Chapter 7
I never thought that this would be my end. I never thought I would end up like this, defeated, exhausted from fighting, surrendered to reality, to my enemy. I don't have the strength to continue, and the worst thing is that I can't understand how I could have ended up this way. My team has fled, and they have abandoned me with the worst enemy we have ever faced, he has weapons for which we are not prepared, strategies that we could not even imagine, we were not prepared for something like this, we were left defenceless before him, my years as a search engine and as a private detective they did not serve me before these abilities.
Luckily, I still had one last trick left, someone who had abilities, strategies, powers greater than mine. However, it was too late for me, I was finished, defeated, and without hope, I have no strength to get up or to continue, I can only stay here and hope that my trick is able to save us all from this evil.
-Dante, stop being so melodramatic. If you want to take a nap, go to bed, do not occupy an entire sofa.
And there is my saviour, scolding me for letting me die on my couch, I sat up on my elbows so I could look at him. He held Lok, rocked him gently while he fed him his bottle and whispered to him to keep him calm.
When I called Mezt he told me not to worry about him, that he would help me, and that all I had to do was try to calm him down and keep him calm, needless to say I was not able to do that. Lok spent the whole time crying, I rocked him, talked to him, tried to distract him with toys, tried to read and even made him another bottle, but nothing helped, Lok just cried and cried inconsolably, and there was no way to calm him down.
Mezt arrived an hour later, I did not ask where he had come from, or how he had arrived in Venice, I just stayed there, dishevelled, heartbroken, with drool and baby tears everywhere, at that point I wanted to cry too. Mezt took Lok and took care of everything, getting him to calm down effortlessly, reheated the bottle and gave it to him. As soon as Mezt took Lok, I fell on the sofa and waited for my time to come and to end my suffering.
Slowly and with a groan I sat on the sofa leaning my head on the back, Mezt sat next to me, put the empty bottle on the table and settled down to rock Lok again, he is more asleep than awake, but still he turned to look at me and ask me to hold him while he sucked his thumb. I stayed still hating him with all my being, was he really so evil? Despite looking like a statue, Mezt picked him up and sat him on my lap, I couldn't help but wrap my arms around him and hug him to my chest. I saw him fall asleep sucking his thumb and hugging his stuffed animal, I placed him better so that he was more comfortable, I laid my head back and closed my eyes.
-How did you get there so fast?
-I never left, I knew you were going to need me.
-I hate you more than before.- I said sleepily
-I knows.
-Where's the sucker?
-I do not know.
-Mmmmm, look for her and find her.
I was awakened by the reflection of a flash, instinctively I squeezed Lok a little tighter in the hug to protect him from whatever it was, I blinked a little to clear my vision. I raised my head from where he had supported it on the back of the sofa, I groaned at the pain in my neck, it must not have been good to sleep in that position, I just hoped it had no long-term effects. Zhalia was standing in front of me, she was holding her cell phone with a smile.
-And send.
I looked at her with a frown, this was not something to drive when I got up, but more for two hours after I got up. I looked at Lok worriedly, I sighed relieved to see that he was still asleep, the flash had not awakened him like me. Zhalia sat next to me still looking at the phone, she was still smiling, it was good to see her smile, even if she was at my expense, her smile was not something she had seen in a while.
-Where's Mezt?
-In the kitchen, he's making some tea.
-When did you come back?
-Recently.
-And what did the photo come to?
-For the boys. You were very cute asleep like that with Lok.- Zhalia looked at Lok, she seemed to be looking at him with affection- He looks like a little angel when he sleeps.
-Yes. But he's a little angel most of the time, you just haven't had a chance to see him.
-It's a crying baby and makes a lot of mess.
Mezt came in with a tray of tea and some cookies, sat down opposite and with a smile he began to serve Zhalia and me. I wanted to get up and slap that smile off him, but I still had Lok on top of me, and if I moved, he would wake up, and I didn't want the fuss to come back, I liked the peace in the house, and I would like it to last a little more.
When the tea was served, the cookies were on the table and Mezt was comfortable I knew, from that stupid smile on Mezt's face, that he was going to have a conversation of the unpleasant ones for me.
-Well, it's nice to see you well together. It's funny seeing you like this.
-Like this, how?- It was a miracle that Zhalia was not suspicious.
-Mezt, to the point.
