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hellooo...ok..soo this is a continuation of the last chapter..and its much longer too!..yay!...its again more serious than the last..but i hope u guys like it!

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Chapter 12: Frustrations and Fears

Flashback Continued

The clock at my bedside table read 2 o'clock. Two in the morning that is. The last time Sakura wasn't sleeping next to me she was ready to rip my testicles out for something that I did (that I never did again, might I add). As pathetic as it sounds, I miss her. My bed seems bigger and colder than I last remembered it. To top things off, I couldn't' help but feel like there was something wrong. Call it my shinobi senses but I'm worried and I feel like I have good reason to be.

What could she possibly have to tell me? Something went wrong after the doctor's appointment; that much was certain. Damnit! I should have gone in with her. I should have been there!

I tried running every possibility through my head but I refused to accept any of them. There was no way that something bad was going to happen to her. The last thought that popped into my head was pregnancy. What if she was pregnant? I couldn't help but feel a nervous excitement grow at the pit of my stomach. That in it's self scared me. I was excited to father a child? No, I was excited to father a child with her. I stopped my train of thought. Maybe I shouldn't get my hopes up but it was very possible. Sakura and I have rarely worried about protection. It may have been a foolish idea, but we trusted each other.

Thoughts of there being an Uchiha inside Sakura allowed me to relax, and eventually fall asleep.

But not for long. A few hours later, I sat up in shock as I remembered my nightmare. It was of my father yelling at me to become more worthy of his attention, and slowly, my father turned into me and I was yelling at my own son. What if I really do become like my father? How could I be a parent if I couldn't even remember my own parents save for my father's constant screaming.

I shook my head. Why was I thinking about this when I wasn't even sure what Sakura was going to tell me? What if it really was nothing? Whatever it was it was driving me crazy, again…and making me lose sleep, again.

I looked over at the clock again and this time a big glaring five blinked back at me. Only nine more hours until I find out.

There's no point in lying in bed when I obviously wasn't going to sleep anytime soon. I slid out of bed and started going through my morning routine, and I was out of my house in half an hour.

Training never failed to clear my mind and that's exactly what I needed right now. I walked swiftly towards the training field. When I crossed over the familiar bridge and into the familiar clearing, all I could think about was Sakura. Guilt, anticipation, and worry coursed through me. I was guilty for not being there with her and worried for the news she would tell me. Most of all, I was frustrated. Not only could I not fix this problem, I didn't even know what the problem was. I vowed to protect her; at least, that was my duty because I love her right? But it's so damn hard to protect her when I don't know what I'm supposed to fend off.

My mind was so muddled with these thoughts that I just started throwing punches and kicks sometimes at targets and sometimes at imaginary enemies. I was relentless in my barrage of attacks, and it seemed the best way to take my mind off of my real problems.

When my muscles started to ache from overuse, I stopped and sat under the tree I was supposed to meet Sakura at later on. I hoped more than anything that Sakura would be ok. Before, I refused to accept any of the scenarios my mind came up with because they all ended with Sakura suffering. Fear gripped my heart at the thought; I wouldn't be able to handle that.

I looked up at the tree I was sitting under and it reminded me of our first date. We were incredibly nervous then, or at least I was. To be honest, it was my first real date ever and I wasn't exactly sure how to be a 'good' date. The fact that I was still feeling insecure didn't help either. (A/N: a flashback within a flashback…weird…oh well!)

I closed my eyes and frustration welled up inside of me again. Angry. I was just pissed off now. Of all the people who could have bad news from the doctor's why did it have to be her? Why am I always being punished for trying to love someone?

Angry, frustrated, worry, guilt-filled tears burned my eyes, threatening to fall, and I smashed my fist furiously into the ground, hoping that the pain in my hand would block out the pain I was currently feeling. But I couldn't feel anything in my hand and my eyes continued to burn as I squeezed them shut harder. I couldn't let anything happen to her. I won't let anything happen to her. No matter what it is, I will protect her.

Somehow, through all that anger and frustration, I drifted off under the cool shade of the tree.

A few hours passed by until again, I woke up in cold sweat. This time the nightmare was about something far worse than bad parenting. The images of Sakura crying out for me on a hospital bed played over and over again in my mind. In my dream, I couldn't' reach her and she couldn't see that I was standing in the doorway. She kept crying out in pain and desperation. I felt chilled to the bone and my hands were shaking so badly. I hoped that all this waiting was just getting to my head and that the worrying was all a false alarm. It was more than hope though; it was a dependence and a need. I needed it all to be a false alarm.

