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CHAPTER 11: Hopeless

Beast Boy sat in the room Terra rested in. Her room had been glaciated with silence, since Beast Boy's prayer. All he could do was hope that she would live. That's all he had been doing was hoping that every thing would be okay. But so far, she had only gotten worse. The doctors had removed the bullet during surgery after he had brought her in, but it had cut in so deep. They couldn't tell if she would make it or not…Until…

A long, loud, ear shattering screech rang across the room. Beast Boy looked up at her heart monitor. Nothing was there…Except a flat line.

'OH MY GOSH!' Beast Boy thought in his mind. He immediately stood up from his seat and pressed the emergency button next to the bed. Then he ran out of the room and looked up and down the halls frantically.

"HELP! HELP! SOMEBODY! HELP! EMERGANCY! GET IN HERE QUICK!" He yelled out loud to alert everybody. Tears immediately shot out of his eyes. The doctors and nurses were taking too much time, even though it had only been a few seconds since he pressed the button and ran out into the hall screaming like a maniac, each second felt like an hour.

Finally the doctors and nurses came rushing down the hall. He sighed with a little relief. They zoomed past Beast Boy and pushed him out of the way, and slammed the door behind them. He stood there for a brief moment. He realized that Terra might be lost now. He needed to tell his friends what had just happened. So he made his way, to the waiting room.

When he came into the waiting room, all eyes were on him. They had heard him yelling in the halls and they wanted answers.

"Beast Boy what happened?" Robin asked.

"Yes please?" Starfire pleaded.

"…She…Her heart monitor…Her heart monitor went flat…" Beast Boy answered. Tears still came streaming down his face like streamers.

"Again?" Raven asked.

"…Again…" Beast Boy answered, tears still coming down his face. His eyes filled up with tears like a river during a thunder storm. His tears over flooded, like the flood waters of the rainy seasons. It was as if his tears slowly erased his face from existence. Terra was dieing…And so was Beast Boy.

"…She's going to die isn't she?" Beast Boy asked looking around at his friends. All of them put their heads down, not knowing the answer.

"Beast Boy…" Raven said, getting up from her seat and walking over to him. She hugged him as a soft sob escaped his mouth.

His head was buried in Raven's shoulder. He could only hope that Terra would be okay. Hope was all that seemed to be left.

Raven pulled away from Beast Boy for a moment, she could only stare at him. His normally bright emerald eyes were dull and covered with tears.

"…Beast Boy...The doctors gave us the results…That bullet cut in pretty deep…She was at twenty percent of survival…But right now…" Raven stopped for a moment. "We did all we could Beast Boy…I'm sorry, she's not going to make it." Raven said. She looked at Beast Boy's expression. There wasn't an expression. It was blank.

Beast Boy shook his head slowly at Raven's statement and slowly backed away. He couldn't believe what she had just said. 'She's not going to make it.' She was the one who said they had to believe and have hope. Now she was saying give up. It was Ignominy.

He looked over at his other friends, hoping that one of them would object with Raven's statement. None of them made eye contact with him; they all just held their heads down. They were on Raven's side. They too had given up all the hope in the world, leaving Terra to die.

Beast Boy kept on backing away and shaking his head. "…No…" Beast Boy said, before taking off into the hallway.

"Are you sure it was right to tell him?" Cyborg asked.

"Beast Boy's going to have to learn that that his Fantasy land isn't going to block out reality. Fantasy land only gives you hope, but sometimes you have to face the facts. Unfortunately, he has to learn by losing her. Beast Boy taught Terra that there is always a Brightside to every thing and he taught her how to deal with reality and live in fantasy land. But now Terra has to teach Beast Boy that reality is real and that lala land isn't going to cut it or bring the dead back to life." Raven said, then sitting down in her chair.

They all remained silent at her lecture. She was right. As much as they didn't want to believe it she was right. Terra was going to die and there was nothing they could do about it. It was a hopeless situation.

MEANWHILE

"We have a code red, patients heart rate is flat we need a jolt, stat." One of the nurses informed. With that said, one of the nurses rolled a cart that had a Heart Defibrillator and its paddles on it, over to the doctor. He picked the paddles of the voltage device up and began rubbing each of the paddles together, to get it charged up.

"CLEAR!" The doctor shouted them putting down the paddles of the Heart Defibrillator onto Terra's chest. The jolt raced through her chest and slowly, her heart monitor came back to an incredibly unstable state. The doctors looked at each other with relief and pity. She lived this time…But next time…They may have to arrange a funeral.

Beast Boy sat outside Terra's room sobbing in his hands. 'It's over…It's all over…' Beast Boy thought to himself. The sound of her heart monitor wasn't helping. 'She's gone, there's no chance…' Beast Boy thought, lost in an ocean of tears.

The doctor and his nurses came out of the room. The nurses walked off, but the doctor stood by Beast Boy. Beast Boy silenced his sobs and looked up at the doctor with pure Teary eyes.

"…Mr. Logan…I'm afraid that, your friend may only have about an hour of life left…She…She won't make it…" The doctor informed.

"…W-What?" Beast Boy choked out as he went up for air as he was drowning in his ocean of tears. "S-She can't…She can't die. She…" Beast Boy stopped in mid sentence, not knowing what to say next.

The doctor gave out a sigh and sat next to Beast Boy, causing BB to look back at the doctor. He caught a glimpse of the doctor's eyes. They were glazed with not tears, but understanding.

"…I'm afraid she can, Mr. Logan…Every one can and does at some point in their life…I'm just sad to say… that her time had to come so soon." The doctor said.