-It's okay. With which I have spoken with each one of you, and with Lok.
-Lok hardly speaks.
-I know, but with what you have told me about how he behaves and his behavior, I have reached a conclusion and I know how to remedy it.
-Taking him too far so that we don't hear him crying?
-Zhalia, no one will take Lok away.
-Dante is right. Just look at how he clings to it, you would have to kill him or break his arms to be able to take him away. -Zhalia burst into laughter, and I frowned annoyed.
-We still don't get to the point, and Lok won't always fall asleep.
-OK - Mezt calmed down and took a sip of his tea-he thought Lok is not comfortable in Venice. Germany probably reminded him of Ireland and he felt comfortable, but coming to Venice has been a very big change.
-I had already reached that conclusion, Mezt. Do you have something new?
-Yes, if you let me finish I'll tell you.- I made a sign for him to continue- And he hates Zhalia.
Silence fell, Zhalia seemed surprised, although I don't blame her, I was also a little puzzled, but then I started to connect the dots and what Mezt said made sense, Lok's behaviour worsened as soon as Zhalia and I returned home, but it got better with Sophie and it got worse again the moment they were in the same room.
Lok woke up with a groan and rubbing his eyes, he blinked a little and began to protest and moan. I rolled my eyes, got up and rocked Lok a little so he wouldn't cry. I had to go up to his room to put a clean diaper on him, and to escape the conversation that was coming, I did not feel like being there, and I think Lok wanted so little and that is why he woke up at the right time, to give me an excuse to run away. I finished dressing Lok and he seemed happier and a lot less whiny, although it would probably only last until he saw Zhalia, if what Mezt said was true.
-It seems to you if we hide for a while here.
Lok looked very pleased as he hugged him and gently rocked him around the room, as he was always hugging his dragon, he had his head resting on my shoulder and I felt his other hand grabbing and releasing my shirt sleeve. I ran my hand down his tiny back to keep him calm, I couldn't help but rub my cheek against his little head, his hair was very soft, but he no longer smelled like baby shampoo, I liked the way he smelled, it was soft and fresh, I wanted him to go back to smell like that, if I'm not mistaken, he thought that the same brand of shampoo has baby colognes, I should buy it from him.
Shopping list
-Hitch for the pacifier
-Vacuum cleaner
-Children's cologne
Lok seemed calm and in no rush to cry again, I don't know what Mezt had put in his bottle, but he wanted more, he wanted him to remain this adorable all the time, but he knew he had to come down soon because if not Mezt, or Worse still, Zhalia, she would come looking for me and probably in a bad mood and spoil this wonderful peace. I went down again, and I found an unpleasant panorama that would have consequences for me. Zhalia was with her arms crossed, her brow and lips pursed and sunk in the cushions, she was very upset.
-Mezt, where is Lok's pacifier
-What sucks?
-The one I had when you arrived, the one you lost and the one I told you to seek and find.
-Yes ... I haven't found it.
-Mezt! That thing keeps him calm, I need it to keep my sanity.
-Yeah…, but I don't think I'll find her anytime soon. I've been looking for it while you and Lok were taking a nap and I haven't found it.
-And what do you suggest I do?
-That you buy another. Well, actually I recommend that you buy several, it is always good to have them as a spare, and even more so if he is dedicated to throwing them when he gets bored.
I glared at Mezt and it seemed like Lok was just as upset that I had lost his pacifier, and his stupid solution was to buy more pacifiers, something else for the shopping list. If he wanted more sucks, he would have more and he would also finance them.
Shopping list
-Hitch for the pacifier (minimum 3)
-Vacuum cleaner
-Children's cologne
- More sucks (paid for by Mezt)
Mezt got up and went to the door.
-I also advise you to remove the red bow from the pig and go for a walk and buy the things you need to make Lok a happy baby.
Mezt left closing the door, I was left alone with a annoying baby and an angry Zhalia, I am definitely dying today.
Mezt was right, again, and unsurprisingly he had no intention of telling her anything. The fresh air was good, and I loved seeing the streets of my city. It was fantastic to go back to walking next to the canals and through the streets that I know like the back of my hand. Things would be better if Zhalia didn't walk two meters ahead of me with her arms crossed and angry, on the other hand, Lok seemed to enjoy the ride watching people go by and looking at the pigeons and talking to her teddy bear. I didn't know where we were going, I just started to follow Zhalia wherever she went as she pushed the stroller, however, I looked at all the stores we were passing by, looking for a baby supply store to buy the things that we needed it for Lok and a shop where we could buy a vacuum cleaner with the right size to clean under the bookcases.
