Sometimes It's Easier – Epilogue
Rating: R
Content: Angst, fluff
Disclaimer: Don't own anyone mentioned herein and make no profit from this
Distribution: Camelot, ffn, anyone else ask first.
A/N: So this is it. I figured this could either go on for ever, or I could bring it to a close. As much as I've enjoyed writing it, I think it came to a natural conclusion. Hope you like, feedback is always welcome.
In one way Randy's suspension was a blessing in disguise, as it meant he could spend more time with Lita. She'd reduced her schedule somewhat, no longer needing the regular income a house show appearance would bring, so they spent a lot of time at her place, rebuilding everything they had destroyed or lost over recent times. It was time they needed, and in a way Randy was grateful to Matt for bringing things to a head. There were no more secrets, nothing else held over them. The past would only continue to impact on them if they let them.
It would take a while to learn that lesson though. Lita felt like she'd spent so long running from her past, hiding from it, letting it run her life. Freedom wasn't an easy thing to get used to. Conversely, Randy found that he enjoyed the freedom he'd lost. He felt that being needed and wanted was the most wonderful feeling in the world. Far from feeling tied down, he felt grounded and secure for the first time, and it was some kind of safety that he realised he'd been craving all along.
He sat on Lita's porch, waiting for her to arrive back from a Raw taping. He'd spent pretty much all of his time at her place since the suspension had started. Although he recognised and laughed at the cliché, it just felt right. A sense of peace was something new to him, and it was something he enjoyed and appreciated. No longer did he feel like he was yearning for something that constantly eluded him.
Yet something was eluding him. Suspension had hurt his career, badly. People wondered if he'd ever manage to come back and be successful: he appreciated fully what Lita had described, that sense that you could only be what they described you as, that what you were seen as was what you were. Randy was seen as a bad boy, so to many people, that was what he was, and what he would always be. At last, he could truly feel that he understood what Lita had been through, because he was in that place.
That didn't disturb him as much as it should. He had something, someone. He felt secure where he was and with who he was. Lita gave him the solid foundation she'd never had. He wanted to give her the same, and he finally thought that he was close to doing that.
He felt that he was home.