Chapter Five – letters from an old friend.

He walked out of the club, hoping he still might be able to find her. He heard some shouting across the road. There he saw Maya and two elder people. He recognised these people immediately as His Headmaster – Albus Dumbledore and Deputy Headmistress - Minerva McGonagal. He watched from a distance as Maya screamed at them.

'Don't patronise me Albus. I know what I am and what I was. I'm a murderer, I've ruined some many lives and I'm not sure that I can face them yet. I can't face anybody yet. I'm not a good witch, I can't control my curse and that puts many people in danger, including yourselves. The old Hermione has gone. She has gone. Long gone. Dead. I'm nothing anymore, I have nothing and no one. I'm a murderer.'

He never knew that Hermione thought of herself like this, all he wanted to do was protect her now. He wasn't sure why he just had the urge to walk up to her was never let her feel pain again. He watched as she began to glow red, But just as he was going to walk up to her they pushed her into an ally way and he couldn't see her. He was trying to get over there but crowds of people got in his way. He finally reached the ally way and heard more screams

'This is not a gift it's a curse. It's left me with nothing! I'm dead, my Parent's are dead and I no I'm only going to kill more! I I I Don't want this any more, I want my old life back. I want, I want my mum, I want my dad!'

He saw her fall and cry. He knew that she had lost her parents. Pansy and Blaise were spreading it around the school. He had to admit at that time he did feel sorry for her. He knew how it felt to loose your parents, But he could understand that it must of hurt more for her as she loved them. The next thing he knew the three of them had apperated. He had lost her, he wasn't sure if he was over going to see her again. Sighing He to apperated, but to his won flat in the heart of Paris.

He apperated just I front of his sofa and collapsed back. He didn't know what he was going to do. He wanted to find her but he had to admit that he was afraid. Afraid of how she would react to him. But when they danced he felt something, a connection no doubt but he felt something that drew him to her. He was positive that she felt it too, or did she?

He got up and went into his kitchen. Once in there he went to a small cabinet and pulled out two bottles. One of vodka and the other firewiskey. He went to another cabinet a pulled out a small glass. Moving back into his living room and sat on the sofa. He poured himself a glass of Firwiskey and laid back. He closed his eyes and many images invaded his head. He saw his father in a backhooded cloak with blood up the front. He knew not to ask where he had been. His mind flashed again and saw himself lying on a cold hard floor with his father towering over him. He remembers this, his father had crucioed him because he said he didn't want to take the dark mark. This was about a year ago. The he saw himself again getting the dark mark. The room was full off hooded people. He could hear his mother's distant sobs. She didn't want him to get the mark, she knew he didn't want it. His mind flashed again. He was in the hospital wing and he saw Harry and Ron coming in with a very limp Hermione in their arms. They didn't look too concerned. The put her on a bed and called for the nurse. They left not seconds after. He felt raged by this. How could her 'so called best friends' leave her like that? Again his mind flashed a he was in a graveyard, it was raining and he was walking away from a grave. His father's. He didn't grieve for him. He had no feelings towards him whatsoever. He could see another funeral persession in progress. There weren't many people in this on. Very few in fact. His eye caught a girl, a young girl. He watched as she dropped to her knees and was muttering to the open graves before her. He turned away, he actually had a tear in his eye. Not for his father, but for the young girl, it seemed she had just lost her parents and nobody deserved that sort of pain. His mind flashed one last time. He saw Hermione's smiling face, they were in the club. He saw her becoming quiet reserved about the tattoo questions, then her confidence in rubbing his leg and then the shock when he lifted her up onto his lap. He leaned in to kiss her and he jerked awake. He still could feel her breath on his neck and the taste of her lips gloss on his lips.

'Shit'

He got up and realised that he had split the bottle of firewiskey on the floor. He left it, he couldn't be bothered to clear it up now. He looked out the window and saw that it was morning, about 10 o'clock he'd say. He went to his room and changed. He put on a pair of black jogging bottoms and decided against putting on a top. Going back down stairs he saw an owl swoop into his living room. Nobody knew he was here. Who would be owling him?