Zhalia led us to a park, this was smaller than the one she had taken to Lok yesterday, there was no playground, just a sandbox and a pond with ducks. Zhalia sat on a bench still with her arms crossed, I brought the little car to her side and unbuckled Lok and put it on the ground, but I didn't let go of her hand, she immediately started pulling towards the sandbox.
-Can you watch the little pig where I take Lok to play?
Zhalia did not answer so I took her silence as a yes, I did not make Lok wait any longer and let him run to the sandbox to play, I stayed on the edge next to him to be able to watch that he did not eat the sand, although it seemed more interested in giving it to his dragon than eating it himself.
Soon a couple with another child close to Lok's age sat on the same bench, and did the same, the boy's father brought him to the sandbox, and the mother stayed with Zhalia.
The man was tall and strong, had black hair and a little beard, wore a lumberjack shirt and jeans with a couple of holes and light brown boots. The boy had black hair like his father, he seemed a bit rough, I was worried that he would hit Lok, he would have to watch out. The children began to play without any problem, all he had to do was make sure everything went well. The man's wife had started a conversation with Zhalia, I was a little sad, although I didn't know who of the two, Zhalia was not a very good conversationalist and the lady was doing all the work, and obviously Zhalia was not happy with the idea of socializing. She believed that I had saved myself from having one of those uncomfortable conversations, she did not understand the need for children's parents to engage in meaningless conversations with other parents, but how could it be otherwise, I was wrong.
-Well, jeje, what a cute boy.
-eh…, thank you. How old is your son?
-Next month he turns two years old. And yours?, He seems smaller.
-Yes, he's one year old.
-Seriously?! Well, he's a dwarf- Wow, how nice the man- His name is Dylan.
-He is Lok
-Hey, don't take it the wrong way, but your son doesn't look much like you, actually, he doesn't look like you at all- was he really hinting at something like that? -Are you sure he's a son? of yours?
He was angry, you could see that the man did not have many lights, or education, but, I think he had crossed the line, okay, Lok was not my son, and therefore we do not have any resemblance, but this man did not have any The right to comment on it and suggest that Zhalia was cheating on me, that was something of another calibre. I looked over my shoulder to see Zhalia, he had an unfriendly face, so I assumed he was doing no better than me. I decided to break the schemes of the personification of rudeness and get this over with as soon as possible.
-Lok is adopted.
The man made a wonderful face, the shame was perfectly clear in his expression, the man had gotten into a mess and did not know how to get out. I stared at the man with a smile, I was waiting to see what answer he came up with, but we were both startled when we heard a cry, we looked at the children, Lok was the one who was crying while rubbing his eyes, Dylan had thrown sand at him In the eyes. Zhalia and Dylan's mother came running over, I pulled Lok out of the sandbox and sat him on my lap. Zhalia had brought a cloth handkerchief that she had moistened, I immobilized Lok gently so that he did not touch his eyes and that Zhalia could wipe them. The woman kept apologizing over and over again, the man scolding Dylan and while they both did that the woman scold him for being careless. We said goodbye coldly and went to look for the little car where we had left it, we left without looking at the couple.
We were walking along one of the paths bordering the pond to get out of the park, Zhalia was pushing the stroller while I was still carrying Lok to keep him calm.
-Duck!-Lok pointed at the animated ducks, he began to bounce in my arms very insistently. -Duck! Duck! Duck!
-Yes Lok, they are ducks, like the ones in the bathtub.-Then I looked at Zhalia-I think we're going to have to go see the ducks.
-Already knew. Actually, I thought that would be the thing that would catch his eye.
Zhalia and I sat on the grass near the pond, I left Lok on the ground, but I was holding him around the waist so he wouldn't fall into the water, he jumped up and down while pointing to all the ducks he saw and laughed every time one was approaching us.
-How about the lady?
-Great, Luisa and I came to the conclusion that men are idiots.
-Definitely her husband was.
-What was his name?
-No idea, he didn't interest me. His son's name is Dylan.
