Chapter Fourteen: For Gods Sake, Jack!
Later on for what seemed like days, we finally arrived at the cave as to where Barbossa held my baby sister hostel against her will. Me, Will and Gibbs sat talking about Jack. I didn't listen to the whole thing, until Will asked how he roped together a bunch of sea turtles. I had to say something.
"How could he even catch those things?" I asked.
Gibbs looked to me and shrugged his shoulders. All this time I've avoided Jack with great amounts of pain on both ends.
"What did he use for rope?" Will asked. I looked to him and wondered the same exact thing. Out of no where, I heard a voice speak up.
"Human hair. From my back." he said and paused.
I looked up at him, he looked into my eyes. I could see that he was still confused and mostly hurt. And I began to learn I was the reason for the hurting and his confusion. I had to look away.
"Young Mr. Turner and I are to go ashore." Jack said. Just before he walked away. I turned to see his back.
"Cap'n, what if the worst should happen?" Gibbs asked.
I gasped. 'Worst, what worst?' I asked myself, worriedly. Jack turned around and caught that I was worried. His faze didn't soften like it would have before then. I closed my eyes to hold the tears at bay.
"Keep to the code." Jack said without doubt. He then turned his heals and walked off to his cabin. I looked at the doors, and felt a hand against my back.
"Go to him. Tell him how you feel, should the worst happen." Will whispered. I didn't know what to do for a moment. Then I slowly nodded.
"Should I?" I asked Will. He smirked and nodded.
"Only love is worth the true risk of losing everything, Shy." Will added, then it hit me. What me and Ana had talked about those weeks to days ago.
(Flash-backs)
"Is a life worth living without love? Or is it best to lie to ye self and pretend that he never existed?" "Throwing my life away for love isn't something I come across everyday"
"It's not a fun life to live without love. It's hard sometimes. Ye'll wonder if ye made a mistake. Don't give up something so precious as love, for if ye seem so desperately to 'ate the life ye living, Shy."
"Best not think of the future, darling. It'll only bring pain"
"Now Love, ye mistaken me words. T's not me intentions"
"Enjoy the moment as it passes by." "Then what be your true intentions, Jack?--Best I show ye, love"
"I've not intended for ye to be so, love"
(End-Flash-Backs)
Without a second thought, I got up and ran to the doors of the cabin. Stopping shortly closing my eyes only for a split second, then knocking.
"Go away, Ana. I'm not wanting to talk." I heard him say with distance in his voice.
I felt a pang of guilt tug at my heart. It was my fault. No one else's but mine alone. I hurt the Captain Jack Sparrow for not trusting in him. I was going to trust in him now. Once again I knock but a little more hardly this time.
The door swung open.
"Ana, I said I don't want to tal-" he stopped in mid sentence. Looking into my eyes, I was nervous.
"Can we talk?" I asked. He stepped aside and let me in, shutting the door as I walked into the chamber.
"What is it?" he asked without emotion. I sighed, holding back the tears that I've been fighting hard against.
"I'm sorry." I said as he stood near behind me. I turned looking up into his soulful black orbs. Drowning myself in them without drowning, he wouldn't let me.
"I'm sorry, Jack." I repeat once more. He still says nothing. Tear weld up into my eyes, I can't fight against them no longer and without warning, I let them fall. Dropping to the floor crying with everything in me.
"I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't mean to. I need you, Jack. I want you. I-I just don't want to lose you." I cried.
He reached down and picked me up in his arms, holding me there a short while, letting me cry. I look up into his orbs once more. Nothing…
"Please, say something. Tell me something of how you feel for me. Show me, for gods sake, Jack. Show me." I begged. He finally smirked his side winding smile
"If I showed ye, love. Then I wouldn't be able to help, Will save ye baby sis. Now would I?" he asked.
Not knowing what he meant. I just started into his orbs, there I seen something. Looking deeper, I can see an emotion I once saw a glimpse of.
"Then tell me, at least. I shouldn't be able to live, if the worst should happen to you, Jack. Whatever the worst shall be. I don't want you leaving me." I said quietly. He smiled showing his beautiful teeth this time.
"Now, love." he started. I just looked at him.
"If I tell ye, then what would showin' ye be like, I wonder?" he asked, once again. It was helpless. He wasn't going to let me in.