Hooray! This song is 'Ghost of You' by My Chemical Romance, and the words 'she' and 'her' are changed to 'he' and 'him'. Foshwa? Foshwa.
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I never said I'd lie in wait forever
If I died, we'd be together now
I can't always just forget him
But he could try
Riku hung his head and wasn't really singing it with his heart. It was a depressing song, and Kadaj had made him sing it. Riku was just writing it down when he got back, and Kadaj was reading it. Kadaj thought that it was a stroke of genius, then made Riku write the notes and the taps. And now...He was singing it with some others Kadaj had gotten.
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever
The truth was, Kadaj didn't care that Reno, Vincent, and Zack got away. Riku could hear him all the way in the room where he was usually kept. All Kadaj said was that he was glad that Riku didn't get away with them. Kadaj was thinking that it was all because Riku got put with that man. That Riku didn't get away. Kadaj thought that Riku's friends abandoned him. But it was nothing like that
Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
he dies
Riku hated this. The new band members kept hitting on him and feeling him up, and Kadaj was going to send him to another 'special' customer after this song. He sighed, knowing that he'd have to sing this next part loud. He needed something that would strike his need to get his anger out. He thought...Sora...Solstice...Kadaj...Yup, that did it.
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
He couldn't do this anymore, but his heart was dead. He knew that Sora would never do something as drastic as cheat on him, but...his heart believed it. Somehow, Riku believed that Sora, in his time of need, went to Riku's brother. Solstice looked enough like him.
If I fall
If I fall (down)
The other's were almost too scared of Riku's emotion to sing the backup.
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Riku wanted to stop, but he knew that if he stopped right before the end, Kadaj would have his head. Having someone's head in this place was not a very good thing.
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...
Kadaj had brain washed him enough to actually doubt his one love. He couldn't think anything else. And now that Riku was here, Kadaj kept telling him over and over that no one loved him. He knew that Kadaj never did it to Zack or any of the others, but Kadaj wanted to keep Riku, and so he started to tell him even more. Tell him that no one believed him, no one trusted him, no one loved him. He wasn't believing Kadaj at first, then he started to slowly believe it, and that picture just pushed him off the edge.
"Nice performance today," Kadaj smirked, then went up to Riku and put his hand on the boy's cheek, "I'm not going to make you go to that appointment today. Because of that performance. If you keep doing that well, I might find other ways to repay you,"
Riku looked up at him, his eyes dead, and he didn't say anything.
"That look is creepy on you," Kadaj said with a shudder, "you shouldn't use it,"
Riku just stared at him, as he walked back into those back rooms. Riku walked slowly and sat on the couch, his head lolling.
"You need to eat something,"
Riku looked with a side glance at Donald. He wished he could have remembered to get his other friends out of this place. But, alas, he'd forgotten Goofy and Donald.
Riku shook his head and looked back at the ground, his hair falling over his face.
Goofy walked up to him, his hands on his hips, "Ya' haven't eatin' anything for days,"
Riku shook his head and pulled his knees up to his chest. He felt that same feeling, that nausea, again, but he couldn't throw up. He shook his head again, but that only resulted in him getting more of a headache.
He looked up lazily as the back door opened, the one that Loz had exited not long ago. Loz entered again, giving Riku a wide smile.
"Finally, Loz," Yazoo came storming from the back, his hands on his hips, "What took you so long!?"
Loz stared strait at him, his mean front up, "Sorry, I was just having some traffic troubles."
Loz walked over to Riku and took him by the elbow softly, lifting him, "I'm taking Riku to get some fresh air,"
Kadaj didn't argue.
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"What on hell, hearth, and space are you doing!?" Loz exclaimed, glaring at Riku with his hands on his hips, "I know you escaped here for a reason, and you're just coming back!? You told everyone about that Sora boy, and now you won't even mention his name!?"
"I can't...I can't..." Riku looked down, his fists shaking. He knew he had made the worst mistake of his life. But he couldn't go back now. He couldn't face Sora after what he did, he couldn't face Solstice after what he did. He couldn't face his own family, "Everyone was right, I'm just a big screw up,"
Loz's features softened and his posture lacked. He put his hand on Riku's shoulder and tried to smile warmly, "It's not your fault,"
"You don't get it!" Riku exclaimed, slapping away the older man's hand, "It IS my fault! I'm such a screw-up! I make such rash decisions and I don't think things through! I'm such a bad person!"
Loz just stared down at him. If it were anyone else, they would have slapped Riku to get him out of it. That's what everyone did. Loz didn't want to, because Riku's been hurt enough in his lifetime. He doesn't deserve anymore pain.
Riku slumped to the ground and clutched his chest. His leg was aching too much to keep him up, and he couldn't breath.
"Riku?" Loz noticed that something was wrong. He bent down and put his hands on Riku's shoulders. He noticed that the boy was way too pale and that something was really wrong. He gasped and lifted Riku up a bit, "Riku!"
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"He'll be fine," The man said, looking at the man with short silver hair, "He seems to have a weak heart, and when it comes to him having too strong of emotional feelings, he has an attack of sorts. The other one told me that this had happened before, when he passed out. This is just like that incident,"
"Why didn't he have an attack when he got kidnaped?" Loz thought to himself, then looked over at the unconscious Riku. Then at the man sitting next to the bed. This man was undoubtably Sora.
