Author's Note: Fair warning, this is a very long chapter for me!! I am actually very proud of it too!! Well, I guess it doesn't matter what I think. It only matters about what you all think!! I would like you thank you to all who have reviewed!! I would also like to thank everyone who has been pointing out my mistakes, thanks. I'm not very good in English class; I'm more of a Science, Math, Choir chick.

Just so you know, I will be going back and editing the other chapters (1-10) whenever I get any spare time. Which probably won't be for a little while… I'm going school shopping Saturday, church Sunday, Monday I get my braces off and I'm going to a St. Louis Cardinal Baseball game, Tuesday I have to go and meet my new teachers, Wednesday I'll be writing chapter 12 for this story and chapter 6 for my other story, my school starts back on Thursday!!! So I'll update whenever I can fit it in my schedule.

Sorry for my rambling… back to the story. :D

Chapter 11

I Can't Love You

The raven-haired Gryffindor known as Harry Potter was sitting in a chair next to the window in the Gryffindor common room. For once he was glad that the Common Room held no people in it besides him. Harry loved being around people, but at the same time he much more preferred to be by myself. It gave him a chance to think without being interrupted.

Harry had set the Common Room up like a personal study. He had his books and papers strung everywhere. He had been trying to do his homework but all he had done was create a mess. He had a book in front of him and was trying to read it; but his mind just kept wandering away. Soon the book was just blur as Harry's eyes unfocused.

These days Harry was finding himself more and more confused. He really like being with Draco, well he liked the thought of being with Draco. But at the same time everything was just going too fast. Harry wasn't even sure if he really liked Draco. Yes, he liked the way Draco made him feel and the way that Draco touched him. He loved being with Draco, but he didn't know if he could ever really love Draco.

Harry ran his fingers through his raven-hair and sighed. He knew that he did like Draco; but he just didn't know if he was ready for Draco. Harry just didn't want to be moving too fastly. He didn't want to fall to hard or to fast for him. He didn't want Draco to love him. Not yet anyway. He was scared of love. Loving for Harry always ends in death. And Harry sure as hell didn't want Draco to die.

Harry was snapped out of his thoughts. He heard the sound of tapping. He looked over at the window in the Gryffindor Common Room. There was a black owl. Harry got off of the couch and let the bird inside. The owl did a lap around the room before landing on a small table beside Harry.

The owl stuck his leg out wanting Harry to free him from the parchment. Harry took the piece of parchment off of the birds leg. He rubbed its feathers affectionately. The black owl hooted before it turned around and flew back out the window. Harry watched the bird soar out of the window. He wished that he could be that careless and free. After he had lost sight of the bird he turned his attention back to the piece of parchment. He slowly opened it.

H,

Come and meet me outside by the lake. I need to see you again. I miss you. It is just hard for me to be away from you. I know sappy right? Sometimes I feel like I'm starting to turn into a girl or something. Come out as soon as you can get away from the Weasel and Mud-blood.

Talk later,

D.

Harry quickly crumbled the letter into a small ball. He walked over to the fireplace and threw it in. Harry watch the small piece of paper catch fire and then turn into ashes. He hated burning Draco's letters. He knew that he would also hate it if someone found out about them being together. So he burned all of the evidence.

Harry left the Gryffindor tower and began to head down towards the Entrance Hallway. Harry was very happy to not meet any of his friends on his way down to the Entrance Hallway. He didn't really want to have to stop and explain himself to his friends. He didn't want to have to come up with another lie just so he could see Draco.

Harry didn't meet or see one person until he reached the Entrance Hallway. When he reached the Hallway their was a group of Slytherins standing there talking. Harry didn't want them to see him, so he tried to hide.

They easily spotted Harry. Harry tried to ignore them, but they didn't ingore him. They all walked right in front of him, blocking his way. Harry tried to walk around them, but they just moved into his way again. Harry was beginning to become restless and angry. One of the older boys came towards Harry. He reached out and shoved Harry down onto the ground.

