Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.

ok..so this is the last chappie!...tear.. i'm soooo sorry its late!...i worked REALLY hard on this chap..so i reallly really hope you like it!...theres not much more i can say cuz i don't want to spoil it..so read my notes at the end!

oh!...and you'll need this to understand whats going on:

ITALICS font means flashback (i won't be announcing start or beginning of a flashback in this chap..i don't want to ruin the flow of the events so pay attention!)

BOLD font means Sasuke's present thoughts

NORMAL font means third person...the story started in this style..then u got to know him more personally so it switched..and now..its ending off in this narration .

Enjoy!

Chapter 13: He waited..She came

Relief quickly flooded my body as my surroundings disappeared around me and was again replaced by the battle that was going on. Sakura's body in my arms also faded and I was left holding air. As confused as I was, I soon realized that it had all been one of Orochimaru's twisted genjutsus. But the familiar voices at the end sounded so real…where'd they come from?

"SASUKE!"

I knew that voice. I whipped my head around and felt my heart stop.

On his hands and knees he crawled, the tears flooding his eyes and blurring everything in front and around him. This new moisture that he did not feel for days, now threatened to spill.

It could have happened three days ago, three hours ago, or even three minutes ago. He lost all track of time and all the events blurred together, making it impossible to distinguish what happened when. But who the fuck cared about time? The result was clear, and the clarity made him want to vomit.

And vomit he did. He threw up but nothing came out because he hadn't eaten in a long time and he cried out in frustration. He crumpled into a feeble form onto the ground.

She collapsed in front of me and I tried my best to catch her. I watched her fall and I couldn't breathe.

"Sakura" I could only whisper her name.. "Sakura…"

"SAKURA!" I screamed as she hit the ground and I saw the kunai imbedded into her chest.

I crawled desperately toward her and prayed that this was just another genjutsu. But as she looked up at me with a gentle smile on her face, I knew that it wasn't. The smile was just too real.

"Sakura…" I couldn't say anything else. I couldn't think, couldn't breathe, couldn't understand anything that was happening.

I cradled her body against mine; tears, once again, blurring my vision.

"Sasuke… I love you.." She said in a voice so quiet I could barely hear her. And she closed her eyes peacefully like she was only taking a nap.

"Sakura…"I whispered again. "Sakura..."

"Only fools die for love."

I looked up to see Orochimaru laughing like it was all a joke and I couldn't even bring myself to get up and hurt him. All I felt was panic and the feeling that if this wasn't all another dream, I wouldn't be able to live. I couldn't think about anything else.

I looked back down, "Sakura, wake up, please wake up."

What right did Sakura have to die for me? Or what right did I have to be protected by her? I was the one who left her all those years ago. I was the one who turned my back on her when she loved me. She let me in again and the least I could do for her was to give my life to her. It wasn't supposed to be the other way around! It just wasn't fair!

It was like some horrible nightmare that he woke up from only to find that it was real. And again he let out a hoarse cry. Until now, he refused to think about her death. Before, the images of the events leading up to that moment had been playing over and over again, but not her death. He was trying to grasp onto her and onto every memory he had of her and them together. He was so afraid to lose her, to forget the curves of her face or his memories of her. But now that he did think about her death, the pain came rushing back.

He felt empty. So incredibly empty and devoid of any emotions except pain and sadness and grief. He didn't have anyone to talk to and he had nowhere to go anymore.

How could he go home? He would only see her in the kitchen, putting away the groceries she bought for him, giggling, smiling. If he walked down the street, he would see her waiting at the ramen house for him or coming out from the hospital.

No. He didn't want to go anywhere. This was the place she loved to come to watch the sunset. This was their place and every breeze and blade of grass and branch of a tree was her. This is where he said he would meet her. This is where she said she would meet him. New tears spilled onto the dirt beneath him. She said she would meet me here…

We were all gathered at the edge of the training clearing, where Sakura and I had our first picnic over a year ago.

"She was a talented and cherished woman. May she rest in peace."

Everyone around me put their flowers onto the freshly dug soil like they were ready to give her up. Like it was fine that she was buried under ground and would never get up again. I wished so much that I could be like everyone else. I wanted to put my flowers down and walk away like the rest of them but I couldn't. Behind me, Naruto was on the ground crying like a pitiable baby. He was weak and it disgusted me. I refused to cry. I wanted to walk away too, but my legs wouldn't move. Weakness. That's what I get for falling in love. I'm being punished for believing that I could be happy …that I could love and be loved.