-I know. God, as soon as he sat down he went "Dylan this", "Dylan that" and blah blah blah.
-A proud mother of her son.
-His intention of him was to make friends with us to make dates of games.
-Doesn't sound bad, so you can throw more sand at Lok.
- How about you with the woodcutter?
-Great, she said that Lok was a dwarf and hinted that you were unfaithful because Lok didn't look like me.
-How nice.- Zhalia seemed uncomfortable with the direction of the conversation.
-I told him that Lok was adopted and almost died.
-Good.
Zhalia snuggled in a little more and rested her head on my shoulder. My heart started pounding so hard I thought it was going to break out of my chest. We stayed like this for a while, Lok looking at ducks and us looking at Lok having a good time. Everything seemed so perfect, for a few minutes there was no anger, no pain, no resentment, just us enjoying the laughter of a baby and everything was fantastic, it was like a dream, one that I had never dreamed of, but from which I did not want to wake up. However, Lok couldn't stay in this form forever, it was only a matter of time before they found a solution, and the rumour spread, and therefore the Organization found out, and Zhalia would get mad at me again and everything will be a disaster again, but hey, I'll try to enjoy for now.
We spent a long time like this, until Zhalia broke away from me to stretch and stand up.
-We'd see us go, we still have to buy a couple of things- Zhalia dusted off her pants to brush off the weed- There is a store specializing in baby things a block from here.
I woke up annoyed, my dream had just been spoiled, although Zhalia did not seem in such a bad mood, she looked more relaxed. To Lok's protest she put him in the stroller, but she got over it as soon as she saw more ducks. I couldn't help but wonder if this was all I needed to keep Lok cool, ducks, the solution to my problems, amazing.
I pushed the stroller again while Zhalia led us. Once on the correct street it was not difficult to find out where it was, it was a huge store with a large window where they showed various products such as cars and baby carriers, who needs a leopard or zebra baby carrier? It had a neon sign with the word Luna written in capital letters above the window, and above the door a circular sign with a sleeping crescent with a smiling face and a nightcap. Anyway, without a doubt here he would find the things we need for Lok.
Shopping list
-Hitch for the pacifier (minimum 3)
-Vacuum cleaner
-Children's cologne
-More sucks (paid for by Mezt)
We walked into the store, I froze at how big it was. He was used to the little store in the shopping center in Germany, that store was already big, but this one, this looked like an industrial warehouse, I just hoped Lok didn't want another stuffed animal. Unlike me, Zhalia knew exactly where to go, she took a basket and led me through the store to the specific aisles where the things we needed were found.
The pacifier and the hooks were in the same aisle, Zhalia took three hooks and a random pair of pacifier, but I did not agree.
-What are you doing?
-Catch the things we need.
-Yes, but the suckers are bland and the hooks don't match.
-You're kidding?
-Do not
Leave the pacifier in place, but look at them hooks, I decided that the hook with the sky-blue chain and bears on the clip was a good idea, then look for the pacifier that went in that set. The other two hitches had ugly or scary pictures. Zhalia took a white and blue pacifier and took it with the excuse of going to look at something, I kept choosing the pacifier that Mezt was going to buy. After a while choosing, I ended up with a white peg with a yellow duckling and a pastel yellow chain and a matching liner, a red liner with a ship, and a red liner, with this and the liner that Zhalia had taken, she hoped it would be enough. It was a bit disappointing not to find a pacifier like the one that Mezt lost, navy blue and white with stars, I guess I'll have to look for it until I find it.
Shopping list
-Hitch for the pacifier (minimum 3)
-Vacuum cleaner
-Children's cologne
- More sucks (paid for by Mezt)
When I finished with the sweater, I went through the corridors looking for the cologne I wanted for Lok, I don't know how I did it, but I ended up twice in the corridor of the stuffed animals, a corridor that I wanted to avoid at all costs, Lok already had a stuffed animal that he carried to everyone sides, and which, by the way, was now full of sand and that she had to wash, and she didn't want another stuffed animal to carry around. After a while I had no choice but to give up, I was unable to find what I was looking for and on top of that I had lost myself, I had ended up in the baby sportswear aisle, what baby needs a headband to run?, or even worse, some Nike tennis shoes, I did not know they were made in this size.