Harry stood back up and tried to walk around them. For some reason they all seemed to be letting him go by. But at the last second one of them stuck their foot out causing Harry to trip and fall. Harry busted his chin against the cold hard floor. Harry picked himself back up off of the ground. He kept walking forward trying to ignore them.

"Aaawww, look the little hero won't fight us!!" One of the boys chanted out causing the rest all to burst out in laughter.

"I guess he' afraid cuz dubmlydoor isn't around to protect him." Another one added in.

Harry turned around to say something back, but thought better of it and just kept walking outside. One of the 7th year boys followed him outside and continued to tease and taunt him. Well, until Harry had finally had enough of their crap and turned around and punched the guy.

Once Harry was left alone, he made his way down to the lake were he and Draco always met. Before he even got down to the spot, he had already made up his mind about one thing. If he and Draco were going to do anything then Draco was going to have to be the submissive one this time.

As soon as he reached the area where he was supposed to meet Draco, he was swept away by a very passionate yet forceful kiss. Harry felt someone guiding him towards the ground. Harry's body agreed to be pulled down but his mind was screaming in protest. You're the one is supposed to be making him submissive. NOT the other way around!!

It didn't last very long anyway. As soon as Draco had gotten Harry to lie down on his back beside him in the grass he stopped kissing Harry. Draco pulled Harry close to him. He loved the warmth that came off of the Gryffindor's body. Draco curled himself up into Harry's warm body. He placed his head on Harry's heart and wrapped his arms and legs around him protectively.

Draco laid there and listened to the steady rhythm of Harry's heart. He faintly felt Harry running his fingers through his blonde hair. He leaned into Harry's touch. Draco shut his eyes, he felt like he could just fall asleep in Harry's arms. When the touch had finally ended, Draco propped himself up so he could get a better look as his raven-haired Gryffindor beauty.

Harry's features were extremely soft. He noticed that Harry was sleeping peacefully. Harry's eyelids were closed but the were still fluttering. He's dreaming about something. His eyebrows were scrunched together. I wonder what he's thinking about. His lips were partially spread apart. Merlin, he just looks so innocent and loveable.

"I love you Harry James Potter." Draco whispered ever so lightly into the other boy's ear.

Harry mumbled something, but Draco couldn't understand what had come out of the Gryffindor's sweet mouth. The young blonde Slytherin couldn't resist the urge any longer. He wanted Harry. He needed to be with Harry. Draco leaned forward a pressed a light kiss on Harry's full red lips.

Emerald green eyes fluttered open then shut right back. He was enjoying the kiss that had woken him up. Draco usually didn't kiss him so softly. When Draco pulled away, both boys had very large smiles on their faces.

"Hello there sleepy head." Draco smirked.

"Sorry… I'm just so tired." Harry replied with a yawn.

"I've been there." Draco teased. He leaned forward and pressed another kiss upon Harry's lips, "but don't think I'm about to go easy on you."

"Really?? Who said you were charge?" Harry questioned as his hand travelled south and cupped Draco's growing erection.

"I…aaahhhh…" was the only answer that came from his mouth.

"That's what I thought." Harry smirked.

Harry laid Draco onto his back. Harry slowly started to undo the Slytherin's robes causing Draco to become fidgety. Picking up the speed he ripped Draco's pants and boxers down in one smooth movement. Harry began to run his hands over the insides of Draco's thighs.

Cautiously Harry began to lap the tip of his tongue around the head of Draco's cock. Draco gasped and grabbed Harry's fine hair. Harry brought one of his hands up and began to cup and squeeze Draco's balls. Draco grabbed Harry's shoulder and dug his nails into it.

With one swift movement Draco's cock disappeared into Harry's mouth. This caused Draco to moan and mumble out things that Harry couldn't quite understand. Harry began to bob his head up and down on Draco's throbbing erection at a very very slow speed. Draco cursed and writhed and called him a manner of unpleasant things, but Harry did not surrender. He grinned around Draco's member, and pinned his hips to the cold soft ground so Draco couldn't thrust into his mouth.
"You're… aaahhhh… so fucking evil." Draco complained.