I clutched the flowers in my hand, willing myself to put them down amongst the other flowers but my hand just gripped them harder.

People were now coming up to me, offering their condolences. Why did these stupid people think I cared if they were sorry? They're not even really sorry. They're relieved instead, relieved that it wasn't their loved one's funeral they were attending. Well fuck them! I don't care what anyone has to say to me. I just want to leave. I never want to see her again.

I felt a hand on me, "Sasuke," I ignored the voice.

"Sasuke," The person shook me

What the fuck? Why can't this person leave me alone?

I looked up. It was the Hokage. I wanted to lash out at her and wipe off that look of pity. I didn't need pity.

"Sasuke, I'm sorry."

I didn't look at her and I didn't say anything back. I didn't need another stupid apology but when I heard some sniffling, I looked up. She was crying. I resisted the urge to yell at her.

"I..I'm truly sorry for you losses, I know how much S-Sakura was looking forward to motherhood."

My head snapped up. "What?"

"I..I thought she told you,"

"Told me what?" My heart was pounding loudly in my ears.

A pained look crossed her face, "Sakura was pregnant."

Pregnant? I brushed past Tsunade and closer to Sakura's grave, searching as if I would find some evidence to prove that she was telling the truth.

She was going to tell me something…was that it? My eyes started to burn with familiar tears and I squeezed them shut. I didn't want to cry anymore. Crying was for weaklings. I was supposed to be strong.

I was surrounded by people crying for her. Naruto and Hinata, Ino, Lee, and some people she knew from work. They were all crying, and for what? Because they lost a friend? They were all so pathetic and I hated them so much. What right did they have to cry or be upset? No one lost as much as I did. Sakura wasn't just my friend; she was my life. No one deserved to cry because they didn't understand the meaning of pain.

…I said I would meet her here., and I left. I left so that I could destroy Orochimaru. I left her for Orochimaru. I left her. If I had stayed…

He couldn't bring himself to say what he thought was true.

He looked down at himself and noticed that he was still in his black suit from the funeral. But now the once crisp suit that Sakura had ironed for him was wrinkled and covered in dirt. He never did manage to walk away from her grave.. he couldn't bring himself to leave her side.

Ironic wasn't it? All those years ago, it had been Sasuke leaving behind a desperate Sakura and now here he was desperate for her to come back to him. Desperate for her to say it was all just another illusion. He never thought he would feel like this, like he would be the one begging, pleading, and crying….but it's ironic how love works.

Pain. There was nothing that could describe the pain that ripped through him over and over again. I should have protected her but instead I let her die for me. She died in front of me and I did nothing to stop it.

Guilt. Waves and waves of guilt mingled with the pain he felt. And he cried. Cried every tear that he ever held back in his life. Nothing ever had the ability to bring him to tears. Nothing except her. Nothing else mattered.

As the tears streamed down his face in a torrent, he felt a hand on his shoulder. He turned around, not bothering to wipe his shameful tears. He just didn't care enough about that anymore.

"Sasuke.."

When he saw who it was, he chose to turn away from him.

"Sasuke, listen to me. You can't stay here forever."

Sasuke brushed the man's hand off of his shoulder, but the man urged him to turn to look at him.

"Sasuke, come on," He said softly, "Just come and stay with us for a while."

Sasuke refused to turn and refused to acknowledge the man's existence.

"Here, I brought you this to eat." He held out a sandwich on a plate wrapped in cling wrap.

"I'm not hungry," Were Sasuke's first words.

"You haven't eaten for days…since…then…," the man paused, "Please Sasuke, the least you could do is eat it."

"I said I'm not hungry."

"You can't starve yourself! You have to be hungry! Don't be stupid!"

"I'm not fucking hungry!" Screamed Sasuke as he turned around and smashed the plate with the sandwich on it onto the ground.

"Sasuke, you can't do this to yourself. It's not healthy." He said concernedly.

"I don't care."

Frustrated, the man yelled, "You're being stupid! Why do you have to act like such a child! You're not the only one who cared about her! We're all hurting, you know! Why do you have to act like it's only you, like you're the only one suffering?"

"Shut up Naruto." Sasuke said in a deathly quiet voice.

