Someone Screaming

Alternate Story – Dim Light

Ayane Selznick

He showed no sign of retreating. No sign of letting go. So she decided to let him in since she also wanted to talk to him. Not for her undying love for him but the future that awaits him. They both entered her house. She flicked open the lights which revealed the well-kept things inside.

They walked in and straight to the dining table. Sakura was still in the process of inviting Sasuke or not because it might be possible that her invitation will be declined. Out of the blue, Sasuke spoke. He stopped behind her, making sure that his low and murmured voice could be heard.

"Sakura, do you still love me?"

She stopped on her tracks. The feeling of losing air returned. Her heart almost skipped a beat. She was glad she wasn't facing him for he could have seen her dumbstruck face. He could have been disappointed from her shocked expression. In a way that he might think that she doesn't love him anymore.

He had always been straightforward. He doesn't think the words he's about to say. What he wanted is a concrete answer, nothing else. Somehow, it made him selfish because sometimes his words dug deep inside her heart. It kills her.

But the question he just threw to her, what kind of answer and understanding did he want?

There was a minute of silence before he added, "…can you forgive me?"

Finally collecting her words to answer, Sakura turned around and looked deeply into his eyes.

"If I was another woman, I wouldn't forgive you." His eyes were serious as he stared back at her. "But I'm not. Despite everything that has been done, the things you said that hurt… I still love you."

When Sakura was the one who had her heart skipped, it was Sasuke's turn to feel the same thing. He never knew that this feeling would come to him - the feeling that involved her and her undying love for him. For how long she'd loved him, it was too much. He couldn't find it in himself why a woman like Sakura would love him. He knew he was a bastard, selfish, and a sinner.

She smiled at him. A smile dedicated for him. "Dinner with me?"

Sasuke need not to think twice. She had always offered her a lot of times before. For once, he wouldn't let her down.

"Sure."

Their dinner was quick and quiet. Sakura didn't have the chance to ask him and tell stories about Konoha when he was away. She doesn't want to make him more miserable at that so she resumed in silence. Sasuke, on the other hand, didn't want to share his story when he was gone. His tormenting journey was sickening and he didn't want Sakura to know more about it.

When they were both done, Sakura put all the dishes to the sink. She stopped Sasuke when he was about to do the same. She told him to sit while she makes some tea.

After she washed the dishes, she noticed that Sasuke hasn't touched the tea. His face was stiff and his eyes were forlorn. She pulled a small towel to dry her hands. When done, she put it back near the sink and walked towards the side of the table.

"Is something wrong?"

He looked at her hand that placed on the surface of the table. With guilt ridden eyes he didn't look back at her. He resumed looking at his reflection on the tea cup which she gave earlier.

"No." He lied.

It was an obvious lie and yet he chose not to elaborate. He knew that Sakura will accept it. She was never the person who pushes topic when it doesn't need to be explained. While he restrained himself just like before, he felt movements beside him.

Sakura crouched to look at the stooped head of her guest. She had known him for so long and his lies wouldn't go away easily. But knowing him, she wouldn't also push it more instead she'd just give him a piece of advice.

"They say that silence is always the best answer. That in silence there is peace. But you being that way ever since we've been teammates, I doubt that it's best for you."

Sasuke was confused. He looked to her face only to find out that she was staring at him vividly. Sakura continued.

"You've been silenced for so many years, Sasuke. Why can't you open up a bit? There are so many people who are concerned for you, who love you, and yet you still chose to be in an isolated distance where you try to build up your barrier." Sakura tilted her head to the side when she added, "pushing away those who love you might be your greatest regret in the future."

She was right. All she said was right.

He had been like this for years and he never felt so afraid in his life simply imagining how these people would turn away from him. Before it was fine seeing as they keep on concerning him and it seemed hard to think that they would soon walk away. But now, he doubted. These people have their own lives. They have lived despite his absence. When he was gone, they had been looking for him. But now he has returned, what's next for them? What's next for him?

Sasuke looked back to the surface of the table. He willingly pushed all his lies away from his thought, decided that from now on he won't be isolating himself anymore. He didn't want to regret because there were things that he had been regretting in his life and it will continue to weigh down if something like this might add on his list.

