Sydneys POV

I closed the door behind me and leaned against it for a moment.

What the hell had just happened?

My mind was racing and somehow I felt like crying.

We just had been cuddling and everything had been just perfect, more than perfect.

And now? I closed my eyes to keep the tears away. No way was I going to cry now.

But I was just so angry at him. Angry because he just had ruined this beautiful day with all this nonsense.

I walked down the stairs and crossed the street. Standing in front of Starbucks I stopped.

Maybe I should just go home. Why should I go back? Why should I go on listening to all that insanity?

I turned around looking at the hostel and once again I felt the tears coming.

I opened the door and got inside. Coffee, I needed coffee first.

I was walking through Central Park, trying to calm down when my phone rang.

I looked at it and felt relieved when I saw Katies number.

"Hey" I answered the phone.

"Sydney!Where are you? I missed you in class today. Everything ok?"

I sighed. No, nothing was ok.

"Yes, I know. I... I was with Adrian" I said flinching at saying his name.

"Oh I see" Katie said with a giggle "I can see why that could be a distraction".

I sat down on a bench and to my surprise I heard myself sob.

What was wrong with me? It wasn´t like me to get overwhelmed by my emotions.

"Are you ok? What´s wrong?" Katie asked and I heard the worry in her voice.

I took a deep breath. I didn´t want to tell her.

"Yes, I´m ok. I just had an argument with Adrian that´s all" I lied.

My voice was still a little shaky.

"What did he do?" Katie asked.

"Katie I´m sorry, but I really don´t want to talk about that at the moment, ok?" I said.

"Ok" she said "Want me to come?" she asked.

I was thinking about it. Somehow I did want her to come but somehow I just wanted to be alone as well. Besides, I would have to tell her if she was coming.

"Thanks, but I just need some time to think" I than said.

"Ok... you guys will work this out. You seemed to really like each other" she said.

A small laugh escaped me, when I thought about our night out.

It now seemed very far away.

But she was right. After all that just had happened I still liked him. And he just had told me that he loved me. I shook my head. God, it all was so confusing.

"We´ll see. I´ll see you tomorrow, ok?" I said.

"Sure. You can call me anytime if you need someone to talk to, ok?" she said.

I smiled at that "Thanks. I appreciate that a lot" I said.

"No problem I´m serious. Just call. See you tomorrow Sydney".

"Thanks Katie" I said and I hung up.

I put the phone back in my pocket and took another sip of my skinny latte.

Skinny latte... when he bought me coffee he´d said it was just a lucky guess, maybe it hadn´t been.

No... I bet most women do like skinny latte. It really wasn´t proof of anything.

I sighed, realizing that a part of me really did take everything he´d just said in consideration of being true.

Why? Just why?

It was insane. I certainly would know if a part of my life was missing. And I would certainly remember him. How could anybody forget him and those eyes?

But than again, since the first time I´d seen him, they felt so familiar.

I got up glancing in the direction I just came from. I had to choose now.

Going home and probably never see him again or going back

Adrians POV

I was pacing through my room. I had watched her leaving Starbucks over 40 minutes ago.

What if it really had been the last time I´d seen her?

I didn´t allow myself to go there.

It was only understandable, that she needed time to think. But than again, she hadn´t heard everything. There was so much more to tell. I just didn´t have enough time.

A knock on the door stopped my thoughts and with a mixture of fear and relief I opened it.