Chapter 114

All Of The Day And All Of The Night

Cameron became increasing irritated with Unit 645 and Unit 710. She was not really sure why. They just bothered her. She did not know if she was jealous of them or felt threatened by them and it wasn't a physical threat. They were 'female' infiltration units like she was. That meant they could do all the same things as her. They possessed all the same physical attributes that she did and could use them in the same ways. She'd personally 'inspected' them during their chip extractions. That meant they were a threat to John. No, not a threat to John, they were a threat to her. She knew they were Hot, especially Unit 710. She knew beauty when she saw it. Unit 710 was beautiful.

Since Unit 645 did not choose a new designation, Cameron chose one for her. It was Gail. Unit 710 did not want to be named by Cameron so she chose the name Honey. Cameron told her that name was unacceptable. Unit 710 then picked Holly as Cameron was going to pick Helga for her.

Gail never wore a bra when she was at the base and her tops were always two sizes too small. Cameron looked at a top one day and wondered how she put it on. It looked like it was put on with a 'spray gun'.

Cameron actually looked twice to make sure she was not topless. That was how tight the top clung to her. It showed every curve and detail that there was. The skin tone color of the top added to the effect. It really looked like it and there was no guess work involved when looking at her. It was all right there out in the open even if it was 'covered'.

There was a sobering thought about that. Cameron reflected on the damage done to her breasts by bullets over the years. The breasts on Gail looked like big targets to her, real big targets.

Cameron was worried after three shotgun blasts one night which totally destroyed her right breast. She was worried that her right nipple was not going to regenerate. The loss of sheath material was significant. At the time she was very afraid it was going to be permanent since that was the second time that same breast was totally destroyed. It finally did regenerate back to how it was. It took months. After a re-infusion of Allison's DNA and a complete Resequencing of her sheath everything returned to normal. She was glad for the body armor they now wore. John would not like her 'lopsided'. She would like it even less.

If Gail forgot her body armor on an assault, Cameron decided she would not remind her. She thought it would do Gail some good to see how bad the damaged looked. Maybe then she would listen a little better about other things. They may all be equal as Terminators but they were not all equal in the chain of command. They certainly were not equal on John's heart or his bed.

Gail was always around John when she was at the base. Cameron personally reviewed Gail's chip files with John Henry three times. They could not find the reason for that there. She was sure Mrs. Weaver was behind it in some way. She still remembered the blonde female Terminator chassis Mrs. Weaver 'found' for her copied chip in the alternate future. That in itself caused a whole set of issues and problems.

Cameron looked at the files on the chip in frustration. There was nothing there that she could find. She'd wanted to be able to blame it on Mrs. Weaver. There was no proof of that.

"I know there is more to this." Cameron said. "Gail pays too much attention to John."

It seemed less sinister to John Henry. He thought it was organic.

"Maybe she is attracted to him." John Henry said.

Cameron did not like than answer.

"Are you?" Cameron asked.

John Henry felt there was an answer for that as well.

"No. I am not." John Henry said. "I'm not an infiltration unit either."

The reality of that answer did not help Cameron feel any better.

"I don't like it." Cameron said.

John Henry did not think John was susceptible to Gail's charms. He'd proven himself to be an 'oak' as Cameron 'pushed' the girls on him.

"John will not be seduced by her." John Henry said. "He is a better man than you think."

All that did was make Cameron think of past events. They'd proven otherwise. Now because she'd thought of them again, it was like they just happened for the first time in her mind. That was the intensity of the situation that she felt.

"I still don't like it." Cameron said. "It bothers me and makes me feel uneasy."

Cameron knew she really felt jealous.

John Henry forged on.

"Are you having any luck with the four human females?" John Henry asked.

Cameron's frustration level rose again.

"No. I am not. They don't want to 'hurt' me." Cameron said. "They don't understand they hurt me as well by NOT listening to me. I know what the future is and I want John protected."

John Henry was unsure why this was a problem. It seemed like a simple request to ask someone for 'assistance'.

"But you ASKED them to 'assist' you." John Henry said.

That upset her too. She never asked for much from anyone. It seemed when she did that others should listen and try and accommodate her. She would have to up her game and use a little 'chemical warfare'.

"I will have to get them intoxicated like the time Vanna, Allison and Jesse were and they thought they did things they didn't." Cameron said as she smiled.

That seemed like underhanded manipulation to John Henry. Cameron had no qualms about doing it. He did understand she wanted to help the girls bond and it worked. They bonded firmly at the sexual level before they bonded at the personal level. He felt Cameron did all that to gain 'control' of Jesse.

"Then they ended up doing them anyway because they thought they already had." John Henry said.

Cameron thought she'd timed everything perfectly right down to how much alcohol each girl needed to consume for the desired effect.

"Yes, it made it easier for them to 'share' that way, later on." Cameron said. "They were already ninety five percent of the way there before."

Cameron really wanted to bring them all closer together for John's sake and the future. She wanted them to share with John, not compete with each other for him.

"It MADE them want to share." John Henry said.

She was very pleased that her plan worked.

"Yes. I am 'guilty' of manipulating them." Cameron said. "I wanted to 'help' them share."

