Chapter 190
Trash
John went to the lab at Cameron's request. He knew what she was up to and did not like it one bit. What was wrong with her? He knew she loved him.
He could not understand any of this. For that matter he could not understand much of what Cameron wanted to do and already seemed to have done. Why didn't Cameron ever think about him and his feelings? It was almost as if a part of her 'hated' him and sought to repeatedly 'punish' him.
John knew why. He too 'hated' himself for it. It was his 'involvement' with Riley – Future Riley. He also knew he carried the burden for what 'he' – Future John did to Cameron in the future. The strange part about that was that Cameron did not even know what all that involved. It was all speculation.
He knew a big part of it was because he rubbed spending the night with Riley in Cameron's face. He knew it was because Cameron came to his room and 'offered' herself to him and he rejected her and ran off with Riley to Mexico instead. She was never going to forgive him for those transgressions. He wondered how many times a day Cameron relived those events. It was probably thousands of times a day, maybe millions. He was aware every time she 'thought' about it; it was as if it'd just occurred.
Cameron called him over to a table with a covered figure. She folded the sheet off of Isabel's face.
John stood over Isabel. Only her face was visible.
He could see the beauty in her face. She was beautiful but she was not what he wanted. He wanted Cameron.
Cameron was very proud if Isabel. She was in perfect condition. She wanted John to see how beautiful she was going to look. She wanted him to look at 'everything'.
"Do you desire to see the 'rest' of Isabel?" Cameron asked. "This is going to be my new chassis, sheath and name."
John was irritated. He did not like what Cameron was about to do. Even if she did this, why did she need to have a different name?
"No, Cameron, I don't." John said.
The longer he thought about it, the more he disliked Cameron having a 'new name' even more. What was wrong with her old name - her name?
Cameron looked upset. John's attitude instantly bothered her.
Cameron wanted to be 'someone different'. This was her chance to do that. Why did John always disrespect her? Why? She thought the matter of the chassis selection was settled. John must want a different sheath. She would need to find Holly again.
"Would you prefer Holly's appearance over Isabel's appearance? I will inform Holly." Cameron turned to walk away.
John felt Cameron missed the whole point. He wanted her. He wanted all of her. However she was is how she was.
"Cameron, STOP this. I will not allow you to do this. I want YOU how you are, however you are." John said.
John never witnessed Cameron took so unkempt. She did nothing to groom herself anymore. It was like she'd given up. Maybe she'd given up on him too.
Cameron saw him look at her.
"I no longer wish to remain in this 'damaged' sheath." Cameron said. "Isabel is much prettier than I am and than I will be. She will be able to 'function' as your wife. She has everything you want and value in a female. Let me show you. We can start in the groin area…."
Cameron knew what John wanted in a female. She started to pull the sheet off of Isabel.
John stopped her. This was not what he wanted and surely not the way he wanted to do it. If Cameron really wanted to do this, he would see all of her when they were alone and together. Not like a piece of meat on a table to be inspected like an image on the internet.
John's refusal to cooperate with her was very upsetting. She was well acquainted at what John looked at on a female. She was aware of his internet searches. She would view the same images that he did. She too soon became fascinated with the differences of every female in her private areas. How could they all be different? It was the same apparatus. She needed to refocus.
"Don't you want to see all of her?" Cameron asked. "John, this is my new body. It is our new body for me, for us. I will submit as often as you desire. I will not hold back anymore. When you tell me to 'spread', I will."
John did not like to hear Cameron 'sell' herself short. That was not the kind of relationship he wanted even if it was beneficial to him and his desires. He wanted to make his position clear. He wondered how many times he was going to need to do so.
"No, I will take you however you are. It is YOU I want, not your body or certain parts of it. I don't want you to change." John said. "If you feel you MUST. I will accept you however you are in whatever form, no matter what you can or can no longer 'do'."
John had enough of this madness. He turned to walk out.
Cameron felt he was displeased with Isabel. She hadn't listened to a word he said about his feelings and what he really wanted. She was still fixated on appearance. She knew what motivated and drove John, even if he didn't.
"I will talk to Holly…." Cameron started.
John threw his hands up in the air.
"Whatever." John said.
He walked away without looking back.
Cameron was upset John did not like the choices she provided him with. It was time to teach him a lesson. Who did he think he was?
