I Found a Reason For Me
Chapter Eight
After the ice cream, Ron decided to take Hermione and Lexie to the park around the block. While Lexie ran and played, Ron and Hermione sat on a bench, talking about what was to become of Hermione's career. Hermione's favorite subject had been spells, and she spent most of her time at Hogwarts trying to create new ones. During the first few years of raising Lexie, Hermione had wished for some spells actually exist. They didn't, of course, and Hermione spent her time, taking her time to do things that could be so simple with a flick of a wand.
The two decided that Hermione would take the job that was being offered to her by the ministry until she could save up enough money to start working on a place she could create and try out spells in. Neither of them had even suggested if Hermione would leave. Neither, Ron or Hermione, were so sure they wanted it to happen. And, Lexie, swinging on the swings, watching them from a distance, most certainly didn't want that to happen.
"I really want to thank you again, Ron. You have no idea how much all this means to me. If it wasn't for you, I would still be at the club. It means a lot to me, and to Lexie. And I promise that I will pay you back. Some how." Hermione told him, as they began to walk around the park. She couldn't help but feel in debt to him. She owed him everything. But Ron didn't want her feeling that way. He was her friend, and that's what friends do. Friends help other friends out when they need it.
"Hermione, I've told you before, and this will be the last time I tell you. You don't owe me anything. This means a lot to me too, Hermione. You have no idea what its been like, for me, to see you again, and to spend time with you and Lexie. Anyone would do this if they loved someone as much as I love you. Don't feel like you owe me anything. Just be happy, and I'll be satisfied." Ron told her, taking her hand in his, slowly. Hermione looked up at him, the moment she felt the contact. Ron had said he loved her. Yes, he had said it in a way that a friend or brother would, but still, Hermione felt relieved somehow. Plus, he had taken her hand in his, which was more than a brotherly gesture. At least, Hermione hoped it was.
Ron couldn't help feeling good about Hermione's hand in his. He had wanted to do that, well, at least hold her in some way. She felt so right in his arms, all the time. Everything felt right when she was with him, which is why Ron thought about telling her his feelings. Hermione seemed to feel the same way, to him, at times. Like when they are just watching television after Lexie's gone to bed, and they just comment about what they hear and see on the T. V., or at times like this, when they have their discussions about their futures. Neither of them ever talk about the other's leave. Ron wondered if it was possible Hermione loved him too.
He didn't want to stop anything by doing something stupid, by acting on his feelings. This was good for now. Him and Hermione, the way they were was all he needed for now. He cleared his throat, and asked, "Its getting a little late, do you want to head home?" Hermione thought about it for a moment, and then she nodded.
Around 2 o'clock in the morning, Hermione and Ron met in the living room, much to their surprise. "You couldn't sleep either?" Hermione asked Ron, a small smile on her face. Ron shook his head no. He was blushing. He always blushed, and Hermione always thought it was adorable. There was an uncomfortable silence between the two, before Hermione asked, "want to watch a movie? I was going to put one on for myself, and if you want you can join me."
Ron nodded, smiling slightly. He sat down on the couch, as Hermione popped the movie into the muggle contraption. Once the movie was on, and playing, Hermione too joined Ron at the couch. Barely five minutes into the movie, Hermione found her self laying her head on Ron's lap and Ron found himself stroking her hair, while watching the movie. Neither say anything. They both enjoyed the contact and didn't want to ruin the moment, even though the other secretly hoped the other felt the same way.
Hermione fell asleep half way through the movie, but Ron continued to stroke her hair. He let the movie run, even though he had no interest of really watching it, and just watched Hermione sleep. She was beautiful, just as she had always been to him.They would be perfect together, no doubt about it. If only she knew how he felt about her, and if only he knew that she felt the same way...
A/N: Hey guys! I guess I owe like a huge explanation. To tell you the truth it started when I had a small writer's block, but then it grew into a larger one. And then, after more stories kept coming to my head, I had to write them down before I forgot them. About a month or two ago I realized I shouldn't have done that because I forgot about my other stories that I had posted before I wrote the newer ones and decided that it was only right to finish those. Since "Change of Hearts" was the oldest and easiest to write I finished that first, and lately I've been trying to get, "Still I Look to Find a Reason to Believe" flowing. Its easier to focused on one story then switching from one to the other. After a review I received I realized that it was WAY passed due for an update and that it wasn't fair to you guys for me keeping you waiting. So, here you go. I am sorry its fairly short. I didn't mean for it to be, but it seemed like a good place to end the chapter. I will finish my other story at the shore, post it when I get back, and then I can dedicate all my writing time to this story. I will try to have this one updated the moment I come back. Thank you all for staying with me through the wait. I know how much of a pain it can be. I'll see ya later, and please review!