Harry brought his tongue up, dragging his tongue up the underside of Draco's cock and began to tease the head of Draco's cock once again. He would slowly tease the head and abruptly swallow his entire length once again. Draco began to try to thrust himself into Harry's mouth.

"Merlin… Har… go faster…" Draco moaned out.

Replying to Draco's request Harry began to go faster. Shortly, Draco was shaking and gasping. Harry teased the head of Draco's cock again, resulting in another string of incoherent curses. Harry couldn't help but to smile. He loved know that he could do this to the other boy. He loved to know that he could cause the boy to writhe with pleasure.

"I… I'm gonna…" Draco tried to say but he just couldn't get his mind to function properly.

Harry began to suck and tease Draco harder and faster than he had been. When he felt that Draco was about to explode he grabbed Draco's balls forcefully, and Draco came violently, cursing and pulling at Harry's hair in a way that made him worry Draco had pulled a handful of it out. After Draco came to his climax into Harry's mouth, he whispered out those words to Harry again, "Harry, I love you."

When the words that fell out of Draco's mouth hit Harry's ears, Harry was beyond belief. Shocked, he moved away from the other boy. Harry backed himself away; he couldn't be near the other boy for another moment. He was scared. The only thing that he didn't want to happen, happened.

Harry's whole body began to shake. He was scared. He didn't want this. He never meant for Draco to fall in love. He had never meant to fall in love. He never wanted to fall in love. He was scared of love. Only because every time he got close to someone, they either ended up dead or very hurt.

Draco sat up; he was wondering what had happened to Harry. One second he was there the next he wasn't. When Draco looked up he saw Harry sitting there with his legs pulled up against his body and he was shaking uncontrollably. Harry looks like he had seen something that was scary, like death or something.

Harry looked up at Draco. Harry needed to know if Draco just said it for the moment, if he said it because it slipped, if he said that to every person he is with, or worst of all if he said it because he really honest to god meant it.

"Har, wha-"

"Draco…" Harry said before taking a deep breath. "I need to know…"

"What do you need to know Harry?" Draco asked. He suddenly realized that something was wrong, very wrong with the way that Harry was behaving. It just wasn't Harry.

"Did you mean it?"

"Mean what?"

"Did you? Did you really mean…Did you really mean that you love me?" Harry asked so softly that Draco almost couldn't make out what the other boy was asking.

When it finally sunk into Draco's brain what Harry had just asked him he wondered if he really did mean it. Sure, he said it. But did he really mean it. Draco already knew that answer without even having to ask his heart if it was sure.

Draco crawled over to where Harry was. He raised his hand and placed it ever so lightly on the back of Harry's neck. He leaned in and kissed the Gryffindor soft and light but so passionately and forcefully. After they broke the kiss he responded, "Yes. Yes, Harry I really did mean it."

With those new words coming out of Draco's mouth Harry pulled away from Draco. He moved away from the boy. Harry's mind began to scream at Draco. Without being able to control himself, Harry started shouting at Draco.

"NO!!!! Damn it Draco!!! NO!! You just fucking can't!!!! You can't fucking love me!!! I don't want you to love me!!!! You…you just….fucking can't!!! I don't need you to love me!!! I don't want you to love me!!! I don't want you to be near me anymore Draco!!! All I'll end up doing is killing you!!! I don't ever want to see your fucking face again!!! Just get AWAY FROM ME!!!"

When Harry first started to yell, Draco automatically flinch away from him. Draco was just so used to his father blowing up the exact same way. Every time that his father yelled like that Draco always ended with being beaten. Draco was scared of Harry. He didn't like to see Harry like this. So mad and angry. It just reminded him too much of his father.

Harry curled himself up into a ball once again. This time tears began to streak down his face. Draco slowly got on his knees and went over to Harry. When he got beside the other boy, he wrapped his arms around Harry and pulled him into a hug.

"Don't fucking touch me, Malfoy." Harry snapped at him.

The second those words reached Draco's ears, he could have swore that he felt part of his heart rip. Hurt started to fill up in Draco's precious silver eyes. A small tear began to roll down his cheek. But it didn't matter what Harry said he wouldn't let Harry go. He needed Harry.

