Chapter 250

Gear Up

Vanna asked her not to mention it but Allison felt it was her obligation to Vanna to do so. She wanted to spend time with her parents and that put distance between her and Vanna and all the resulting problems. She loved Vanna. She knew they would always be together, even through the rough spots. No matter how many others they may each share with, they both knew they would always come back to each other.

Allison informed Cameron that Vanna was lonely with her living at the Young residence with Holly. She pointed out that Jesse was with Gail. She wanted to make it as clear as possible to Cameron.

"I have Holly and Jesse has Gail, Cameron." Allison said. "Vanna needs 'more'. I want her to have what she wants. I'm asking you to help her."

Cameron was worried about Vanna being lonely. She knew what loneliness could do to someone. Vanna was the first one to love her knowing what she was. She loved Vanna. She loved Vanna even more for loving her. She could offer immediate 'help' to Vanna.

"I will send back Hanna, Ally or Sheila immediately." Cameron said. "Do you know which one she would prefer? I think it will be Ally."

Allison knew that Ally would be just like her, almost. She wanted something better for Vanna. She wanted 'a version' of Cameron for Vanna. She would 'hint' further to see what came up.

"I don't know." Allison said. "Do you have any others?"

Cameron did not say anything at first.

Allison waited. She was sure now that there was something more.

"Maybe." Cameron said.

"Maybe?" Allison asked.

Cameron was unsure if she really lived her life over and over. If she did there were more of her.

"There may be more of 'myself' somewhere in New Mexico." Cameron said.

Allison instantly perked up.

"What?" Allison asked. "Where? How?"

Cameron decided to lay it out. She'd hinted at such a possibility before.

"I think I have lived this life, my life, multiple times. I think I stay with John until he dies then go back and replace myself in 1999. I believe I reset my chip to that time period and then relive my life over again. Certain files stay hidden until I need them. I believe River has helped me with this." Cameron said. "I do not know for sure."

The concept was wild to Allison.

"So you've done this over and over?" Allison asked. "Does anything change?"

"I don't think so. I believe River has encrypted certain events to keep me from altering the past or future. That is why the TDE will not work into the past now." Cameron said. "I would have gone back and changed things again. Your death being one of them."

Allison swallowed hard when Cameron mentioned that. She knew Cameron meant Duplicate Allison's death but it was still unsettling. She could tell that Cameron was serious about attempting to rescue her Duplicate self that was killed. There could be two of her! She wanted to make sure.

"So there could be two of me at the same time and both are actually ME?" Allison asked. "That would help Vanna out big time. It would be kind of hot too."

Allison didn't say it but she would want to 'share' with Duplicate Allison at least one time to 'see' what she was like to others. That would be Hot.

Cameron wanted to point out there was Future Allison and Young Allison but Duplicate Allison really was Allison.

"Yes." Cameron said. "That version of you also carries John's baby, YOUR baby. I'm going to get you - her back. I swear it. I'm working on my own TDE. I have Sheila working on the programming so I'm not involved with it. I've been on Holly's chip so Hanna and Ally are not to touch it. I don't want the encryption on it as well. I'm going to do this."

Allison could see that Cameron was serious. That opened the door a little further for other possibilities. This was something to explore more.

"What about that version of Vanna and Jesse?" Allison asked.

Allison would not mind having the 'extra' Jesse for herself or her 'own' Vanna.

"I don't know. I'll try to save them as well." Cameron said. "Your Duplicates all died trying to help me, even if it was actually Duplicate Cameron. I can't live with that forever. I MUST correct that problem."

Cameron knew the girls would all do the same thing for her and would all pay the same price. It made her feel toxic in a way. That was love to die for on all of their parts. That was why the Duplicate girls died. They did because they loved her. Duplicate Cameron was her. She posses all of those files. Everything was identical until the TDE incident that created the Duplicates.

Allison noted Cameron's left hand began to glitch violently. She wondered if it was out of the guilt Cameron felt for their Duplicate selves' deaths and the baby's termination.

She knew it was the baby that Cameron wanted because it was John's baby.

Allison came to comfort Cameron. As soon as Allison took Cameron's left hand it stopped glitching.

