I felt the blood drain from my face as I stared at him wide eyed. "Y-you wouldn't believe me if I told you…" I said softly, looking down at my hands as I started fiddling with the napkin wrapped around my silverware.
"Jessica." His voice was stern, causing me to look up slightly. "Try me." he was serious, there was no glint of amusement or even a smirk.
I chewed my bottom lip anxiously, this was a habit I picked up from Bella and I hated it. Makes my lips chapped afterwards. I avoided eye contact for a while as he waited patiently for me to explain. But how do you explain to someone that you read about them in a book that doesn't exist?!
"A book?" he raised an eyebrow at me, causing me to feel all the blood drain from my face.
The waiter brought us both glasses of ice water, and I immediately took the opportunity to chug my glass. I tried to figure out how to word everything into something he could understand.
Once I felt myself calming down I set my glass back on the table and looked him in the eye.
"This is going to be a long story." I said seriously, crossing my fingers on the tabletop.
He smirked, "I have all the time in the world." I knew he was saying that ironically.
"Let's start with the first time I woke up in this body at 12 years old." I started, before going into the story. I didn't give away too many details, trying to keep certain things secret like my knowledge of the future that he has no right of knowing at all. Once I was done talking he stared at me, he had no disbelief in his eyes at all, like he believed every word I said. I didn't go into personal details either, I could feel myself wanting to shrink away as my story started coming to an end.
Edward nodded slowly in response, "That's all I wanted to know." he said seriously.
We were brought food, I got some alfredo cheese ravioli, my favorite. I started eating as we sat in near silence.
"So… Are your opinions of me based off of what you know from the… Books?" he asked, genuine curiosity in his eyes.
"Nope, you irritated me from the beginning, no one should legally be allowed to be that pretty." I said seriously after swallowing a mouthful of food. "I used to have a friend who would have a few not so nice things to say to you because of the books. God, if she was here... trying to get her to like you would be like convincing an elephant it can fit in a hamster ball."
Edward just nodded in response, staring into my eyes as though he were searching for more information. "What about the vampire Army?" he asked, I immediately noticed some staff members and the closest people sitting at their own tables staring openly at us.
Edward stood up and looked over at me. "Let's continue this conversation in the car. I'm curious about this book you want to publish," He said in a normal tone which quickly defused the weird looks we were getting. I nodded slowly as I also stood up and followed him out after he paid the bill.
We sat inside his still freezing car, as I stared at him. "It's not really of importance right now." I said softly, "None of the events that led up to it has happened." I shook my head, as I stared out the window, "I don't think it will ever happen."
"Why?" he asked, trying to get me to look at him.
"Because you and Bella are not together, you are not romantically involved with any human. It's a smart move on your part, it could put your whole clan in danger." I felt a pang in my chest, why? I don't know, it was just there and I don't have time to try and figure it out.
"What does that mean?" He raised a brow at me. I avoided eye contact. I had come to terms with my developing feelings for him, but I had decided to ignore them completely. It wasn't safe to act on any of those emotions.
He kept staring, curiosity burning through his eyes.
"Don't worry about it." I said quickly, suddenly feeling irritated. I could feel his intense gaze on me as I tried to ignore his presence. Can't he understand I don't want to talk about any of this at all.
He sighed deeply as he turned on the engine.
Heat blasted me in the face as he put the car into drive. "Let's take you home then."
He had just turned towards the direction of my house when his phone buzzed. He pulled it out of his pocket and checked the message.
"Change of plans," He said, turning the wheel so hard he nearly put the car on two wheels. "We're going to my place."
"What the hell, Cullen!" I shouted, gripping the oh shit handle so tightly it actually hurt my knuckles. "What are you doing?! Why are we going to your house?!"
"It's safer." He said, rather simply, his eyes on the road as he went well passed the speed limit.
I could feel my entire body tense up so much that I couldn't even breath as I clenched my teeth. I watched the scenery blur past us as he took sharp turns and immediately turned into the treeline. I thought we would crash, I squeezed my eyes shut tightly, only to find out a few moments later that we didn't crash, which means that we were driving down a road rather than driving between the trees. I relaxed as soon as he parked his car. Where are the police when you have someone possibly burning rubber on the street?
"My tires are specially made for racing, they can handle a little speed."
Get out of my head, Cullen, I know more songs that I know you do not want to get stuck.
I sat still in the front seat, trying to catch my breath as I detached myself from the Oh Shit handle. I kept my eyes closed as I took deep breaths.
My door opened suddenly, startling me. I looked up and saw Edward standing there, patiently waiting for me to get my not-so-happy ass out of the car.
"I'm… Comfortable right here…" I did NOT want to meet his family, I'm barely comfortable being around him.
He sighed and used his speed to unbuckle me and pick me up out of the car.
I damn near screamed as he carried me into the house. "Dammit Edward! I said 'no'! Do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth?!" I would be hitting him right now if I didn't know in doing so I could break my hand.
"Stop it, Jessica." He said as he set me down on the couch, taking the seemingly wise move to stand several feet away from me.
It was at this moment that a short, pixie haired girl danced into the room.
