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So I did promise you guys this chapter last weeks, but I couldn't write :/. I had the worst writers block, and well I didn't want to give you just any lame old chapter so I had to work on it. Hopefully it's alright now :) Oh and since the delay, I wrote a bit more for you ;)
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Clary's pov
The heaviness of the sleep that coated me from the night before seemed to loosen and stir me awake into a pool of light and warmth. The sun outside appeared to be leaking through the opened curtains, spraying my delicate body with rays of strength and ease as I let my legs sprawl across my light bed sheets causing my pyjama pants to ride up, letting my soft skin on my legs touch the smoothness of the sheets. Bringing my hands to my eyes in small fists, I rubbed my eyes to clear away the sleep that had moments ago taken my body and mind into a world that buried my thoughts deep underground so they couldn't haunt my mind and body as they slumbered. A wave of happiness crossed me as I felt the weight on my once sleep deprived body and mind no longer there, but in its place there was emptiness. The mindless sleep I had just been granted seemed to jolt my frail body alive, and gave it a small flame as if to ready's itself for a fight.
"So you're finally awake," a familiar voice said in a note like tune.
My heart seemed to race when I quickly shifted my gaze. Each beat seemed to slow as my eyes settled on Jace's sitting form in my bed, and that's when I remembered he had slept in here with me. "What time is it?" my voice came out croaky as I made my way into a sitting position.
"Nearly one," he said, sliding the book he had onto my bed side cabinet.
"In the afternoon?" I asked, my voice rising in shock of how long I had slept.
He nodded, a chuckle erupting from his mouth. "Yeah, and let's say you didn't make it any less awkward when your mom walked in to find me in your bed while you were basically lying on top of me," he smirked.
I felt my cheeks melt with fire. "What did she say?"
He shrugged, the smirk still evident on his mouth. "She just stared opened mouthed at us, at one point I think she was planning on saying something but then decided against it," he stated calmly. "It was quite awkward on my part, especially when she came into the room not long after and gave me a book to past the time as you slept on me."
I wiped my hands over my face. "Oh man, did I really sleep on you?" I asked, peaking out at him from a gap between my fingers.
He nodded. "And not to mention drooled on me. You were out like a light," he chuckled, examining his shirt. "I wouldn't have thought a girl like you would drool so much."
I knotted my eyebrows together and then pushed him expectedly, causing him to lose balance and fall flat onto the ground. "Stop teasing me," I snickered as I leant over the bed to see him sitting up on the floor, rubbing his elbow.
"Now that wasn't nice, especially since I let you lie on me all night and not to mention drool on me," he said, his smirk widening.
Smiling widely myself, I grabbed one of my pillows and smacked him over the head with it. "Stop," whack, "Talking," Whack, "About," Whack, "It," I said through the hits I forced upon him with the pillow.
Snatching the pillow from my grasp, he stood up with a devilish expression on his face and raised the pillow. "You wouldn't," I started.
"Oh but I would," he smirked, and started hitting me lightly with the pillow.
"Stop it," I laughed, as I pulled myself off of my bed and moved myself away from him. He just stepped around the bed and slowly made his way over to me, but not before I poked my tongue at him and flew out the door.
I knew he would be following close behind, that was what made the chase more fun. It wasn't until I reached the kitchen that I stopped dead in my tracks, causing Jace to run straight into me and knocking me over, but before I could reach the ground, his arms wrapped around me, only letting go once he knew I was balance.
Stepping beside me, we both looked at what was presented in front of us. "I would say good morning, but it's obviously passed that," Maryse stern voice said, pointing to the seats in front of her and my mom at the table. "Take a seat both of you."
I looked at mom as she stood next to Maryse, a confused feeling shooting through me. "Mom?" I asked, as I sat down next to Jace who had lamely placed the pillow he was chasing me with down beside him on the floor.
Looking at Maryse, she looked back at us. "Maryse and I have been talking about a situation we have come across," she started, "we have noticed how you two can relate to each other and you count on one another for support, and the real reason I called her here was to get her support to allow Jace to come around more often," she glared at our confused faces. "Clary you know as well as I do that you feel more comfortable and safe around Jace; and you Jace know that Clary is helping you even if you don't know what she's helping you with."
"Not to be rude all anything, but I didn't see me and Clary hanging out in the first place being a problem, yet you sound like it is," Jace spoke up as she stared from mom to Maryse.
"You see Jace," Maryse started. "You and Clary are both still teenagers, and though this embarrasses you to hear it, but you both have hormones and that's what worries me and Jocelyn the most."
Folding his arms across his chest, an annoyed expression crossed his face. "So what you're saying is that you both are afraid that me and Clary will have sex," he said straight to the point, causing mom to choke slightly on her drink and me to gasp.