He picked the letter and read it.

Draco,

I have just been informed you had a run in with Miss Granger in a nightclub. Dumbledore and McGonagal have told me that you got quite close with Hermione before she found out about your mark. You must understand that it is difficult for her-

What? He was trying to explain her actions, this was very un-Snape like. He knew he changed after the night in the riddle mansion but he never knew how much.

To face anybody at the moment, let alone a death eater. I know that you didn't want to take the mark, but that is not the point. I saw her myself not 30minutes ago and she has changed, as you fully are aware. I don't just mean her appearance Draco but her whole attitude. At the moment she is fixed on shutting herself out from the world and never having contact with the wizarding community. There is something you should know about her Draco, something of great importance. I cannot explain in this letter as I'm positive that the risks of it being intercepted have not totally gone. There is no need to worry about anything at the moment I assure you.

So there is something to worry about, thanks! It's going to bug me now until I find out.

Attached to my own letter is one from Dumbledore about school Hopefully you will be pleasantly surprised.

Be safe

S.Snape

Putting the letter aside he picked up his Hogwarts letter.

Mr Malfoy,

I'm pleased to inform you that I have appointed you headboy. You will have many responsibilities this year and will be a role model to the younger years in all the houses. Inside of returning to Hogwarts with the rest of the school you will return in 3 weeks and spend a few days here getting used to your knew living quarters and Headgirl. There will be to staff meeting before term in which you are to attend in which I will explain your duties and responsibilities as well as privileges of being Headboy. You will also meet the new Headgirl. Attached to this letter are you schooling supplies and a return slip stating you are accepting the position of headboy. Please return this ASAP.

If you do accept this position I will send you a port key that will transport you here in 3 weeks time.

Albus Dumbledore

Headmaster

Woah, he was head boy, he wondered who the Headgirl would be. He was hoping that it would be Hermione, her grades her certainly up to scratch but with all she has been through, he doubted it. He decided to send his replies back.

Serveres,

Thankyou, I am very happy to be headboy. It did come as a surprise as I was sure boy-wonder would get it, or his side-kick, however this is a good thing to rub in the stupid Gryffindor's faces. You wouldn't happen to know who the Head Girl is by anychance? In reply to your letter I did indeed have a run in with Maya, It came as a very unexpected surprise I can tell you. I can understand that it must be hard for her, but all the same she did kill my father that night as well as 40 other people. I was in total shock when I found out that I had just 'got off' with my father's killer. You need to understand Severes that I will not under any circumstances let Maya loose contact with our world. I can not explain it but tonight something happened to me, I felt as if a wave of relief comfort and escape washed over me at the same time. When I was around her nothing else mattered, it seemed as the whole world just disappeared and there was only us left. She made me forget about my past and I must find her again. She made me see that there is a possibility of another life instead of one of the son of a Death Eater. I never thought that I could feel like this towards anybody, let alone Hermione Granger –Maya. I do believe that this has something to do with what you need to tell me. Telling me that there is something you need to tell me of great importance and then telling me there is no need to worry yet. Serveres you really need to re-phrase things better. Especially her location! I will try not to worry about it but all I can think about his her.

D. Malfoy

He sent the letter back, it was good that he had told someone about how he felt. At least he knew that she was somewhat safe at Hogwarts. He was pretty sure that Harry and Ron would catch up with her sooner or later and semi-convince her back to their world. He knew, he didn't know how, but he knew that she wouldn't be totally back. There would always be that doubt in her mind and he also knew that it would grow. He had to find her and make sure that it didn't grow and help her wash away those doubts for good. But what if she never wanted to see him? What if she didn't feel that spark between them, that force that brought them together. What if he never made her forget about her past? It was no good dwelling on 'what ifs' he would talk to her again.

He gradually fell asleep thinking about Maya. He muttered something in his sleep.

'I will bring you back Maya'