Tears of a confused mind.
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A.N I'm so so so so so sorry my readers! I know I said I would update by the 30th but I have just been so busy! My holiday was shit and I didn't enjoy it one bit! Then when I came back I didn't get the results that I wanted. I got 1a, 5b's 1c, 1d and a U in maths! Go me! So i've had to enrol in maths again at college! So shit. O well. But one thing that lifted my spirits was reading all of your fantastic reviews. My inbox was jammed with reviews from all my stories and i've only just checked them! So here are your responses and thankyou's.
Elizabeth Turner: I'm sorry if you feel that this is rushed! If you have any suggestions on how to make it better please let me know! I know Hermione is incredibly intelligent, however she is only human. No normal person could go through everything she's been through to that extent and still live a peachy life. That's just not how the world works. I believe that faced with everything she has that anyone would have outed. She tried to stay but look what happened.
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So on with the story...
Chapter 12: staff meeting
Hermione watched them leave. Her head was absolutely buzzing. She didn't want to be around people, no, she couldn't get attached to anyone because they would get hurt. But she couldn't, no, wouldn't spend her time sulking around avoiding everyone. She thought about her attitude in Paris and how she just dressed to impress and quite frankly didn't give a fuck. Perhaps if she went back to that then maybe people wouldn't want to know her. That they would think differently of her and leave her alone. We'll it was worth a try I suppose.
All the staff and Draco were in the great hall waiting for Hermione. They had waited 20 minutes all ready and some people were beginning to be inpatient.
'Where is she Albus?'
'Minerva, she's on her way I'm sure of it.'
The truth was that he wasn't sure of it. He wasn't sure if she was coming at all. The way they left it in the hospital wing wasn't exactly clear. He hoped, deep down that she had reconsidered and would stay. But where was she? Not even Draco had seen her in their common room.
They waited a few more minutes for Hermione to turn up. Nothing.
'Ok everybody, she's obviously not coming, lets start.'
No sooner had he said these words to his staff, the double doors in the great hall burst open revealing a very different Hermione. Many people's mouths dropped.
Draco was surprised to say the least. The Hermione he knew at school was a book-worm-not-it-all, and the Hermione he met in the club was a beautiful, confident girl. But now before him was a sexy, fine, all be it slightly slaggish women.
Snape couldn't believe his eyes. His saviour was dressed like someone you would find in a man's magazine. He had to shake certain thoughts out of his head. What had happened to her?
Dumbledore expected she would do something like this. Something drastic and different, so he didn't even batter an eyelid at her.
McGonagal, as well as many of the other female teachers noticed the change in the men. They were all leaning forward, mouths and eyes wide open. She defiantly didn't expect her prized pupil to be strutting down the middle of the great hall to a staff meeting dressed like that!
As Hermione opened the doors to the meeting, she was nervous to say the least. Her appearance was certainly going to make an impact. When she noticed the male professor's expressions she smirked and looked down at her attire. On her feet she had a pair of knee high leather black boots, with a silver stiletto heel. Moving upwards she had a very short black pleated skirt on with a silver chain across the front. And her top (if you could call it a top) was a black and had spaghetti straps. The cleavage line cut across each breast to meet in the middle creating a v. her breasts were pushed up, showing them that she wasn't a little girl any more. The back of the top did up with a few corset type ribbons. On the front of the top it read 'you wish.' Her hair was curled and flowed down her back. Her make up base was mainly natural apart from her eyes. Then had a light dusting of silver eye shadow and a black outline and black eye liner.
The hall was deadly silent as the head girl walked in. Nobody really knew what to say to something like that. They all just watched their old little innocent Hermione approach the head table in what little attire she had on. She made her way to the only vacant seat left, it was between Draco and Snape, opposite Dumbledore and McGonagal. As she sat down she deliberately brushed past the back of Snape, letting him have a full view of what she had to offer up top. Snape smirked but then it was cut short by a stern look from McGonagal. As she sat down she still had a smirk on her face. Draco tried to catch her eye but she blatantly ignored his attempts. When she looked up, everybody was watching her, some with looks of venom and disgust, others of pure lust. (A.N eww!!)
'What?'
It was then they all snapped out of their day dreams. Some people turned away with shame and embarrassment on their face, while others gave her a filthy look. Dumbledore cleared his throat.
'Well now that we are all here, lets start with the meeting. Minerva?'
McGonagal had not stopped staring at Hermione since she came in. She was absolutely disgusted with the way she was dressed and acting. A chosen head girl should not be acting like that. What sort of example would that set the younger years. There was no excuse for that behaviour. When she heard her name she looked up at Dumbledore.
'Yes, ok lets start with the knew passwords. I think we agreed at the end of last term that for this term they would be 'Loyalty - Hufflepuff, Cunning - Slytherin, Bravery - Gryffindor and Mindless - Ravenclaw. All agreed?'
Most people around the room nodded in agreement, one person however was not listening in the slightest. She was opening a lolly and began to suck it seductively, she cast her eyes around the room and occasionally caught a professors eye and winked at them.
McGonagal was still keeping an eye on her and knew she wasn't listening to the meeting, but instead was acting like a slut.
Draco, out the corner of his eye could see Hermione lick the sweet, this sort of suggestive actions made him furious and excited. He was annoyed with the fact she was doing such things to her professors and not him, but he couldn't deny she looked dam good doing that.
Snape had to focus on the meeting, he couldn't watch what she was doing, he wouldn't be responsible for actions from his body. He was only male after all. What male could contain them self's from a 17 year old girl dressed like that and sucking on a lolly pop.
Dumbledore however continued with the meeting.