"There's a possibility that that could happen, you both are still teenagers and teenagers can get mixed feelings which can cause some wrong actions," Jocelyn stated, clearing her voice.
That was when I found my voice. "Mom you know me more than anyone, so you should know I wouldn't sleep with just anyone if I didn't have strong feelings for them and I wasn't ready; and right now there are none of those sorts of feelings I feel inside, and to be honest I don't have any want or need for them," I said, speaking as clearly as I could.
"And I feel the same," Jace said shortly after, backing up my statement.
"Back that all could change," Maryse said after a moment of silence. "That's why me and Jocelyn have decided on a condition if you two are going to be spending more time together."
"Which is?" Jace asked, sounding impatient.
Maryse looked in between me and Jace. "If there is just the slightest hint of feelings from either one of you towards the other, we want to know about it," she commanded.
"Why? So you can step in before we have sex?" Jace said, clearly saying it to annoy his mother.
"Jace, you know that's not the only reason. If you two start having feelings for each other, it could affect Clary's recovery," Maryse said.
"And what, I can help her if I'm her friend, but not if I am anything else?" Jace asked, his voice growing stronger. Before Maryse could say anything else, Jace spoke up again. "You don't have to worry though, I don't want a relationship or anything close to it and neither does Clary so can you both spare us from this extremely embarrassing conversation and let us make some food. Clary is clearly starving," he said, lamely.
"Just promise us that you'll tell us if something happens," mom said to both of us.
Jace stood then and I followed shortly after. "If you want us to be able to look at each other again, just stop talking," I said calming.
"Clary!" mom said, raising her voice slightly.
"No listen mom. There are no feelings between us, but friendship ones. Why can't you see that the only thing happening here is two teenagers helping each other overcome something no one else can help us with?" With that, I stormed from the room with Jace following neatly behind me, but not before pointing out a simple fact he has known all along.
"You're one controlling women," he said firmly, pointing at Maryse before existing the room with me.
I walked outside to the front porch and sat on the railing, letting the sun soak into my back as if it was a sponge. I don't know why, but sitting out here with the sun stretched out on my back seemed calming and relaxing, as if an invisible hand was placed across my back that held only warmth and comfort within its touch.
"Well that was awkward," Jace said, walking out of the house and placing himself beside me so the sun shone onto his blonde locks making them more dominate.
"Just a tad," I joked, looking down at my feet. "Look, I'm sorry you had to go through that."
He chuckled, shaking his head as he did. "It's not your fault our mothers were painfully open with their worries," he said, turning to me with a questionable look. "You don't believe them right? I-I just don't want what they said to worry you because to be honest none of that has ever crossed my mind about you."
I looked up finally and looked at him closely and saw exactly what every other girl on the face of the planet would see, a drop-dead gorgeous guy whose eyes were like no others and who could fill out clothes nicely. Of course I thought Jace was attractive, but I hadn't thought of him as anything else but a friend. Right at this moment in time that's all I need. I didn't need, no…I didn't want a guy in my life like that. My teenage life has gone down the drain, and with that the need to have a guy's arm to clutch onto as to claim he was my own was gone. Looking at his angel-like features in his face, I thought how easy it would be for a girl to fall for him, but that wasn't going to be me. What we are is strictly friendship, and he seems to agree with that unquestionably. "Clary?"
"Hmm?" I asked, quickly shaking all that thought out of my head.
"You're staring," he smirked.
Rolling my eyes, I flicked him on his forehead. "I was only staring at your massive head," I smirked back at him.
"Hey, my head is not massive," he pointed out, poking his tongue at me child-like.
"Yes it is. In fact, every time you compliment yourself, it gets even bigger with ego!" I laughed.
He shook his head. "I should have kept that pillow," he chirped, smirking once again.
I rolled my eyes again, a habit I had begun when I was around him. "To answer your question, I don't because I feel the exact same as you. I haven't even thought about it, I only want friendship," I stated, glaring out onto the street and watched a couple walk passed with their dog.
"Good," he commented, smiling at me. "Anyway, it seemed like you had a good sleep?"
I looked back down at my feet and nodded. "I had no nightmares, must have been because I was really exhausted," I replied. "But thanks for staying with me."
"No problem, what are friends for?" he smiled softly.
Before I could reply, the front door opened and out came Maryse with Jace's keys. "We have to get going Jace, Alec should be home any time now," she said, as she threw the item softly at Jace. "It was nice seeing you again, Clary."
"It was nice seeing you again too, Mrs Lightwood," I said politely back as I watched her walk down the path leading to her car.