"No, you're being fucking selfish right now. I get it, ok? You loved her. But we all did. Do – Do you think she would have wanted you to rot here?"

"SHUT UP!…you don't get anything! No –No one fucking understands!"

"There you go again acting like you're all alone. I'm tired of trying to beat around the bush with you. I can't watch you become this….because…because I know that Sakura never would have wanted you to be this way."

"You don't know what Sakura would have wanted! She's not fucking here so stop pretending like you know what she wants!" Sasuke broke out in angry, guilt-ridden tears.

Naruto couldn't say anything to that. He fell back into his saddened silence.

"She….She was …pregnant." Sasuke choked out the last word. "She was pregnant and I let her die! She was carrying my child and she…I let her go.."

He looked up at Naruto to see if he would respond but Naruto's face became ashen.

"I …I was supposed to meet her here. She was going to tell me that she was pregnant. I would have had a family…a child..and her. But I left. I left because I'm a fucking idiot! I left her and now she's gone..they're gone!..I…I would have married her.. I wanted to marry her…but I left her…for a stupid fight!…I left her…it's my ..my fault she's.. gone." Sasuke's words were broken up erratically by his tears and strangled out sobs.

Naruto remained silent. What could he say? He was frightened to see Sasuke the way he was. Never in the years he had known him did he ever see Sasuke looking as pathetically torn as he did now. He never thought Sasuke was capable of becoming this way because, even though they were always rivals, Sasuke was always the strong one, the unbreakable one. And here he was… broken.

When he was met with Naruto's silence, Sasuke continued. "So what are you going to say to that?" He asked bitterly. "Are you going to tell me that everyone understands me? That everyone knows how I feel? I killed her! I killed her and our child! So what the fuck can you say to me now?"

"It's not your fault," Naruto managed to say.

Sasuke looked up at him with bitterly incredulous eyes.

"You didn't know. There is no way you could have predicted the future."

"I said I would meet her here! Didn't you hear me?..If I had waited for her, we would have left this place and none of this would have happened!"

"You wanted to help ANBU! You didn't mean for her to try and find you!"

"But she did! Because I didn't stay there!"

"No! You're being stupid! You can't blame yourself for this!"

"Fuck off Naruto! Fuck off! If it had… If it had been Hinata and you…you would understand me. But don't fucking pretend like you know how I fucking feel because you don't! No one does! Just fucking leave me alone!"

Naruto gave up trying to reason with him verbally and tried to drag Sasuke to his feet. But Sasuke threw him off angrily and punched him in the face. He didn't care if this was his best friend. He didn't want friends; he didn't want anyone.

"FUCK OFF!" Sasuke roared.

Naruto looked at his best friend's face, and it was full of malice. He couldn't watch Sasuke throw his life away. He wanted to persuade Sasuke through any means possible but Sasuke's words had shaken him. He learned things that made him feel guilty for what he had said earlier. But Sasuke was not someone Naruto knew anymore. He didn't know what to say to him or what he could do. He turned around and walked away back to his home, his Hinata.

Although it was hard for him to admit all that he did, Sasuke knew it was the truth. As much as he would have liked to hate Orochimaru and be happy for his death, he knew that ultimately his own actions led to Sakura's death. He left and she tried to find him, and while he was trapped in Orochimaru's genjutsu, she protected him.

Everything. Everything that was my family is gone. She – She was carrying my child. We were going to be a family.

He should have let her go when he had the chance. He should have told her that he wasn't good enough for her. He should have revealed to her that he ruined all happiness in life because it was, after all, the truth. He couldn't remember the last time happiness had ever lasted for him. And then a familiar though crossed his mind. Maybe if he had let her go, he wouldn't feel this way, he wouldn't be suffering this way… But he was selfish, so goddamned selfish.

The images of Sakura falling in slow motion flashed in his mind again. There isn't ever going to be anyone like her again. And she isn't ever going to come back.

She gave him so much. She taught him so much. She was the one who turned a beast into a man. She had the ability to melt his frozen heart and make him jealous. She would never again be able to wash away his hidden insecurities by telling him that she loved him. She made him apologetic and now he couldn't even apologize for the one thing he needed to apologize for the most. He wouldn't be able to open up to her and he wouldn't be able to watch another sunset with her. She made him fall in love. THE Sasuke Uchiha, incapable of showing any kind of affection, fell in love. He let her into his life and she became an indispensable part of him. She gave him everything.

