Chapter 189

Isabel

Cameron viewed the half naked form of the captured female Terminator. Her hand gently followed the shape of her figure and its curves. The more she looked at her the more she wanted to touch her. She wanted her fixed and upgraded.

"I want a port in her neck, like mine." Cameron said.

Holly was next to Cameron as she 'inspected' the new female Terminator.

"I want one as well." Holly said.

Mr. Murch looked at Cameron, Holly and the new female Terminator.

"I will get right on it." Mr. Murch said and left.

Cameron completely removed the sheet covering the new female Terminator. She'd done this many times alone already. She wanted Holly to see her and 'inspect' her.

"Isabel is beautiful, isn't she?" Cameron asked.

Holly was unaware she now had a name.

"She is stunning." Holly said. "You gave her a name?"

Cameron was fascinated with three female names for some reason. She thought they were all 'pretty' names.

"Yes. It was either going to be Isabel, Morena or Inara." Cameron said. "I felt compelled by the name Isabel."

Holly looked at Isabel, she liked what she saw.

"Nice." Holly said. "I love that sheath tone."

The more Cameron looked at Isabel, the more she was captivated by her. It was almost a fixation at this point.

"Is she prettier than me?" Cameron asked. "Tell me the truth."

Holly knew she needed to be diplomatic. She also believed what she said.

"She is as pretty as you but not prettier." Holly said.

Holly thought Isabel was Hotter but not prettier than Cameron. She decided against pointing out that observation. It was not the question. Isabel was more than 'fine'.

Cameron was pleased to hear that.

"Do you think John will like my new 'body'?" Cameron asked.

Holly and Gail talked about Cameron's plans. They both wanted to offer her some options. They were sincere in their offer too. They wanted what was best for Cameron and John.

"Cameron, Gail and I would also like to offer our 'bodies' for you to choose from. You have a choice of three now." Holly said. "Mine is 'untouched' if you desire that."

Cameron smiled. That was an issue that troubled her. She was not sure of her own sexual history since Future John erased much of her life. She appreciated what Holly offered her. She offered her the option to be a virgin.

Holly was created as a Restorator and Duplicate Cameron was on her chip for fifteen months. Cameron had those files now and she knew everything about Holly since her creation. Holly was untouched by anyone.

"I will not take that from you." Cameron said. "I truly appreciate what you are willing to sacrifice for me."

Holly also wanted the best for John.

"It is still something for you to think about." Holly said.

Cameron looked at some of the female specific 'details' on Isabel.

"Isabel has different 'details' than I have. She has some darker sheath pigmentation in 'certain areas'." Cameron said. "Do you think John will like it?"

Cameron showed Holly what she referred to. It was rather private….

Holly was a little surprised as Cameron spread Isabel's legs apart some.

It was like Riley pointed out to her and Gail before - THEY were all different.

Holly actually liked what she saw. She also thought it was not a point to dwell on. Love and caring was more than skin deep. A person was a package deal. They were how they were. How they were created was beyond their control. What they ended up with was also beyond their control.

Her close association with John for the fifteen months Cameron was 'gone' allowed her to truly see what kind of a man John was inside. He never once touched her inappropriately even when she clearly 'offered' herself to him. She wanted to provide him with any comfort he sought. She'd promised Duplicate Cameron that she would 'take care' of him. John's love for Cameron was stronger than his animal desires for her. John was a good man.

"I think John will love you for how you are in any body or whichever one of us you choose. I believe he will feel the same even if you stay in the one you have now." Holly said. "Gail or I will be happy to take Isabel's chassis if you want one of ours. We both want you to know we will do anything for you, Cameron. We love you. I LOVE you."

Cameron felt guilty that others would care so deeply for her. She was nobody. She would be happy with any female chassis that could still function as a female.

"Thanks." Cameron said. "If one of you wants Isabel I will take that vacated chassis for myself. I am the one who 'ruined' this one. I will not be picky. I want everyone to be happy and feel comfortable. I will ask Gail and Jesse to come here and decide. I wanted to ask you first if you want the new chassis."

Holly wanted Cameron to have the chassis she desired. She would be content with a different chassis as long as Cameron was able to have what she wanted.