'Ok now the knew prefects need to be agreed on. Professor Sprout - who are the two fifth years from Hufflepuff?'
'Well I thought Richard Atwood and Annie Sellebs.
'A good choice ok, Professor Sinster- Ravenclaw?'
'Mayur Dannani and Tyana Mathews.'
Hermione was getting really bored. She really didn't want to be here, in the meeting, with these professors. She wanted to be away from these traitor and backstabbers. She just wanted out. She began tapping her fingers on the table, to the annoyance of most of the female professors.
'Professor Snape?'
'Cory Taylor and Paige Westhook.'
'Minerva?'
She didn't hear her name being called. She was to busy shooting daggers at Hermione was now cleaning her nails with her quill. Hermione knew she was being watched and by whom. She was doing this to annoy the hell out of them. She lifted her head and smiled at McGonagal.'It's your turn.'
She turned bright red and faced Dumbledore. Being caught for not listening was not something the deputy headmistress did.
'Erm yes, Gryffindor prefects? Lets see Dennis Creevy and Nicole Paton?'
Hermione smirked to herself. She knew that had got to her. So far so good. She had already pissed one person off. Maybe this was going to be easier than she thought.
'Ok one last thing for today. I thought that Gryffindor could hold a welcome back dance. I think it best if the heads organise it, let them get a feel of what responsibilities they have. Any suggestions? Miss Granger?'
Now this time Hermione didn't hear her self being addressed. She was busy twirling her hair and looking out the window.
'Miss Granger?'
All the staff were now looking at her. McGonagal was fuming.
'MISS GRANGER!'
Hermione snapped out of her day dream to face the irritated professor.
'What?'
'You were being asked a question. It is rude to ignore someone Miss Granger and it is even ruder for the head girl not to pay attention in a meeting.'
Hermione gave her an amused and questioning look. She sat up and faced her.
'God women, give it a rest. You were the one not paying attention a minute ago, and now your lecturing me on the decorum for a head girl. If you didn't think I was up for the job them you wouldn't have giving me the position. So I suggest you don't start giving me the third degree and get off my back.'
The room was in shock. The head girl, Hermione Granger had just answered back a teacher. Not only that but she had been rude and offensive. Nobody not even Dumbledore had expected Hermione Granger, the sweet princess or Gryffindor who had just been through hell, their saviour to be that disrespectful her head of house.
Draco sat their stunned, not even he, ice prince of Slytherin would even dare say such things to a professor. He couldn't believe the change in her. So drastic, so not Hermione.
McGonagal stood and slammed her hands down on the table and looked down on Hermione.
'How dare you. How dare you speak to me in such a manor. I have done nothing but help you and this is how you repay me? You come to a staff meeting dressed as a common prostitute -'
The whole room gasped. Hermione raised her eyebrow at her, but remained seated.
'You think that you can sit there and not pay attention or contribute and we will sit here and say nothing. You are the head girl and shall dress and act as a head girl is supposed to. I suggest that you change you ways Hermione and apologise.'
With that Hermione stood up and faced her professor.
'Ok I'm only going to say this once so listen good, that goes for everyone. I - NEVER - ASKED - FOR - YOU - TO - HELP - ME. I - NEVER - WANTED - YOUR - HELP. I - WANTED - TO - BE - LEFT - ALONE. But no, you were the one that interfered with my life. I wanted to go away and never be found again. YOU brought me back here when I didn't want to. YOU gave me the head girl position. I never asked for ANY of it. The ONLY thing I asked for was to be left alone. I dress as I please, you cannot tell me what I can and cannot wear. The only people that could have done that were my parents and they are dead.'
Hermione lowered her head, she never meant to mention her parents. The whole room didn't know where to look, you could sense the tension in the room.
'YOU are not guardian of mine and never will be. And I don't see any objections to my attire do you?'
Hermione waved her hand behind her towards Snape was checking out her arse. When he noticed that he was being watched, he cleared his throat and looked at his papers. McGonagal was fuming at this site and Hermione smirked at her. McGonagal opened her mouth but was cut off by Hermione.
'I didn't think so. And one last thing before I leave. I never asked to be here. Therefore I will not contribute or pay attention if I do not want to. I will not change my ways for a pathetic old women such as your self. And I certainly won't apologise to a backstabbing old bag who kept my baby brother a secret from me.'
Hermione was fighting back the tears as she blasted the transfiguration professor. The things she said just came out, she wasn't sure if she meant them or not. Hermione turned on her heal as pushed her chair back with such a force that it landed 4 foot away from the table with a loud bang. Before she could even leave the table Draco grabbed her wrist and made her face him.
'What are you playing at?'
'I don't have to justify myself to you.'
'Where do you think your going? Apologies.'
'I don't have to do what you tell me, so don't think for one second you can order me about.'
She yanked her wrist free and sent him a cold, evil look. Everyone in the hall was watching her as she brushed past them and went to leave the hall. Draco stood up and called after her.
'Hermione!'
She spun around and faced him with the cold black eyes that had covered her once amber ones. There was a tinge of red glowing around her as well.
'Maya. My name is Maya. The next person to call me Hermione, won't live to see the next day.'
Again she spun around and waved her had at the door. She slammed open causing everyone in the hall to flinch.
As she left everyone in the hall thinking about what had just happened, nobody even noticed the tears that had escaped her eyes. Nobody except Dumbledore.
Outside the main hall Hermione's mind was racing.
What have I done?
She let the tears of her confused mind fall silently down her cheeks as she went out into the harsh winds of the Hogwarts grounds.
A.N I can only apologies for the delay! starting college is a lot of hard work and takes up a lot of my time. So what did you think of the chapter? do you think she will stay or go? well press that little review button and let me know.!
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