"Tsk tsk, already lying to my mother," Jace whispered into my ear.
I turned my attention back on Jace, nearly bumping my nose with his. "Am not, it was nice seeing her again," I said, raising my head slightly.
"What, so you could hear her tell us she didn't want us having romantic feelings for each other," he teased as he backed away slightly from the railing.
Hopping off the railing, I stepped forward and punched him softly on the arm. "Stop bringing that up, it was embarrassing enough," I pointed out, a small smile appearing on my lips. "It's like you get joy out of reminding me of these things…"
Grabbing hold of my wrist softly before I could pull it away, he drew me into him and wrapped his arms around me, holding me to his chest; ignoring my statement completely. Being in his arms like this gave me a strange sense for comfort and safety; and because of that, I was more than content in his arms. "Are you trying to get your mom worried?" I joked, looking up at him.
He smirked down at me. "It isn't only for that, I just thought since my oh-so greatness gets the privilege of being the one you trust I should give you a hug since you won't be getting much of them…" he mumbled the ending, not feeling as confident as he was at the start.
I pulled back and smiled up at him. "You're so corky…but oddly sweet," I replied, pushing him slightly towards his mom who was watching us from her car. "Go, or else you'll get grounded for longer."
"Don't remind me," he groaned, backing off of the porch before looking back up at me. "I'll text you."
Nodding, I gave him a smile as I watched him retreat over to his car. Waving once, I took myself off of the sun-filled porch and into the coolness of the house.
Jace's pov
Following Maryse back to the house, I knew what was going to be waiting at home: Alec. After I had returned from hospital after the accident he left after the pressure he got from home, wait scratch that, from Maryse was too overwhelming for him that he had to leave. To be honest, I have no problem with Alec being gay. Out of everything that has happened to him, I can actually admit that I look up to him because he can openly admit his true feelings and thoughts even if there were inhumane consequences for them; and well I'm more the opposite to him…I'm like a closed book that is nailed shut temping everyone who comes upon me to open me up and see what hides within.
Shaking my head, I pulled into the driveway at home; parking behind Maryse. I looked at the front door that loomed in front of us that held two figures within it, one familiar and the other a complete stranger.
Jumping out of the car, I called out to the familiar figure. "You weren't gone for long, but I completely understand why you came back. No one can go long without seeing this face," I smirked, pointing to my face.
Walking down the stairs to me, his black hair swayed in soft movements; the black in his hair making the blue in his eyes more dominate. "It's nice to see you to Jace," Alec chuckled as he walked towards me and took me into a brotherly embrace. "How have you been?"
"Oh I've been cherry, especially since I've been grounded and had to spend time with the wicked witch of the west over there," I said with a smirk as I pulled back and looked over to an overly sparkly figure. "Whose sparkles over there?"
Shaking his head with a small laugh, he pulled back and indicated for the figure to come over to us. As the figure approached I saw a tall, male figure that seemed to have a different nationality, with almost cat-like eyes. He wore rainbow coloured skinny jeans with a plan black top. Even though his outfit was out there, it wasn't that that caused my smirk to appear. It was the makeup that covered his face that showed how much the guy liked glitter. "Jace, this is my boyfriend Magnus banes. Magnus, this is my pain in the ass brother, Jace," Alec introduced us.
Offering a hand, Magnus stepped forward. Taking his elegant hand in mine, he spoke. "I've heard quite a lot about you," he said.
"That's the least I would expect from Alec," I smirked, looking behind Magnus to Alec.
"He did tell me you were a bit of a charmer," Magnus said, letting go of my hand.
Smirking even wider, I glanced back up at Magnus who stood an inch or so taller than me. "Charms are just a bonus because who needs charms when you have this as a body," I said jokily, as I ran my hands down my solid chest.
Magnus shook his head, a smile playing on his lips. "I disagree. Charms are good to balance out the cockiness and ignorance," he stated.
"Alec, I agree with your tastes," Izzy laughed coming up behind Magnus laughing as she dropped an arm over my shoulders. "Anyone who leaves Jace speechless is a friend of mine."
"He did not leave me speechless," I stated, shrugging off her arm. "You didn't give me time to reply."
"Oh come down children," Maryse said, coming up to stand by me. Her voice showed firmness and ignorance as her glare looked down on Magnus as if he stood at a lower class than her. I rolled my eyes because I knew even if she'll act polite towards Magnus, she hated the fact that the only reason he was here was because of Alec. Extending a hand out to Magnus to take, Maryse shook his hand. "Pleased me meet you, I'm Maryse; Alec's mother," she said with the same firmness.
"Nice to meet you too, Maryse," Magnus said in the same firmness Maryse had in her voice, but the only difference was Magnus showed politeness as he did. Letting go of her hand, he stepped back and grabbed Alec's hand.