Luckily for me, my guardian angel found me. Zhalia came down the corridor a bit hurried, apparently, she had been looking for me in the corridors for a while. I told Zhalia about my odyssey to find a baby cologne and she laughed at me when I told her that I was lost in the store, although in my defence it was not a normal store, it was a store monster. Zhalia left the pacifier that she had bought in the basket, and she told me to follow her to the corresponding aisle. As she turned her back on me, I took the opportunity to look at the jpacifier that Zhalia had taken, she did not have the normal package of the rest of the bags, nor the package with which Zhalia took it. It had a slightly more sophisticated packaging, and it did not allow to see the contents, so I could not see that it had that special pacifier.
Since I couldn't see what Zhalia had done with the lollipop, I just followed her through the corridors, Zhalia knew exactly where to go, in the blink of an eye we were in the right corridor, a corridor full of shampoos, gels, colognes, and more products that I didn't know a baby could need, hair and body care products that not even Sophie used. There were brands of all kinds, from super luxurious brands to brands that I had not seen in my life, but that were disproportionately priced. Luckily, it didn't take long for us to find the cologne I was looking for, the Nenuco brand of baby cologne, just like the bath products, it had a very fresh smell and I loved it.
Shopping list
-Hitch for the lollipop (minimum 3)
-Vacuum cleaner
-Children's cologne
- More sucks (paid for by Mezt)
Now that she finally had everything we went to the checkout, Mezt paid for the sucks (without her knowledge), except for the one Zhalia had chosen, she insisted on paying for it herself, she said it was a gift for Lok, to bury the hatchet, and I pay the rest. I hung the bag from the handlebar of the stroller, and we left the store, I still did not feel like going home, because I was afraid that if we did it, the madness of this morning would return, so I decided to lengthen the walk a little more and walk another block. When we turned the corner I froze, there was Zhalia's favourite pastry, the gears in my head began to turn, and I understood everything, the park, the baby store and now the pastry shop, it was exactly what Zhalia had done for the tomorrow, if he cared about Lok.
I didn't bother to say anything, I just went to the pastry shop, Zhalia didn't object. We sat at one of the tables on the terrace, I left Zhalia with Lok while I went to order inside and get a highchair. At first, she was only going to order a couple of coffees, but I noticed that they had mini chocolate cookies, and I thought Lok would like them, they were also the perfect size, so I ordered a box of ten of those cookies. I went back to the table and put the highchair between us and put the stroller aside, leaving the bag with his things within reach. Our order arrived quickly, Lok was very happy when I gave him one of the cookies, although I had to be careful not to give him too many since later he had to take the bottle, and I did not want him to lose his hunger now and wake up in the middle of the night demanding his milk. Zhalia and I took some of the cookies to have with our coffee.
-Thanks
-By?
-You spent your morning looking at things for Lok. The park with the ducks and the baby shop where you knew where to find everything… I doubt very much that it was what you wanted to do in your morning after Lok ruined it.
-Well, I was very angry, at first, but after breakfast I thought that, if we reversed the situation, and it would have been any other member of the team who would have seen himself in ... this condition-Zhalia emphasized her comment pointing to Lok from above to low- Lok would have gone out of his way to help and treat us well. I just thought he might try to help her a little.
-Thank you very much for that. I think Lok had a good time this afternoon- Lok asked me for another cookie and I gave it to him- How did you know he would like ducks?
-I saw the family of ducks in the bathroom, and if I'm not mistaken you have bought them a sucker with ducks. -The last part I emphasize with an all accusing but fun
-I thought she was cute.
I would defend my decision to suck it and suck it until I died, she was cute. Zhalia laughed a bit at my defence, and I felt the happiest person in the world, she had made her laugh, I had made her laugh. After giving Lok his fourth cookie, I decided it was not good for him to eat more, a decision he disagreed with and showed her disapproval with the start of a tantrum. Zhalia left her half-eaten cookie on the coffee plate and asked me to give her the grocery bag, when she had it in her hands, she looked very excited. He took out the package that he had bought from Lok, the secret sucker, as I had decided to call it in my mind, he returned the bag to me, told me that it was the solution to the problem and opened the package taking out the pacifier, as soon as Lok saw it he forgot of the cookies and asked Zhalia for it while opening her mouth adorably, and she gladly put it in her mouth, Lok sat quietly in the highchair sucking on his new lollipop and forgot about the cookies and protesting. Zhalia was laughing at me for buying her a jpacifier and a duck hitch, but she had had her name put on the pacifier in light blue letters. I took the moment to take out the azure blue hook and put it on, Lok did not seem to realize that now he could not throw the suckers where he wants him to. He had to admit that he looked super cute with the pacifier with her name on it and the bear hitch as he hugged her dragon.