"It's so good to finally meet you!" Alice squealed excitedly as she plopped onto the couch next to me to hug me. "I'm sure we'll be best friends!"
She was surprisingly gentle in her embrace. I pushed her away. "I already have a best friend, It's Angela."
She didn't even pout, she just continued to smile at me. It was unnerving. It was like she knew something I didn't- nevermind, I forgot who I was talking to for a minute.
It wasn't long before I was surrounded by the rest of the Cullens. I was readily accepted by Esme and Alice, but, obviously, rejected by Rosalie. Jasper I was unsure of whether or not he accepted me, he just stood standoffish in the corner of the room. Emmett just stood with his usual goodball grin and his arm around Rosalie's waist.
I could feel the blonde model's glare on the back of my head as I stared intensely at Edward, completely annoyed at him in every possible way.
He tried to avoid eye contact, I don't know why, he is supposed to be unaffected by anything a human can throw at him. Although I suppose I'm not a normal human.
"Why did you bring that… Thing in here!" Rosalie hissed at Edward, in a way I suppose I wasn't supposed to hear.
"Like you're any better Miss Vampire." I muttered, "You're not even considered human anymore." I glared at her, daring her to attack me. "You're married to a meathead." I looked over at Emmett, who secretly I liked a lot, more than Edward anyway. The big guy didn't even seem offended by the comment, in fact, I earned a laugh from him.
"She is going to spill our secret at any moment, we should just get rid of her before she can." She glared at me darkly, like she would gladly do it herself in 30 seconds or less.
I shot up from my seat and ignored the wide grin on Alice's face.
"Excuse me how the hell did it take so long for me to become a threat? You have a mind reader, future seer and a fucking emotion sponge," I pointed to each individual as I spoke, "if I had wanted to tell the world your secret I could have done so months ago."
"I could have done it in any number of ways, like, become a huge social media icon and spill it that way. People are sheep to those they'll listen to. Or I could have called the fucking FBI, but see I didn't, even if I did, I would have ended up in the Looney Bin!" I threw my hands in the air, glaring at Mrs. Prissy. "And don't get me started on ways to kill you guys, I know of one very effective way, and the biggest one involves dismemberment and fire. Trust me when I say that it looks like ripping apart a mannequin you left in a freezer box for a week." I eyed them from the corner of my eye as I started to pace. Carlisle and Esme seemed to understand my panic and moved to block Rosalie from doing anything crazy.
"Not to mention the fucking shapeshifters in the Quileute tribe." I muttered, holding my chin with my left hand as I started getting lost in thought. "There's…. Sam, Paul, and Jared right now if I remember correctly, Oh! And Leah, Seth hasn't shifted yet…" I continued to mumble random things under my breath as I started giving into the panic. It was becoming difficult to breath as I stopped moving altogether. "Oh shit… That one guy. Oh man. If he got a hold of me because of my stupid knowledge he would lose his marbles with the stuff I know. You know, the one with the freaky laugh and weird hair and outdated clothes?" I looked up and Edward stiffened as he took in the mental image I was projecting at him.
"Aro." He hissed, causing the rest of his Coven to stiffen as well.
"How the hell does she know all of these things?!" Rosalie hissed back at him, which just caused him to sigh.
"It's a long story." He replied. "I didn't tell her any of this." He shot her a glare, which lead me to believe that she was thinking that.
"How the hell did it take so long for you guys to take action on this!" I sat down and gripped my hair tightly as I tried to catch my breath.
"Well it can't get any worse." Carlisle said, his voice had this odd soothing nature to it. I couldn't tell if my panic was subsiding because of that, or because Jasper had taken over my emotion pattern.
I sat down slowly as I tried to catch my breath once more. "You're right. I'm not afraid to die a second time." I rolled my eyes, muttering to myself about reincarnation and its bullshittedness. Of all times to miss my baby, it had to be now. I could feel my shoulders drooping as I tried to get ahold of myself before I started to cry.
I could feel Edward's eyes on me as the room went silent. I understand completely what Rosalie and Esme are going through, with the loss of a baby and the loss of ability to have one, I don't know if I could even compare. For all I know my baby is growing up healthy, going to school. For all I know he could have gotten married and given me grandbabies already.
"What do you mean, die a second time?" Carlisle asked, standing behind me by now. I looked up at him and sighed.
"Honestly, that's a long story. I already told Edward about half of it, he probably got the rest from my thoughts and memories from my past life. I still don't know if it was all a dream or not. It all felt so real." I shook my head as I gazed down at the nice, shiny hardwood floors.
"We have a lot of time." Alice chirped, sitting next to me once more. I looked over at her, suddenly feeling emotionally drained. I'm so damn tired.
"I guess I owe you guys an explanation then…" I mumbled, leaning back on the surprisingly comfy couch.
Here is chapter 6! This is so exciting! You finally get the chapter you've been asking for and I've got 5 and a half chapters already finished. Unfortunately that doesn't mean faster updates, unless I get 1 and 1/2 chapters finished then I can post (Editor/beta's rules.) Let me know how it is!