"We love you, Cameron. That is why we did it. We would all do it again." Allison said. "I know it wasn't actually me but I would have done the same thing. I still would do the same thing too. I know we all would. We all love you."

That was what Cameron feared. Love kills or it can anyway.

"I know." Cameron said. "THAT is what tortures me. I'm not worth your lives. YOU and them belong at John's side, not me. I am the aberration to time. I can't live with your deaths 'forever'."

Cameron knew forever was a long time.

Allison did not believe Cameron was an 'aberration' for one second. Cameron was what held everything together. Cameron made it all happen. She wanted to set Cameron straight.

"If that were really the case, Cameron, that you were an aberration to time, you would not be at John's side through multiple lifetimes or timelines." Allison said. "Think about it. You are there every time."

Every free moment Cameron had was filled with those very thoughts and ways to 'fix' everything.

"I have, Allison." Cameron said. "I have thought of it trillions and trillions of times. Everything that has happened or will happen is all I think about. I do that almost every second of everyday."

Allison could see the torment on Cameron's face and hear it in her voice. No wonder she did such extreme acts at times.

"It sounds painful." Allison said. "I'm sorry about all of that for you."

Cameron never wanted anyone else to feel remorse, guilt, pain and torment like that.

"It is, Allison." Cameron said. "It is. I don't sleep. You have no idea…."

Allison held Cameron's hand tighter as she felt it start to glitch again. She wanted to kiss Cameron and hold her. She wanted to share Cameron's pain. She wanted to share her love with Cameron.

Later on:

John, Cameron and John Henry gathered all the final intel on the target. The strike was set.

The group was gathered and ready to go.

"Gear up." John said.

Against Cameron's protests, John would lead the strike anyway.

Cameron was going to pull a fast one on John. She assigned Ally and Hanna to accompany John along with Bob.

John looked at Ally and Hanna and didn't know they weren't Allison and Vanna. That caused him some concern for their safety.

"Allison and Vanna don't need to accompany me." John said.

Cameron looked at Ally and Hanna and smiled.

"They want to." Cameron said. "They're Resistance fighters too."

Cameron told Ally and Hanna to operate in full infiltration mode. They possessed many of the 'memories' of Allison and Vanna. They were the perfect infiltrators. She felt they were better than her all around for infiltration. They could be playful and happy as well as sexual. Everything they did seemed very natural. Without trying they did it better than she could, all of it. She was proud of her creations.

Bob noticed it was not Allison and Vanna. He was going to point that out to John.

Cameron quickly looked at Bob with a hard stare. He looked away and said nothing. He knew John was the most important thing to the future. He was aware that Cameron wanted more Metal around John. John would protest if there were too many Terminators around him. This way he wouldn't know. He wanted to see how good the Metal girls were as infiltrators and Terminators.

Everyone put on their body armor and the rest of their gear. They headed out in two vehicles. Derek would lead the second team of Jesse, Gail and Steve. Cameron would reinforce whichever team was necessary or act a third force as needed. Jesse also seemed unaware Hanna and Ally were not actually Vanna and Allison. They did some playful banter. Gail looked at them but refrained from commenting.

Each Team would have a drone at their disposal. This would be a night raid. They usually did not have direct air support.

John Henry made sure the helicopter was ready and it was on standby. If needed, it would arrive with a force of five more Terminators and Kyle as team leader.

At the base Savannah watched Jan with Sarah.

Savannah learned everything about the Resistance operation. She was great around younger ones too. She wanted to learn and know 'everything'.

She liked to go visit Young Allison and Summer as well. She knew in the event of Judgment Day that Young Allison and her would be together. Summer and Jan would also be with them. As the oldest of the youngest, she would be the team leader for the girls. As Cameron mentored her she would mentor Jan and the Young sisters as well. She made sure that Young Allison and Summer knew their 'place' in the future. She KNEW her role and function. The Young sisters would also. The 'Natural Order' would not be disrupted. She looked at her naked body everyday in the mirror when she took her shower. She awaited the day she would be able to provide Cameron what she promised her. She planned to do that as soon as she was physically able to do so.

