She let her body fall hard against the water.
She let the waves push her around.
She didn't want to live anymore.
She wanted the pain to stop,
Her friends were gone,
Her love untold,
She couldn't,
She couldn't stand to stand on the earth unless her friends were standing beside her. She didn't want to want any more than she could have. She'd kill to kill her pain. Yet she'd die to end her suffering.
She didn't want to feel the harsh water against her bare flesh as it knocked her back and forth, but like scratching at an itch, it would distract her pain with another. She'd happily rip out her emotions knowing she'd never feel anything she wanted to again.
Her friends were dead. She knew that.
My friends are dead, her thoughts echoed.
And there's nothing I can do to get them back.
X'hal, I am done with life. I can do no more good, she whispered as the waves beat against her.