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Shallow sleep
book 2; let it rain on me
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Reddish orange streaks filled the whole city of Tokyo as the sun began to
set. The sun was like a huge fireball, ready to toast the world any moment as
trees, leaves and flowers bowed down to the master who was soon coming, darkness.
The wind was wild, like little ballerinas performing with their graceful
movement. It was cold, contrary to what people thought.
Usagi and Mamoru weren't admiring the sunset like they usually did, alas, they
were heading for the park, not together hand in hand, but separate. Usagi
continued to look down on the ground while Mamoru would sneaked glances on
Usagi, thankfully, he wasn't noticed.
Mamoru knew something was wrong with Usagi, even if she didn't speak. Usually,
Usagi would chat like a chatterbox, telling him stories about her day, which
would make him smile and fill his heart and soul with much needed comfort and
happiness.
Mamoru stopped walking just a couple of feet away from the Sakura tree that he
would usually find Usagi sitting under. When Usagi noticed that she no longer
heard footsteps, she looked up and when she saw him stop on his tracks, so did
she.
"Usagi." Mamoru began, calling out her name. He looked at her, while she avoided
his gaze. "I..." He was about to say something when he noticed that she had a
medical record with her. "Usagi... you went to the Doctor?" He inquired.
Usagi had an almost panicked look, but then replied, "Hai. I did. I just got my
oka-san's records." She lied, putting the folder behind her.
Mamoru shrugged. He was convinced, but somehow, that answer just wasn't right.
"Look, Usagi, I really have to tell you this."
Usagi looked up with a pale look. "Nani Mamoru?" She asked, using his name.
Mamoru was still deciding whether to tell her or not. After all, his words would
forever change the course of history and would change his life forever. Should
he? "Usako..."
"Usagi, Mamoru, it's Usagi." Usagi reminded him with a painful smile.
"Eer right. Usagi. Gomen." Mamoru coughed out and fixed his jacket. "Usagi...
I'm sorry, demo..."
Usagi lowered her gaze. She knew what he wanted to say. After all, he couldn't
keep secrets from her, she was his soul mate, and they were soul bonded. "Mamoru,
don't." Usagi whispered. "I know what you want to say."
Mamoru was surprised. "Y-you know? H-how?" He asked in surprise.
Usagi looked up to him with a painful smile. She smiled for him and him only. "I
saw you with another girl Mamoru. So, I know what you want to say."
Mamoru lowered his head. "Gomen Usagi. I... I just thought... th-that... if,
if I waited... you will... will... become the princess that you were thousands
of years ago."
"You wanted Serenity." Usagi said.
"Hai." Mamoru replied. "Gomen if I caused you trouble Usagi. Even though you are
Serenity's reincarnation... you're just not her. I love her."
Usagi fought back the tears that threatened to fall from her eyes. It hurt a lot
to hear Mamoru say those words, but why? "I understand Mamoru." Usagi said.
"Demo..." Mamoru added. "We should still be together... for the sake of earth
and its people." Mamoru lowered his head. "I just wanted you to know what I
feel. I'm sorry."
Usagi eyed Mamoru, pain coursing through her heart. "Mamoru, you don't have
to. You can love someone else. I still love you, but you don't feel the same, it
would be sin to do that!" Usagi retorted.
Mamoru shook her head. "I promised Serenity, Usagi."
Usagi found her heart had stopped. They were not functioning. She wanted to die
right now. She fell on her knees, dropping on the grass. Matte. If I told him I
was ill with... iie. Usagi thought sadly. If I tell him that and he comes back
to me... he will just be miserable. He will just come back to me because of
pity, not love." She smiled. Iie. Let him be. I will not bind the one I love
with a fate he should not have.
Mamoru crouched down to face Usagi. He could see that tears were forming in her
eyes and how the sight of them hurt him badly. He noticed suddenly that Usagi
seemed very pale, well, who wouldn't be, after what he said. But it was all for
the better.
Usagi stood up and hugged Mamoru. "Mamoru-san." She began, her voice was deeply
hurt, but there was formality in it. "Iie. You will not bound to a destiny you
do not want. Deciding whom to love is your right. I will free you from the bonds
of destiny Mamoru-san." And with that, she released Mamoru, tears fell down like
crystals. She turned around and walked away.
Mamoru wanted to kill himself for having done what he just did. He knew how hurt
she must've been for what he said, but he had to, there be no other choice. He
either had to tell her the truth and suffer for it, or he won't tell her, but
suffer the consequences. Either way, he was the looser. There was no lesser of
two evils.
What surprised and scared Mamoru was the fact that she wasn't wailing like a
crybaby. She took it as is, and instead of running away, she just walked
away. This brought dread to Mamoru's heart, but, suddenly remembering what she
just said, brought even more dread to his heart.
You will not bound to a destiny you do not want. Deciding whom to love is your
right. I will free you from the bonds of destiny Mamoru-san.
He remembered Usagi's words playing in his mind over and over again. "What is
she going to do?" Mamoru wondered as he walked away, deep in thought.
Usagi looked up at the dark blue sky as stars twinkled like little diamonds. The
moon was completely round, giving off the faint light that earth needed to look
like a beautiful mysterious place, but at the same time, a romantic place to
behold.