"I…" He started. "I don't know what's next for me."

Sakura stayed crouching beside him, listening to his confessions.

"I don't know where to go. I've killed my brother but no matter how much I seek for peace, I receive nothing. There is nothing in my life but emptiness."

She slowly pushed herself up, thinking that he was done talking. She was wrong.

Sasuke reached for her wrist and continued. "I want to be home, Sakura."

It wasn't her first time to listen to his confession but this one's special than the rest. At least this moment, she knew that Sasuke won't be closing his ears when she speaks. She knew that Sasuke won't yell at her even when she knew she didn't mention things that might hurt his pride. And lastly, she knew that Sasuke longed for life now that nothing was thrown at his face.

She used her other hand to touch Sasuke's hand which was on her wrist.

"You restricted yourself because of your goal but that goal doesn't give you anything but emptiness. I've told you before, and I know you know, that leaving Konoha to kill your brother won't give you happiness. I offered you myself, my happiness yet you refused to take it."

She felt his guilt when he constricted his hold around her wrist.

"There's always a bright side in life, Sasuke. The problem with you is you keep on sidetracking. You don't want to look at it because you bind yourself with your goal. You think it won't help you to get strong." She caressed his hand. "You can only find that side when you free yourself from the shackles of darkness. Look at Naruto. No matter how dangerous his life is… no matter how many times people had tried hunting him down… and been outcast because of the Kyuubi inside him… he still pursued the bright side of life."

Sasuke loosened his hold and dropped his hand.

"As for me, I only find that side when you returned to us, when you return home."

He looked at her with eyes full of wishful thoughts and said, "But I'm not yet home, Sakura. I'm not home. My home is in the past and nowhere else."

Nothing could have prepared him for what Sakura was about to do. But it was a good thing because at least, from her, he would find a new hope just by listening to her and by being with her.

Sakura reached and encased his head. His head was rested below her breast, his face looking at the table. He could feel her warm hands around his neck and her body which made him comfortable. But what made his heart felt even warmer is when she spoke in calm and soothing tone.

"What's in the past is in the past, Sasuke-kun. You should welcome a new home."

Sasuke's face contorted. He wasn't angry at her and her words, but he was trying not to cry. It's hard for him to let go of the past. He had been dragging his life in his past and no one has ever asked him to live for the future. Now, here she is, begging him to let go of his ill-fated history. She was right when she said he had to move on. There is nothing waiting for him in the past - nothing but emptiness.

He couldn't decide so easily. He needed time to heal first and Sakura knows well how to help him.

Sakura stroke Sasuke's black hair, a simple deed that soothed Sasuke's already burdened heart. He responded by placing his face on Sakura's cloth, trying to wipe away the tears that suddenly pour down his cheeks. Sakura wasn't oblivious to this. She embraced him tightly and even stroked his back.

However, Sasuke carefully pulled himself away from her embrace to stand in front of her.

Sakura looked at him in the eye as if searching for something when he said nothing. Out of the blue, he reached a tender hand towards her left cheek, caressing her lovingly. The urge to close her eyes from his unexpected loving touches was controlled. She shouldn't be giggling over this. She's old and she has to help him for his life.

While she was in her deepest of thoughts, forcing her mind not to think of something else, Sasuke pulled her face without warning and crashed his lips to hers. Sakura's green eyes went wide and shuddering. She never expected him to kiss her. Not even to hold her and embrace her. This was too much. But she never regretted it. She had been dreaming for this for so long, and now it was happening.

There was something at the back of her mind that nagged her to look for answer why he was doing all this. But, she pushed it away. She couldn't doubt that the person kissing her right now is Sasuke because she knew Sasuke pretty well.

Sakura looked at his face. While her eyes were open, his were closed. She could never imagine that Sasuke would take initiative with this kind of gesture nor she could ever imagine him kissing her with eyes closed. She smiled in their kiss, finally giving in when she closed her eyes too.

Sasuke didn't just damp his lips on hers, especially when he asked her permission by slightly opening his mouth and letting his tongue escape to taste her lips. Sakura tilted her head and welcomed him by giving entrance in her mouth. As Sasuke got in, he immediately looked for her tongue to dance with. Sakura was hesitating until Sasuke had to pull their faces closer. This made Sakura gave in.

