Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN THE TEEN TITANS
CHAPTER 9: Hope for a Broken Heart
Beast Boy made his way through the hospital halls to the room Terra rested in. He listened to the horrifying moans and cries in the hospital dorms. He heard screams of loss, screams from the people dieing a slow and painful death, moans of sickness, and trillions of the heart monitors beeping…and…some coming to a halt.
He passed a dorm with an open door. There, a woman sat sobbing her eyes out and screaming. The nurses tried to calm her down, but apparently she had lost contact with the world around her. Beast Boy looked at the clip board on the door. It had a man's name on it. The woman must be his wife, or was. Beast Boy evaded the sight of the macabre scene.
He hated the hospital. It was so depressing and it made him sick to his gut. But the reason he was there made him sicker. But he swallowed his fear and regrets and continued on his way.
"Mr. Logan…This is her room. Are you sure you don't want me to go in with you?" The nurse asked.
"…I'm sure…" Beast Boy said a little unsure.
The nurse nodded and left him to suffer from what might be a dramatic moment.
Beast Boy came as close to the door as he could with out bumping into it. He braced himself for what he might see. An amount of stress suddenly body slammed him as he knew what he was about to see may give him eternal nightmares. He took a deep breath and twisted the door knob and opened the door. But he hadn't braced him self enough to prepare for what was next.
He gasped and stood in utter shock, he dropped the stuffed frog in front of the door way. His heart shattered into a million pieces and he almost went blind from the sight.
Terra was hooked up to multiple tubes and was in a white hospital gown. Her heart monitor barely kept its balance of noise and her body seemed to lay there in bed, completely lifeless.
Beast Boy did not cry nor blink, the sight only paralyzed him. He felt his breathing faint and his eyes felt dry for he could not peal his eyes from the girl in the bed. His mouth went dry and his breathing soon became ragged. He felt like he was about to pass out right in the door way. He then reminded himself if he passed out then he would not get to see her, in what might be her last moments on earth.
He slowly approached the broken girl and sat next to the bed on a stool. He saw her hand sitting limply at the side of the bed. He gently cupped his hand over hers and held it ever so tenderly. He could feel the ice cold feeling of it through his glove. Her hand used to be so warm and soft. Now it was like a rock. She felt so numb and cold. They must have injected her with something to remove some of the pain. Beast Boy wished the doctors could give him some thing to remove the pain he was facing right now. Though the pain he was feeling now had no cure, only time could heal it, but there would always be a huge scar in its place.
He looked at her wrapped shoulder. Blood had seeped through and stained the cast. She always looked peaceful while she slept. But she was far from peaceful at the moment. She looked troubled and sad.
'She wouldn't be in this mess, if it weren't for me…If only I had dodged that bullet in time, she wouldn't have sacrificed herself to save me.' Beast Boy thought to himself with regret.
She was going to be a great titan, just like before. She was going to help fight crime. They were going to fall in love again. They were going to live a life together, or so he hoped. But every thing was now shattered in to pieces. She never got to be a titan after she was brought back, she was giving it her all to regain their trust, but her mission was a failure. The worst part was, they never even got to share a kiss.
Tears began to shed from his eyes. He was hoping that the tears would some how bring her back. Just one little tear might make a difference, but it wasn't helping. Every tear he cried was for her. He wasn't crying for his friends or himself, he was crying for Terra. He wanted to switch with her. He wanted to endure the pain instead of her. But it wouldn't help any, because the pain was equal to one another.
Beast Boy felt his life slipping away with her, because she was his life…with out Terra, he had no life. His world was slowly disappearing in front of his eyes. Terra was leaving existence…Forever. Her heart monitor was decreasing and her blood loss increased every minute. It wasn't fare. She was so young, so full of life and now she was a frail child. And…He never got a chance to tell her how he felt…He loved her…
Tears came flooding from his eyes and onto his cheeks. They treaded down his face with out a sound of a whimper or sob. He had dreams about her and now they were all lying on a hospital bed, hanging on the edge of life. His tears came about as fast as her blood.
"…Terra…" He muttered to himself, tightening his grip just a little around her hand.
He couldn't bear to sit here and watch her suffer and go on with out him. He felt like he was being ripped apart like an old building being torn down for new road ways. His eye lids felt heavy and his brain felt numb. Logical thinking was almost out of the question
The nurse had said only one of Terra's friends could go in and sit by her side. All of the titans picked Beast Boy in a flash. They all knew how close he was to her and her to him.
He was the only one who knew her condition. And her condition was no joke. The doctors said the bullet had cut pretty deep and it hit one of her arteries, causing it to be a severe case.
He could remember earlier on in the day, before Terra was shot. He remembered the walk in the park, when Terra chased him around. Of course she had caught him. He remembered her emotion dilemma 3 months ago. Her emotions had caused her problems. But Beast Boy had resolved her problem. Before she got shot…it was a happy day. But now his emotions were high and they were making him feel empty inside.
"…Terra…don't leave me…" Beast Boy choked. Tears still sprinted down his face. He could feel the hot tears on his face. The salted taste leaked into his mouth and stung his taste buds. His eyes throbbed as the tears just kept on coming. His nose was out of order and his heart was under construction. But the construction was post pone for the emotional conditions were too severe.
He continued to cry…His best friend and true love were leaving with out him, and the true Beast Boy was going with them. If Terra died, only the depression BB would remain, in a life of misery and turmoil.
Raven said Terra risked herself for Beast Boy, because she loved him and she would be lost with out him. But now, they were both about to be lost, because it was over…
He squeezed her hand hoping to jolt life back into her pale body. She was paler than Raven by now. He couldn't hear her breathe, but he knew she was still breathing because her chest was barely moving up and down. Not to mention the irritating beeping of the heart monitor. Not that he wanted the beeping to stop or any thing.
A nurse with a clip board walked into the room, with a sad expression.
"Mr. Logan?" She asked.
Beast Boy didn't reply. He was too distracted by the solemn girl in front of him.
"She has a very slim chance of survival. She was hit so close to the heart…that we can't quite tell the chances, but it is below 20 percent of her living. We did every thing we could do, Mr. Logan, But I'm sorry…It's over, she's in God's hands now…" The nurse informed. With that she walked off to leave him to his fate
This made him even sadder, but he didn't lose hope, even if he lost Terra, he could always keep her close by memories. If he were give up hope now, then there was a sure fire chance that he was going to lose Terra.
"Terra, don't leave…we need you, I need you…it's not over yet Terra…Just hang in there. Every thing will be okay…just don't lose hope…" He repeated to himself.
He felt like a child sitting there sobbing and saying encouraging things, but it was the only thing he could say right now. He still continued to fidget with the worry stone in his other hand; for he could only hope…that Terra…would be okay…
Though Garfield Mark Logan didn't know it, this was only the beginning of the long and painful night ahead.
Sorry I haven't updated in a while, Homework had become emance. But I hope you like this chapter. Plz R&R