When we finished the coffees and cookie,s I put Lok back in the stroller and we went home, Lok's bedtime was approaching and I had to give him a bath and dinner, and I wanted to take advantage of him while he was sleeping to wash and dry the stuffed animal and have it tomorrow morning. Once at home, Zhalia did not hesitate to sit on the sofa and forget that there were things to do, I took Lok out of the car and went upstairs to bathe him, I wanted Zhalia to make dinner, but I knew she would say no, for what occurred to me to give you options
-Zhalia I propose two options, option a) is that you bathe Lok, put his pyjamas on and give him dinner while I choke dinner, prepare the bottle and set the table, and option b) is that I Lok and you order the dinner.- Emphasize all the things that had to be done with Lok so that he would refuse. Zhalia made a charming face of disgust.
-And if you do everything and I looked? - I looked at her very seriously- Okay, I have dinner and your Lok, I remind you that I do not change diapers.
I went up to the bathroom and started to fill the bathtub while I undressed Lok, I put him inside the bathtub along with the family of ducklings. As he had already bathed Lok today, he did not need to give him a thorough bath, mainly he had to clean his hands, but that did not mean that Lok could not enjoy his bath time, one of his favourite times of his day. . I wrapped Lok in one of his towels and left the bathroom after removing the plug from the bathtub. Before going to his room to put on his diaper and pyjamas, I went downstairs again and took out the cologne that I had bought from the bag, which I was still in the car. I was very excited to be able to use it. Lok started to fall asleep while I put his pyjamas on, but that did not deter me from using the cologne, it made me want more, I poured some into my hand and stroked his hair and little body while he was still lying on the changing table.
I picked it up and placed it on my hip, I couldn't help but smell her hair to be able to enjoy the soft aroma, I came down smiling, enjoying how calm Lok was with his pacifier and his dragon, he was more asleep than awake while resting his head on my shoulder. In the kitchen, Zhalia was warming up the leftover fajitas and had set the table. I went to the counter to get the bottle that Zhalia had prepared, it had the ideal temperature, and thank goodness, because when Lok saw the bottle he took out his sucker and wanted to put it in his mouth, less more than I had the idea of putting the hook on the pyjamas because otherwise the pacifier would have ended up in the garbage disposal, I had to get rid of the habit of throwing the pacifier as soon as possible. I noticed that Zhalia was looking at us from her place at the table, I sat down with Lok on my lap and we began to serve ourselves dinner, I had not yet perfected the technique of eating with one hand, so I had to wait for Lok to finish. have dinner so I can put him to bed and have dinner myself.
-What's cute?
-If you say it.
-Come on, you have to admit that it is very cute.
-It's a baby, crying, drooling, screaming and wearing diapers, nothing that does that can be cute.
-Lok yes.
Zhalia rolled her eyes and began to eat dinner. Lok wasted no time in finishing the bottle, and as soon as I took it out of his hands to put it on the table, he had already fallen asleep, I apologized to Zhalia for having to get up from the table, but I needed to put Lok in the crib to be able to have a normal meal, without screaming and eating with both hands.
After dinner between the two of us we picked up and cleaned everything. I told Zhalia to choose a movie where I was going to steal Lok's stuffed animal and put it in the washing machine, I had to do it as soon as possible so I could put it in the dryer as soon as possible and have it the next morning. I felt like Indiana Jones when I stole the statuette from the temple when I took the stuffed animal out of Lok's mortal embrace, the rest was cooking and singing, although I was surprised to find a new fabric softener, an extra soft one, courtesy of Mezt for the red bow. I took the opportunity to wash the clothes that had been stained this morning by Lok, including Sophie's shirt. When I finished with the washing machine I would go back to the living room, Zhalia was waiting for me with a smile to watch the movie, and I just had to sit and enjoy the rest of the night.
Shopping list
-Vacuum cleaner
Mini-Lok Rules:
1.- Never separate him from his dragon stuffed animal.
2.- Don't yell in his presence, he doesn't like people who yell.