Draco didn't know what to do besides sit there and just hold on to the other boy. Draco's mind began to overflow with all different kinds of emotions. Anger, sadness, depression, confusion, hate, understanding, love.

As soon as Draco had finally thought that he had found a person to love him to care about him. When Draco finally thought he had found someone to get to know the real him, he thought that the person would want to get to know him and to love him. That person didn't want anything to do with him.

Once again Draco reached his hand up to Harry's face. He pulled Harry's face towards his own. Draco tried to look into Harry's eyes. But Harry wouldn't look at him. When Draco started to loosen his grip on Harry's face he pulled his face away from Draco.

Draco was beginning to become restless. He wanted to know what was wrong with Harry. He needed to know what was going inside of that head of his. Why won't he just look at me? Is he afraid I'll see something that he doesn't want me to. Is he afraid that the big bad Slytherin boy will be able to get in. Well, it is too late for that Potter. I've already been let in, with a full invitation and everything.

"Harry, look at me now." Draco said sternly.

Harry slowly raised his head up. Stern questioning hurt and loving silver eyes met hurt depressed angry and aggravated emerald eyes. Draco quickly and easily search Harry's eyes. Harry didn't have any of his usual guards up, so it was very easy for Draco to see right into Harry's soul.

Draco saw something that he didn't like. Draco saw regret in Harry's eyes. Draco knew that Harry regretted being with him. He saw that Harry really needed to be with him but he also saw that the boy wasn't going to allow himself to be with him anymore. Draco saw that Harry was planning on ever seeing him again no matter how much it would hurt.

Draco whispered out to him "Harry, please….Don't…"

"Don't what???" Harry shouted back him.

"Please, I need you, I love you."

"YOU CAN'T LOVE ME AND I CAN'T LOVE YOU DRACO!!!!"

Draco took a sharp breath. Pain spread through his body. Draco could feel a very large part of his heart just die. He knew that what Harry had just said was the truth. But he refused to believe what Harry had just said. Draco looked up at Harry's eyes once again and saw nothing but pain, hurt, confusion, and sorrow. He quietly asked, "Why? Why can't you love me?"

"I…I just can't." Harry stated flatly.

"Harry, please don't do this. I need you in my life. You are the only thing keeping me alive."

"Merlin, Draco!! You don't get it!! You don't understand!!"

"Then help me understand, Harry. Please."

"If you fall in love with me. I will hurt you or worse you might be killed." Harry snapped at him.

"Then it is worth it. If I have to die for loving you. So be it. Because I can't live without you. I don't want to live without you!! I need you in my fucking life. Okay, I don't know if I would want to be here without you."

"Draco, you would end up being killed!!"

"At least that way I would know that you love me!! I would know that you care for me!! I've never felt love in my entire life, Harry!! And the FUCKING SECOND I really think that I can let myself fall in love, the second I think that someone could actually care for me, you say that you don't want to love or care for me at all!! You say that it's not worth it and that you kill me!! Harry don't you get it by not being with me YOU WOULD KILL ME!!!"

"You'll thank me for this in the long run for doing this to you."

"NO!! HARRY listen to me."

"No you listen to me. I don't want to be with you any more. I don't want to talk to you anymore. I don't want to ever see you again. I don't want you to ever come near me anymore!!! Just stay away from me Malfoy. Just stay away from me."

"Harry please."

"NO!! DRACO DON'T FUCKING START WITH ME!!! I don't want to see you anymore!!! I won't watch you die like all the others. I won't hurt you."

"Harry just stay…"

"Draco, I can't do this. I don't want to do this. I know that you want to be we just can't!! I'm sorry… I just… I just can't love you Draco. I never will be able to either."

"Yes you can, Harry. Just let yourself."

"NO!!"

Harry stood up and sprinted to the castle. Leaving Draco sitting on the grass by himself. Draco then mimicked Harry and curled himself into a ball and slowly started to rock himself back and forth. Draco suddenly had the desire to just die or to some how just end his life.

