Chapter 92

Voices

Cameron and John were alone in their room. They 'explored' each other. Cameron wanted to learn everything on her own. She knew she could please John better if she started to use her infiltration sexual programming. She would give John the choice and see if her chose 'her' or the very scary robot as a mechanical 'love doll'.

Cameron was naked in their bed. John was likewise next to her.

"Do you want me to turn my programming on?" Cameron asked.

John did not even need to think about that. He wanted to be with 'Cameron' not programming from someone else.

"No!" John said. "I want to explore together with you, just us."

Cameron was pleased to hear that. It was what she wanted too.

"So far I have found that pleasant and rewarding." Cameron said.

John looked at Cameron and smiled.

"As have I, Cameron. I am so happy you chose me as your husband." John said.

They faced each other now.

Things got a little more serious.

Cameron reflected on all the things that could have gone wrong.

"I did choose you, John. I am here with YOU, now. I am not lost in time or some other future or past." Cameron said. "I was not terminated."

John wanted it to stay that way. He knew that Cameron faced a lot of internal 'demons'.

"Can we keep it that way?" John asked. "Please, just for US?"

That was something Cameron wanted too.

"Yes." Cameron said.

Cameron rolled on her back. She wanted a more. She wanted the sensations that John allowed her to feel.

"Can you touch me again, John….?" Cameron asked.

John smiled.

"I can." John said. "Where would you like me to start?"

Cameron was not sure. She liked when John was able to make her 'finish'.

"As long as we reach the destination the path to get there is not as important." Cameron said.

John was not so sure about that. He was aware that Cameron liked him to do the same things the same way every time. That was fine with him as long as that was what Cameron liked and wanted.

He would do something new or a different way sometimes. Maybe he would change the order. Whenever he did it took Cameron longer to 'get there'. It was like she needed to relearn what was happening.

John decided to stick with everything the way they did it on their wedding night. That always seemed to please Cameron. He started in as he originally did. He could feel Cameron respond instantly. She already knew what to expect.

Cameron liked the way John touched her. She liked repetition and order. She knew if John did certain things that she would arrive where she wanted to. Life was good in Paradise.

Sarah was in the bathroom. She felt very tired physically. She looked at her breasts in the mirror as she touched them. There was some tenderness to them that was not there before. She checked the pad in her underwear. It was unblemished. She left the bathroom and looked at the calendar. She was a full two weeks late. She felt a slight feeling of nausea again but it passed quickly.

Kyle entered their room and noticed Sarah looking at the calendar.

When she heard him, she quickly looked away from the calendar.

Kyle came over to her and kissed her. They talked for a little bit. It seemed Sarah was a little 'off'.

He was about to ask her what was wrong when she faced him with a very serious look.

"Kyle." Sarah said.

He wondered what was wrong.

"Yes, Sarah?" Kyle asked.

Sarah ran a million thoughts through her mind. She looked at Kyle a little longer before she continued. There was no way to say it other than to say it.

"Kyle, I think I am pregnant." Sarah said.

Kyle needed to process what Sarah just said. When he did a giant smile blossomed on his face.

"Really?" Kyle asked. "That is great news, Sarah."

Sarah gave a faint smile but she was filled with doubt and worry.

"I don't know, Kyle." Sarah said. "With Judgment Day coming I don't know if this is the right thing to do."

Kyle didn't see it that way. The glass was half full, not half empty.

"How can a child created out of love not be the 'right thing', Sarah?" Kyle asked.

He felt a little hurt. He thought Sarah would be happier. She seemed rather subdued.

Sarah worried about a Skynet future. She knew what the girls from the future faced. She was aware that every female was assaulted at some point.

"I don't know." Sarah said. "I'm worried about the future."

Kyle moved closer to her and held her in his arms.

They kissed.

This was news Kyle wanted to hear. He was not sure it was for real this time. They'd been through this a few times but it never lasted more than two months.

"Are you sure that you are…?" Kyle asked. "What makes you think so?"

Kyle actually wondered what took so long anyway. Sarah did not use any birth control and nothing happened so far that seemed like it was going to 'stick'. He was afraid he was like most of the men from his future and now sterile. He felt too ashamed to say anything. He knew of the outcast feeling it created and especially how the females were treated who could not reproduce. They became barter and were traded like commodities. They were unwanted as a mate. They became 'things' to use. Eventually they ended up in the hands of Scavengers.

Sarah was in the bathroom early for a specific reason. Maybe she needed to spell it out.

"Cameron helped me with my hair earlier." Sarah said.

Kyle did not think that was so unusual.

"She always helps you with things." Kyle said. "She likes to help you."

Sarah pointed to the table. There were some booklets there of some type.

"Cameron came back later with some catalogs of maternity clothes and baby clothes." Sarah said. "She just looked at me, smiled and walked away…."

Kyle hoped it was true. He knew a version of him was John's father. This could be something that made him, a real father. He really wanted this. He wanted to make Sarah want it too. How could she not want a child created by love?

Vanna and Allison were alone in their room. They were there often for more than sleep.

"You know, Vanna; I really enjoy the person Jesse has become." Allison said. "It is such a change for her."

Vanna could see that Jesse was no longer guided by lust and greed.

"Yes, she is so nice and helpful now." Vanna said. "I think all she needed was to be loved by a family, our family."

Allison believed it was the different environment as much as anything.

"For once she's been given love without something being taken from her or being hurt." Allison said. "No one is expecting anything in return from her or worse, demanding it."