"She is beautiful, Cameron." Holly said. "I will think about it. I want some time. If Gail wants it I may choose her chassis and you can have mine."

Holly wanted Cameron to be happy. She was willing to sacrifice for her. She wanted Cameron to understand this. It would be an honor to have Cameron choose her chassis.

Cameron really did like Holly's chassis. She believed that its attributes were more of what John would desire in a 'female'.

"I think your sheath is beautiful, Holly. You two decide and I will take whatever chassis is left." Cameron said. "I will not Resequence either Gail's or your sheath as you may decide to reclaim it later. I will relinquish it back to you. I will not be picky or do anything else foolish."

Cameron did not want to ruin anyone else's chassis. The idea of 'borrowing' the other chassis did intrigue her though. She wanted to know what was 'different' on the other chassis when she was with John. She did not think it would be the same experience even with her chip in place. She believed the sheath made a difference. It was obvious that some simply had larger pleasure receptors than others. She could be someone 'different'. Maybe that was what she needed to get away from it all for awhile.

Holly left. She wished she knew which chassis Cameron wanted more. Was it Isabel's chassis or her chassis? She wanted to give Cameron her first choice.

She was pleased that she would not have to take the one that Cameron 'damaged'. She may want a sexual relationship one day with a male. John may want her one day too….

Cameron's chassis would soon be nothing more than a Terminator.

Holly shook her head in disgust. What a waste. Cameron was beautiful. At least she was….

Cameron wanted Gail and Jesse in on the decision too.

Jesse's phone rang. It was Cameron.

She exchanged pleasantries with Cameron.

"Is Gail with you?" Cameron asked.

Jesse looked next to her in bed.

"Yes." Jesse said. "She is here."

Jesse fondled Gail's large breasts since she just looked at them.

"Can you two come to the lab?" Cameron asked. "When you're finished I mean."

Jesse wondered how Cameron knew.

"We will be right there." Jesse said. "I mean as soon as we get dressed."

The phone call ended. Jesse looked at Gail.

"Cameron wants us to go to the lab." Jesse said.

Gail heard everything. She previously discussed the issue with Holly.

"I know what for." Gail said.

They quickly dressed and talked on the way to the lab.

Jesse was excited and apprehensive at the same time.

"Let me say before we go in that I love you the way you are now. You don't need to change anything." Jesse said. "I don't want you to change anything but if you do I will support you. I will accept and love you however you are. I know you are your program."

Gail was glad to hear that. She knew Jesse always 'checked out' every female they passed or encountered. That was who Jesse was. She understood that. She really hoped Jesse meant what she said and would love her regardless of her appearance.

"Thanks, I love you too." Gail said.

In a few minutes they arrived at the lab. They looked in the little window in the door before they entered.

Cameron ran her hand across Isabel's face. She traced all the curves of her sheath.

They could see those were 'loving' touches.

They entered the lab.

"Hello." Cameron said.

"Hi, Cameron." Gail said.

"Hey, love." Jesse said.

Cameron indicated the nude form of Isabel to both of them.

"She is beautiful." Gail said. "I love her coloring. It is in between Jesse's tone and my sheath – skin tone."

Jesse thought the nude figure was HOT.

"She's a looker." Jesse said.

Jesse was instantly turned on just looking at her. It was even more so to see her naked. Her first impulse was to touch her. She thought she better ask permission first. She did not want to disrespect Cameron. That might be her new chassis.

"Indeed." Gail said.

Gail noted Jesse's response. She could tell Jesse was highly sexually aroused just by looking at the new Terminator.

Cameron was pleased with their reactions to Isabel's nude form.

"Her name is Isabel." Cameron said.

Jesse looked at Gail and then at Cameron as she moved closer to Isabel.

"May I?" Jesse asked.

Jesse indicated she wanted to touch Isabel.

"Yes." Cameron replied. "She is so smooth and soft. Her breasts are firm. There is no sag or droop, they are very lovely. I love those nipples too. They are so distinct and defined."

Jesse's hands eagerly touched Isabel's sheath. She looked at everything and touched it too.