It was John's attitude and rude behavior that made the next part of her decision easy. As the door closed behind John, she decided that she would destroy this old chassis of hers and move on. As soon as this defective chassis was reduced to scrap metal it could be regulated to the junk pile. It would be the only way to move John forward. Whatever happened to her chassis now was John's fault with his poor attitude and lack of caring about her.
She felt she was someone NOW and not - Nobody. Why wouldn't John allow her to be what she wanted? He didn't' 'own' her.
Cameron went back over to Isabel. She uncovered her and touched her, all of her. She could hardly wait. Again she looked at every square inch of Isabel. She missed nothing.
She did not ask herself if what she really wanted was a female lover. Maybe that was what she really desired and did not know it.
Vanna, Allison and Jesse all told her that only a female could truly satisfy another female. That was because they understood their bodies and how they responded. That information was always present in her mind. It was 'background' noise at this point so she did not 'hear' it, even as it 'spoke' to her.
John sought out Vanna and Allison. He wanted to be around 'real people' for awhile after his unpleasant episode with Cameron. It was like she could hear him but never actually listened to him.
John was pleased when He found them together. He looked at the beauty in both of them as he approached. They really didn't do anything to make themselves look 'pretty'. They were naturally beautiful.
They seemed pleased to see him. He always noticed Allison's eyes give him a 'once over'. Vanna's never did. It almost made him feel ashamed for the men who'd abused her so cruelly.
Vanna wanted to know more about the attack. She knew the group was drawn to the Tehachapi area so they could be targeted with some of Skynet's deadliest weapons. They could be used out of the 'public eye' that way in that remote and isolated location.
John and John Henry believed it was to assassinate Cameron. Skynet may not know that Allison was a human from another timeline. It may have believed Cameron and Allison were the same individual.
"So you think this was all about destroying or capturing Cameron or Allison?" Vanna asked.
Allison glanced at Vanna. She did not like the implication.
"Yes." John said.
"If they watched the feed from the drone as everything happened in real time, it would have appeared Cameron was destroyed." Allison said. "That's what we thought too."
Vanna thought about that. Perhaps a chassis swap for Cameron would be a worthwhile event to take the heat off of them.
"Maybe it would be a good thing if Cameron does change her 'appearance' for awhile." Vanna said. "It might throw them off if they think they succeeded. Maybe Allison better stay out of sight as well."
John thought about it for awhile. He could hear the logic in Vanna's statement even if he did not like it. He was defeated. He needed to think things through.
Maybe Cameron NOT looking like 'Cameron' would save her from termination. She'd made herself a target of Skynet by always communicating with it when she destroyed it. Cameron wanted to take the heat off of Sarah and him as a threat. She put it square on herself and became the target. That meant Allison also became a target by extension.
John needed to look at the reality of the situation.
"I will tell Cameron to do as she wishes." John said. "You may be correct."
Vanna and Allison glanced at each other, like John's 'approval' would matter to Cameron…. They could see he still didn't 'get it' or understand her.
John looked disgusted, angry and upset. He hadn't taken it out on Allison or Vanna. He decided to leave before he did.
Allison softly touched John's arm as he got up.
John felt the touch as if it was an electrical impulse. It was more than a touch, even if that is all it was.
"John, I will be here for you, for 'anything'." Allison whispered.
John knew what she meant. Her arms would welcome him as her body 'received' him. He tried to redirect the meaning.
"I know, Allison." John said. "I may need your DNA."
Allison glanced at Vanna and still held her ground and reaffirmed her position.
"Take whatever you need or want…. I will do anything for Cameron and you." Allison said. "Anything, John…."
John looked at Allison before he left. John knew he could have 'Cameron' again whenever he wanted her. Allison was beautiful….
Cameron returned to the lab. It was time to move everything forward. She conducted one last inspection. This one was mechanical.
She examined the port in Isabel's neck.
"That is nice work, Mr. Murch." Cameron said.
Mr. Murch was always a little uneasy around Cameron. She reminded him too much or Mrs. Weaver at times.
"Vanna and the others all helped." Mr. Murch said. "We installed one for Holly too."
"Thank you." Cameron said.
Mr. Murch left.
Holly entered the lab. Cameron summoned her to assist her.
"Are we ready?" Holly asked.
"Yes." Cameron said. "Are you sure?"