I got up from my pathetic state on the ground and dragged my exhausted body home. All the physical training and mental panic had taken its toll on me. I needed to take another hot shower and mentally prepare myself for my meeting with Sakura.

As I unlocked the door to my house, I was mentally crossing my fingers, hoping that when I swung the door open, I would find her in the kitchen. However, as my door really did swing open, all I found was an empty and silent house.

I trudged in, throwing my keys onto the counter and pulled off my sticky clothing. When the hot water of the shower pounded down on me, I didn't feel any of the stress wash away, as it usually did. As I closed my eyes, my mind became clouded with all the images of my previous dream, just as the room was becoming foggy with steam.

Once again, I was frustrated. Frustrated with the lack of desired affect I thought the shower would provide for me. I got dressed and sat down on my bed. Propping my elbows on my knees, I ran my hands through my hair. I was ready to rip my hair out from all of the frustration I was feeling.

Through the crack between my fingers I glanced at the clock on my bedside table. Surprisingly, through all the training and drifting off and showering, I managed to blow off many hours. My clock read ten to one. Only an hour before I met her. I knew that if I sat in my house waiting for her, I would drive myself more insane or end up in front of the neglected TV. So I got up and left in the direction of the training field again. I would wait for her there. Maybe she would also decide to show up early.

Again, I found myself sitting under the same tree that Sakura and I had shared a lot of memories under. I tried desperately to sit there like a rock without any thoughts. Whatever she had to tell me, I had to be strong.

As I sat there reminding myself that I had maintain my composure, a blur of ANBU sped past the bridge, through the field, and into the forest. What could possibly be that urgent at 1 o'clock in the afternoon? Soon after, I saw Kakashi-sensei sprinting after them.

"Kakashi!" I yelled out

He stopped in his tracks and turned towards me.

"Sasuke! We need you too!"

"Need me? For what?"

"This is urgent, so I'm not going to beat around with bush with you," He paused looking at me with eyes full of warning. I knew something was wrong since Kakashi- sensei was acting serious.

"Orochimaru is back."

"Back?" I choked out.

"There's no time for explaining, we have to contain him and his men before he reaches the busier parts of the village."

I was in complete disbelief. It's not like I thought him incapable of attacking again, I was just so lost in the new life I had built for myself to ever stop to think about the bastard attacking again.

Anger boiled in me. How dare he show his face here again? That fucking bastard almost ruined what I had left of my life and I want to serve him all the hell he put me through. I'll be damned if I let him get even close to the village. I will destroy him.

I looked back at the tree. I still had almost an hour before I had to meet Sakura, and I reasoned that I will have already crushed Orochimaru before then.

I nodded at Kakashi and we sped after the ANBU men.

This would be the perfect outlet for all the pent up emotions that had threatened to boil over the entire day. Not to mention the fact that I have waited years for this, for a chance to inflict the most excruciating pain on the sennin. From the second I entered the village of Sound, I knew that one day I would destroy him. No one controls an Uchiha and gets away with it. Today was my lucky day.

When we arrived, a large-scale battle was already taking place, and I could recognize a few of Konoha's most talented ninja amongst the chaos. By the looks of it, Orochimaru had brought along every one of his pathetic minions. But I could sense him immediately. My curse seal began to burn for the first time in a long time. The stronger I could sense him, the stronger the pain in my neck and shoulder. It was starting to become unbearable and everything in front of me became blurry.

"Sasssssuke," an all too familiar voice hissed at me from behind.

I twisted around with lightening speed but I couldn't see anything besides more blurry figures in combat.

"Long time no see," the voice said from behind me again

I swung my fist angrily towards him but again, there was no one there. That fucking bastard loved to play tricks with me.

"Fuck Orochimaru! Stop being such a fucking coward and let me beat the shit out of you!" I yelled out angrily.

Suddenly, my vision cleared and I was standing in the clearing completely void of any other ninja.

"Tsk, tsk, tsk. I thought I taught you patience Sasuke." Orohimaru was now standing in front of me, mocking me.

"The only thing you taught me was that I should kick your ass whenever I get the chance." I spat back.

"Oh Sasuke, will you ever learn? That mark on your shoulder means that I have control over you forever….until the day - you - die." He hissed out.