He knew that without Harry, his life would become meaningless once again. That he would end up going back down the same old road he had been down before. Draco knew that without Harry he was nothing. Harry was the reason for life. Harry was the reason to smile. Harry was the reason to have hope. Harry was the reason to get up day after day. Harry was the reason Draco took care of himself. Harry was the reason why Draco was still alive now.

Draco knew that he really loved Harry. He also knew that Harry loved him. It was written all over his face. It snapped in his mind. That's why he's pushing me away!!! He's afraid that he will hurt me. He's afraid that I'm going to end up like his mum and dad. It's not like he can ever hurt me worse than my father. I need to get him back. But how?

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Harry's mind began to spin as he was running. He didn't know where he was running. All he knew was that he was running away. He was running from Draco, he was running from love, he was running from his life, he was running away from all of the feeling that he felt for Draco. Harry didn't want to lead that life; but he knew that he eventually would. He just didn't want to have to deal with it now.

Why did have to say that???? Could he have just left things how they were. Everything was great. I mean I really do care for him. I mean I would really like to love him. Just not now. Not with his father being a Death Eater. Not with his father alive. Not with Voldemort alive. There is just to much danger in loving him.

If he loves me and I love him… then that would end up in his death. I won't let that happen. I can't let that happen. But I really do love him. I really do want to be with him. But I just can't. I can't love him. I can't love anybody. I won't watch another person I love and care about die. I just can't do it. If I see anyone else die… then I would lose my mind.

Before Harry knew it he was standing in front of the portrait of the Fat Lady. He said the password and she let him in. Harry walked into the Common Room everyone went silent and everyone was giving him an odd look. Harry didn't feel like talking to anyone. Harry could hear the whispers chasing him up the stairs.

He ran up the stairs and into the boys' dorm. After he had entered the room, Harry slammed the door behind him. He threw himself onto his bed, pushed his face down into the pillow and cried.

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Hermione had just sat down after going off on some of the younger Gryffindor students. Irresponsible little brats. Why on earth would the leave their shit all of the Common Room like this. There were books and papers all over the Common Room. Not to mention that the window was left open. So now the Common Room was freezing cold.

Hermione put the stack of books on the coffee table beside her own. She picked one of the books up. It was the same Transfiguration book that she had. So it wasn't the younger kids. It was someone in my own YEAR!! God I am going to kill whoever mistreats their books like this. Hermione opened the book and looked at the name on the inside cover, Harry J. Potter. I am going to kill him!!! I was just yelling at him about this a couple of weeks ago, and now he does it again!!!

Hermione had calmed herself down so now she was quietly sitting in the Gryffindor Common Room studying her Transfiguration homework when a someone entered the room. She didn't look up to see who it was, she just kept reading. Shortly after the person had enter the room went silent then filled with raging whispers. Some Hermione could make out others she couldn't. She did hear a few that sounded like, "What happen…his face is all… looks like… was he crying?"

Hermione looked up from her book, she was not one who liked rumours and gossip; but this just sounded so interesting. When she looked up to see who everyone was talking about. The boy ran off and up the stairs. Even though she only saw the back of him as he went up to the boys' dorms, she knew exactly who it was. You can never mistake that black hair.

She quietly put all of her belongings into a pile next to Harry's and left the room chasing after the raven-haired boy. She was going to go up there and talk to him about his belongings and how he should treat them. When she reached the room, she pressed her ear against the door and listened. She could hear crying. Something is wrong. Why is crying? What happened? Hermione slowly pushed the door open and walked in.

Harry didn't stir so she took a few more steps towards the crying boy. Hermione walked up to him and placed her hand on his arm. He jumped at the sudden contact. He pulled his face out of the pillow and looked up at the person touching him.

"Go away, Hermione." Harry said flatly.

"What's wrong?"

"Go away."

"Harry… please talk to me. I'm worried about you."

"Yeah, right. I'm sure you've been thinking about me between all the times you been snogging with Ron."

"I have been thinking of you Harry." Harry rolled his eyes at her so she continued. "Harry just tell me what's wrong."

"Nothing is wrong."

"Harry…"

"I SAID NOTHING IS WRONG!!! NOW GO AWAY!!!" Harry shouted.

