Opposites Always Attract

"Speaking"

'Thinking'

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Chapter 8: Don't Cry For Me

Botan scowled, "When Hiei regains control of his body, you'll be sorry. S-so why don't you just get out now, and save yourself from the pain?" Botan spotted the spirit forming an energy ball in his hand. "Maybe I'll let him come back, after I killed you. The torment alone of not being able to save you will be worse than death."

"You-"

"-Silence! I've heard enough from you as it is. Now prepare yourself." The blast got considerably larger in his hand. Botan thought she could persuade the spirit into coming out of Hiei, but that backfired. All it did was make it more angry at her. As a last ditch effort Botan did the only thing she thought she could do; If this doesn't bring you back Hiei, I don't know what will! She kissed him.

Botan didn't know what she was thinking when she kissed him. She was about to die for crying out loud. But whatever she was thinking seemed to work, as the energy blast disappeared.

Hiei's eyes returned to normal, and his senses were regained. Everything felt normal, except for the fact that something soft was on his lips. He froze for an instant and his eyes widened, as realization dawned on him. As the initial shock wore off he leaned in closer, returning the kiss. He didn't know why he did it. He probably should've pushed her off of him. Told her it was the best for them not to start anything. If she got involved with him, she'd only end up getting hurt, like everyone else. Everyone would be better off if it weren't for him.

But, it was just so tempting. Her lips were so inviting, and her skin felt so good against his fingertips. It felt so forbidden, so wrong...yet so right. It felt as if they were meant for each other. For that moment, time seemed to stop, and everything was perfect. For just that instant, Botan was his, and Hiei was hers.

Finally, they broke for air. Botan was blushing madly, the red on her face contrasting against her cerulean hair. "We...we shouldn't have done that." Hiei watched as Botan's eyes widened. Could she have wanted him too?

"What? I-I thought you-"

"-It would be better. Better, if we- if we didn't do this." He couldn't, no he wouldn't put her danger. Too many bad things happen whenever he gets attached.

"What do you mean this? Hiei I just can't turn my feelings for you on and off like a switch! You obviously feel something for me too if you're denying it!" She had to get him to understand her feelings. She never, ever, felt this way about anyone before. And she wasn't about to let go of them.

"Do you want to get hurt too? Like everyone else? I'm not about to put you in danger because of some foolish emotion I might feel. We'd be better off if we didn't get involved in the first place."

"Do you think I care about any of that, Hiei? What good is living without you! Don't you see? I don't care if loving you could kill me, because frankly I'd rather die than forget about my feelings for you." Botan was on the verge of crying now, transparent drops threatening to spill.

Hiei's eyes widened. She was really serious about this, about him. His life wouldn't be worth living if she got killed, and especially if she got killed because of him. "Damn it onna, I'm not going to let you-," Hiei stopped short. The spirit, it hadn't left his body. He could feel it, trying to take him over again. "Botan, go." Hiei ordered.

"No. I can't leave you!" Botan saw him open his mouth to say something, but refused to let him change her mind. "Plus with your speed, it wouldn't matter how far I ran. You're still faster." She couldn't leave him. Not now. Not when they were so close to being what she needed them to be.

"Then...you have to promise me you'll do something." Hiei really didn't want to do this, not in front of Botan at least. But...she was being so stubborn, and it didn't look like she was about to leave him.

"What is it?"

"Don't cry for me."

"W-what are you talking about Hiei?" Botan watched in horror as Hiei unsheathed his katana.

"It's the only way!" Hiei's eyes blazed with determination. "I can't control it for long, and this is the one way to get rid it, for good. I was put on this mission to protect you, and I'll be damned if I let this thing kill you." Hiei smirked. "Besides, I was never good at losing. I figure this way, I'd take it down with me. Tell the toddler I couldn't wait any longer for him to find a solution."

"Hiei don't...," Botan whispered, too shocked to cry.

"I'm ... sorry, I couldn't find another way."

Reality kicked in and the tears flowed freely now, "Hiei! Don't do this. Please! I, I love-"

It was too late. Hiei thrusted the blade through his body and pulled it out, in one swift motion. He could feel the life quickly draining out of him. At least, at least she's safe.

It was all so fast, that all Botan saw was his body hit the ground. She ran over to him, tears mercilessly spilling through her eyelashes. His body was cold, too cold, and she could feel the last bit of demon energy be released from his body.

"Hiei, please, c-come back!" Botan hiccuped. She was crying hysterically now, and some tears landed on Hiei's cheek. With a shaky hand, she wiped them off of his face, as his words came back to her mind. Don't cry for me. She laughed bitterly. How could I not cry for you Hiei? I loved you! Now you're gone, and it's all my fault. No more hearing his voice, no more seeing his face everyday, no more feeling safe whenever he was around. "What can I do...?" An image of Spirit World popped into her head."Of course! Koenma has to let Hiei come back. He has to." Now, hope was the only thing that was keeping her from breaking down.

Koenma was furiously stamping the never-ending pile of papers on his desk when Botan burst through the door, carrying Hiei's body. He nearly spit out his Mafukan. "Botan what in the three worlds happened to him?"

"H-he killed himself, for me. He said it was the only way to kill the spirit." Botan's eyes were puffy and red, and her hair was disheveled. She looked like she ferried a soul to hell, and got lost on the way back.

When Koenma didn't answer Botan spoke up. "I want you to bring him back." All was silent until she heard the familiar scrapping of the chair being pushed against the floor as Koenma stood up from his desk. "You know I can't do that, Botan."

"No! I can't loose him! Koenma you have to bring him back." She set Hiei's body down.

"Botan you're being irrational. We were lucky enough to get him back the first time!" Koenma didn't want to pass of the fact that Hiei died, but he had to calm Botan down first. She was on the verge of a mental breakdown.

"I-I'll convince Enma myself!" Botan began to walk in the direction of the hall that led to Enma's chamber. Koenma quickly ran up to her blocking the path.

It was then that he came to the conclusion that Botan was truly, hysterical. She new that Enma would lose his temper and order something illogical be done to her. That's when Koenma looked at Hiei's body. His soul hadn't left it. He was still alive.

"Botan, listen to me." He put his hands on her shoulders, to calm her down. "Hiei's not dead."

"He's ... alive?"

Crappy place to end it? I know, I know. Buut I have a good explanation! I originally had more parts to the chapter, but I took them out and I'll probably end up putting them in the next chapter. I just wanted to update soon since I'm leaving on vacation on Sunday, and I figured I might as well update most of what I had. Heh, so what'd you think! Too much emotion for one chapter! Yeah, I don't know what I was thinking when I wrote it. I hope Hiei's still kinda-sorta in character, though. Okay I'll stop rambling now. Thanks so much for all your reviews, and please keep 'em coming!