Vanna knew there was something else too. She thought it was a big something.

"You saved her life, Allison." Vanna said.

Allison remembered everything she saw with her own eyes. It was clear what was happening when she arrived. Cameron and Jesse were both going to be consumed by the fire.

"She saved Cameron at the risk of the loss of her own life. The old Jesse would have run." Allison said. "Jesse would have died in there with Cameron if help hadn't arrived. I saw her, Vanna. She was not going to abandon Cameron and she knew she was dying. She could have saved herself and she didn't. She was dying and knew it. She stayed anyway."

Allison knew that was love that made that call for Jesse. Sacrifice was the true test of love.

"And you stayed and tried to save both of them at the risk of you losing your own life." Vanna said.

Allison made the 'hard choice'. There really was no choice at that point. It was simply what needed to be done.

"Yes. I would do it again too." Allison said. "It was the right thing to do."

Vanna witnessed that behavior several times in Allison.

"Like it was the right thing to do to use yourself as bait to save young Kyle and young Derek?" Vanna asked. "You need to be careful your mind does not keep writing checks that your body can't cash. I am glad the young Reese bothers are safe."

There was no choice there either. There was only what needed to be done.

"Yes. I would do that again too." Allison said. "How could I not? They saved you and me so many times. They protected us. You know what would have happened to us otherwise."

Vanna touched Allison's cheek. She was her true love. There was also an open end to their relationship as far as females were concerned. It was one thing Vanna made clear. She needed to 'help' the females that were abused find value and worth in themselves again. She'd done that many times with a loving touch.

"Allison, the time Jesse was in our bed, did it bother you we may have done 'something' together?" Vanna asked.

Allison smiled at the thought. She remembered how HOT Jesse looked naked. She wished that shower together would have led to 'more'.

"No, we all shared a great time that night. I wished we would have done 'more' sometimes and been able to remember it." Allison looked at Vanna. "We both know she is HOT. To be honest, I find her quite desirable…. The person she has become makes her very attractive to me."

That was what Vanna wanted to hear. She felt the same way.

"Would you like to invite Jesse here to be with us sometime?" Vanna asked.

Allison was instantly aroused at the thought of the three of them together.

"Do you mean the three of us? I would, Vanna, but I don't want to cause any friction or problems between us. I am not going to go behind your back. I only want to do what you are comfortable with. If you say 'no' that is fine. I find Jesse extremely attractive and HOT."

There was a knock at the door.

Vanna looked into Allison eyes.

"I know it is something you would like, so I already invited her to 'stop' by…." Vanna said.

It was clear Vanna was as excited as she was.

"There won't be any problems?" Allison asked. "It is for both of us?"

Vanna was ready for a new adventure. her previous overtures with Cameron and Sarah hadn't gone anywhere. She did think she was very close to being with Sarah a few times. Kyle's arrival ended that prospect as John's return had ended her journey with Cameron.

"I would not have it any other way. I want it too. She is HOT." Vanna said.

They'd each shared with other females in the past. This was something they both wanted. It had been a long time since their last 'three way'. That was about to change.

"Come in." They said together.

Jesse stood outside the door.

This was something she'd wanted for a long time. Now it was different. She wanted to be with Allison and Vanna because they were her 'friends' not conquests. She loved both of them dearly. She owed Allison her life or at the least for not being horribly burned and disfigured.

Jesse loved Cameron. She loved Cameron like she'd loved no other in her life. Cameron gave her respect and honor. Cameron made her feel proud and have esteem. The day Cameron gave her the purple coat; she knew Cameron truly cared about her. It changed Jesse's life. Being around Cameron changed everyone's life.

Jesse decided if this adventure with Vanna and Allison really happened that she would start with Allison as Allison, then Vanna and then 'Cameron' through Allison. She knew this was 'wrong' but she would always see Allison as Allison first. The three of them together, would always be a 'foursome' to Jesse.

Jesse knocked.

"Come in." It was three voices in Jesse's mind.

John talked to Derek about Jesse.

He told Derek he'd never touched Jesse and that he did not plan to do so.

Derek explained that Jesse operated on her own desires, not his. They shared the freedom to do as either pleased. That was fine with Derek. That is how it always was between them.

Derek looked at Jesse's calendar. He saw she would be spotting in two days time. He looked forward to her return later tonight or tomorrow. She went to great lengths to please him now. She was a better person to be around. In fact the more he thought of her the more Derek realized he was in love with her. Derek hoped John would keep his promise. John was a good man.

A single tear ran down Derek's cheek. He wondered if Jesse could ever love him. He wondered how Cameron won Jesse's love without trying. Everyone loved Cameron, really cared about her, loved her and knew how truly special she was. Derek wondered if there was room in Jesse's heart for 'both' of them.

Cameron and John 'finished' up. John went off to attend to his duties in the Command Center.

Alone in her room, Cameron wrote in her poem book. She felt very alone in her mind.

'Blowing In The Wind' by 'Peter, Paul and Mary', played in the background. Cameron felt the lyrics.

Nobody could hear her cry.

Voices

There are things we hear
There are things we know
Will things happen fast
Or will they happen slow

We get suggestions
We are given advice
Does it really matter
Nobody ever thinks twice

We forge blindly ahead
Often without a set direction
There are many things we will do
To get some returned affection

Surrounded by many others
We often feel all alone
It is at times like these
We wish we had a clone

In our own mind
There are many voices
None of them ever give real guidance
To life's many changing choices

Nobody