Forgive Me

By: Dream Knight

Chapter I

Deeply Concerned

Nathan parked right in front of the hospital. He knew that he wasn't supposed to but he was in a hurry. After getting out of the still operating vehicle, he went to get Lucas out from the passenger side. His body was cold to the touch. Nathan took a quick second to check for respiration. There was barely enough to keep Lucas alive when considering his heart condition. No more time was spent delaying around. He carried Lucas into the hospital as a husband would carry his wife into their bedroom for the first time. This time however, was without any pleasure.

He hurried towards the nearest doctor at sight. Nathan was redirected to where he could sign in to be attended. Luckily, only one person was waiting, Brooke. Nathan sat Lucas next to her. "What happened? Is he alright?" Brooke asked.

Not knowing what to say, Nathan just kept silent. A few minutes passed and Nathan finally asked Brooke to move his car before it would get towed. She agreed and took the keys from his outreaching hand. He kept himself from going to a stage of panic. His cell phone rang, it was Peyton. He faced Luke just before redirecting the call to his voicemail. Whatever it was, it could wait. Brooke's voice came from behind, "Here you go. You're quite concerned, just a over a year ago, you would have tried to kill him yourself."

"Thanks, Brooke. It's just that I keep remembering to a couple of months back." Nathan answered. He knew Brooke was right, he had been causing so much pain to Lucas that there was nothing to erase what happened. He then asked Brooke to not tell anyone about what was happening. He didn't want to scare Haley to the point where she would cancel the wedding until he was better.

"I understand. Being her bridesmaid, you can count on me." Brooke said. Still she couldn't understand what was wrong with Lucas. He seemed to be in an absolutely perfect state of health condition. She however didn't want to say why she herself was in the hospital. The truth was, she was expecting a baby. She didn't know who the father was although she was sure it wasn't Lucas because of many things, both of them were protected and she had the symptoms before their first time.

Nathan constantly turned from facing the clock to facing Lucas himself. If it took what seemed like forever to attend an emergency with only one person waiting, Nathan would hate being one of the unlucky people to have to wait for half a room of people for something simple.

"Lucas Scott, come with me." a nurse said. She pointed at Nathan. Quickly pulling Lucas to his arms, he followed her to a room. It was then obvious that this was one poor hospital to have such paucity of equipment. Upon setting Lucas on a bed in the room assigned, he helped her undress him to put the patient robe on him. Nathan watched as she put all of Lucas's things into a plastic bag.

"Is he going to be alright?" Nathan asked eagerly. Inside, he was trembling.

"That's for the doctors to decide." she said as two men came into the room. They examined Lucas and ordered the nurse to retrieve his record. Nathan sat outside until the doctors said it was okay. Tears. Just as Nathan remembered the tragic incident a while back they fell from his eyes like drops of rain from a dark cloud.

-Flashback-

"LUCAS! You can't leave, not now, not ever. I need to make things right!" Nathan yelled. Lucas was dying. He exhausted himself to a point where he was on the border of death. Everyone but his father was there. Typical Dan Scott. At times, he sickened even Nate. Just as doctors and nurses came in, everyone had to leave. It was the only thing that could be done. Hope and wait that he would be alright. The doctors said that an operation would be worth many thousands. For that reason, Lucas was left to get better through time. Just before everything began to settle down, more doctors came in and Nathan heard voices saying that they were losing him.

-End Flashback-

The feeling that stirred inside Nathan was close to that of the first time. When he thought about it, it was the exact feeling from the first incident that resurrected in him. Nathan raised his head and saw more doctors coming towards him. He couldn't stand this, He had to get away somehow. If there was only something he could do. His cell phone then rang again, it was Haley. If he didn't answer it would seem suspicious. He walked outside of the building and returned the call. "How's my man?" Haley answered in a happy tone.

"Nothing, still buying things. Look I have to catch up with Luke who went to wander out somewhere. After that I'm going to take him to go eat and we'll get back home in a few hours, mom." Nathan teased while avoiding to tell her the truth.

"Alright but don't you go doing anything crazy. I want you all to myself." Haley answered. They then hung up after exchanging "byes." Not wasting another second, he ran back into the hospital to check up on Lucas. Just before entering his room, a million thoughts flashed around in his mind. Nathan gained the courage and went inside. The last of the doctors was exiting.

"What's wrong with him? Is he going to be alright?" Nathan asked. The doctor took a minute to check the papers in his hand.

"I'm not sure. If he wakes up, we'll be able to know more about his status. It's very close in relation to what happened last time he came here but not as severe." the doctor answered.

"Is it alright to stay with him?" Nathan questioned.

"Sure, but if he wakes up let me know. I wouldn't count on it any time soon. Probably weeks or months it may take." the doctor replied as he walked off out of sight. Nathan finally walked towards Luke. He looked down to see Lucas. His body was still, cold, and pale. He looked dead to the plain sight but Nathan knew he was alive. It just hurt him though that his brother was suffering many things with his heart condition.

Suddenly, Lucas's body looked as if it was aware of how sad Nathan was until he realized that he was crying on him. Tears formed over Luke's resting body. Nathan felt powerless, unable to help his brother who he was finally, beginning to understand after their dark past. He sat down while unable to control himself deep inside. Something told him that this wasn't good. He decided not to tell anyone about where they were as for he didn't want to worry them although he himself was. He would rather have them think that they were still out buying things for the wedding. All he could do was wait for his brother to give off a reaction. At how the doctors said he was, chances were that it would take weeks or even months to recover once he woke up, if he woke up.

Patience was not one of Nathan's specialties. With each passing second, he wanted to hurt someone. Every few minutes, he stood up and examined Luke. After about an hour, he heard heavy breathing. It came from Lucas although he remained unconscious. "Come on Lucas, get better" Nathan said. He held Lucas up and hugged his body. Lightly kissing him on his neck, he felt his own warmth spread to Lucas. Former obsessions came back to Nathan.

Deep in his past, he liked Lucas in more than a brotherly way. He had desired his brother's body to touch his own. This was until he convinced himself that it was pity love and that it would never work out. After that, he came to like Haley. Once she came into his life, she seemed to replace that area that Lucas had on his mind and heart. Now all he knew was that he wanted his brother to be alright after all of the situation.

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"What do you do Nathan…when…you love someone" Lucas forced out from himself unable to finish his actual question.

"Lucas, what do you mean what do you do?" Nathan asked. He couldn't really understand what his brother was asking him. The real question to Nathan was, why. Why was he asking him that?

"What can I do if I love some…one who I can't have…Nate?" Lucas asked before all his strength was drained from him.

"You fight for them. Like I did for Haley." Nathan answered not assured that it was the right answer.

Okay, first things first. I would like to thank all of the readers who took from their time to read this and a greater thanks to all who reviewed. Secondly, I know this isn't as long as some wish it was but I have to get this done between classes and other activities so I can then transfer it onto a document and upload it. And lastly, the third chapter will be added when another idea fills in a few blanks. Thank you again.