Hey y'all it's Marie!

After a lot of careful consideration this is my official leave from the community.

As mental and physical challenges arise, I've found my willingness to continue on this path has run dry, much sooner than I would have originally thought or probably liked. After loosing some important people in this community and in real life, I do not feel like this is beneficial anymore. I love Ashes and MZ down to every last character, whether it be throwing them in volcanos or ripping apart their hopes and dreams or having assassins rage Panem. Because I love them so much this is a very personal decision for me.

That is not to say I am done forever. I will not be revealing the MZ victor for at least a few months (I'll release a heavy summery because I had SO MANY plans for this story), because there is a possibly of me changing my mind and coming back down the line.

To me, this is a heartbreaking moment because there are so many good people here. I do hope anyone who wants to say in touch can because will be able to be reached on here (I will not delete my account).

Now, the most important part.

If I make these any longer I will sob, but here are some little notes to people who have made these past 3 (almost 4) years memorable.

Dear Trish,

I love you bb.

You have the kindest heart out there, hands down. You are ingenious and always came up with the best ideas. Your caring natural is so beautifully expressed in the way you talk. You have a way with words, please, never give that up (HA). You are enough. You are enough. You are enough, a thousand times. Bb, you are loved and even if I'm not there to check up on you everyday, I will always keep you in my heart. I will always remember you but I do really hope you stay in touch (you have my insta and poetry accounts).

I love you bb.

Dear Rune,

You are amazing. I feel like you were my cool older sibling who always had my back. I loved laughing together about our traumatized characters and I saw HEY, Vrai on your page. Just know, she will always stay with you. She has found a home in both of our hearts and I hope you manage to weasel her into any other works of fiction you may create. You are a such a playfully funny and loyal friend and I've always enjoyed your company.

Dear Joe,

Older bro, my dude, broski, broseh, I will 100% miss you dearly. You are the kindest dude out there and god, how I miss *gently* reminding you to sleep almost every night. Please someone do that for me, just remind him calmly ever so often, please and thank you.

But Joe, You were always so supportive and made me feel like I had a place even when I was at my lowest. Don't ever stop being the nicest guy in the room, you are fantabulous. I hope you do well in life. But as a matter of fact, I know you will do well, because you're JOE you're just awesome like that.

Dear Nell, Goldie and Plat,

Even though I didn't know you three all too well (HA) I really do appreciate all of the short convos we shared.

Nell, your last review for MZ, it means much more than you will ever know. And Plat, I really do hope that job goes well 3

Thank you, all of you.

Dear Tia,

I have no idea what's happening in your life right now but good on you sis! You were always so fun to be around and I loved all the little jokes we shared. You are hilariously funny and I hope you never loose your charm.

And finally...

Dear Raf,

I know. I know. You're not here anymore.

But I miss you, so so very much. And I wish upon every star that you're doing alright and maybe one day our paths will cross again.

I will never forget you, my twin; my best friend.

I love you.

"Never forget what I did, what I said
When I gave you all my heart and soul.
Morning will come and I know we'll be one
Cause I still believe that you'll remember me"
- Never Forget by Greta Salome and Jonsi

As always have a good day/night/afternoon.

Goodbye,

Marie464 signing off.