Her hot tongue slowly reached his already wet one. When Sasuke felt her touch, his other hand grasped on her waist, completely pulling her person to his. Sakura accidentally yelped inside his mouth but it didn't stop them from playing.

It lasted for minutes until they gave each other a slight push when they gasped for air. They looked at each other's faces. They were both flushing from the abrupt activity. There was no warning, no signal, but they both liked it no matter what.

"I…I'm sorry." Sasuke apologized for completely violating her person.

Instead of receiving a slap on his face, Sasuke was rewarded with a genuine smile - a smile that has always been reserved for him.

"If this is your way of beginning a new home, then I'm glad you're inviting me in."

For once in his life, he smiled at her – a smile he never knew he could do for her. "Sakura… thank you."

Sakura gave him a quick peck on the lips and smiled. Soon she walked towards her room and waited for Sasuke to follow.

(WARNING: This section includes mature content. Read at your own risk.)

When they arrived inside, Sakura didn't hesitate any longer.

She pushed herself to him. Her hands placed on his rigid chest and reached her lips to his. Sasuke held her neck and her lower back, carefully settling her body on to her bed. As Sakura was laid underneath him, she pushed his face gently.

"Sasuke…"

He looked at her and it was only that moment when she noticed that his eyes were only looking at her, and nothing else.

"I love you. I really do love you."

He smiled at this although at first he was afraid at the thought of her leaving him, forgetting her love for him. But now, he was just glad that the only person he trusted, cared and valued most hasn't given up for him.

He lowered his face, lips inches from her and said, "I don't know if love is something you give when you treasure someone."

Sasuke was unsure, but Sakura understood. "It's okay Sasuke-kun. I didn't want you to force yourself to love me. To be cherished by you is enough gratitude."

He shook his head, "You gave your entire life and love for me. I was selfish. I was a fool."

She cupped his face with her warm, tender hands. "Remember, Sasuke-kun, you're welcoming a new home. Past is past."

Only her words could simply sooth him. Only her words could simply give hope in his life. And only her words could easily capture his heart. When Sasuke nodded, he allowed her to pull his face to continue what they have left earlier, only this time, they both gained full access to each other's body.

Their lips were sealed with kisses, with swirling hot tongues inside. Sakura started the next level when she released her hold on his face to undress the first layer of her garment. Sasuke felt and heard the shifting underneath him, so he let his right hand helped her. When they got rid of it, it was his turn to get undressed.

He briefly pulled away from their kiss so he could pull his shirt up from his head. They didn't open the lights of her room, but through the moonbeam that penetrated through Sakura's window, she was able to see his firm and well-built body. He sure had grown mature. On the other hand, Sasuke was allowed to gaze at Sakura's fully built body. She sure had grown, too. There were no traces of her childhood in her body. Maybe, boys had been seeking for her hand. He was glad though, that no matter how many boys approach her, she was still loyal to him. She never gave her love to anybody else - anybody else but him.

Sasuke submerged to her lips once more. He felt her hands snaking up from his chest, to his neck and rested on his hair. His eyes instantaneously closed when she stroke his hair. His right hand started feeling her neck then down to her chest. Sakura gasped in his mouth. She was nervous but at the same excited. She could feel her full breast and hardened peak upon his touch.

Sasuke's hand remained on her left breast, despite the undergarment that was still attached on her body. Subtly, that same hand snaked towards her back to unclasp the said garment. She helped him by arching her back so that he could easily get on the hook and get rid of it. When he successfully unhooked her bra, Sakura allowed herself to pull it away from her body. By this moment, Sasuke was about to look at her but Sakura held his face, biting her lower lip.

Sasuke smirked. "There's nothing to be ashamed of."

"B-but…"

"It's alright Sakura."

He gave her a long and deep kiss before looking at her large fully grown breast. Sakura had to look away but her face had turned to darker shades of red. She couldn't imagine him gawking at her half-naked body. She was still hesitant.

