Adrians POV

We were sitting on the bed across each other, when Sydney sighed frustrated once again.

We had been sitting here for about an hour now.

"Adrian, I told you. I can´t do this" she said defeated. Her eyes were on the sheets infront of us.

She´d told me that before tonight. Many times to be exact.

"Yes you can" I repeated, feeling like a broken record. I knew she could.

She closed her eyes "No, I can´t" she whispered.

Sydneys POV

It really was getting frustrating. I had tried to produce something that at least resembled to fire for almost an hour now with no result at all.

I had concentrated and wished and nearly prayed for it to appear, but nothing had happened.

I felt exhausted after concentrating so much.

All the time I had tried to do it, I had felt Adrians expectant eyes on me and had Miss Terwilligers voice in my head.

You can do this.

My mind felt empty and kind of drained.

I felt like a failure.

"I know you can do this" Adrian said in a smoothing voice once again and I growled.

I knew he meant well, but somehow it made me angry, too. I shook my head with gritted teeth.

"Sage..." he began.

"Adrian, stop it" I snapped at him and he looked at me surprised.

"Just don´t" I went on trying hard to keep my voice neutral, but even I heard the anger in it.

He put his hands up in front of him, a gesture of surrender "Okay, calm down" he said.

"Calm down?" I asked "How am I supposed to calm down Adrian?" I snarled at him.

"I should be able to do this, right? Well I can´t. So just cut the crap about me calming down. I am useless here" I was nearly shouting now.

His eyes widened at my sudden outburst.

"I am useless" I repeated bitterly.

He shook his head "Sage, I know this is frustrating and all, but..."

I cut him short "Just don´t" I said glaring at him.

"Let´s go to sleep" I went on turning around, crawling under the blanket turning my back to him.

I felt like crying. All my frustration about not being able to do this somehow triggered all my other worries.

My family, the alchemists... where was I even supposed to go?

Suddenly I felt very alone.

After a few moments of complete silence, Adrian turned off the light and got under the blanket as well.

He was lying down next to me and didn´t move after that.

Great, now he was mad at me, too and I couldn´t even blame him.

It had been unfair to snap at him like this. He was just trying to help.

A tear escaped my eye and I quickly brushed it away, clutching the blanket.

I felt him moving next to me and a second later I felt his arms around me, holding me close to him.

His hands found mine and he took them into his own. His thumbs softly brushed over them.

It felt good to be in his arms and in an instant I knew that with him, I never really would be alone.

Another tear rolled down my cheek. I felt guilty for my behavior. He really just wanted to help and wanted to support me and what did I do?

I acted like a stubborn child.

"I´m sorry" I whispered into the darkness.

"I know" he said kissing my shoulder. "It´s okay" he said.

A wave of relieve rolled over me. He wasn´t mad at me.

"No it´s not" I said turning around in his arms "It´s not you I´m angry at. I shouldn´t have vented my wrath at you" I went on.

"I know" he repeated, wiping away the tear on my cheek looking me right into my eyes.

"It´s the rest I am angry about" I went on "My father, the alchemist... this whole situation" I said.

He looked at me for a few moments "You have every right to be" he said stroking my back.

I slowly began to relax.

"I am sorry" I repeated and was glad to see a smile on his face.

"You swore" he than said a spark in his eyes.

Despite the way I was feeling I smiled at him.

"Well, I really was angry" I said.

His hand was on my cheek now, softly caressing it.

I relaxed under his touch and my anger slowly disappeared.

He kept looking at me for a while before he spoke.

"You better now?" he asked, his hand still on my cheek.

I nodded "I love you" I whispered and he smiled at me.

I felt his soft lips on mine a second later, washing away the rest of my earlier anger.

My heart was filled with him, Adrian.

"I love you" he murmured between two kisses.

I was sure I never would get tiered of hearing him say those words.

Everything else seemed far away now, like we were in a bubble of some kind, shielded from everything else.

His tongue found mine and I slowly pulled him on top of me, never loosing touch with his mouth.

His hands brushed away my hair and cupped my face, his thumbs softly brushing over my cheeks.

I felt his weight on top of me and enjoyed the way he was pushing me into the mattress.