He was becoming annoyed; he wasn't in the mood to talk. He was in the mood to cry and mentally cuss himself out. Hermione walked over closer at sat herself down on his bed. Harry flipped himself over and sat up then glared up at her. Hermione reached out to grab his hand. But he saw what she was about to do and pulled his hand out of her reach. She looked up at him with sad eyes.

"Talk to me."

"No."

"Why?"

"BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG!!!! THERE IS NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT!!! THERE IS NOTHING THAT YOU CAN HELP ME OUT WITH 'MIONE!! SO JUST GO AWAY!!!"

"NO!!!" Harry looked up at her shocked. It was that often that Hermione would yell at people. "Harry I will not leave here until you admit that something is bothering you."

Harry looked up at the bushy haired girl and almost smiled. She knew him better than anyone. She never even had to try to understand him, she just did. Harry took a deep breath and looked up at her. He didn't want to tell her anything but he knew that he would end up telling her.

"You're right. There is something wrong…"

"It's okay… you don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to."

Harry looked down and thought. He thought of everything that had just happened in the last hour. He thought of being with Draco. Loving Draco. Yelling at Draco. Then leaving Draco. When he looked back up at Hermione his eyes were red and watery.

"Oh Har, it's okay." Hermione said as she wrapped her arms around him. Harry tried to fight her off. He didn't want her touching him, he didn't want anyone touching him. It made him hurt. Harry began to cry, he knew that he had fucked up.

"No…" Harry began "No… it's not okay. I royally fucked this time. I don't think I can live without… I don't want to live without… I mean I really fucked this up. "

"I'm sure that you didn't."

"YES I DID!! NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME AGAIN!!! There is no way I can go back now…there is no way… I don't want to go on… I need…" Harry shouted at her as more tears made their ways down his face. "Sorry… I didn't mean to…"

"It's fine Harry. I don't mind." She replied tightening her grip Harry.

Harry shuddered at Hermione's touch. Instead of trying to fight her off again he just curled into her embrace. Hermione slowly laid down. Harry laid his head on Hermione's stomach. He listened to her breathing as he cried. Harry tried to settle his breathes down. He slowed his breathes down until they were in time with hers.

Hermione slowly ran her fingers through Harry's fine hair. Harry leaned into her touch. So she continued so swirl his hair in-between her fingers. Harry wrapped his arms around Hermione tightly. He didn't want her to leave him. Harry didn't want to be left alone again.

He didn't say anything to her; he just cried to her. That's all she wanted. She just wanted him to just let it all out. She hated it when he tried to do everything by himself. Hermione knew that Harry wasn't as strong as he tried to pretend and she was just fine with that. She cared for Harry. He was like a brother to her. She loved him with everything she was.

Hermione looked down at Harry again. He was lying there sleeping on her. She didn't have the heart to move him. It had been a long time since Harry had had a good sleep. So there was no way she was about to wake him. Hermione settled into his bed more. She was slowly starting to let herself fall asleep too. Her eyes fluttered shut. She jerked them back open when a red headed boy walked into the room.

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Ronald Weasley walked into the Gryffindor Common Room and sat down on the couch. He saw some books piled up on the coffee table. Ron picked one up at read the name on the inside cover. He looked over at his baby sister who was sitting in the chair next to him.

"Gin?" Ginny looked up from her homework which was resting in her lap. She nodded for her older brother to continue. "where's Hermione?"

"Oh," Ginny took a deep breath and said, "well Harry ran up the stairs and Hermione chased after him. It's been about an hour."

Ron sat there for a few more minutes debating on whether to go up there or not. Ron slowly started to get up off of the couch. He stood up and stretched his body out. He began to walk over towards the dorm stairs when Ginny called out, "Where you going?"

"To see what they are doing." Ron said flatly and continued to walk up the stairs.

He reached the door to his dorm. He shoved his overly large ear against the wood. He didn't hear anything going on. He slowly and quietly opened the door. Nothing could have prepared Ron for what he saw.

His girlfriend and his best mate were lying in his best mates bed. Harry had his head on Hermione's stomach. He had a smile on his face. Hermione was playing with his hair. She had a small smile on her face too. Harry's face was red, so was Hermione's. Harry had his arms wrapped around her legs.

