to Jaken, but you don't catch it.

As you are returning you hear an infuriated Jaken Yell, "What?" You decide it's not the best time to enter, and listen out side of the door way. Shessomaru calmly answers him, "Jaken, are you defying me? You heard what I said." Jaken hadn't calmed down, "well, no, Lord Shessomaru, I would never think of that, but."

At this exact point you enter the room, tired of just hearing this. At the sight of you Jaken can't control himself anymore, and explodes, "But, HER! You're going back with her, tonight, and leaving me to take care of Rin? AGAIN?" He shakes his little green fingers at you, "But why, My Lord, Why?"

Shessomaru rises and stands tall and menacing before Jaken. At this moment he even frightens you. He answers Jaken in the most heartless voice you have ever heard, "Jaken, Who are you to question my actions? Why would I, Shessomaru, Son of the greatest demon of all time, Bow my whim to the likes of you?" He stops and Jaken splutters on the ground.

Jaken looks absolutely terrified and he bows before Shessomaru, with his head touching the ground, inching away from him. "If you care to live you will do as you are told. I leave this evening and I don't know how long I will be away." Shessomaru concluded harshly.

You were shocked; you hadn't seen this part of him before. Jakens mouth hung open. Shessomaru looked at you, and he stopped the airs he had been putting on. He gave you a look that said, "Do not worry; you will never be treated this way." And at that he swept out of the door.

Jaken was still sitting on the floor with his mouth gaping open. After a few seconds his shock turned into furry and hatred and he glared at you fiercely. You ignore this and lean down to tuck the covers u around Rins neck. "You have to keep her covered from her neck to her toes." You explain to Jaken, with a rather haughty tone to your voice. "And don't forget to boil her food, so that it's soft and easy for her to eat. Change the sheets every couple of days, so she'll stay clean." You stand up again and his angry gaze never leaves you. Jaken stands up and walks out of the room, and follows the direction Shessomaru had taken.

You wander off to the kitchen and boil some water. You pick some vegetable and boil them. I guess I'd better make a few vegetable dishes, so she doesn't have to have his horrible cooking the whole time. You scoop a vegetable soup into some small bowls and cover them with cheese cloth.

Satisfied you say to your self, "There, easy to eat, easy to digest and the cheese cloth will keep it fresh for a bit." You wipe your hand on your pants a sign. You don't really have anything to do, so you return once again to Rins room and sit by her. There was something so peaceful about just seeing her sleeping.

You lie down on the floor next to her bed and stare at the ceiling. Thoughts drift in and out of your head. You close your eyes and day dream. Different realities each take their turn in playing out in your mind; what a very slow day this is. As you lay there, Rin awakens. She shakes you, and you roll over and see she's awake.

Smiling at her, you ask, "Hello Rin, how are you feeling?" She doesn't answer you, but rather smiles at you happily. You sit up and remember that you'd left to noodles in here, and so you ask, "Are you hungry?" She nods and you pick up the bowl. You support her on your arm, so she can sit up to eat.

You slowly feed her the noodles and she seems to enjoy them thoroughly. After a long while she finishes and you place the empty container on the ground again. She snuggles up to you and manages to strike up a whispered conversation. You chat with her for a little bit but she's a little groggy and you decide it would be better for her if she sent back to sleep.

Before you get around to telling her that she should get some more rest, she's fallen asleep with her head on your lap. You gently stroke her hair and let her sleep. It's such a pity that some one so young has to go through something like this. She must have had a very difficult life already, very few would take up residence with a demon, even if it were their last chance for survival. You ponder how Rin came to be with Jaken and Shessomaru.

You lay her down in her bed and tuck her in, with the blankets tight around her neck. After that you were left again with nothing to do. You lie down and next to her bed, and close your eyes again. Your day dreams slowly become move vivid as you drift off into sleep. It starts with a walk in the bush, in the evening.

As you walk you smell something and start to wander towards it. Some thing catches your eyes and you see a soot stained Shessomaru walking through the woods, his hair and clothing slightly singed. You run to him and grab his coat, franticly asking, "Shessomaru, what happened, where's Rin?"

You turn to see where he's come from and light streams into your eyes. You step out of the bushes and see the house blazing in front of you. You want to run inside but your feet won't move, you try to scream but your voice has disappeared completely. You see Rin slowly tottering towards the door way, and realize she's still inside.

You're mouth is wide open and heart is pounding in your chest, but no sounds are ever heard. Tears stream down your face, and the fire licks towards you. You close your eyes instinctively, and when you open them again you look at the person inside. You don't see Rin anymore, but a younger version of you.

You are completely stunned and you don't try to yell anymore. All of a sudden you are in the house and there's an invisible wall stopping you, you see people out side, you're grand mother, some of your friends, and Shessomaru. You hear some one calling at you, it sounds faint, and then your whole world shakes!

You open your eyes and see Shessomaru kneeling above you, shaking you and calling your name. Realizing where you are you jump into over drive and cling to him. Your breathing slows and you settle down, discovering that there's nothing to worry about. You let go of him and look at his face, which is very red.

You let go of him abruptly and apologize, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, it was an accident." He closes his eyes and stands up. Staring at the floor he says, "We have to go soon. We'll be leaving after I finish telling Jaken what to do while I'm gone." He turns and leaves the room, walking kind of quickly, still staring at the floor.

You get up and walk to the door. The sun is almost set already, and the stars are beginning to shine. Tucking your hair behind your ear you lean on the door post and look at the sky "it's so clear, the stars will be beautiful tonight." You play with the colour of your old kimono and wonder why you thought you would be happy without this. You hum a song and close your eyes while the wind blows softly on your face. Everything is calm and peaceful in those late hours of the day.

Jaken approaches you from behind, which you didn't know. You jump when he suddenly speaks up and says rudely, "what did you do to him, wench?" You open your eyes and look down at him, just a little perplexed. "What do you mean, Jaken?" you answer coldly.

He rolls his eyes, obviously frustrated already and says, "You must have cursed him, or you have told him you have something of great power that he desires, which is obviously a lie." You don't even blink as you turn back to looking at the last lights of the sun set and answer, "Calm down Jaken, It's really not a big deal." Jakens stress just builds up at this, and you can tell that he's about to explode in a tiny green mass of fury.

Instead of giving him that simple pleasure you quickly add, "There's lots of food in the kitchen that Rin can eat. You should serve it hot, and get her up to eat three times a day." You can't help but worry about what will happen to Rin while your gone, even though you know Shessomaru has given Jaken strict orders that he wouldn't dare cross. Jaken mutters to himself and goes inside. He lights a small lamp and sits against the wall, still muttering profusely.

Shessomaru approaches you along the board walk and takes your hand, "We must leave now." He whispers in your ear. You stand up straight and wait for him to start walking. He turns and looks in on Rins room, "Jaken, Take care of her, I'll be very angry if anything is the matter when I return." This is your queue and you start walking towards the well, into the night.