Gail was a little worried.

"Is this the appearance you will keep if you transfer to her?" Gail asked. "You won't Resequence her to Allison appearance will you?"

Cameron was more than pleased with Jesse's reaction. That was what she wanted to see. That is how John would see her too regardless of what he said to her.

"No, I would keep her the same. I find her fascinating to look, at." Cameron said. "If you wish you may have her chassis and I will take yours. I will not hinder you. That is why I asked Jesse to come with you. You may choose. I will not alter your sheath either as you may decide to reclaim it. I will relinquish it back to you."

Gail looked at Jesse. She could see the hunger in Jesse's eyes as she looked at Isabel. It stabbed Gail a little to see Jesse look at another like that.

Jesse looked up at Gail and saw she'd hurt her. She did not want to hurt Gail like that. She needed to fix it, quick.

"I love Gail like she is. I do not desire her to change anything." Jesse said as she faced Cameron and then Gail. "Gail is my lover. I want her how she is."

Gail was very pleased to hear that. She grabbed Jesse and hugged her.

"Thank you, Jesse." Gail said.

Jesse gave Gail a kiss.

"Isabel is a beauty, Cameron. John will love YOUR new appearance." Jesse said.

Jesse's hand slowly moved off Isabel's right breast. It momentarily returned for a final gentle touch. Her thumb and index finger twisted the nipple slightly.

Cameron was pleased she could have Isabel's chassis for herself. Holly and Gail would keep their own chassis.

"I want to thank both of you for allowing me to keep Isabel for John and for myself." Cameron said.

The name confused Jesse somewhat.

"Will you use the name 'Isabel' instead of 'Cameron'?" Jesse asked.

Cameron tucked 'everything' back in that Jesse had stretched out and closed Isabel's legs so they were together. She did not cover her.

"Yes." Cameron said. "I want to start fresh. I want to be someone that was not 'thrown away'. I want to be somebody. I don't want to be 'Nobody' anymore. I want to matter. I want to belong. I want to be 'good enough'."

It really pained Jesse to hear Cameron say that. She knew that was what Cameron really believed. No one else saw it that way.

"Cameron, you already are somebody. You are the most special person I know. We all love you." Jesse said. "I love you. You need to know how we all feel about you matters too."

Cameron could only go on how she was made to feel. She did not want to discuss it.

"As soon as the chassis is repaired and modified I will move my chip into Isabel and put this chassis, my chassis, in storage." Cameron said. "It can remain there until after the Resequencing is finished and it assumes its new 'appearance'. It will then use a reprogrammed chip to assist us. I do not want to see my altered chassis again until it is done Resequencing. I don't want to see 'yesterday's news'."

Jesse thought Cameron was missing something important here.

"Have you asked John or talked it over with him?" Jesse asked.

Cameron tilted her head slightly. She saw no need to do that.

"No. I will do as I choose. John has the freedom to choose Allison, Vanna or you." Cameron said. "I want him to choose all three of you to mate with. You and Gail will be able to start a family. John needs to be with REAL females."

Jesse worried Cameron missed the big picture here too. They'd all tried to explain it to her before. Everything always ended up back in the same place.

"We ALL know what you want, Cameron." Jesse said.

Cameron smiled at Jesse.

"Everyone knows and understands except John." Cameron said.

Cameron still didn't get it.

Jesse and Gail left. There was no need to spoil her 'happy' mood. They seemed to be few and far between.

Cameron came back to view Isabel again. She started to touch her….

She went over every square inch of Isabel - again.

'I Still Miss Someone' by 'Johnny Cash', played in the background.

Stagnation Of The Mind

The mind searches itself
Unsure of what it will find
Will it collapse in on itself
Or will it rupture and unwind

If today is tomorrow's, yesterday
Then yesterday was today's tomorrow
Will it bring joy and happiness
Or leave one to wallow in sorrow

One has a voice
With which they may speak
Will it be heard
Or only make a squeak

Open the door and look inside
Don't be afraid to knock
Is there a path to freedom
Or only another block

Break open the mind's lock
There are treasures to find
Push through the emptiness and
Stagnation of the mind

Nobody