"Right," Maryse said, looking between them. "Why don't we go inside and have some tea as you tell us, Alec, what you have been up to these past few weeks," she asked, but didn't wait for the answer just walked passed them in a posh manner.
"I take after dad, right? I'm not like that," Izzy whispered to me.
Looking down at her, I watched her long, black hair blow around in the wind. I shook my head. "Thank goodness you're not, we don't need another one of her around here," I smirked.
Rolling her eyes, a smiled grew on her face. "So how was last staying at Clary's?" she teased.
"Clary, as in the accident Clary?" Alec asked, coming up closer to where me and Izzy was standing.
I nodded, before looking down at the ground and shaking my head as the embarrassment of this morning returned. "You wouldn't believe what Maryse did this morning," I said to them.
"Oh this should be good," Izzy shrieked happily in my embarrassment, causing me to glare at her.
"Me and Clary are just friends, and plus I'm the only one she feels comfortable around because I was the one who saved her that night, right?" I said to them. They all nodded. "Anyway, Maryse thinks because of how close we are with each other; we'd just jump into bed with each other."
Izzy then cracked up. "She gave you two the sex talk?" she asked, in a fit of laughter.
I nodded. "Pretty much," I said, shaking my head. "It's not like Clary is like that. Even if she didn't go through with what she did, she still wouldn't jump into bed with anyone, especially me."
"But would you?" Alec asked, beside Magnus.
I shook my head. "I know you all think I've been with a lot of girls, and in some ways I have…but this is different. I have no need; no want to sleep with Clary. We're friends, that's it," I said, firmly.
"For once, I get where mom is coming from," Izzy said, looking up at me. "Jace, the way you feel now could change, you both could develop feelings with each other which could lead to sex."
"Even if I did, I still wouldn't sleep with her. She doesn't need me like that," I stated, thinking how Izzy was right, but I also knew that deep down in my gut I knew that Clary didn't need me like that.
Izzy just shrugged. "Right, well let's get inside before mom comes back out," Alec said, smiling softly at us, before directing Magnus into the house with me and Izzy following silently behind them.
Clary's pov
After they left, I walked into the kitchen to search for some food my body much needed. Mom sat at the table, looking at a letter before looking up when I entered the room.
"Look Clary, I'm sorry. I really am," she apologised, standing up from the table. "I'm just a worried mother."
I nodded and moved passed her and opened the cupboard door. "You could have spoken about this just to me, not him too," I stated, softly, trying to not let my anger get the best of me. "It was rather embarrassing listening to my mother and his mother, tell us we shouldn't have sex, when we're only friends."
"I understand and maybe we should have dealt with this in a more appropriate manner, but after seeing you sleeping so peacefully in his arms, I got worried," she said, softly, dropping the letter back down onto the table. "Look, I just need to know you'd tell me if something between you two happens. Please, Clary. It'll put my mind at ease."
I shrugged. "Being beside me, he takes my nightmares away," I whispered. "But yeah, I promise I'll tell you."
She nodded. "Thanks you. I do understand how you feel safe with him, it's because he was the one to save you," she whispered back, growing quiet. "I wished I had just dropped that stupid meeting that night like I was going to and went to pick you up from the theatre so you wouldn't have been on that bus."
I looked up at her. "And Simon could have been on the bus with me instead of going to the comic store. Don't blame yourself, everything happens for a reason," I whispered, giving her a small smile after seeing the guilt in her expression. She blames herself for me being on that bus, I can see it whenever we talk about the accident.
"How did I raise such a strong, amazing daughter?" she smiled back at me, wiping a tear that had formed in her eye.
I shrugged again and picked up an apple before smiling at her. "I'm just a reflection of you…and well a bit of Luke," I said quietly. With that, I walked passed her again and exited the room knowing I had left her with a smile against her gentle lips.
Walking up the stairs, I trotted back into my room and sat at the edge of my bed, biting into the apple. My eyes no longer seemed heavy and my body seemed slightly not on the edge, but still held the certain ache that it possessed ever since the accident. That's when I realise my body is healing, it was just my mind that was still scarred. I smiled as I looked down at the slightly bitten apple. I was fighting to get rid of this frail mind and body, and to find my old self again; I was fighting for my recovery.
How did you guys like it? Yes, they got the sex talk :o
So, in a review I got told I need to add Magnus, Alec and Sebastian in the story more. Sebastian will be in the story, I know that for sure (don't think he'll be the bad guy because of this ;P ), but I don't know how much of Magnus and Alec I'll put in...So this is the time to tell me! Do you want me to fit them in?
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