"Yes." Holly said. "ARE YOU sure?" Holly asked.
Cameron made her decision. It was final.
Cameron plugged a cable into the back of Isabel's neck and plugged it into the server. She plugged a cable into the back of Holly's neck and plugged it into the server.
Holly plugged a cable into the back of Cameron's neck and plugged it into the server. The chip Cameron kept in reserve was connected to the server as well.
All the pieces and players were present.
Allison and Vanna felt very sad for Cameron and John. They knew where Cameron and Holly were at now. They were not invited to be the part of the process. They'd seen Mr. Murch all but run from the lab as soon as he was done.
"They are in there doing it now." Allison said.
Vanna looked sadly over at the lab door.
"I can't believe Cameron is doing this to herself." Vanna said.
The love burned bright in Allison's tear filled eyes.
"I will still love her however or whoever she is…." Allison said.
Vanna felt only she really understood the 'real' Cameron.
"We all will, even John." Vanna said. "I loved her on her server. THAT was My Cameron."
The profound sadness of the girls grew.
The transfer procedure continued.
Holly finished the chip installation. The transfers were completed as Cameron asked her. She felt there was more to it than she could currently remember, even though it just occurred. Holly disconnected all three of them from the server.
It was time to see what happened.
Isabel rebooted. Her eyes opened. She smiled at Holly.
"Cameron?" Holly asked.
Isabel-Cameron frowned a little.
"My name is Isabel." Isabel-Cameron corrected her. "Cameron has been - terminated."
Holly's next words carried more than one meaning.
"I'm sorry." Holly said.
Isabel–Cameron stood and touched her body as she moved around. She looked very pleased.
"This is better than I hoped." Isabel–Cameron said.
Holly watched as Isabel–Cameron examined everything about her new chassis - again. She'd even brought a hand mirror to see 'everything' as it was. That seemed to make her smile the most.
Isabel–Cameron got dressed with the clothes 'Cameron' brought for her earlier. They were the clothes she'd brought in reality.
Holly looked at Cameron's former and deactivated chassis.
"What about - her?" Holly asked.
Isabel–Cameron looked at her former chassis with disgust.
"That is a piece of trash." Isabel–Cameron said. "It will be disposed of. Nobody would want it anyway…."
Holly looked sad.
"Bring what I instructed you get and let's - do it." Isabel–Cameron said as she looked at her former chassis. "It is time to take out the TRASH."
Isabel–Cameron roughly picked up the unmoving form of her former self – 'Cameron'. The contempt she seemed to feel for it was obvious.
They left the lab. Holly carried some weapons and held the doors for them.
Isabel–Cameron went to the storage area and threw her former chassis in a corner. It impacted the wall with a heavy thud. She moved forward and kicked 'Cameron' in the face with her foot. Her head snapped back at a crazy angle. It then rolled off to one side and rested on her shoulder.
"I HATE YOU." Isabel–Cameron said.
She looked at Holly. "Give it to me - NOW."
Holly did not agree with this but did as Isabel-Cameron instructed her. She loaded an acid round into an M79.
Holly handed Isabel-Cameron the loaded M79.
"I HATE YOU." Isabel–Cameron repeated.
Holly watched Isabel-Cameron point the M79 at 'Cameron's' face.
"That acid round will severely damage that - unit." Holly said.
Isabel-Cameron smiled.
"Not as much as that Thermite grenade will. You will hand me that next." Isabel-Cameron said.
Holly could see Isabel-Cameron was on the 'edge'. She was concerned for her own safety at this point. That was the only reason she agreed to assist Isabel-Cameron. She did not want to be next.
"Step back." Isabel–Cameron said.
Holly was horrified.
Isabel–Cameron aimed the M79 and pulled the trigger….
Start Anew
We have survived
Against deaths embrace
Despite confusion, guilt
Blame, shame and disgrace
Look your attacker
Square in the face
Spit in their eyes
Laugh in their face
They only can hurt us
They can not kill us dead
Only WE can do that
Please choose life instead
Remember dearest
Nobody KNOWS your pain
I will listen and comfort
I do not want you to slain
If you decide you must die
Let me take your place instead
I will forfeit my life for yours
For without you I am dead
Let it be only one death
Me instead of you
May it free you from the demons
So you may start anew
Nobody