Tears slipped down her cheeks as she remembered what her doctor just said. "It's
not fair!" Usagi said to herself. "Why is it always me?" She remembered the look
on Mamoru's face when they had their serious conversation earlier in the
afternoon. "Mamo-chan... you don't deserve this."
Luna was awaken by her charge's cry. Luna looked up to find Usagi sobbing on her
pillow while she was bathed in moon's light. "Usagi-chan." Luna whispered sadly.
She walked up to her charge and began rubbing her paws up and down the young
lady's back to soothe her. "Usagi-chan, Dustan desu ka?"
"Oh Luna." Usagi cried as she threw herself in to her guardian. "It's
Mamo-chan." She began as she sobbed frantically.
Luna's eyes became wide at the sound of the young man's name. "What about
Mamoru-san, Usagi chan?" Luna asked soothingly. "What happened a while ago?"
"He doesn't deserve this all Luna! He doesn't!" Was all Usagi said as she hugged
the feline tighter, wetting the black fur while Luna continued to soothe her
charge. "Mamo-chan." She heard Usagi call out in a tone of despair.
Luna was deeply concerned for Usagi. Whatever happened earlier would greatly
affect the young soon to be queen of Tokyo. "Usagi-chan, if you're ready, please
tell me." Luna pleaded.
"Oh Luna." Usagi said. "Mamoru-san doesn't love me Luna, he loves Serenity."
Usagi said, unable to get a hold of her emotions this time. "He told me that the
reason why he is still with me is because he thought I would become the princess
I was thousands of years ago, but I'm not going to be."
Luna felt rage in her heart for what Mamoru said to Usagi, but then, that was
peculiar. She remembered that Mamoru promised Luna that he loved Usagi with all
his heart, and there was sincerity in his voice. So why?
Suddenly, Usagi stopped crying and she felt heavy under Luna. "Usagi?
Usagi-chan? Usagi?!" Luna called out, but Usagi wasn't responding. She placed
Usagi down on the bed and checked her pulse. "Masaka!" Luna said to herself in
disbelief. Luna jumped down the bed and tried waking up Usagi's parents.
Inside the room of the couple, Ikoku was awaken by the loud meowing of Luna. She
stirred, but it wouldn't go away. She finally gave it up and opened the door for
Luna.
"Hai Neko-chan?" Ikoku yawned. "Is something wrong?" She asked.
The cat was panicking and Ikoku felt that the cat wanted to say something. When
she saw that Usagi was lying on the bed limp, and the cat was pointing that way,
she rushed to awaken Kenji.
"Kenji, it's Usagi. Hayaku!" Ikoku screamed, panicking. "Usagi is in trouble.
Wake up!"
Kenji opened his eyes and retrieved his glasses on the nightstand. He was still
groggy and was going to give his wife a piece of his mind, but having herd the
words "Usagi... danger..." He quickly shoved the covers away and jumped to his
feet.
Meanwhile, in Mamoru's apartment, he stood there on the balcony, looking up at
the moon. Oh how he wanted to apologize to the moon for hurting its princess.
But what's done is done. Serenity and Usagi was one of the same person, he knew
that, but still...
Suddenly, a cold rush suddenly filled him, causing him to fall on his knees. He
was clutching his chest as he tried to inhale oxygen. He was panting hard, as if
someone literally ripped his heart out and placed them back. Then, it
disappeared as quickly as it came. Mamoru felt dread all over him... in
realization. "Usa!" He sat down on his couch and pictured Usagi in his mind. He
wanted to know how she was doing.
He saw Usagi lying down on her bed while Luna was looking at her, brushing
strands of hair that covered her face. Relief filled him when he did see that
Usagi was all right. "Yokatta desu ne." And with that, Mamoru slumped back on
the chair.
Meanwhile, Luna was lying beside Usagi who has finally regained pulse. Her
parents wanted to call the ambulance so she be sent to the hospital, but Usagi
didn't want to, saying it was nothing serious, but her parents were
contradicting and finally phoned the hospital.
Usagi was looking pale, as if drained from blood. "Don't do that ever again
Usagi!" Luna scolded. "I was afraid Usagi!"
Usagi looked back at Luna, surprised to find tears. "Luna? Naze?"
"Usagi." Luna began, "You are like a daughter to me little one. Please, take
care of yourself. Please." Luna pleaded.
Usagi hugged Luna with compassion. "Gomen Luna. Yakusoku, it won't happen again,
but Luna..." Usagi trailed off. "Please, don't tell anyone about what just
happened, especially Mamoru-san."
Luna was against what the young lady wanted, but Luna saw determination in her
eyes. Maybe, Usagi was trying to keep something from her... but what? "I promise
Usagi." Then, she remembered that Usagi called him "Mamoru-san", not her usual
"Mamo-chan".
Then, Usagi was finally sleeping peacefully, waiting for the ambulance to
arrive. Luna jumped up on the study table. She knew Usagi was bringing a folder
a while ago, and maybe that held the answers to her questions and to Usagi's sudden
attack, but where could it be? She searched everywhere, then, finally
found it.
She pulled it out and books came tumbling down. Luna looked up to see if Usagi
was awaken, thankfully, she wasn't. Luna flipped the folder open and diligently
read the words, as she went down the paper, her eyes became wider and wider. She
looked at Usagi, pitying her charge and feeling helpless as sadness evaded her
heart.
"Usagi-chan." Luna whispered sadly as the wind carried her words into the open
air as the moon hung above the dark blue sky.
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