"When can I start advanced weapons training?" Savannah asked. "Cameron has already taken me several times for small arms training."

Sarah looked Savannah over and cringed a little. She did understand the girls needed to be ready for the future. She was well aware of what happened to the girls from the future at a much younger age than Savannah was now. She needed to protect her daughter too from that abuse.

"I'm sure she has." Sarah said. "Have you done any explosives training?"

Savannah looked forward to that. She needed to learn to be a fighter.

"Not yet. Cameron said I would do that soon." Savannah said. "I need to learn as much as I can to be ready to fight Skynet."

Sarah knew that was her life now and her son's life. She didn't want that to be Savannah's or Jan's life. Maybe it was unavoidable. Savannah should want to do the things she did at that age.

"Don't you want to do girl stuff or young woman things instead?" Sarah asked. "Like dress up and use makeup and to 'go out'?"

Savannah was not around other females of her age often. Vanna kept a tight watch on her when she was with her. She would not allow any males to get near her. She saw there were times when Vanna was ready to draw her weapon and use it if any men got too close. Allison and Jesse backed her up if they were around. Cameron did not want her isolated like the girls from the future did. She was aware that Sarah didn't want her isolated either.

"Sometimes I do but I already know my future. Cameron has allowed me to experiment and taught me about all of those things. My destiny and the future of mankind narrows the path I will follow. I embrace the future with what and who it has to offer me…. I already know what I want." Savannah said as she looked at a photo of John in Sarah's room. "I look forward to it everyday…."

Sarah cringed a little more at that last part. She understood that was what Future John wanted for John. Cameron seemed to be on board with it and actively 'push' it. She just didn't want Cameron to have Savannah in John's bed for a few more years, at least. She wanted Savannah to have a little bit of teenage life first. She worried about Cameron 'taking' a child away from Savannah. That would leave some kind of an emotional scar on Savannah. She felt that no matter how much Cameron 'groomed', 'conditioned' or 'brain washed' her that Savannah would not want to give up a child she carried for nine months. She figured Savannah would do that because she loved Cameron but she also thought Savannah would regret it for the rest of her life.

Savannah glanced in the mirror. She knew she wasn't a girl anymore. Her body already started to fill out. She was more than 'ready'. She could feel it. Her body 'told her' she was ready. Cameron said her body would 'tell her' when she was 'ready'.

'I'm more 'ready' than they think. I'm a big girl now. My body is ready. My mind is ready. I'm READY.' Savannah thought.

Savannah felt Cameron prepared her well. Cameron told her about what she saw in school with the other students. Cameron did not leave out any details. She knew what the other girls her age were doing and she wanted that too…. If she was in school like they were then that was what she would be doing too. She'd looked at everything on the internet. She watched the videos and looked at the photos. She was ready for all of that. She was different than the other girls were in one respect. She had a specific goal and a purpose. Cameron often reminded her of it and listened to her promises with a smile on her face as she scanned her.

Savannah was aware when she looked at the images that she liked to look at the girls and the girls together with other girls more than the girls with the guys…. She didn't tell Cameron that. She tried to be with Allison and Jesse whenever she could. She wondered if they understood what she 'wanted'.

Is It...

Is it a crime to want to love
To share feelings and emotion
Not some worthless sexual encounter
But to share the hearts true devotion

Is it a sin to want to love
Minds touching in deepest thought
Pain and loneliness pushed aside
Pure true love can never be bought

Is it wicked to want to love
To exchange desires and feel passion
To understand the damage to a mind
Giving strength and expressing compassion

Is it evil to want to love
With someone who knows your pain
Who knows the same hurt and shame
Knowing the beauty within your brain

Is it sinister to want to love
Eyes sending love without needing to speak
Two hands touching the fingers communicate
That is true pure love that's strong not weak

Is it ugly to want to love
The true beauty is the person within
The good, the bad and the ugly in us
Something deeper than the outer skin

Is it horrible to want to love
To share the feeling of a "normal" life
We have the desire and ability
Damaged and afraid we exist in strife

Is it atrocious to want to love
With someone different but yet the same
For without love, feeling and sharing
It is simply time to end life's cruel game

Nobody

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Nobody

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