His tongue trailed my upper lip and I was lost.

It was pure bliss. Adrian on top of me, caressing me, kissing me, loving me.

My hands found their way to his shoulder blades that flexed slowly as he was kissing me and caressing me.

Adrians POV

She was curled up in my arms kissing my hands from time to time.

"Adrian?" she asked after a while.

"Sage?" I asked back.

She giggled "I love you" she said.

I smiled and brushed a kiss on her hair.

"That´s good, because I love you, too" I said.

She kept quiet for a moment but I knew she wanted to say something else.

"It´s okay" she than said after a few moments.

I frowned "What is?" I asked.

Another moment of silence "If you... drink from me" she said in a low voice.

I was about to tell her that we´d already had talked about it and that she needed to think this through, when she went on.

"I know how you feel about it...but you saw me before. I´m no help. You need to be strong... for both of us" she said.

I opened my mouth but closed it again. Unsure what to say.

She slowly turned around in my arms to look at me and our eyes met.

"I trust you and I love you. You need this" she said.

Maybe I did, but she was Sydney. I couldn´t.

My thumb brushed over her neck and her breath caught.

"I don´t" I said looking at her neck.

Even I could her the uncertainty in my voice. Damn it.

"You do. And I want you to" she said in a low voice.

I sighed. Only the thought of drinking from her made my pulse speed up and my mouth go dry.

"Sydney I..." I began.

She nodded "I know" she said, her eyes still fixating me.

I closed my eyes and opened them again.

"Do it Adrian. I trust you" she said brushing away her hair to expose her neck completely.

I leaned down and felt her stop breathing for a moment.

I kissed her neck carefully and watched the goosebumps appear on her soft skin.

I shouldn´t be doing this.

I felt her hands on my neck carefully pulling me down to her skin again.

The temptation nearly took over me, but I couldn´t...

"I want this" she said, her voice only a whisper.

I wanted this. I had wanted this for so long.

I leaned back down again breathing her in. Kissing her skin and carefully liking the smooth skin of her neck and she shivered under the gentler touch of my tongue.

I pulled back again. Still unsure.

She sighed and tilted her neck even more to the side "I trust you" she whispered and I couldn´t resist any longer.

I kissed her neck once again as gentle as I could testing myself as I did. And than, I bit down.

She tensed for a moment and moaned in pain.

I was already regretting my action and was about to pull away when her grip on my neck became stronger.

She was pulling me closer to her.

Sydneys POV

The pain suddenly was replaced with pleasure. Pure pleasure and joy that run through my whole body. It consumed me. I felt like I was flying.

"Adrian" I sighed holding on to him. I clutched his shoulders and pulled him closer to me with my legs. I wanted him so much closer. I needed him so much closer.

Adrian, Adrian, Adrian.

He was making sounds of his own. Sounds that seemed to be radiating through my whole body. Sending chills and tingles from my toes to my scalp. Every nerve of my body was about to explode.

I felt his hands on my body, sliding down my sides and up to my throat. His hand grabbed my thigh and wandered back to by bottom. His hands seemed to touch me everywhere and nowhere at the same time.

It felt so good. I didn´t know where he began and I ended.

Somewhere far away I heard someone moan and than his teeth left my skin and my hands searched for him, desperately wanting him back, needing him back.

"It´s okay Sage" I heard him whisper, but it wasn´t.

"Come back" I plead and he began to caress my face.

I was still feeling like I was surrounded by cotton balls but the wonderful feeling slowly started to fade away.

"I´m here" I heard Adrian say and I smiled. He was here.

I didn´t know how long I was lying there like this. Eyes closed, enjoying the remaining endorphins dancing in me, feeling his fingers on my face, but I finally was able to open my eyes.

"Adrian" I whispered when I looked into his beautiful face.

"Hey" he said a strange expression on his face.

He looked like he was unsure if he was feeling happy or sad.

"I... wow" I finally managed to say. My mind still felt dizzy and I couldn´t stop smiling and wasn´t able to form a full sentence. My heart was beating fast in my chest and my breath was out of control.

"I know" he said cupping my face.

His smile earned the upper hand than and he carefully kissed me.

"Are you okay?" he asked.