Adrians POV
Us. she did write us. Did that mean, that there was still a chance of us being an us?
I shook my head. I started to confuse myself. But I also smiled.
She did text me and she wanted to talk again. That was a good sign right?
I had spent the rest of the day going through our conversation, trying to figure out what was lying in the future. I´d recaptured every expression of her and every word she´d said.
And now she simple had texted me. Simple as that.
I nearly had forgotten about the sandwich and I absolutely hadn´t thought that she would see the heart. Why would she and why had she?
I chuckled. I bet she was checking the amount of peanut butter and jelly on the sandwich.
Sitting on my bed an idea formed in my mind.
Could I visit her dream? Would she, once again like the first time I did, freak out? Would I pressure her? She wanted to talk, didn´t she?
She didn´t freak out today with the plant I encouraged myself.
I tried to reach her a couple of times in the next hours and than finally succeeded.
I had chosen the Getty Villa, for old times´ sake.
The columned courtyard materialized around me and I than I saw her.
"Oh no... not one of those again" she said annoyed.
"One of those?" I asked.
She turned around to face me.
"And of course you are here, too" she said shaking her head.
"What are you talking about?" I asked confused but with a small smile.
"You are Mister Know-it-all. How come I know this place?" she asked her hands on her hips. Looking at me and expecting an answer.
I had to suppress a laugh. Seeing her like this was just delightful.
"Sydney, this isn´t a dream. Well yes, it is, but it´s a spirit dream" I said.
"A what?" she asked.
"You are in fact sleeping. Me on the other hand" I pointed at myself "pretty bright awake".
She looked at me questioning.
"This place" I gestured around me "You know it, because it was kind of a turning point in our... ehm... relationship" I said.
She raised her index finger to stop me from talking.
"So it´s not a normal dream?" she asked.
"No it´s not" I said.
"And you chose to be here?"
I nodded.
"Why and more important how?" she asked.
"I am a spirit user. It makes me able to walk dreams. And to answer your question why. You wanted to talk" I said.
She looked at me with wide eyes for a few seconds.
"Dream walking?" she than asked with narrowed eyes.
"Yes" I said.
"Huh" she just replied.
She sat down on a marble bench and I followed her and sat down next to her.
Sydneys POV
Dream walking? Spirit user? God what more could there possibly be?
"So you wanted to talk about us?" Adrian asked after a few more silent seconds.
I was still processing the whole spirit dream slash dream waking issue and his question brought me back from my thoughts.
"Yes" I said. He had a smile on his lips and once again it hit me how unbelievably gorgeous he was.
"Why didn´t you tell me earlier?" I asked.
He was still looking at me, but his smile faded.
"I know I should have. I wanted to. But than... I was afraid I would scare you away" he said.
He probably was right about that. He nearly did now.
"We kissed" I said looking at my hands.
He sighed "I didn´t plan to do that" he said.
I looked at him "but we did and somehow I feel... betrayed" I said truthfully.
He nodded "I know. I´m sorry" he said.
"You should be. Here you are, knowing so much about me and I... I don´t know anything about you" I said.
"To be fair, you wanted to kiss me" he said and I looked at him with an arched eyebrow.
But thinking about it, he was right.
"I was drunk" I said in a low voice but I knew he was right. I did wanted to kiss him. I still did now.
He didn´t response so I went on.
"I have a question and I want you to tell me the truth" I said.
"Of cause" he said.
"Have you used... magic to make me feel the way I feel about you?" I asked. It felt strange to say the word magic, but I couldn´t come up with a better word.
He looked at me like I had just slapped him.
"Is that what you really think?" he asked.
I bit my lip.
"No" I said in a small voice.
"Good, because I would never do such a thing" he said with anger in his tone.
"I´m sorry" I said. I already regretted asking him. Of cause he hadn´t.
His features relaxed and he looked at me intensely at me.
"Sydney, I know it´s hard to hear, but I love you. And you used to love me, too. Imagine yourself in my place. Loosing the one person that always believed in you. The one person you would do anything for. And than, when you finally have her back, realize that everything that had happened between you and that person just never existed for the other person. It is agonizing. Painful and agonizing. I am sorry I haven´t told you earlier. Maybe I should have told you the second I´d seen you at Starbucks, but do you really think, that you would have believed me or even listened? I just couldn´t bare the thought of loosing you again. I told myself, that I would tell you before anything happened between us, but than... you wanted to kiss me and I... I just couldn´t resist" his voice was soft and loaded with pain and regret. He brushed through his hair and after a few moments, he looked at me.
I looked back at him, overwhelmed by everything he´d just said.
"Adrian?" I asked.
His eyes met mine "I believe you" I said.
It was true. I really did. I couldn´t explain why. It was not logical, but I did. Seeing him telling me the way he was feeling, seeing his pain and desperation, I believed him.
"You do?" he asked, hope in his eyes.
"Yes" I said "I still have a million questions and I still don´t understand the half of all you just told me, but yes" I said.
For a moment he was just looking at me studying me, making sure I was really believing him when the most beautiful smile appeared on his face.
Suddenly everything around us became blurry.
I looked at him in confusion "What´s happening?" I asked.
"You are waking up" I heard him say quietly before I opened my eyes.
My phone was ringing and I realized it was that, that woke me up.