"But why…There's got to be something you can do to save her!" Beast Boy pressed on.

"There is nothing we can do." The doctor simply stated

Beast Boy stared at the doctor with his red puffy eyes. His tears came out freely, without his control. He no longer could breathe through his nose. His normally sparkling Emerald eyes were dull. And the face that all of the titans had loved…had disappeared, without a trace.

The doctor slowly got up from his place and walked away, leaving Beast Boy with no one by his side.

Beast Boy sat there for a few more moments, thinking about what would happen if Terra died. What would happen to him? What would happen to the others? How would he live without her? 'NO! I have to stay positive. Terra will be okay. There's still hope.' He thought to himself, trying to cheer up. He quickly stood up and walked into Terra's room. His hope immediately plummeted to its grave. What he saw was Terra, in even worse condition. Her skin was horribly pale. He could no longer hear her breathing, but he could see her chest moving rapidly, and her bandages on her shoulder were drenched with blood. Her heart monitor was ear shattering as it kept going in an unstable condition.

He walked over to Terra's bed side and sat down on the stool next to it. He stared at her. The girl that took his breath away had now no breath at all. He longed to see her ocean blue eyes again and he wanted to see that smile spread across her lips. Oh how he wished. He wanted to see her happy and he wanted her to be with him…Forever. He never got to tell her how he felt. It was too late.

Then a thought came to his mind. Something Terra would have told him, in this situation… 'It's never too late.' He picked up Terra's svelte hand and began to stroke it softly with his thumb.

"…I love you Terra." He whispered. He began sobbing for the millionth time today. Tears continued to fall. He laid his head against her hand, lightly. He kept on holding her hand, still hoping that it could some how bring her back to life. Still it failed. Her hand was still as cold as stone, as cold as she was when she was stone. He had lost her once and he didn't want to lose her again.

When he had brought her to the hospital, her chances were twenty percent. There was still hope. But now…it was none to one million. The doctors had told him and the Teen Titans had told him. He didn't want to believe them. Raven said have hope and now she said give up and get a coffin. But Beast Boy wasn't going to give up so easily. He was just going to have enough hope for every one.

The odds were low. He was still living in his Fantasy land. He needed to face the ugly face of Reality. Terra was going to die. There was no hope left, but Beast Boy wouldn't accept that fact. Hope has no limit. It is always in stock. To bad some of Beast Boy's hope slipped, when he heard a shape painful breath come from her mouth.

Beast Boy's ears fell down and his eyes were full of pity. 'But what if she dies?' He asked himself in his mind. 'No! You have to stay positive. She'll make it you'll see!' He encouraged himself.

Suddenly Terra coughed and it seemed to make her paler. Beast Boy frowned at the sound. So far Terra wasn't getting any better. She only seemed to be getting worse. Beast Boy pulled o the blue, plastic, worry stone Dolphin. He began rubbing it none stop. 'The percentage of her living is pretty low...' Beast Boy thought, while glancing over at Terra's shoulder. 'And so far she hasn't shown any signs of improvement...' Beast Boy continued. 'S-she can still make it!' He reassured himself.

Terra began to shake violently, which was one of the next signs of death. Beast Boy sobbed. 'She's not going to make it.' He thought. As much as he didn't want to admit it, Raven was right. He had tried to keep hope, but right now every thing was going down hill. Terra was showing all the signs of approaching death.

Beast Boy cried...It felt like that was the only thing he could do. Hope was slipping far from his grasp. So was Terra. His friends gave up. And Terra was going to die and tears…Where taking him away, like the storm in an ocean. He was going to be lost at sea. His life, his love, his world were dieing. Each tear he cried, his grip loosened on her hand. She was literally slipping away from him. He put his head down and rested it on his arm, as he did this he dropped the dolphin from his hand. He no longer had to worry, since Terra was going to die.

He still held her hand, but it continued to slip. Her heart monitor was slow and beeping when ever it pleased and it became slower with each beep.

Beast Boy could hear the heart monitor and Terra's signs of harsh death approaching. And that was all. Everything else around him had drowned out. The cold air in the hospital made his body and heart cold. As Terra was showing signs of death, Beast Boy was too, showing signs of death.

Everything around him was blocked out. He could see nothing else, but Terra and her heart monitor. All he could hear was her heart monitor, her short breaths, and his sobs. He could taste nothing but the bitterness of life. He could feel nothing, except depression.

He had given up hope and had lost contact with the world around him, though somewhere deep down in his mind, there was still something, a little bit of hope still wading in the water of his mind.

Because of this a miracle took place.

He couldn't even feel something gripping his hand, the same hand that was holding Terra's hand. He couldn't lift his head, he thought, it was all an illusion.

"Beast Boy, why are you crying?" A voice as soft as an angel's asked.

Beast Boy stopped and looked up, to find the face of an Earth Angel. Terra, slightly sat up in bed looking at him with concern.

"Terra?" Beast Boy said with disbelief.

She replied by giving him a smile. The same smile that he loved. The same smile that he thought he lost. Her eyes, oh how he had missed those eyes. He thought he had lost those too. But she was here, right there with him.

All Because of hope.

Okay. I know most of you have been wanting me to update. I am so sorry. But this chapter is not the last. Yay! And all of you are like, yay, you let her live! Yes, I know it was my plan all along. She's my favorite Character. I can't write a full blown angst story. But anyways sorry for the lack of updates. I still enjoy writing this. so I hope you liked this chapter. plz R&R