"What's wrong?" I ask.
He reaches over and pulls one of the leather straps open on my wrists freeing it. He then reaches over and pulls the other one his fingers working fast to open the other strap to free my wrist. He pulls out of me and I wince. He's not inside me anymore and I feel empty and lost.
He climbs off the bed and I see his jeans cupping his rear as he pulls them up covering himself. I sit up to look at him and see the leather riding crop and blindfold on the bed next to me.
His hands grip my left leg and undoes the leather strap with ease before moving to release the right. His fingers doing it with such grace and ease like he has done it a million times. The thought unsettles me. He still hasn't spoken. I'm sitting staring up at him.
"Please, talk to me," I ask softly this time.
He is pacing back and forth across the dungeon. I think back to before and remember him giving me the car.
"Is it the car? Christian, I was just shocked at the gesture. It really looks like a wonderful car." I offer to him.
His gaze finally turns back on me and it's full of fire.
"You know damn well it's not about the car." He states.
I knew it, he is still hung up on me kissing Jose on the cheek and hugging him.
"I'm sorry, it was an accident. I was excited that I got the interview and I didn't think." I say moving off the bed.
"This is the same man that claims to be your friend and almost attacks you when you're drunk. And you kissed him." His words throw me for a moment.
"It was an accident! I don't like Jose that way, I never have!" I say trying to get through to him.
"He can give you what I can't." He says softly.
"Christian, you can give me everything and more than Jose ever could! What can't you give me that he can?" I say getting annoyed.
"He can give you love. I can't." He says as his head drops into the black hole that seems to be swallowing him up with sorrow and anger.
"Well, it doesn't matter, because I love you."
The words spill from my mouth and he freezes turning to look at me.
I knew it deep down inside. I had been feeling it for a while but for the words to finally be free, to be spoken, to be heard feels so incredibly good. My inner devil and angel both nod in agreement.
I love Christian Grey. He is the man for me.
Looking up at him, I don't get the reaction I was expecting, in fact, I have no idea what I was expecting from him.
His eyes are filling up. He is shaking his head from side to side like he is trying to fight something dark. His eyes open as I step closer and I can see the anger is still there, but there is so much anguish over his face.
"You can't." He says weakly. His confidence is gone, his body it trembling.
I take another step towards him and freeze bemused because I see him take a step back. Is he scared of me? What does he think I would do?
"I do, Christian. I love you." It feels good saying it again.
"No one can ever love me! I can never love you!" He shouts back at me.
His words bite down hard on me, stopping me in my tracks. My mind snaps. What has he got against love? I have had enough of this "I don't do love" shit!
"Why? Is it because I kissed Jose on the cheek? Is that so important to you? Did it hurt you that much? Are you that fucking messed up that one kiss upset you that much?" I shout at him.
His gaze on me is like burning fire.
"It pissed me off, Ana. You're mine." He growls.
"So, I made you angry then, right? What now? Do I deserve to be punished for this unforgivable transgression? Would you feel better, then?"
In a quick move, I grab a long red cane from one of the racks. It feels weighted and solid. I step up to him and push it into his hand while my eyes blaze with anger.
"You want to punish me, don't you? Here, use one of your toys to punish me!" I scream out loud.
His fingers tighten around the cane.
"No. I can't do this." He tells me. His gaze is looking anywhere but at me. His eyes are filled with both anger and fear.
"Do you not want to punish me? Have I not hurt you? I did kiss Jose, didn't I? Now punish me!"
I don't know why these words are coming out my mouth. It could be any of many reasons.
It's anger for him saying he could never love me. Have we not already shared ourselves in love so many times? I need to try and bring him back. With his need for control, if he punishes me he should calm down to being the happy and playful Christian again. I don't know, maybe that will work. My inner devil is getting prepared for him. My inner angel is hiding behind the sofa under a blanket hugging her pillow.
(This small chapter will lead us into the final one. Ana finally tells Christian just how she feels about him. However she has also angered him. As if her punishment wasn't enough she's pushing for more.
There will be one final chapter after this and that will bring you up to speed. I truly hope your all ready for what's in stall for you.
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