Hey, I must thanks everyone who read or left a reviews (THANK YOU ALL NEW YORK !) Sorry, by now, most of my friends are at New York and Boston in USA so I feel a little lonely on this morning. I won't see them before Monday, I'm gonna cry ! So thanks to everyone, sorry for my mistakes, you know that my fisrt language is french and so that I'm not so good in english, but let's so talking about me and start with the real subject !
You know what ? I've made another one-shot, songfic, deathfic, (I'm surrely born for that) sorry, this one is not a yaoi (I'm not very good for those kind of fic but the next will be one yaoi I promise it) Well, the fic is excellent anyway . This time, Ray's talking alone. All he's saying is for this bitch of Mariah (I don,t like she you know. . .) You'll see that my resentment has been contagious. . . (Ray don,t like her, or like her too much, well guess with the title !)
And one more minut, I'll try to explain how I'm gonna make all of this. I made full of one-shots and I put them all together (just here) to make a collection of one shot. Is that all right ? If you don't like it in this way, you can tell me, and I put every one-shot in his own section, all alone, in his own little section with no one to make him forget his lonelyness . . . (I'm completly crazy, don't ya think so ?) Well, all this to say that I don't like to separate the one-shots I'm not going to do this. We'll see this later, in waiting, let's read. . .
Too much will kill you
I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be
Only pieces of myself.
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
If I cry they won't understand, but they never understood.
I've never cried since today.
But now I need it so deeply.
I'm far away from home
I let down my family.
My house and my friends.
And I've been facing this alone
I wanted to be lonely, but . ..
For much too long
Nom I'm so left alone, I can't take it no more.
Now, when I'm alone, it made me feel so hurt.
I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
My mother the first, she lied to me.
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
She make me believe in my father life, even if he won't be there anymore
She told me life is beautiful, but I can't believe her.
Not now that life take me so much under.
In my tangled state of mind
In my head, that's should be easy, there'll be no trap on my way.
What a mistake !
I've been looking back to find
I haved found the truth myself.
So I'm gone look for her.
And what I found was pretty worst.
Where I went wrong
All my chilhood, they lied to me.
I've surrely mist something somewhere.
You were the only I could count on.
Too much love will kill you
But I must have love you too much.
If you can't make up your mind
It wasn't clear in your head.
It wasn't more in mine.
Torn between the lover
Torn by our love
Or by my leave?
And the love you leave behind
Me I left everything behind, even what my heart was feeling for you.
You're headed for disaster
And for you it was a disaster.
The street, sorry that I haven't told you, it's rough to survive inside. . .
'cos you never read the signs
You don't understand what they wanted from you.
You gave them all just to forget me.
And that's only remind you.
That I'll never have done that.
Too much love will kill you
But if I love you too much you go away saying that I'm choking you.
Every time
Every time. . .
I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be
I'm only the shadow of myself.
I won't smile no more, I won't laught no more.
In fact, I can't understand me myself.
And it seems like there's no way out of this for me
There is no more exit for me.
No more chance to get out of it..
I used to bring you sunshine
Before I was happy, you too.
I can't take it, it's hurting me, I wish it could stop.
Now all I ever do is bring you down
I'm hurting you and I would like that everything stop!
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
But can you guess what I could've leave on my side ?
Or there is no one more then you and Lee, I don't feel anything ?
Don't imagine that I go everywhere just to explore the world.
If I'm gone it's because of you.
Mariah. . .
Can't you see that it's impossible to choose
It was impossible to love you without show it to you.
But you didn't want this love.
Not the one that I got, well you told it to me.
No there's no making sense of it
For me, there was no sense in it.
I was loving you, it was simple.
Every way I go I'm bound to lose
Now everything I do is loose.
That's never enough for you.
So now this is the end, no never again, I won't bother you.
Too much love will kill you
I haved too much love for people around me.
I was only a little boy and this love, my mother didn't want it.
After, it was you. . .
Just as sure as none at all
Now if someone want me to love him, sorry, I won't.
I'll kill him by love, I 'll love him too much, but never like this could be right .
I'm not sure of nothing anymore, but one thing.
Irony is the one I love the less.
Because she made my life become the hell.
My feelings some punishment.
It'll drain the power that's in you
So my love wil hurt you, it'll make you suffer more then all the other.
Make you plead and scream and crawl
When you'll realise your mistake, you'll beg me to bring it back.
But my love won't be there anymore.
And the pain will make you crazy
And I wish you'll become crazy for it, it's all that you deserve.
Yes you'll become mad like me and forget how we can love.
Before I knew . . .
Now it's too late for me to remember. . .
You're the victim of your crime
But everyone push me away too much time, I cannot open me at new.
Now that's the end, I won't suffer anymore.
That's only your fault, yours and my mother's.
Take it like a lesson for wanting less when someone want to give you all !
If you have let me love you in my way.
Take you an hold you in my arm, I'll should have made in front of all the earth.
Too much love will kill you
But i twas too much for you and her.
I wish you'll get in hell !
No, love cannot destroy.
Only hate can do it.
Every time
And every time I think to you.
I dream about a graveyard.
Where you'll sank for not had let me do like I wanted.
I'll couls have love in silence if you've don't obliged me.
To not love you simply.
Now this is the war.
Too much love will kill you
I never love too much.
That's impossible to do.
But I've hated you too much.
It'll make your life a lie
Everything they told me, love, paradise.
I dont want this, you stole them from me.
My hapiness and my love too, you took them from me.
Yes, too much love will kill you
You can think that I'll choked you.
That wasn't like Lee.
He notched all.
He take you all because he loved you.
Me I don't have the same right.
I showed it too much.
I won't have act like him.
Me, I would have keep you with me and loved you.
With all the love my mom don't have destroyed.
And you won't understand why
But you understand nothing.
No nothing.
You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul
You give up everything
Just to forget
What you've lost with me.
What you've won with Lee.
You're nothing more then a bitch in Hong Kong.
You sell yourself.
No,sorry, I don't love you anymore.
But here it comes again
Instead, you still telling me the same thing.
That you cannot take me with you.
All this because I would made too much things.
Like if love someone could be too much.
Like if we could love too much.
This man who beat you yesterday, that was what he was doing, really ?
Did he loved you ?
He loved you like I could've loved you?
No, you don,t understand that I loved you for real?
Ans so you have to destroy all?
Too much love will kill you
All right then, I'll realise your wish.
I must love you enough to get you out of this hell.
To do like you said I will.
Too much love will kill you.
Even if, tomorrow you'll die under my kicks that won't be because of my love.
But because of my hate.
In the end...
After I'll go away.
Letting you floating in your own blood.
I'll imagine that head of Lee when he come tell me the news.
This news that I'll already knew.
And I'll laught when I see you alife for the last time.
I'll laught for the last time of my life.
With a laught as broken as me.
I don't even asked you to love me in return, like I haved with my mom.
Just to let me love you.
But you don't want.
In the end.
So no one will never love you anymore.
Nor me, nor Lee and no one.
You understand, no one could have loved like me I should have do!
But now it's too late.
That will be the end tomorrow. . .
That wasn't so bad, don,t you think so ? The song? That was Queen. Greatest hits # 3. I promise it, if you like the style, I'll do another one like this next week, but you should tell me that you want another one one-shot songfic (it's surrely won't be a deathfic bud a sad one) So let's review !
P.S. I know that there's no much people liking Mariah, I'm sorry if you don't love that I killed her but you know, me I don't like her that much and I don't wanna did another wonderfull end with everyone happy, so everyone is sad now, and me, I'm laughting of the face of Lee !
See ya !