"WHAT THE FUCK!?!?! 'MIONE!?!?! HARRY!?!?!"

"Ron it's nothing."

"OH YEAH!!! IT SURE LOOKS LIKE NOTHING!!!"

"It's not what you think, Ron!" Hermione said as she slowly shifted Harry's body off of herself.

"Really. Then maybe you would like to explain why you two are in a bed together."

"Ron shut up!!" Hermione whispered harshly.

She grabbed her boyfriend's hand and led him out of the room. She shoved him out into the hallway. Ron looked at her with surprise. He had never seen her to aggravated in a long time.

"What in the hell is your problem Ron?"

"My problem? You were the one in bed with Harry!"

"So what!?! We didn't do anything!!"

"Right… and my name is Professor Snape." Ron said as he rolled his eyes. "Then what did happen."

"I don't know--"

"You don't know?? How could you not?? You were there the whole time?"

"That's not what I meant. I meant, Harry came into the Common Room all upset. He looked like he had been crying. He ran up to his dorm. So I chased after him. He was talking crazy Ron. He was saying stuff like he didn't want to go without something. He sounded like he was going to hurt himself or something. All I tried to do was calm him down. I just hugged him. He wouldn't let me go and I would let go of him either. He just fell asleep in my arms. It's been a long time Ron. A very long time since he has actually slept well. You should know that better than anyone. After all you're the person that hears him screaming out in the middle of the night. I just didn't have the heart to wake him up. Then you walk in like a blundering idiot and started to yell…"

"Oh, I didn't know, 'Mione. It's just I saw you two together… and I thought…"

Hermione leaned into him. She pressed her lips against his. When she finally pulled back she said, "Ron, I'm with you no one else. I only want to be with you. Don't worry about me cheating. If I ever need anything…I'll come to you." Ron leaned in and kissed the bushy haired girl again.

"So, do you know why he was upset in the first place?"

"No, he wasn't talking. Like always. I just wish he wouldn't keep everything to himself."

"I know, I know. But he'll tell us whenever he feels like telling us."

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The next day Harry woke up in his bed. He realized that he was still fully clothed. He knew that he must have slept the rest of the day away. Fuck. I missed breakfast. Harry slowly sat up in his bed. He looked around the room. Nobody else was in there either. Harry cursed himself; he must have slept away part of this Sunday morning.

Harry slowly put his feet onto the cold floor. He stood up and went over to his trunk. He opened it up and began to look for something to wear. Harry grabbed a pair of jeans and a red shirt. Harry threw them on and left the dorm. When he reached the Common Room he noticed that there was no one in their either. This is so odd… where is everyone?

Harry quickly began to go through the portrait hole. Then he saw over half of the Gryffindor house standing their all of them looking very upset.

"Thank Merlin. Very body go in." One of the 7th year students said.

Harry saw Ron and Hermione in the back of the crowd. He made his way over towards them to ask them what had happened. But before Harry could even ask Hermione was already answering him.

"The Fat Lady changed the password while everyone was downstairs eating breakfast. She won't let any of us in. That was, until you came out."

"Ohhhh…" was all Harry could say.

Hermione looked at Harry oddly and asked, "Harry are you okay??"

"Oh, yeah Hermione. I'm fine. I'm just going to go for a walk."

Hermione looked at him suspiciously before saying, "Harry it's your life. Do what you want."

Harry gave her a quick smile before he began to walk off. Harry didn't feel like going outside, it reminded him too much of Draco. There was only one place that he could go that didn't have any memories of Draco. The Library. Harry walked down the corridor towards the Library when he saw one person, that he didn't want to see. Harry tried to turn around and walk in the other direction; but it was too late, Draco had already spotted him.

Harry quickly backed himself up against the wall of the corridor. Draco walked over towards him. Harry's breath caught in his throat as Draco walked closer to him. Draco kept coming closer until their noses were an inch apart. Harry couldn't take he leaned in and they're lips rubbed against each others.