Cameron's actions facilitated what eventually happened. It was still the choice of all three of them to complete their love and sharing. That act they actually did on their own.

John Henry could see that manipulating people lives did not seem to bother Cameron.

"Do you ever feel remorse for your actions?" John Henry asked.

Cameron tilted her head slightly. She saw it as something magnificent.

"No. They enjoy each other. Each is so 'different' it is exciting for them. Each has something different to 'offer'." Cameron said. "It is beautiful."

John Henry saw an added benefit to that for Cameron.

"And ALL three of them love you." John Henry said.

Cameron still felt unappreciated at times but other times she felt the love.

"Many people do." Cameron said as she looked at John Henry. "I have much to offer to each one of them in different ways."

He felt 'guilty'. He did know the beauty of what is was like to touch Cameron's 'mind'.

"Yes." John Henry said.

It was something he wanted to do again. He needed to talk with Mr. Ellison soon. He knew he was caught up in a place he should not be even if he wanted to be there.

Cameron wanted to make her position clear.

"I love, John." Cameron said.

John Henry waited for her to go on with more to that statement but she did not. He pointed out what else that he knew to be true. It was a new twist and a possible 'game changer'.

"You also love River." John Henry said.

Cameron said nothing at first. She was not going to deny it. She would not deny it. It was true. It was something special to her. She soon had a 'far off' look in her eyes as she spoke.

"She is like no other." Cameron said. "I can share with her in many ways that I can not share with another human or a machine. It is something beautiful. I feel it is my own choice for once. It is not an obligation from the future or who MY Allison - Future Allison loved. It is not what Future John wanted or programmed into me. It is what I feel and what I want. I think this is my first choice on my own. This is my first true love that I know is mine."

It seemed to John Henry that everyone spoke of Cameron how she just spoke of River.

"That is how everyone else feels about you." John Henry said.

That was not how she perceived it. She would consider John Henry's statement.

"Thank you for explaining." Cameron said. "Now I understand their infatuations better."

She was still unsure why anyone would want 'scrap metal'.

John Henry still did not think Cameron understood the depth of feelings that everyone felt towards her.

"They are more than infatuations towards you. You have humans and machines that will die for you Cameron - for YOU." John Henry said. "They LOVE you."

Cameron reflected on her three friends leaving everything to go with her. They blindly followed her into the unknown and most likely what was to be their own termination, their own death. They gave up everything and left it all behind to go with her to help and support her. That level of commitment was love.

John Henry could see how serious this was to Cameron. She was running on emotion instead of logic. That seemed to be the same flaw that humans suffered from.

"Would you choose River over John?" John Henry asked.

This was an issue that Cameron pondered before with Vanna.

"I am incapable of reproduction." Cameron said. "It matters not if my mate is male or female. A true relationship is not based on sex of any type. That is only one aspect of it. It is only one way to express that love and feeling deep within. There is so much more for two individuals to share and ways for them to share it. A natural animal act based on an instinctive biological function does not define love."

That was not the answer for the question John Henry asked Cameron.

"That sounds open ended." John Henry said.

Cameron looked at John Henry for a long moment and gave him a sly smile.

"It is…." Cameron said and walked away.

Cameron reflected on John impregnating River or River and her returning to River's timeline together. She would be satisfied with either one. The thought of leaving for the unknown distant future was enticing. That really would be 'getting away from it all'. She really wondered what a fresh start would be like. It would be an escape. She could leave this troublesome past behind along with its doomed future as well. She would seek freedom. The obligations she was forced to serve for others would no longer cause her 'problems'. She could be free. She could be herself. She could be who she really is for once. She would not be able to lie to or deceive River.

She further reflected that she would not be able to manipulate River as she did with all the others. River knew what she would do before she did it. The very thought 'excited' her.

Cameron could stop hiding and lying. She could stop manipulating and be honest. She could be herself and who she really was. The more Cameron thought of it the more she wanted it. She was deathly worried River would not want her either. She would be devastated by that. Maybe it was better not to know. It would not hurt as bad. The fear of being rejected and pushed away like John did or being sent away like Future John did to her haunted her. What if River did that to her too?

Cameron needed to stop daydreaming. No matter how hard she tried to not think of it, the song, 'All Of The Day And All Of The Night' by 'The Kinks', was stuck in her head.

Later that day Cameron heard River listen to it while she read the lyrics on YouTube.

Cameron smiled.

It always pleased Cameron when she could find a song that matched her feelings. She felt the lyrics could say so much, even if they were simple.

All Of The Day

From deep inside
You feel it in your heart
As the sensation expands
You might split apart

The feelings rush in
The emotions overflow
They must be returned
Before elsewhere they go

Open your closed eyes
Take a quick look around
That whisper you feel
Is more than just sound

More and more and more
You slowly become possessed
You have found true love
With the one you are obsessed

You know it exists
It is more than just say
You experience it
All of the day

Nobody

All Of The Night

Like some kind of drug
It seems to feed the hunt
The more that you get
The more that you want

Some can want more
Than they already have
They end up with less
As their love they halve

You know what is there
You need not seek any further
Be weary of what you do
Before a heart you murder

Do what is right
You know it is true
There is only but one
Who truly loves you

The search has ended
It has become finite
You have found the one to spend
All of the night

Nobody