Breaks My Heart Chapter 2: Part 2, an inuyasha fanfic

Baby it breaks my heart
To think that loving me is not easy to do
And I don't mean to make it hard
Sorry for all the changes I put you through
And it's hard to believe
After everything you're still right beside me
Wouldn't trade you for this whole world
Thankful just being your boy
Never gave you my heart
Cause I never thought
You deserved any of me

He knew why he never told that stupid girl every time he saw her awaking in the morning that when the rising sun would glisten in her long dark hair, it stole the very air out of his lungs. In his mind, she was the most beautiful thing to wake up to and was thankful she was the first person he saw and the last person he thought of each day. To see her walking serenely towards him with her pure smile was all Inuyasha would ever ask for in life; that's all he ever needed to witness.

Inuyasha closed his eyes and took a deep breath, trying to catch Kagome's scent anywhere on the wind. Her lovely scent was gone along with her...he could smell her nowhere. He sighed and fell backwards to lounge in the high grass and stare up that the sky above him. A small purple butterfly fluttered above him and landed on the tip of his nose. He centered his amber gaze onto the small insect and frowned slightly at it as he reached up and snatched it from his nose. Feeling it frantically beating its wings against his hand was a strange sensation and he opened his fingers quickly to allow its freedom. The butterfly took flight once again and soared off on tiny powdery wings into the sky leaving Inuyasha alone once again.

That was one thing the Hanyou was used to. In his past, no one had ever showed him kindness or any sign of love like Kagome beside his own mother. Kikyo may have been kind to him at one point in time and may have even loved him, but it didn't matter now. The priestess had not trusted him as fully as he deserved and, of course, there was the fact that she was dead and the clay doll that walked the earth in her place was just that...a doll. It wasn't Kikyo and it never would be and he knew that like the butterfly he'd have to let his thoughts of Kikyo go. The woman who had now captured the heart he was afraid to give to anyone was Kagome and it would be Kagome who kept his heart for all time.

I never told you how I felt
When deep inside I knew that
You're really what I need

His bitter, frail heart, tainted by the mistreatment he recieved from humans had been tamed by an innocent teen girl. Despite what his companions thought, he was changing and, in a way, calming down.

Fear. For the first time in his life Inuyasha was afraid. He was afraid of rejection...afraid that because he'd broken her heart so many times that she'd say no and leave him.

Leave him...he wouldn't be able to deal with it. His love for her had grown so strong that he would not be able to handle it and if she did leave him for good, he'd gladly lay by this very well and wait for her return someday.

And I always gave you up
whenever I thought something better come along

Inuyasha shook his head, closing his eyes and snuggling deeper into the grass and weeds. Kagome...she thought that what he wanted was Kikyo but Kikyo was the last person on his mind. He had pushed her from his mind...and heart...long ago. Kagome was his and she was the girl he desired; lusted after. Of course though...he could never understand the pain he probably made Kagome experience the times he had been foolish and ran off to speak with Kikyo in some idiotic attempt to revive in him the shaky, yet peaceful time he had had with her before her tragic demise.

And right when I come back
You're waiting for me
And you welcomed me home

All those times, all the memories of how foolish and stupid he had been to her flooded into his mind and he winced. Fights over his decisions or even the silliest things such as stopping her from going home to her own time; Kagome had always accepted his apology and remained by him even though she was most likely hurt. And maybe it did hurt her... maybe that's what he was destined for in life. To cause pain to those he held dear.

Kagome landed gracefully at the bottom of the well in the feudal era dressed in a pink flowery summer Kimono that her mother had made for her to wear to a festival she was going to with her younger brother Souta. Being forgetful as she was, she had forgotten her purse full of her make-up at Kaede's hut and she needed them desperately. Kagome carefully began to hoist herself out of the well, hoping Inuyasha was nowhere near. She was still a little upset over their current little spat and didn't want to confront him just yet. She cared so much for the idiot hanyou but he was so inconsiderate of her emotions. Did he even notice how much turmoil he put her through she thought to herself as she almost slipped but regained her balance and continued up the stone wall. Inuyasha, still lost in his thoughts didn't notice the intoxicating scent he had been hoping for. She peeked her head cautiously out of the well's stone wall and spotted him in the grass, staring up into the sky as if he were waiting for her return.