Draco grabbed Harry's legs and wrapped them around him. Draco thrusts himself against Harry's crotch. Harry moaned into Draco's mouth. Draco could feel Harry grow hard to Draco's touch. Harry wrapped his hand around Draco's neck and pulled him closer to him. Draco kissed Harry's lips lightly. Harry leaned in and kissed Draco harder. Harry snaked his tongue against Draco's bottom lip, begging for entrance.

He complied and let Harry in. Electric flowed through their bodies as their tongues rubbed against each others. Draco pulled back from Harry. He looked into his eyes and saw love, lust, and wanting.

Draco leaned forward and licked Harry's ear causing the Gryffindor to moan out. Draco whispered to him, "Tell me you don't want this. Tell me that you don't love me. Tell me you don't want to be with me."

Draco pulled back from Harry so he could see Harry's eyes. Draco saw several emotions flow through his eyes. But one that really stuck out was anger. Harry stood back up and shoved Draco away from him.

"Merlin Draco, couldn't you have just left things they were. Isn't this just good enough for you?? Why do you always want more??? Why can't you just be happy being with me??" Harry replied as he stormed off towards the library.

Harry entered the library. He walked to the very back corner. Nobody ever sits over there. That's why it was Harry's favourite place. Harry could get caught up in his own little world back there. Harry took his seat. There was a window right next to this one little corner in the very back of the library. Harry stared out the window.

How am I going to keep him away from me? I need him to just stay away. He just doesn't understand all of the danger in us being together. I can't, I won't put him through all of the same shit that I've been through. There has to be some way to keep him away and to stay away.

The boy continued to stare out the window. He was trying to think of some way anyway to keep Draco away from him. He loved Draco. He didn't want to see Draco get hurt. Get hurt? Hmmm… that's IT!!! I need to hurt him to keep him away. I need to go out and date someone else!! I'll have to break his heart in order to get rid of him. The first Gryffindor girl I see back in the Common Room I'll ask her out.

Harry jumped up out of his seat and ran out of the Library. He continued to run through the corridor until he stood in front of the portrait of the Fat Lady. He then realized that he didn't know the new password. Luckily for him Seamus was about to go into the Gryffindor Common Room also.

"Hey, Seamus do you know the new password?"

"Of course!" Seamus turned towards the Fat Lady and said, "Bowtruckle."

The Fat Lady swung open and Harry and Seamus walked into the Common Room. Harry saw a girl sitting in one of the chairs next to the fireplace. She's not the prettiest thing in the world. But she will have to do. Harry walked up to her. She looked up at him confused.

"Harry? Why are you loo-"

"Sshhh. Don't talk. I just have one question for you?"

"Okay." The girl shut her book and looked up at him.

"I want to know… well, that is, if you're interested… will you go out with me?" The girls face brightened up and glowed.

"Yes of course I will!!"

She grabbed Harry and pulled him into a hug. She then leaned in and kissed Harry on the cheek. Harry's face flushed red from embarrassment. Harry stood up. He felt himself being pulled into another hug. Harry turned around to see who was hugging him this time. It was the girl's older brother.

"Harry!?! Why didn't you tell me you had a thing for Ginny?" Ron said with a grin across his face.

Because I don't have a thing for her. I have a thing for your worst enemy. "I don't know Ron… I guess I wanted it to be a surprise."

It had finally sunk in what Harry had done. He was going out with his best friend's little sister. When Ron finds out that I don't really like Ginny, when he finds out that I'm just going to use his little sister, when he finds out I'm gay, when he finds out I'm with Draco, he is going to kill me!!

Ginny was sitting across from Harry with a grin a mile wide. Harry gaze a quick fake grin back at her. Harry realized that he had just made her dream come true. He also realized that he would end up breaking her heart in half. He also realized that within the last 24 hours he had made the biggest mistake of his life.

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Author's Note: Well, that's this weeks Unspeakable Passions!!! If you want to read something that has Harry more depressed and with a more screwed up life then read, Anger and Confusion. If you want to read something that isn't slash and a bit more smutty read The Vain Love. But even if you do read those stories, please, please, please review this story!!!