I let her down. I used to think that if I really wanted to, I could protect her no matter what. I used to think that since she meant so much to me, I would find a way to save her from anything. I wanted to protect her with my life... but I didn't.

As pathetic as it was, he wasn't anything without her and he knew that. He couldn't exist without her. How was he supposed to handle life without her after having been with her, after having fallen in love with her.

He couldn't.

I can't and I won't live without her. No, she isn't gone forever and I'm going to get her back. I promised to meet her here. He laid his head against the cool, rough earth of Sakura's grave.

The flow of Sasuke's tears started to slow and his heartbeat returned to normal. He knew what he was going to do and he felt a sudden peacefulness. He lay there with all the torment of the past fading away. He knew that she would meet him here; he knew how to reach her again. All he wanted was to see her smile again and feel the soft ends of her pink hair brush his face as she kissed him.

The peacefulness of his new situation also made him aware of the exhaustion that he had tried to ignore for the past weeks. The lack of food and lack of sleep were catching up to him and he became progressively weaker, and more tired.

The heavy guilt in his heart faded as he thought about her and all of the times that Sakura would tell him that she loved him, washing away his insecurity.

He let his eyes close serenely and he pictured her at his refrigerator, giggling about him. He saw her standing in the clearing watching the sunset with her hair blowing softly around her and he smiled when he saw her yelling angrily at him while trying to kick him out of her house. Then they were in his bedroom and her arms were around him from behind as she pressed the side of her face against his back. He saw her resting her head on his shoulder telling him that she loved him for the first time. Next, she was sitting on his bed in front of him with a gift in her hand. Lastly, he saw her walking through the doors of the hospital and realized that that was the last time he saw her before….everything happened.

"Sakura.." He whispered to no one.

The last thing he saw was her leaning down with a smile and the last thing he felt was the soft tips of her hair tickling his face as she kissed him. He waited…and she came. Now, they would truly be together forever.

"I love you."

The End

Hey guys!

Wow you guys must all really hate me now!..i killed off sakura i know!..im soooo sorry..but it had to happen...seeing as how this was supposed to be an angsty fic right?..well i knew she was gonna die all along so i was kinda getting worried about u guys being pissed at me since soo many people were like she better not die..hehe...well it was my idea before i even started writing the fic out...and most of u guessed the pregnant thing..so congrats to u!

This will probably be the last time i get to say stuff for a while...i don't know when i will be starting my next fic..i need to get the motivation...which i lost many times through this fic..but im really glad i managed to finish it!

This chapter was a killer for me...i don't know why..i thought it was going to be easy..but i must have rewrote it like 80 times...i just wanted it to be perfect...so if there's any spelling mistake or something..im just gonna go shoot myself..:S..lol..anyways...thats why this chap is a little delayed..which i apologize for!...but i literally sat here for days and days writing this chap..well yeah like i mentioned above..i hope u really like it..and i tried to be all deep at the end like switching narration to represent how sasuke wanted to become detatched from everything in the outside world...lol..i don't think deep is my thing tho..

Before i start my replies..i want to say thank you ALL soo much for all of your support!..really everytime i didn't feel motivated to finish a chapter..i read ur reviews and they really helped me to get inspired to get the next chapter out!...u guys made writing this a really good experience and i can't believe that its been like 3 or 4 months and that the fic is over 40 000 words and i've gotten over 140 reviews!..all of this amazes me...(i get amazed by little things :D)..lol.and special thanks goes out to all of those people who took the time to review for every chapter that came out..u know who you are..and im grateful to have such faithful readers!

ok well...here are my replies:

sasusaku90: well..there you go…u were right! And if u guess preggers…u were right again!…lol..well I hope u like the ending as much as u liked the whole fic!..thanks for ur support!

Dancingwithinbrokendreams: thanks…tell me what you think about the end ok?..sorry for the delay! And thanks so much for all ur reviews…they were great inspirations!

DemonGirl11: you are definitely loved!..lol..and I hope this meets ur expectations! And I feel like I should give something back to people who did take the time to review..anyways..tell me what u think and thanx!

Asimi: thanks sooo much!…really I appreciate what you had to say..it feels really good to hear that!..and I hope I have kept it up!

naruto fan: I hate cliffies too!…but now that I could write my own, it was SOO much fun…. Heh heh…sorry that u had to suffer for my amusement…lol..well now all the cliffies were addressed..hope u like it!..and thnx for reviewing!