"Riku..." Sora mumbled, taking Riku's hand and holding it tight, "What did I do? What did YOU do to deserve this?!"
He leaned over and put Riku's hand to his forehead, his shoulders shaking.
"He'll be fine," The doctor said, putting his hand on Sora's shoulder. The brunette shrugged the man's hand off.
"I'll believe that when I see it," Sora said, his voice hard. He'd taken enough of this. He'd watched Riku suffer enough. He wouldn't take anyone anymore until Riku told him that everything's alright.
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Riku felt someone hold his hand. He heard voices. This was all too painfully familiar. He couldn't feel anything, and he was pretty sure that he wasn't going to. His hand twitched, an he opened his eyes slowly, to see that someone had kindly closed the blinds. He thanked them for that.
"Hn..." He groaned at the weight on his chest, then looked over to see that Sora was sitting there, staring at him expectantly.
"Riku..."
Riku couldn't even feel himself start to cry, he knew that he was by the wetness over his lips and the salty taste. He looked away. He couldn't even bare the sight of Sora, knowing what he did to him. Riku felt as though he'd just stabbed Sora in the back, making Sora feel like shit. Riku never wanted to do that to Sora.
Sora winced. Riku's eyes had that same hazed-over look in them. Just like when Riku had been in here for his parents. Sora never liked seeing Riku cry. And this was only the second time. It put such a big hole in his heart whenever he saw it.
"Riku...I'm so sorry...I never meant for you to find that photo," Sora said, his voice sad and his hands shaking.
Riku looked back at him and stared him in the eyes. Then looked away, "It's my fault. I overreacted. I'm so stupid like that, you know?"
"You're not stupid!" Sora exclaimed, then reached over and leaned to look him in the eyes, "you were going through a very emotional part of your life! You were just kidnaped, what else would you think!? I don't blame you!"
Riku smirked through his tears and flicked Sora on the forehead, "What are you, Dr. Phil?"
Sora pouted and Riku laughed.
"Sora, can I kiss you again?" Riku asked, wondering if Sora would let him.
Sora beat him to it, pressing his lips hard and desperately against his boyfriends. He took back and smiled, leaning his head against Riku's chest.
Before anyone could say anything...Riku suddenly started to sing something. No one knew why, and it sort of sounded like a lullaby. It was very calming, and it was almost calming enough to make them forget everything for that minute while he was singing.
Toumei ga yozora somete
hitori aruku itsumo no kaerimichi
Kuchizusamu konna kimochi
nemuru kimi ni todoketai na
Riku's parents walked in to him singing this, and they smiled while leaning on the wall across from the bed. Samantha recognized this, and knew that this was the song that she always sung to Riku and Solstice when they were falling asleep at night when they were kids. She was surprised he remembered it.
Nanika ni obieteru jibun ga chotto iya ni naru
tsugeru omoi torinokoshita hibi ni...
dokoka ni wasureteru kokoro ga chotto itakunaru
toki wo tsunagu hoshi no yoru ni kimi wo sagashiteru
Loki, Kouga, and Koda all walked in, but stayed by the door when they saw Sora. They didn't like Sora all that much, and that was for one reason. After Riku met Sora, he'd been more hurt physically and emotionally than he'd been in his entire life of crime. They were surprised, and they were mildly glad that Riku was kinder now. But they knew that their old Riku would never come back. No more spray painting the governors house, no more vandalizing people's houses, no more freaking people out at school. The good times were gone. Guess they'd have to find another Riku Nori, though no one would surpass this one.
Toozakaru kumo ni nosete
boku no kimochi tachidomaru kaerimichi
Kimi wa mou yume no tsuzuki
todoku hazu mo nai koto da to wakatteiru
Namida ga koboreteru egao ga chotto hoshikunaru
kimi no soba ni ireru dake de boku wa...
Dareka ga toikakeru rikutsu ga motto hoshikunaru
kieru kage ni mabushisugita hibi wo utsushiteru
Loz watched sadly, wishing, that Riku would be happy for once. He'd seen the look in Riku's eyes, he'd seen the way he was so tortured inside. Just like himself. Loz knew that Riku was feeling the exact way he felt. Kadaj would never really acknowledge Loz as a brother, nothing like Yazoo. Kadaj would only see Loz as a loose end to run errands for himself. Loz really had to get away from Kadaj.
Nanika ni obieteru jibun ga chotto iya ni naru
tsugeru omoi torinokoshita hibi ni...
dokoka ni wasureteru kokoro ga chotto itakunaru
toki wo tsunagu hoshi no yoru ni kimi wo sagashiteru
Riku drifted off at the end, clutching at Sora as if his life depended on it. The brunette had climbed into Riku's hospital bed, and was trying to pull himself closer. Riku sighed and put his chin on Sora's head and closed his eyes, feeling sleep overcome him. He'd been really tired, and know he couldn't hold back the darkness.
Sora looked up when he saw that Riku's breathing was evening out, and smiled warmly at the sight of Riku sleeping soundly.
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NO! This is NOT NOT NOT the end! There will still be at least one more chapter. Oh, and the song is from Gravitation, it's called 'Anti-Nostalgic' by Kotani Kinya