He reached out his hand and placed it onto the curse mark. I swung my arm at him but I was too slow and he caught it with his other arm.

Upon contact, the pain that burned through my veins was excruciating. My eyes burned and my vision deteriorated again as I fell to my knees. I tried to pry his hand off of me but I couldn't. More pain coursed through me and I fell onto my hands.

"You're a fucking piece of shit," I hissed out.

"Now, now Sasuke, you're in no position to disrespect your master."

"Fuck off!" I slowly got back onto my feet and tried to formulate a plan of attack with the pain still searing through me.

"If you continue to use that obscene language with me, I will be forced to teach you a lesson."

"Why the hell are you here? There's nothing left in Konoha for you!" I was trying to buy myself time.

"I thought I would pay my most handsome student a visit, I've missed you Sasuke-kun. Haven't you missed me?" He hissed uncomfortably close to me.

"You're fucked up"

"You have no idea…oh and there's something else here for me too," He paused and licked his lips, "I hear there's a very powerful, not to mention beautiful, medic nestled here in Konoha."

"Shut the fuck up," I said menacingly.

"My my, I always thought you weren't interested in women. What else could I assume when you took no particular interest in any females that I presented to you. But I think now I've found the real reason for that. You had someone dear to your heart back home didn't you? How sickeningly sweet Sasuke-kun, but I must say, I'm jealous."

I kneed him in the gut, " I said shut the fuck up!" His body flew into a tree where he crashed and slid down to the ground.

I watched as he stood slowly. He smirked maliciously at me and wiped the blood from his mouth with his hand. He then proceeded to lick that hand in sick content.

"If I were you, I would be very careful about what you do to me, Sasuke. Even if you have no disregard for what happens to your body, I'm sure you wouldn't want me to hurt a certain little cherry blossom. Oh, how I would love for you to give me a reason to hurt her. Inflict the most delicious pain upon her tight body until she screamed and begged me to stop." His eyes were filled with sadistic lust as he slowly said the last words.

An uncontrollable fear coursed through me and blended into pure anger.

"You would be dead before you could even reach her." I replied with my own sadistic pleasure.

"Are you so sure?" He replied with a callous smile.

In a flash, he was gone. I whipped around searching wildly for him. I turned around again at the sound of someone behind me. I could barely stop myself from throwing my kunai when I saw who it was.

"Sakura?"

There was a woman on the ground. A sickening feeling passed through me as I saw her trade mark blossom coloured hair. She was on the ground, a pool of blood surrounding her and seeping from a wound in her head and abdomen.

"Sakura!" I yelled in horror as I ran towards her.

My heart was pounding in my ears and I prayed that she was still alive. But when I reached for her and felt for a pulse, I realized with dreaded terror that her hands were ice cold.

"Sakura! Sakura please wake up! Sakura!"

I couldn't help the tears from falling from my eyes as I tried to shake her awake. This couldn't happen; I was supposed to protect her with my life. I needed her to live. She was the only one I had; only one I loved.

"Sakura…please."

I held her cold body to me, desperately trying to bring her back to life. Tears constantly blurred my vision and all I managed to see around me was crimson staining pink.

"I need you…I..need you." I whispered to her.

"Fool!" A voice hissed from behind me, "Pathetic FOOL!"

"SASUKE!"

To Be Continued!

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ok..this chapter was and interesting one..and i liked writing it...for some reason..evil things are easier to write than happy things...mwuahhahaa...ok..i'll stop with that..lol...

I am so clsoe to the end..that i can taste it! lol

WOW..SOOO many of you thought that Sakura was pregnant!...is my story that predictable?..lol..as u will read later...it was hard to respond to the same guesses..but still loved to see that thats what u thought!

Anyways..here are my replies!..i was rushed with them this week so sorry about that!

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DemonGirl11: can't exactly answer ur question:P..lol..but keep reading..and maybe u'll find out!

Wolfs: haha…yeah I guess u and sasuke have something in common..waiting..lol..im sorry for that…but this one is back to the regular schedule..and as long as it should be…so I hope this makes u happy!..thanks!

Aion teleos: aww..thanks SO much!. I've always been afraid that everything was a bit rushed so to hear that u thought it as developed is great! And I can't tell u whats gonna happen with what sakura found out..but I hope u read it!..thanks again!

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