Claud-kun: lol..yeah..i wanted to confuse people with the last chapter and leave it off like that.. I thought it would be interesting..but now everything is revealed!. So what do u think?…lol…pouting doesn't work on me…lol..but I hope this was soon enough for you.. anyways..thanks!

SushiLuver: yes exactly!…I always feel like everything is too cheesy and OOC for sasuke. I thought this chapter was going to be the easiest one to write but surprisingly..SOO not the case!..wow…it was difficult even with all the sadness…oh..and u were also rite about the illusion..lol..congrats on that..and thanks for ur support!

animefreak8292: thanks!…tell me what u think of the end too..please?..lol (I really did try to get it out fast..)

Sweetblacksorrow: thanks so much!…yeah..all that was explained in this chapter…do u get it now?..lol…tell me what u think

ailatan uchiha: well..now she really did die..its sad!..and I really hate to destroy your vision of her being alive!…but I hope u still liked it!..and thanks for reviewing!

SORAxANDxKAIRIx4EVERx0508: was the ending of that chapter really that funny?..lol…I hope u liked this chap!..tell me what u think..and hopefully this one wasn't funny..:P

Letty: thanks!..ur awesome too!..lol

SakuraUchiha4: lol!…well now you know..what do u think?…thanks for the encouragement!

Aion teleos: Yeah..i totally agree!..he freaks me out…but great predicitions….they were partially right…Orochimaru wasnted to kill sasuke..but I didn't focus on that cuz I didn't want it to become something important I wanted to focus on sasuke and sakura…but again, good guess…and I didn't want you to suffer!….well maybe a little..haha..but anyways thanks a lot and I hope I answered ur unanswered questions!

Winner: I wanted a cliff hanger!..lol..and I didn't forget..it was my plan to leave it off until now..haha…thanks..and I hope u liked the end!

Wolfs: lol..yes I know….i felt really bad for him in this chap…and I do hate oro too…I hope this satisfied ur curiosity!..and thanks for reviewing!

Aerith Gainsborough Strife: lol…well…hehe…I kinds feel bad now...cuz he did do something to sakura..hehe…but I hope u still liked it!…and..uhh..thanks!..lol..sorry about sakura again!..and don't cry!

Suicidal Butterfly: lol…she is dead…:(..sorry!…yes I know..sasuke loves her..but that's the irony of it all see?..lol…and I didn't really explain how Orochimaru so that's left up to ur imagination..personally..i like that idea of CATS and sharp things..lol…and I won't even try to understand the MEEP..lol…thanks for reviewing!..tell me what u think about this chap too..sorry if I disappointed you

Crimson Romance:..lol..i know..i can't help it!…we haven't really ever seen sasuke in love with anyone..so we don't really know how he's gonna act..right?..lol..well that's my excuse..i tried hard!..lol…thanks tho..i tried to make him less OOC in this chap..but that was even harder since he was always crying…oh well..thanks again! And tell me what u think of him!

Crystal: OMG thanks!..lol..i guess I did let u know huh?…well u were right about it not ending happy..hehe…but it was suppose to be angsty wasn't it?..lol..well thanks again!

Tishni: lol..sorry!…I didn't want her to die either…but its supposed to be an angst fic!..lol…but Oro dies…so at least u got one of ur wishes…and thanks! im glad u love it!…I hope u still do love it!…oh and in the end..they do kinda live happily ever after…right?..lol

VcChick: I did my best!..hope it was soon enough for you!..lol…tell me what u think of the end!..lol..and thanks!

PHew! that was the most reviews i got for one chap!.

thanks again to everyone!...even though this is the last chapter..please tell me what you guys thought!..i'm especially curious if u thought this was a good ending..even though sakura did die..oh and i know the perspectives kept changing which might have been confusing..so like always if u have any questions please feel free to ask cuz i will reply ..i can answer anything now since im not trying to keep the plot a secret!..yay!...so yeah i lied before..i will probably write one more time just to reply to all ur reviews..its the least i can do for all of u :)

well ..till then..bye!

PS. i hate the summary for this fic..but i am HORRIBLE at summaries!..as u can see..if someone wants to help me out with that i would be forever grateful!..i jst really want to change it!