The moment Sakura shyly looked away, Sasuke thought of surprising her. Without second thoughts, he enclosed the peak of her left breast with his lips while his other hand fumbling the other. Sakura gasped surprisingly from his actions and even dared to look at what he was doing. There was a long sexy gasp coming from her for a second time when she felt him licking the peak and around the peak of her breast. Her excitement was nearing its pinnacle that she had to hold on to his head while her other hand, grasping the pillow underneath her.

Sasuke repeated the procedure to the other breast. His left hand was now fumbling at her left breast but he was dragging his right hand towards the side of her abdomen and down to her undergarment. Sakura tightened her hold on him and on the pillow underneath her when Sasuke snaked his hand underneath her last underwear.

She felt the tip of his fingers in her core that was carefully feeling inside. She arched her back again when he tried to get inside her. There was a quick pain that shot through her nerves when he tried to force a deeper plunge. She cried from pain so Sasuke hastily retracted his finger and kissed her, trying to ease her of pain.

"Sasu…Sasuke-kun…" She gasped his name in between her breathings.

Sasuke looked at her last undergarment then back to her face in which her eyes were looking back at him. When she nodded, Sasuke responded by positioning his hands on both sides of her hips, where the garter of underwear was hanging. He gripped on the edges and with one cautious pull she was ridded of all garments. Sakura was completely naked before his eyes.

Since Sasuke was fully gaping from her breast down to her core, Sakura immediately pushed her body from bed to cling on Sasuke's neck. No matter how many times Sakura had been initiative from their childhood days she was completely opposite when it comes to this.

Both of their knees were apart and both of their thighs were touching one another. Sakura was nervous, Sasuke could feel it, but she was trying so hard for him to fulfill his wish – a wish for a new home. Sakura looked at him in the eye, a silent conversation was developed. And when she kissed him, she whispered to his lips that she's ready.

He smiled and whispered his gratitude for her kind offer. He kissed her once more and supported her to position on the bed. Sasuke paused for a moment to reach for his pants, removing it and leaving only his boxers and underwear. They were near the climax of this activity, but each passing moment gave them even more excitement.

So as Sasuke pulled down his last garments, Sakura cooperated by spreading her legs apart. He was able to see the part of which completes her. He now positioned himself in front of her core, pushing her legs more. Then with one final breath, he finally plunged his manhood inside her. Sakura released a painful cry from the penetration of his hardened manhood. Sasuke's free hand reached for the bed, just beside her to support his entire body not to crash her fragile one.

He started the rhythm when Sakura reached a desperate hold on to his neck. She even accidentally scratched his back when she felt pain. Sasuke gritted his teeth when he felt her nails digging on his flesh. He was going to decide to stop when Sakura suddenly begged him to continue. And when Sakura asked for it, he wouldn't back down. Without second thoughts, he thrust her. They both increased the speed of penetration. At this rate, they were both rocking at each other. Sakura continued to cry from pain and pleasure while Sasuke controlled himself by gritting his teeth.

They stayed in that position for a long time until both of their stamina reached their limits. Completely tired, Sasuke simply fell on top of Sakura. Both of them were panting. They could feel each other's sweat that covered almost their entire body. And most of all, they were able to feel the love in the air.

No words could describe their experience tonight. One of them felt fulfilled. The other felt welcomed.

"Sakura…" He called after panting heavily.

Sakura took a deep breath before responding. "Hmm?"

"I think…" He buried his face deep on her chest so she wasn't able to hear his statement. She only heard his murmur.

"What did you say?"

Sasuke took in a shaky breath before rolling to the other side. When he was settled, he felt Sakura rolling to his side. There was an obvious curiosity plastered all over her face. He turned to her. Softly he he caressed her face.

"I said…" He kissed her and when he pulled his face away, though separating their lips only by inches, "I think I love you."

He was straightforward alright, though still, no matter how loving and true his words are, she couldn't stop her tears forming in her eyes.

To be continued…

Author's Note: I was thinking if Sasuke's first question was appropriate. But he's really a straightforward person so I think it suits the first part. Ahem, how did you like the lemon part? I can't elaborate some areas so I tried to minimize the detailed parts. Still I'm hoping that it was good. One last thing, the next chapter is the final chapter so stay tuned.

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